so i gave up*

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“Since the invention of the kiss, there have been five kisses that have been rated the most passionate, the most pure - this one left them all behind.”

one year since the most magical first kiss of all time (march 29, 2016)

@avistella

Alright, so we know that from my previous terrible drawing I can’t draw anime to save my life, so I went for a more realistic approach this time, and eh, I think I like it better.

Ok, all I know about you is that you have black hair and glasses and apparently no bun so if this looks nothing like you “OTL

I planned to upload it yesterday but things got in the way so happy belated…?

i love flowers nd plants so much but i always end up killing them nd I feel so bad so i gave up growing them nd now just look at others’ plants w heart eyes

Been out on a boat for a day and got inspired to make a cool dolphin buddy! He’s based off the dolphin Patches (look them up, they are so cute!) and I gave him a friend too (she’s a life guard)! 

I should probably say more and I was gonna do some sketch stuff with them but I’m still pretty wiped out and I still feel like I’m rocking despite being off the boat for like 8 hours so goodnight everyone, I might update this in the morning but for now I hope you guys enjoy!

thank you. thank you for being the way you are. you are one of the most strongest girl i’ve ever met. thank you for being straightforward with how you felt about me, even when i knew it was hard for you. i put you through so much and i am sorry for that. i am so grateful for the things you taught me. i thought my first love taught me the most, but no. you were the best and worst thing that’s ever happened to me. i’ve never learned so much through love. words can’t explain how proud i am of you for being so strong. we gave each other up and i think that that’s what was going to happen from the start. thank you for realizing how much of a terrible person i am. all that i am, and all that i ever was is not me. this isn’t where i want to be. it never has been. i’m not the person i always thought i would be. so today i will change. and i know people can’t automatically change just like that, but i will start with being honest with myself and realizing that my heart isn’t the only heart that matters. there’s more than 8 billion beating hearts on this earth and believe it or not, i care about every single one of them. i’m done hiding being the bad parts of me. i realized that you brought out the best of me, but i didn’t realize it at the time. i understand that you hate me and you don’t want to speak to me, but you made me realize so much today. i was going to show up at your house and say all of this to you, but i thought this would be fine. i also want to thank you for making me realize what love is, and what it isn’t. i didn’t cheat on you because i didn’t love you, i cheated on you because my brain could never catch up to my heart. i was not ready for a relationship. i was not at all. i jumped in to things with you, because again, my brain could never catch up with my heart. i think you had that problem too. that’s why i get attached so fast. that’s why i fell in love when you left. that’s why i couldn’t even catch a breath while walking past you and realizing you aren’t mine anymore. that’s why you brought out every single emotion my heart couldn’t even handle. that’s why you got hurt. it’s why i got hurt, but i guess that’s just a thing that happened. you were right about everything. cheating is never okay. nobody ever cheats if they truly love someone. maybe it was a sign that we weren’t meant to be, although we didn’t realize it the first time. that’s okay though, we were young. we are young. we have nothing but time. i think i wrote this to make you realize how big of an impact you had on me, my heart, and my life. you weren’t just another girl. you never were just “another girl”. i’ll never forget you and the way you shook me to love, or shook me to pieces. i’ll never forget what i’ve learned. things aren’t always what they seem to be. there is always something there that only some can see. for now on, i will see you as a human. a human. not the girl that i once loved. not the girl that i hurt. not the girl that i cheated on. not the girl that broke my heart…. just the girl who made me find myself and where i want to be. just the girl who made me the way i am today. just the girl who i am so grateful for the time we had together and how we felt with each other in the time being. just the girl who loved me at one point. just the girl who made me feel like living wasn’t just a word. just the girl who made me want to fight for a change. a change of heart, a change of mindset, and a change of how i view others feelings, but most importantly, a change of life. Allison is changing me too. i’m falling in love with her. i made a mistake and i’ve never wanted to change more for someone. all of this change is for me, for the world, but most importantly, for her. thank you. now you’re just a stranger who had the ability to change how i think,see, and feel about the world, and the people within it. i don’t hate you. i never have. i never could, even though i wanted to with my everything, but then i think about all the times you were there for me when nobody else was in some ways. i think about how special and how delicate you are to this earth. i think about how much you really do mean to me. even if we never talk again, i will always always always care about you. i will always wonder how you’re doing, and if you’re happy. thank you for everything madison. i really meant all of this from the purest, and rawest parts of my heart and soul.

sydeeen  asked:

Why when I see your good art makes me Jealous? I mean, I tried so many times to make a Icon, But, I give up. Keep doing that good art that you're doin' and don't give up like I did! ☆

No way buster! Givin’ up is real bad. When i started out, I ‘gave up’ so many times but whenever I got back to drawing, i realised that i was actually better than i thought! Give yourself little breaks (like a day or so of not drawing) but never give up!

So I was supposed to post this like a week ago but my computer decided to break down because I have awesome luck. 

Anyways, this is based off of @parfaitperi‘s How to Train Your Dragon au which is absolutely splendid and I love it a lot so please go check it out here.

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getting some colouring practice in with some hunter husbands (。•̀ᴗ-)✧

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1000+ Followers Gift - Part 1

FINALLY! After many days and hand cramps, the first part of my followers gift is complete! I worked really hard on these and I hope you’ll like them. And w o a h 1000 followers?! That’s like a looot of people. I have no idea why anyone follows me, but to all 1000+ of you, thank you so much, it means a lot that you actually like my stuff.

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