so i feel like it needs to center around them

Public speaking is very few people’s favorite thing. It can be so terrifying to get up in front of a whole class and present your project, so here are a few tips on nailing your next speech and feeling a little less nervous while you’re at it.

i. preparing your speech

  • Start with a topic that you care about, and be sure that:
    • It’s not too general that you don’t have enough time to cover it (like ‘the history of the US’ for a five minute speech) or too specific that you will run out of material.
  • Some people talk faster when they are nervous, some people slow down. Find out which you are and plan accordingly.
  • Make several drafts, and send them to your teacher if you can.
  • Create your visual aids (PowerPoint, handouts, etc) before your final draft, so you can make changes as necessary.
  • Don’t put too much text on your slides, other wise your audience (and maybe you) will get distracted by trying to read them.
    • Stick to using slides for quick facts, statistics, and pictures.
  • Don’t use the sound effects options they have for changing slides, it will just be a distraction.
  • For a speech you’re just giving once, you probably won’t have the timing down enough to use automatic changes.
  • Don’t put too much information on one slide. Just the point you’re on, and maybe the next, will be enough to fill it if your font is as large as it should be. 
  • Make sure you have your slides saved in at least two places (typically a flash drive and your email) so that if you can’t access one you have a back up.
  • Think about what questions people might have about your topic, and be prepared to answer them. Also brush up on any opposing views if the exist so that you can address those, both in the speech and in questions.

ii. making your flashcards 

  • Write bigger and clearer than you think you need.
    • I find it a bit difficult to read when I get nervous, especially when I’m just glancing down quickly. Write in print, and stick to just one or two points per card so that you can write largely.
  • Don’t write whole sentences, just key words.
    • If you have too much information you’ll be tempted to read it all off. Instead, just write down a word or two that will remind you of your point if you get off track.
  • Number your flashcards, and consider putting them on a ring. 
    • That way, if you drop your cards on the way up you won’t start out flustered.
  • Remember to put when to change the slide so you don’t forget and end up behind, or leaving it on the same slide the whole time. 
  • Color code your cards so that you can see what’s happening at a glance.
    • I typically use blue for stats/things I need to quote directly, grey for slide changes, and pink for points to emphasize. 
  • All speeches should end with you asking for questions, so be sure to add that into your last card. 

iii. practicing

  • Always practice out loud, even if you feel silly. 
    • It’s important to hear and feel yourself saying the speech to get comfortable performing it.
  • Time yourself practicing your rough draft a few times, so you know if you need to make it longer or shorter. 
  • Practice with your visual aids a few times
  • Practice it all the way through if you can; if you mess up, brush it off and keep going.
  • Film yourself practicing, so you can see if there’s anything you’re not noticing that you need to adjust.
  • Practice everyday, even if it’s just for a few minutes some days.
  • The more you practice, the more comfortable you’ll feel.

iv. getting ready to speak

  • On the day of your speech, be sure to eat a good breakfast/lunch so you don’t get light headed.
  • Dress in an outfit that makes you feel confident and isn’t distracting: no busy patterns, large logos, or short hemlines that you would be tugging at the whole time. 
  • Double check that you have everything you need before you leave – cards, slides, and any handouts you may need.
  • This TED Talk has some great tips on faking confidence. I highly recommend watching it, but if you don’t have the time one of the take aways is that certain poses can trick your brain into feeling confident. She actually suggests going into a bathroom stall and standing in a “Superman” sorta pose for a minute or so. You’ll feel really silly, but strangely it helps. 
  • While you’re in there, adjust your hair/check your teeth so you’re not worried about that when you get up there. 
  • If you get to choose when you speak, think strategically: will going first and getting it out of the way make you feel better? Or would you rather wait and see a few people speak first?
    • I really don’t suggest waiting until the very last slot, but I like to go second or third to have the best of both worlds.
  • When you get to class, lay out everything you need and glance over your notes one more time. Then take a deep breath. You’ve got this.

v. the speech

  • When you get up to speak, take your time laying out everything you need and setting up your slides. 
  • After you’ve gotten the slides on, test the remote to see how sensitive it is. Just flipping to the first slide and back to the intro will help you feel less flustered if it’s more sensitive than you think and jumps around.
  • Take a deep breath and get started. If you mess up, no will know but you. Just keep going and act confident.
  • Glance back for just a second when changing slides to make sure you’re on the right one.
  • Make eye contact! The biggest mistake I see people make is to look down or above everyone’s head. Make eye contact with everyone more or less equally so it doesn’t look like you’re staring people down (but, if there’s someone that’s extra smiley/encouraging don’t be afraid to come back to them when you get nervous).
  • If you feel yourself starting to get nervous or starting to talk too fast/slow, it’s okay to take a second to take a deep breath and center yourself. Don’t be afraid of a couple seconds of silence if you need them.
  • If the podium helps you feel less nervous, use it. If moving around helps you loosen up, that works too! 
  • If you get off track, you are likely only one that even noticed that you messed up, so just take a deep breath, take a look at your notes, and get back on track the best you can (”going back to the second point,” or “but before we get to that,”).
  • If you’ve noticed that something’s wrong that needs to be addressed (like you’re on the wrong slide, or you misspoke and gave an incorrect fact) you can say something simple like “Sorry, I misspoke, it’s actually 1 in 3 Americans, not 1 in 4″ or try to make a joke if the subject lends to it and move onto your next point.
  • No matter what happens, it’s all good. Try to to panic and say things like “sorry, guys, I’m just so nervous” because that’s basically the only thing that will tip them off that you are. 

Above all, just try to relax and remember that you’re doing a good job. No one but you can tell how nervous you are or will know if you mess up. 

I have feeling™ and I need to get them out. Have a langst minific centered around Blue and the bond they definitely have. This got kinda long…

It was like lightning. One second, he’s fine, and the next, he sees a flash of light so blinding that he dont know where he is. It disorients him. Makes him question whats up or down, if he’s still on the ship or flung into space. For a terrifying moment, all he’s capable of feeling is confusion.

At least… Thats how Lance interprets this situation.

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Writing Tips

OKAY SO I wanted to make a few tips for writers out there just because I felt like it would be a good idea and a lot of these are what people have told me that improved my writing. So let go. 

