so i'm just gonna close my eyes and post

the first time i fall for you,
i am seven.
i see the punch coming too late to stop it,
but i can keep you out of the way. 
i can let it hit my shoulder.
i can be the one who falls on the scratchy pavement. 

i wish my knuckles weren’t so bloody, 
but your lips are split and your nose is bleeding,
and you are still smiling at me,
so it doesn’t matter, really. 

the second time i fall for you,
i am sixteen. 
i see the heartache coming too late to stop it, 
but i can keep you out of the way. 
i can let it hit me in the gut. 
i can be the one who falls with my heart in my throat.  

i wish my blood wasn’t beating so hot, 
but your eyes are warm and bright and happy, 
and you are still laughing with me, 
so it doesn’t matter, really. 

the last time i fall for you,
i am twenty-three.
i see the shot coming too late to stop it,
but i can keep you out of the way.
i can let it hit the shield in my hands.
i can be the one who falls out the broken train.

i wish your fingers didn’t wrap so easy round a trigger
but my fingers are calloused in all the wrong places,
and you are still reaching for me,
so it doesn’t matter, really. 

it feels just the same every time–
slow, sudden, breathtaking:
     all i can hear is my pulse screaming in my ears
     all i can see is your eyes as they watch me
     all i can do is close my eyes and hope
     the landing won’t hurt as much as they say

—  i’m afraid this fall just might kill me ( j.p. )

anonymous asked:

Which free Hero you gonna get?