I’m not quite sure who to address this letter to, so I’ll just jump right into it.
Three years ago, my birthcontrol failed and I became pregnant. I didn’t feel like I was in the right place at the time to care for a baby, so I ended up having an abortion.
My boyfriend and I have been discussing it, and we’re ready to have a baby. We want it. A little over a month ago I started half-ass taking my birthcontrol that I’ve been on for seven years. Three weeks ago I stopped all together and I’ve been having symptoms of being pregnant. I felt very similar to how I did last time I was pregnant.
Honestly, I became terrified that I might actually be pregnant. Yesterday, I was googling some information and now I’m not so positive anymore. My pregnancy symptoms can just be side affects from coming off the birthcontrol.
Everything feels very dull and dark now. I truly thought I was, I was so happy and ready for this part of my life. I was already dreaming about you, my sunshine.
I’m too scared to take a test yet because I’m not ready to know if it’s bad news.
-Hoping for the best, Emily