  1. OKAY SO 1st of all, you need to shut everything out tbh??? Lol that sounded weird BUT what I’m saying is if you write something and think it sounds too much like something else someone else has written just stop thinking about that AND CONTINUE!! I mean, sure it may be the same ideas BUT DIFFERENT PEOPLE WRITE DIFFERENT THINGS. Like you’ve seen Coffee Shop AUs, right? They’re all pretty much the same, but EVERYONE WRITES THEM DIFFERENTLY. I bet you if you gave three people an outline of a fic and told them to write it, it would all come out as completely different fanfictions/writings. Some people may choose to center it around a kiss and build up to that point and some people may not feel the need to explain that, so they emphasise the dialogue and how the characters interact. So when you write something, then realize that it sounds a lot like a book you read or a fic you’ve read, then don’t worry about it because chances are it’s a completely new thing entirely
  2. Okay so I really shouldn’t have a say in this because I am awful at it and don’t do it much BUT DON’T BE AFRAID TO EDIT. Usually when you first write something its more about just getting the words on a page than making a final piece. Also, complete rewrites sometimes help. I have finished a novel, and I wanted to edit, but I found it was easier to have it off to the side and open a new document and rewrite it that way. This is probably confusing but ye
  3. KEEP A NOTEBOOK ON YOU AT ALL TIMES. Sure, its a lot easier to use your phone and you can write things on it, but if you’re like me as you get towards the end of the day your phone kinda starts to reach the end of it’s life. So having a notebook kinda helps when you get an idea and NEED to write it
  4. Continuing with that, if you’re stuck on a certain part of a story, sometimes a change of materials helps. A lot of the time I was typing something on the computer and I got stuck and closed the computer. Then I take out a notebook and BOOM I write a million words a minute. So its good to keep your fanfics and stories on Google Docs or something like that so you can type on your phone and on the computer. Then you can switch between those three things if you need to 
  5. Okay so this is something that I need to start doing and a lot of amazing people on here have suggested it (*cough* *cough* @dwarf-scum) but try setting up certain times to write. It will help train your mind to focus on that during those times
  6. Close tumblr when you write. I have a hard time doing this, but when you turn off all notifications and close the tab, it really focuses your mind
  7. Despite what people might say, FANFICTION IS GREAT!! It is great practice despite what people say. It’s helped me expand my writing abilities and gave me experience with different genres that I wouldn’t normally write about. It also helped me find my strengths and weaknesses, which is a good thing to know.
  8. OKAY THE BEST ADVICE I HAVE EVER RECEIVED IN MY 14 YEARS OF EXISTENCE IS details. I can tell you, this advice was what changed my writing completely. A lot of us write something and get so caught up in the moment that we forget to slow things down and give readers a clear picture. Take your time to explain the scenery or the emotions swirling through a character as they prepare to go onstage for a play. Take your time with it not everything has to be one thing after another. For example, you could say, “She ran through the abandoned corridor of the school into her classroom.” Or you could say “She ran through the abandoned corridor, the pale blue lockers seeming to make it stretch forever and ever as her feet slapped against the white tiles, her flats flapping with each footfall. Her heart racing, she reached the door of her classroom, sweat trickling down her neck as her hair came loose of it’s neat pony-tail.” As you can see, both of these are very different and the second one helps you better picture the scene. 
  9. Lol this is literally something I learned in fifth grade but SHOW NOT TELL. THis is literally so helpful when writing and kinda goes along with what I said before. Basically don’t just say “she was angry” explain how she was angry. What kind of things might she do in order to seem angry? Would she slam things? Stomp? Would her face be red with a frown? EXPLAIN IT!

lol so those are 9 tips and I could /possibly/ add more if I think of some. But I think the most valuable ones are the last two because that’s how you pull readers in. Hope you enjoy!!!!

fic: you know you’re supposed to keep it (parse/tater, past discussed jack/parse)

@des-zimbits wanted “fic where Tater tells Kent that Jack has a boyfriend he’s joyously in love with and telling his team about/introducing them to, and then Kent and Tater process the news and what it might mean for them?” and I thought… if Tater was so sure about Jack having a girlfriend earlier (obviously that could’ve been for show but go with me here), then that’d mean he and Kent are together but he still doesn’t know about Jack in Kent’s past… and then this story happened. Probably both more angsty and more about Jack/Parse than the prompt.

secrets you keep for so long they become a part of you

warnings: not sure of more exact tags, but Parse’s mental landscape is a Mess.  //  ~2k, also here on ao3.


“You never guess what Zimmboni just told me,” Tater says as soon as Kent opens up his Skype request. It’s funny: for years any mention of Jack would’ve stolen his attention, but right now all he can think about is his boyfriend, and how he fills up any space he’s in so attractively with his boundless energy. He’s bouncing on his bed right now, making the camera of his laptop jump, and Kent aches to be there, to feel that enthusiasm. He curses the length of almost two months that are marked out on both of their calendars until they’ll be able to see each other again.

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The show in the middle of nowhere

Hi everyone! Sister J here! Long time no blog - I guess that’s what happens when your band apparently hates your state and your travel options are limited. I did see the boys in Indianapolis last year, but moving and switching jobs kept me from the blog-o-sphere! Okay, excuses over. Let’s talk Burgettstown - or as I like to call it, the show in the middle of nowhere PA. Why there is a 23,000 seat amphitheater there, we will never know.

So, joining me for this adventure is Sister K, C and A - C and A making the trip all the way from the UK! Great fun to finally meet them. We also met up with two other lovely ladies that we shared the GA line with last year in Indy. Parking lot opens at 3:30pm - doesn’t stop us from driving up starting at 10 am and begging to start a car line. Doesn’t work. We start driving. McDonald’s, Cracker Barrel, back to the lot, back to McDonald’s, back to the lot, and back… and back… I think you can catch our drift. No lining up early. After hours of avoiding the cops (not joking), we finally time it right and get in the parking lot.

Security issues, credit card entry problems, other entrances getting in before us… the list of complications is endless. As Sister K and I have always said - GA is not hard, but these venues make it so much harder than it needs to be. Two of us get center rail. The rest of us are right behind them. Not rail. Bitterly disappointed, but shake it off for the show.

Marcus and Ben come out and help Kevin Garrett for his last three songs.

Then it’s showtime!

The new stage set up is outstanding! I feel like prepping to open for U2 may have inspired them a bit! Open with the new song Blind Leading the Blind - solid opener, always a risk to lead with a new song, but the crowd seemed into it and everyone around us had heard it already… LOL.

Jump to song three - Below My Feet. Security starts getting active. I look behind me and there is a girl obviously not doing well - swaying back and forth and looking about ready to pass out. Others around us heard threats of violence. Marcus stops singing - asks if everything is under control and then mutters under his breath about not drinking so much! Always something in the Pit, right? They get right back into the song. We were worried this would bring Marcus down, but our cheering and general enthusiasm seemed to get him back on track!

Ditmas was great as usual - we were ready for the climb through the Pit, but Marcus wisely avoided that area, probably based on the earlier incident. However, he did make a lengthy stop to hug a little boy who had a sign proclaiming it his first concert and his birthday. Lucky. He also got a half sung Happy Birthday into the mic. 

We did catch him on the way back however… each show I get a little closer… LOL.

Dust Bowl Dance + Fire = MAGIC!

Encore and then it’s time for the “b-stage” - aka even CLOSER to us!

Got to hear Cold Arms, which I love. Poor Marcus, quiet songs in amphitheaters filled with drunks just doesn’t work. Then, they bust out this gem!!

Our video stunk since the light was right in our faces and we couldn’t see them - but this was insane. Ted loved that we were singing along. Seemed like an audible since there was some discussion and Winston got his banjo after the song started. Never heard them do this without Old Crow Medicine Show (FYI, it’s THEIR song not Darius Ruckers… and technically it’s Bob Dylan’s, but I digress).

Encore included I’m On Fire, I Will Wait and the always amazing The Wolf. Best closing song going right now IMO. 

And then it was over…  Setlist and picks procured from the always helpful security guards working the front, who also fed us girl scout cookies!  

A few non-Marcus photos…

Had a nice chat post show with this lovely horn blower. 

And just like that is was over… until next time Mumford and Sons! How about we pick a date in Ohio, okay? All photos courtesy of Sisters K, C and A! 

That last post really makes me think about how trans men and trans women who are heterosexual need more of a community and support surrounding them and their attractions (because whilst they’re obviously not gay, society isn’t gonna give them a free pass for straight privilege unless they’re cis passing).

I’m pretty sure a lot of them miss the community surrounding their attractions previously, and since they don’t feel accepted for being straight in the same way that cis people are, it’s hard to come to terms with it after having one label for so long. Just shows a lack of support and community for people who aren’t “gay-enough” in the LGBT+ community.

Like most of the positivity and support for trans people is entirely centered around sapphic and achillean trans people, and whilst they obviously need the support, I think other types of trans people get completely forgotten about in positivity messages. 

Heck even NON heterosexual trans people, like non-aligned (or those who align themselves with both male and female) non-binary people who aren’t sapphic or achillean, need WAY WAY WAY more support. Their attractions are outside the binary, they’re non-straight too, just not “””sga””” as that word doesn’t make sense for them. Like explain to me how an androgyne (non-aligned) or agender person gets straight privilege for their attractions….exactly??

They need support. It’s obvious. Why aren’t we doing more about this?

Fire Witch: Enhance and Energize Yourself

Here are some simple tips to power yourself up for the day. (Or in general)
(Remember: Intent is very important)

Light A Candle/ Fire
Color doesn’t matter unless you want something special. Look into the flame. Allow the warmth of the flame and light fill your chest, your mind, hands, or wherever you need it. Remember to also take a deep breath. 
This can also be used with open flames, like a stove, campfire, chimney, etc.
(Follow safety precautions with open flames)

Sunbathe
The luxury of AC can sometimes numb us or throw off our equilibrium. Early morning sun or sunset is best. When bathing, visualize yourself glowing and acquiring energy. Stretch your body and shake off empty vibes.
Early Sun- Used for renewal or change. Allow your inner phoenix/dragon to wake up and warm up. Also, use the cool air to fill you, so remember to breathe in. This could also be used for Blue Fires that do not like the heat.
Afternoon Sun- Since this energy is at it’s strongest, use this for short periods of time. Can also be used to charge certain things quickly. (Wear sunblock if you plan to stay longer!) 
Sunset- Use to charge up before going to bed, or to keep you going for the night. Allow this diminishing light to erase your stress or to let go of physical and mental weight. Embrace the last few rays of light and incoming stars. 
Moonlight- Technically, moonlight is still part of the sun. Also perfect for Night or Moon Witches that associate with Fire. Perfect for Blue Fires to charge up on this cool and soft light. 

Light (Electric, Natural)
If you don’t or can’t use candles, use lights. (Christmas lights, LED’s, lightbulbs, lamps, solar-lights, etc.)
You can charge yourself up using different light sources. Might not be as powerful as the sun or fire, but it can work.
Decorate your altar, personal or holy space with lights and such.
Soak in the energy and vibrancy of light. 
Use different colored light bulbs to match your tastes!
Looking straight into certain lights can hurt your eyes, so close your eyes and use your body to physically feel the warmth and radiance. 

Colors
The very known colors of fire are yellow, orange, and red (Combinations with purple, brown, black, white or blue also work). Wearing or touching these colors can also give you a type of recharge. It can be used in blankets, bed sheets, towels, make-up, clothing, accessories, hair dye, body jewelry, etc. Believe that these colors can protect you and give you power. 
If you like to be creative, use paint or materials to play with these colors.

Food/Tea
Known herbs associated with fire are: Basil, Bay Laurel, Cinnamon, Cumin, Juniper, Saffron, Rosemary, Rue, Pepper, Coriander. (Among others)
Foods that are red, spicy, or bitter.
Preparing food with these herbs can also enhance your energy. 
Or drying them and keeping them in your altar or around you also work.
(Cooking food in itself is use of heat and energy. Use it to your advantage)

Burning 
Sometimes burning things can help you lighten your energy.
On a piece of paper, write down your stress, worries, or anything making you feel negative. Fill a whole notebook if you need! Or keep it small, this is up to you. When you burn it, release the negative emotion associated with it. Allow yourself to feel lighter and at peace.
Burn incense and run your hand over the soft, delicate smoke. 
(For more precise results, choose incense with meaning)

Water
Believe it or not, Fire Witches can also feel a longing for water. Warm water does a great job in helping you cleanse yourself or releasing mental weight. 
Whether it be a warm bath, swimming outdoors in the sun, or even boiling water for tea, use the warmth and strength of the warm/hot water to help you relax.

Exercise/Meditation
Yes, the dreaded E word!! Much like flames, our body requires us to stay active to allow energy to flow through us. You can go from extensive cardio, to simple workouts or stretches. Stand, sit, or lay down. Raise your arms, or legs, and stretch. Allow your blood to flow. Rub your hands together. Rubs your legs or thighs, arms, head, shoulders, feet. Fires use oxygen to grow, so raise your head and take deep breaths. 
Meditate after stretching or vice versa.
(Dancing to your favorite music works too!)

Plants/Flowers/Trees
They need sunlight and warmth just like we do. Plant flowers, herbs or trees. I personally love sunflowers because the amount of energy they carry from the sun is beautifully powerful. (Plus, gardening can also be beneficial in several ways to you, the earth, and life. Good karma all around.) Once your flowers bloom, plants bear fruits or vegetables, or when leaves start sprouting, touch them and feel the energy they radiate. Go to parks, botanical gardens, garden centers, or take a walk. Spend time with plants and really absorb the power they carry. I love to put my forehead on the flowers, without hurting them, and fill my need of energy.

*These tips are not set in stone and don’t need to be precise. Do what makes YOU comfortable or safe. Your safety and sanity come first. With that said, good luck and have fun.

Hello guys since i just recently made it to 900 followers i wanted to give you something special! Also if you could do me a favor and check out my main blog, that would be pretty cool! @the-cass-meow she’s pretty lonely over there. You totally don’t need to feel obligated to follow! 

MOODBOARDS 

I love doing moodboards and you guys seem to like them so: 

  • Send me an ask with your preferred colors or aesthetic. 
  • Can be Dan and Phil related or not 
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Don’t Listen To Them

-requested-

prompt-  can you do one where y/n is a bigger girl? and she feels a lil down about herself because the paps shout nasty things to her when she’s out alone and Niall gets annoyed and comforts her x 

(A/N- I know I have a lot of these type of imagines on my blog but i feel that there aren’t a lot of imagines/oneshots centered around a plus size girl. And i would also like to say that if you guys need someone to talk to or need a friend I’m here so you c an message me whenever you’d like. And i would like to apologize for my shitty titles, i really suck at soming up with them. )

~ 1414 words

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You walked along the sidewalks of London attempting to walk to the car-park where you had left your car when you went shopping. Thinking that today would be a nice chance to get some alone time you went shopping and had lunch by yourself, because why not. 

As you walked along the grey cracked concrete you started to see a few girls recognize you, which wasn’t a big surprise since you were Niall Horan’s girlfriend. You however tried to block it out of your mind as you continued to walk, you still had about fifteen more minutes until you got to the car-park. But it wasn’t long until you started to see the first signs that somehow the paparazzi had found your location. It had always confused you as to why they wanted pictures of you especially if you weren’t with Niall, you were just a normal girl and had no job which would require media attention. 

You sighed deeply when you saw a few men hop out of cars with cameras. Shit. Walking a little faster with your head down you hopped that maybe, just maybe, they wouldn’t see you or realize that you were a human and not a zoo animal and just leave you alone. But of course it wasn’t long until one of the paps had recognized you and called others attention and soon they were around you. 

The cameras were blinding even in the late afternoon sun and the constant clicks made you ever so self conscious, you were worried that maybe they would see your slight double chin because of the way you were looking down but you didn’t want to look up because then they’d see your chubby cheeks, that Niall said were absolutely adorable and loved to kiss but you thought they were ugly and would do anything to get rid of them.  You tugged at your sweater hoping to cover your body more in hopes they wouldn’t see it there for not say anything about it. But your hopes were crushed. 

‘Did you gain weight?’ The one said as he swerved in front of you and got a few pictures of your face.

‘Surprised Niall hasn’t told you to hit the gym (y/n). Also surprised he downgraded from models to you.” another stated trying to keep up with your fast pace and snap pictures at the same time. 

One with a video camera moved in front of you and started to walk backwards and films you, “I bet Niall is disgusted when he looks at you and is just dating you because he feels bad for you.” And that one hurt you the most because that is how you felt, even though Niall had told you so many times that that wasn’t the case and he thought you were so beautiful, that though hung in the back of your mind. And the fact a complete stranger you had never met said your exact thought made tears come to you eyes. 

But of course even now with the presents of tears the paps continued, “I dont even think you guys could have sex let alone get close to each other,  you’d probably crush him.” One teased causing a few to chuckle. 

They only want a reaction, they don’t mean what they are saying. You repeated in your head, Niall had told you that many times but right now no matter how much you repeated it to yourself you couldn’t believe it.

A flutter of relief hit you when you saw the car-park getting closer. “What are you gonna do? Run home and stuff your face with food while Niall probably goes out and finds a better girl.” 

It amazed you at how childish their insults were but they still hurt you, it brought you back to high school, where you thought you left the bullies behind. 

You were never so happy in your life to see a parking garage and luckily the attendant saw you coming and also, not a surprise, saw the papas as well and informed them they were not allowed inside.  You took a deep breath as you walked through the parking lot to find your car, a few tears slipped out unable to hold them back any longer.

Finding your car and opening the driver’s door and got in a slammed the door before leaning back in the seat and started to cry. They are right. You thought starting the car and drying your tears. 

The car ride home was everything but relaxing, your mind played the words over and over again. Then your mind wondered to Niall. Was he really out playing golf? Or was he out trying to find another girl, one that was was skinnier and prettier. 

You didn’t even bother gathering your bags when you got out of the car. Walking into the house you found it silent. Looking at the clock on the wall it said 5:30. Niall said he’d be home at 5. Your mind wandered again. Flopping down on the couch a new wave of tears came over you. 

You hated this feeling. Feeling so ugly, fat and worthless. You always felt less than and that Niall could find someone better. You never understood why he’d settle for someone like you when he could have literately any other girl he wanted. He’d say that he didn’t settle and that he loved you with all his heart but it was so hard for you to believe. 

“Hey babe! Sorry I’m late, i stopped to get us some Chinese and Deo was taking forever on the last hole.” Niall called as he closed the front door and kicked off his shoes. You didn’t bother answering but you did try to rid your face of tears which was useless seeing that your mascara and eyeliner had run down your cheeks. 

He walked to where you were, “So how was shop-” Niall stopped mid sentence when he took in your state. You were curled up on the couch toying with a tissue in your hand as tears dropped from your face to your lap making little wet spots on your grey sweater and black leggings. 

“What happened (Y/N)?” He asked, worry evident in his voice. He slowly lowered himself onto the couch next you tucking a lose piece of hair behind your ear.

“I’m too fat.” You stated simply as your crying picked up again. You heard Niall sigh heavily as he pulled you into his side.

“No you’re not. You’re absolutely perfect and beautiful and sexy. What made you even think that?” He asked, worried that he had somehow made you feel that way. 

“The fucking paps again. I was walking back to the car and they had found me somehow and they harassed me and were saying mean things, and they’re right Niall. I am fat, I am ugly, you can do better and you probably are going out with me because you feel bad for me.” You cried into his shoulder not caring that you were getting makeup on his shirt, and he didn’t care much either. 

You could feel Niall’s grip on you tighten, which you knew ,meant that he was upset, mostly angry, about what you just said. “No, (Y/N), they aren’t fuckin’ right. They are ignorant assholes.” He said,  the anger in his voice was apparent. “I’m not going out with you because I pity you. I’m going out with you because i fucking love you, i love you so so much.” Niall paused to kiss your forehead, “And i never want you to think that you are ugly or fat, because you are so far from it. And I’ve told you before, they just wanted a reaction, don’t listen to them.”

You couldn’t help just smile through your tears at the words of your boyfriend. Pulling away you looked into his eyes, they softened as he looked back into yours, he pulled you in for a long kiss. “Please don’t cry anymore, ya know i hate it was you do.” He chuckled as he pulled away and smoothed out your hair and wiped a few stray tears. 

“I’ll try.” You laughed, “And sorry about your shirt, kinda has makeup all over it.” 

He looked at the shoulder that you cried on and let out a small laugh, “Not a problem.” He smiled and kissed you again. 

***************

And yet again another sucky ending. Requests are open. 

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So…I felt like drawing Spike and Tails. I started this a while back when I got sick, but I was too weak to continue. So I was in a Spike mood since the last two episodes sorta centered around him. And well…I’m always in a Tails mood, so this happened.

Anyway, I really didn’t feel like coloring them so if you guys feel like coloring it, go ahead. In fact, I’m kind of hoping someone will because I’d like to see a fresh take on my art. Just be sure to let me know when you are done because I REALLY want to see it. Also, give me credit for the line art. But my biggest deal is getting to see it so PLEASE let me know! 

If you need a better file I’d be happy to give it to you just message me and I’ll do my best to get it to you.

harleyquinn500 replied to your post: NH 27 from that list of prompts.

Probably shouldn’t tag this as Naruhina though.

I probably shouldn’t be as bothered by this as I am but I’ve been trying to watch myself so I don’t crosstag and I feel like I didn’t do that here.

Lemme take a moment to be petty and defend something that really shouldn’t need a defence because it’s like 8am and I slept five hours and I’m just bleary enough to be contrary.

The story was prompted to be about NaruHina. And it is. Just because it doesn’t end with them as a picture perfect happy rainbow couple doesn’t change the fact that the entire plotline centers around them and their problems as a couple. It’s about a marraige falling apart. If this were FF.net it would be tagged NaruHina and set in the Angst category.

I’m not trying to come off as snappy (okay I get a little snappy after several weeks of little sleep, sue me I’m human) but if you can point out a solid reason this shouldn’t be tagged as NaruHina then by all means lay it on me. It’s an angsty prompt and the reader is warned of that right at the top. Some people like angst. They adore it. They live off of tears and sadness. I don’t bash the ship in this fic, I simply set it in a slight au where Naruto is unhappy with the life he ended up in and is slightly cruel in telling Hinata so. So what’s wrong with tagging this with the ship that it is written about?

Honestly, someone get me a coffee or something. I don’t even like coffee but I think I need one.

vimeo

Takamina Soukantoku’s Lecture Room

Takamina: Today that person is coming so I have to clean a bit… how do I get her to like me-

*door knocking*

Takamina: Oh no no! Stop it! Wait, what is this.

*Momoka sticks to the door*

Takamina: So playful. Come inside.

Momoka: 'Sup.

Takamina: Sit down.

Momoka: Excuse me.

Takamina: Coming all the way from Osaka… and you’re in your non-work clothing as well?

Momoka: Yes. This is my private clothing..

Takamina: You’re the second person to come not wearing a uniform.

Momoka: Really?

Takamina: Tanamin was first, and then you.

Momoka: Ahh… Tanamin-san… is my friend.

Takamina: Yes this… This was a shock to me! I really like Momoka. I really like her a lot. And I’ve been pursuing her. I got her LINE address, and every time she’d update something on her timeline I’ll always comment on it, and I’ve been doing these things in the hope that we’ll become friendlier but it isn’t working.

And then Tanamin asked me earlier ‘Oh, is Momoka coming?’ and I told her yes, and since she said 'Ahhh’, I thought she was empathising with me. But then Tanamin said 'She seems to really like me! She randomly approaches me.’ And I said to her, 'Momoka approaching people? This has never happened with me!’

Momoka: Takamina-san… what’s up with you?

Takamina: What do you mean?

Momoka: Like… you approach me all the time… and I’m a bit creeped out by it

*laughs*

Momoka: It was really sudden right?

Takamina: I’ve actually been noticing you for a while. 

Momoka: Ehh…

Takamina: From the rehearsal of the dome tours. I remember thinking 'wow there’s a girl running around with really eccentric hair.’ You were holding something and running around like this *demonstrates* I was watching you run and I actually couldn’t believe my eyes for a second. Didn’t you change your hair really suddenly?

Momoka: Ahh, yes.

Takamina: What’s your dream for the future?

Momoka: My dream for the future? I want to be a NEET.

*Takamina laughs*

Momoka: I’m really serious about this. That’s why I’m working really hard now to save up money. But when I look like this and I say the stuff I do there are so many pros and cons to it. 

Takamina: So there are people who see that you’re very confident in yourself and your beliefs and think 'wow this person is amazing’ and they start following you, or there are people who think 'what exactly is this girl?’

Momoka: But I don’t really care about that. I honestly just want to save money. I don’t really care what people say about me, as long as I’m earning money.

Takamina: So technically you’re a real pro. This is a job to you.

Momoka: Yes.

Takamina: So you’re like 'it’s a job, so who cares about antis’

Momoka: Yeah.

Takamina: So does that mean that once you work enough, then you’re just going to quit?

Momoka: Yes. So I’ve told people who are my fans already that I’m planning on quitting after I save up enough money. 

Takamina: *laughs* Wow, that’s something new.

Momoka: But people who are my fans are often people who have big hearts and are really accepting.  

Takamina: So they just accept what you say, and they’re like 'Momoka, just do whatever you want!’

Momoka: Yes. They’re people who go with the flow of the atmosphere. It’s what I like about them. But yes, I just tell them straight out.

Takamina: So right now, don’t you think NMB48 has a lot of force and drive behind them?

Momoka: Yeah…

Takamina: What do you think when you’re witnessing this? You’re in the group but you also don’t participate in sousenkyou. And I think that’s probably because you’re particular about an aspect of it, and I think you think that there’s no value in the sousenkyou, and that you know that it’s not what’s important?

Momoka: Yes

Takamina: I think that’s amazing. Last year as well. I remember thinking 'she’s not going to participate. She really doesn’t stray away from her ideals.’ And there’s still things that you need to do as part of NMB48’s senbatsu. What do you want to do for NMB’s future?

Momoka: I’ve been thinking that recently until now is really becoming NMB’s make-or-break moment.

Takamina: Yes. Sayanee is part of your generation as well, and I’m pretty sure she’s thinking the same thing right now as well, so that’s why she thinks that the group need to push forward. And there’s an energy that you probably feel because you’re from that generation.

Momoka: What’s happening is that people like Sayanee and Milky who have stood at the center of NMB from the beginning have been pulling us forward. The rest of us are probably only seen as the people around them. For example my team, Team M’s center is Yagura Fuuko, but I think it would be a good thing if she was able to be more known to members of the general public…

Takamina: It’ll be good for the group as a whole as well

Momoka: Yes. I keep thinking 'if only’. I know it’s a difficult issue to resolve. 

Takamina: Sayanee was saying the same thing the other day as well when she came for this. Even though there are those two members standing out a lot, I think NMB is in their golden age right now. Everyone is cute, and everyone is characteristic. Everyone needs to push their way forward but everyone probably doesn’t know how to go about it. 

Momoka: I keep thinking that it must be pretty difficult…

Takamina: You should be in charge of cutting through!

*Momoka looks uneasy*

Takamina: I think you can do it. 

Momoka: Me?

Takamina: Yes. I think if you thought to yourself 'I can do it’ then you’ll be able to do it. For variety shows as well. There are fields in which Sayanee and Milky can’t cover, but I think you’ll be able to go to those places.

And then for example you become more known to the public with this, and people think 'Oh that’s Sayanee, Milky, Momoka-chan’. And then they would think, I wonder who is standing next to them. If there was a girl standing next to you, they might start gaining interest in her. I think you can do it. I honestly have great expectations for you. 

Momoka: If I do this… will I be able to receive *does the money sign with her hands*

Takamina. You know Momoka-san… *does the money sign back* it’ll definitely come in.

*staff laughs*

Momoka: Oh really? 

Takamina: Momoka-san, that sort of thing comes along with your visibility and how recognisable you are to the public.

Momoka: Ahhh, really.

Takamina: Yes. 

Momoka: I’ll work hard.

*staff laughs*

Severus Snape: An Explanation (Not An Excuse)

It always pisses me off when people capitalise on how Snape was in love with Lily, and how that is what Harry was referring to when he called him brave (really, what are you smoking, can i have some?) because you could read Snape as asexual and aromantic and still have the same storyline.

Stop it with the friendzone jokes, because this is really not what was going on at all. He didn’t feel entitled to her, not romantically at least. She never rejected him in that way, but as a friend.

I actually think Snape didn’t get obsessed with Lily until after her death, and that he only became obsessed because he was directly responsible for it.

First of all, let’s start with Snape’s primal motivations:

FEAR. Fear is what moves young Snape, at all times. He was abused at home by his muggle father, and his mother failed to protect him. Then he went to Hogwarts, where, I am sure, he expected to be safe, but he was bullied there, an abuse that started before he even set a foot on the castle. I’m guessing this left him feeling as if he would never find a safe place in the world, anywhere, ever.

Luckily, I can’t talk about parental abuse, but I can tell you that when you’re bullied you get scared. Scared for life. It leaves you terrified of groups, afraid you’ll be attacked at any point. Which means you look for protection, and you would make a pact with the devil in order to obtain it. 

What kind of child devises a weapon (in his case, a spell) that will leave you bloody and dying? A child who’s terrified.

Here’s the thing you learn when you’re bullied: if you become scarier than your abusers, they stop.

This is my headcanon, ok, but I really believe that Snape would have learned all that he could in the restricted section, foraying into the dark arts out of curiosity (he was a precocious student after all) and out of a desire to look for the best way to protect himself. Then he would have gotten himself a tower somewhere secluded and experimented with potions, making amazing discoveries that would have forwarded the knowledge of the wizarding world. He would have become an eccentric loner who came up with great ideas every now and then, respected in the community even if he was considered weird. Lily would have brought him cupcakes to his mancave every now and then, trying to give him a little human interaction.

All of this, of course, if Voldemort hadn’t been on the rise.

You’re 15 years old. Your life at home is a nightmare. Your life at school is worse. You know if you become scary enough, maybe you’ll stop feeling so scared yourself. And what’s scarier than a Death Eater?

Of course, this is not something Lily could ever hope to understand. To Lily the world wasn’t a scary place, it was full of joy and opportunities. I’m not saying she should have understood. I’m saying she didn’t have the tools for it. She had no way of stopping what her friend was becoming (and it wasn’t her responsability, either). I think she was right in telling Snape to go fuck himself, and perfectly healthy of her. 

I think it was understandable, yet not excusable, when Snape lashed out at her, too. He was in the middle of being humiliated, and he probably thought he should be able to defend himself; her intervention only made him feel more humiliated. This is one of your greatests fears when you’re bullied: more humiliation. Snape was stressed (it was exams week), angry, feeling painful humiliation, and the last thing he needed is to be seen as weak. I don’t think he actually had any hatred towards muggleborns, but in order to fit in with his new band of friends, he probably had had to pretend he did, and that’s why the word itself was on the tip of his tongue. Long story short I think it was a normal reaction on his behalf, but in no way excusable towards his friend.

Snape liked Lily because she gave him kindness when literally nobody else had. He didn’t have a support group in his Slytherin classmates, they were allies, not friends. But kindness cannot protect you. Light cannot protect you. Being strong can. Surrounding yourself with terrifying people who are on your side can. This is what you learn when you’re a child and you have no one.

I used to think (bc I was an idiot) that if Lily would have dated Snape he would never had gone dark side. But 1) this was really not her responsability and 2) Snape’s decision was so much bigger than Lily.

If Snape had loved Lily enough, he wouldn’t have joined the Death Eaters, regardless of how she had reacted to him asking her out (which never happened. Again, Lily never romantically rejected Snape). But fear is stronger than love. Snape couldn’t have chosen Lily any more than she would have chosen him. She was not more important than feeling protected. We all know Lily was fantastic, but her kindness wasn’t enough to fight an entire life of abuse. She was a person, not much-needed therapy. I guess Snape felt bitter that she couldn’t be good enough (even though she couldn’t possibly be) and that’s also why he lashed out, maybe.

This is all about teenagers making poor choices. They were all so young.

So often the discourse around these characters is centered on how James and the Marauders were so young. “They were just kids, they didn’t know any better.” As someone who has been bullied (by kids who were younger than them, as an even younger child) this feels like a kick in the groin, by the way. This is what pisses me off the most, actually. People saying “What happened to Snape wasn’t that bad.” Because always, ALWAYS, the voices of bullied people are silenced when there’s talk of Severus Snape. Our pain is ALWAYS invalidated. No one ever considers that we might identify ourselves with him because of that, it’s always centered of how “he reacted badly when he was rejected by a girl”, when in reality Snape joining the Death Eaters wasn’t related to that at all. Not to mention: GOD FORBID we hate James Potter. Even if he represents everything our abusers were.

Here’s the question that remains: If the Marauders hadn’t bullied Snape, would he have become a Death Eater? Well, we’ll never know. But my money is on “no”. He may have overcome his father’s abuse if he had found a safe space at Hogwarts, but he didn’t.

When you’re bullied, you’re desperate. DESPERATE. To make it stop, to feel safe, to not be humiliated and hurt anymore. It gets to a point in which you would do anything. I remember learning about school shootings in the USA when I was in my teens and thinking “If I had had a gun available when I was ten, I would have brought it to school. I would have shot my bullies.” But I didn’t have a gun. Or a wand. Or a group of people who acted like a cult trying to brainwash me. Also, remember that post about how Slytherins felt like pariahs in Hogwarts and that might have pushed them towards the Death Eaters? I think this also played a part.

I honestly believe Snape chose to become a Death Eater because he didn’t see any other choice, not because he wanted to hurt people, or even hated muggles (even if he didn’t like them much, because, again, abusive muggle father). The only path he could follow was the one that would make him feel safe. That’s what Voldemort offered him. Joining him was a reaction to an all-encompassing fear of being attacked.

As a Death Eater, aurors would have attacked him, yes, but they would have attacked him for a reason. When you’re often given violence when you’ve done nothing to deserve it, sometimes you try doing something bad so that, if you’re going to be punished, at least you’re punished for something that you did, and not merely for existing. “Now people hate me, but because I’ve given them a reason, not because I’m inherently hateable.” I don’t know if this makes sense.

Only when Lily (the only person who had showed him kindness in his life) was directly threatened did he take a look at his life and his choices, and discovered something that terrified him more than humiliation: Lily’s death. Not being afraid was always Snape’s goal, that’s why he changed sides so easily; he fought for the side that will make him be less afraid.

Then Lily died, and it was horrible. For once, Snape had tried to do the right thing to protect what mattered to him, and it had been all for naught. This was such a delicate moment… for Dumbledore, who had been counting on a spy in the innermost circle of the Dark Lord. Since the “keep Lily alive” carrot had been snatched away, it was time to fetch the stick.

This is where Snape’s motivation changed. It was no longer fear, but guilt.

Guilt, though, is such a toxic emotion. Fear wakes you up; guilt beats you down. Guilt is what made Snape a bad person. 

This is when Snape got obsessed with Lily, not before. He clung to Lily when they were teenagers because she was the only bright thing in his life apart from magic, but he didn’t become truly obsessed with her until she was dead. And maybe he would have got over her eventually if he didn’t have Dumbledore breathing down his neck. “After all this time?” THAT WAS SUCH BULLSHIT I am so sure that Dumbledore ensured that he didn’t forget her after all this time, because Lily and her death were the only weapons he had to control Snape.

Still, I have no more pity for him at his point. When he was a teenager? Sure. He was a kid. He made terrible choices that had terrible consequences, but he made them because he didn’t see a way out, and didn’t have the tools to deal with this in any other way. As an adult, though? I think he had more than enough time to get over himself and become a decent person, even with Dumbledore’s constant manipulation.

Adult Snape is an asshole. A terrible person. Adult Snape has 0 redeeming qualities. I mean, was he incredibly brave? Yeah, I mean, he spied on Voldemort, objectively that takes balls of steel. But bravery doesn’t make you a good person, in my opinion. He was terrible to his students, and goddammit, he of all people should have understood what being abuse does to teenage brains. I think he was doing the right thing out of habit and out of guilt, and what worth does that have? Not much. And I’m not saying that what he did as a child is excusable, but I’m worried about how people treat those who have gone through trauma and reacted in ‘bad’ ways instead of being a beacon of nobility like Harry freaking Potter.

What I’m saying is… There’s a lot to criticise about Snape’s character. Like, a fuckload. But I see a lot of it around the fact that he felt friendzoned by Lily (which didn’t happen) or that he behaved like those boys who continue to harass a girl until she says yes (which is what JAMES did, but that’s a conversation for another day), and a lot of invalidation towards victims of bullying and people who identify with certain parts of him.

Just??? The next time you talk about Severus Snape take these things into consideration. Not for him, because fuck him, he’s fictional, but for the people who consider him important for any reason.

anonymous asked:

I was looking through your bookmarks of the Destiel fics you said you really liked. Could you possibly give your top 3 recommendations out of those? Which ones did you absolutely love?

Hoo boy, do you realize what you’re asking me to do, nonny??? haha there are SO MANY good Destiel fics and honestly every one on that list I would read again (hence why I’ve marked them all as rec’ed). But I understand 120+ fics is a lot to sift through, although I think a good chunk of them are under 10k; I’ve actually put all the shorter fics under this tag. That being said, I don’t think there’s any way I’ll be able to narrow it down to just three, but I’ll categorize them a bit to make it easier.

For the good kind of emotional that builds up slowly inside of you and stays with you long after the story is over:

For the creepy/haunted but so well written you have to keep reading kind of emotional:

There aren’t a whole lot of non-end!verse fics with Cas’ end!verse personality, which is an absolute shame, but this one about Dean being Cas’ roomie is definitely worth noting:

If you don’t mind weird but are in the mood for something super adorable:

If you’re into alpha!Cas/omega!Dean:

  • Get Knocked Down, Get Back Up (warning for mpreg, but I love @unforth-ninawaters to bits for writing it)
  • A Hole in the World (yeah yeah, if you’ve heard of ABO, you’ve probably heard of this fic, but despite being 300k, it sucked me in from beginning to end; it really does deserve the hype it gets. also warning for mpreg in the epilogue but not needed to appreciate the main story.)

And last but not least, as it is part of my namesake, a few ‘40s-ish fics:

I feel like that’s not even an adequate list because there are so many more that I love and I feel like I’m forgetting how much I love some of them because it’s been so long since I’ve read them, but these are the ones sticking at the forefront of my mind. Hopefully there are at least a couple on there that you haven’t seen 5000 other people already recommend. I really feel like I need to read through some of them again and maybe rec more of the lesser-known ones. Or maybe do more rec lists like my ‘40s or preg!Dean rec lists but for other types of fic. Thinking I should start some sort of sci-fi Destiel rec list because I’ve never seen one of those before.

Anywho, hope that steers you in the direction of something new to enjoy!

I think it’s about time…
The writers give us an episode centered around Lucas. His character has so much potential. I need to know the details about the reason he got kicked out of his school in Texas. Why is he a year older than his classmates now? Did he fail a grade or did he miss a year while looking for a new school? Are his parents divorced? If so, when did they get divorced? And does Lucas live with his mom or dad? What does his house/apartment look like? What if he goes to therapy or anger management classes for his anger issues? Was there an event in his childhood that led to his anger issues? Why does he only wear blue? These are the important questions we need answers to! And I haven’t forgotten about how he feels towards Maya and Riley which we still don’t truly know either.
Every character has gotten at least one episode centered around them except for Lucas. He has potential to be one of the most complex characters on the show. I don’t think season 2 holds a Lucas-centered episode, but I have high hopes for season 3.

Quick spell to get rid of certain bad things:

(Ignore my crappy wax seal, the wax didn’t melt right)

Items needed:
-A square of paper
-A pen/pencil
-Wax seal or tape

Step 1: In the center of your square of paper, write down the bad thoughts/feelings/things/etc. that you want to get rid of.
If you want, you can draw a box around them with a little lock, or you can write something like “Lock away the bad things and get rid of them so that I can feel better.”

Step 2: Fold the corners into the center, making a little envelope-looking thing (like in the picture).

Step 3: In the center where the corners meet, tape it or put a wax seal on it (I like wax seals, okay) to seal the bad things away.

Step 4: Throw it away, preferably in a place that isn’t your home.

reflectingiridescent  asked:

Hello! I know you've written before about how Ne-doms can be the most introverted-seeming of the extrovert signs. What would be the most extroverted-seeming of the introvert signs?

Introverts who always seem to be involved in doing stuff can seem extroverted. But … what happens in their down time? Are they REALLY as involved as you think they are? Or do they show up once or twice a week to do stuff, and they seem socially active and excited, and then you don’t see them for three days?

Frankly, introverts – the real ones – disappear. For days. Weeks, even. You send them an e-mail after seeing them and they don’t answer back immediately. 

It’s easier to tell with people in your life, as opposed to… say, celebrities. How much of their outgoing nature is put on and how much of it is real? Do they come out in a talk show and be totally extroverted in appearance, and then go backstage and sag against the wall and thank God that is over? Some of them do. Then again, some of them don’t.

Extroverts, I have also noticed, like to hold the floor. And talk more. An introvert isn’t going to enjoy being the center of attention for very long. So, you look for how long they can keep it up. How long their energy level holds. Do other people wind them up or do they vanish into the kitchen for ten minutes? It was the dessert… it needed checking on. That’s right. It had nothing to do with being alone for a little while. Nope.

Introverts typically also don’t dominate the floor or put themselves forward as much. They feel more reserved when you are around them, and they are harder to read than the extroverts.

If you’re stuck and trying to decide… introvert or extrovert? … well, someone just walked in the door and told you that the next seven days, you have obligations every single day. Did you nod and go back to reading this post, because that doesn’t matter to you, or did your gut clench and you feel a sudden panic because… PEOPLE ALL WEEK LONG?!?

You know what a lot of introverts do? Make plans in advance and then feel relieved if those plans fall through. Crazy, I know. But … people, man.

AN OITNB GUIDE: Are Harry and Louis in love?

You know sometimes I wonder what Harry and Louis would say love is based on the fact that they write/sing so many songs about it. After watching the valentine’s episode of Orange is the new black I realize that they don’t have to because they’ve show us again and again. So let’s talk about it. This post was bound to be made because Larry H/L and Larry OITNB keep popping up on my dash.

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