There are no pills to slow the growth of the flowers inside of him, but Kibum downs pill after pill in the hopes that maybe - just fucking maybe - but it won’t. So Kibum forces a smile to stay on his lips and keeps laughter locked tight, ready to bubble up (laughter, not petals - anything but petals) in his throat. He schedules lunches and dinners and outings and coffee dates with both Jonghyun and Taemin, coughs into napkins (shoves petals into his bag) and smiles and laughs and pretends because there is no fucking way they can know that he’s dying dying dead already.
can you do all the times aaron has been an adorable doofus? times that come to mind are when he 1. told robert he didnt need counselling because he had him 2. balanced the pen on his nose in the portacabin 3. called becky's ring 'precious'... don't know if you can think of more?
That’s such a cute idea and I’m still on my rewatch because I’m slow af but I swear…. My brain swtiched off and I can’t think of anything else rn #fakefan.
So, please, consider this a cry for help? Everyone?
Edit: Oh, wait. Got one. ‘I think it did the trick on Paddy as well :D’
Ok but I keep thinking about like this a/b/o au where Crowley heads a dangerous cabal of people involved in anything from embezzlement to intimidation to murder. In exchange for protection for his and Zachariah’s company, Michael allowed Crowley to take his brother Castiel for “mating”, which they all knew meant “live-in fuck toy” but decided to ignore because Cas is an omega, he’s less than his Alpha and Beta siblings and most importantly, he’s a pawn to be used.
And at least Crowley didnt bite him, didnt officially make him his mate so he’s not bound to him, but the second Cas finds out he’s pregnant, something changes in his complacency to Crowley, and he immediately starts planning his escape. He wont let his child suffer through the trauma of living in Crowley’s power, or worse, risking his Aunt Naomi taking the child to groom him into another pawn in her and Zachariah’s twisted social climb. Especially if the pup presents as Omega.
So he sneaks into the computer at night, looking for cheap houses anywhere to rent, in small minuscule towns because they’re harder to find him in and Crowley will expect him to run to big cities where he’s got distant family in New York and Chicago. He swipes one of Michael’s bank cards and takes out $15000, grabs an old pickup truck from the company garage that no one will notice is missing (but he stills screws off the plates when he’s an hour out of LA), and bolts.
And then 2, 3 months pregnant omega!cas moving into a Alpha!dean’s small town in Lawrence, quiet, unannounced, and barely noticed. But Dean’s driving home from his mechanic’s shop with the windows rolled down because it’s July and 92 degrees out. He smells vulnerable pregnant omega cut through the air from the open window and slows down until he sees Cas, stooped in the small truck trying to pick up a box and get it in the house without putting the wrong amount of pressure on the tiny pup growing inside him. And dean can’t help himself because it’s hot as balls, the guy is pregnant, and he can’t smell anyone else’s scent around the truck so he’s definitely alone lifting heavy boxes and that’s so not good for a pregnant person.
Except dean doesn’t expect to see the absolutely terrified look in Cas’s eyes when an unfamiliar alpha gets too close to him and his pup, and suddenly he feels like he knows why Cas is pregnant and alone and quietly moving into a small town in Nowhere, Kansas. Cas of course, is terrified that Dean is an Alpha sent by Crowley to find him and bring the omega back to the abusive Alpha to whom his brother Michael basically sold him to.
So Dean backs up and slowly introduces himself, asks if he can help because he really shouldnt be doing heavy lifting in his condition, and its only a few boxes anyway. Cas is wary, but he doesnt smell anything unpleasant about dean under the layers of oil and grease and faint metallic smell that comes from spending hours fixing cars, so he lets dean carry the boxes into the house, just past the door. He doesnt tell dean his name, but Dean pointedly doesnt ask anything of Cas except how he’s feeling and if he’s in any pain. He refers Cas to Ellen, who’s got a pregnancy and pediatrics practice 10 minutes away, makes small talk about where to eat and get cheap groceries, offers to fix up the truck and tells him where Cas can find him most days, at work or at home seven blocks away. Cas only mutters a few short responses and
Dean doesnt see Cas again for almost two weeks, but worry and concern and something else compels him to drive by Cas’ house everyday and glance over to make sure everything looks okay. Then Cas shows up at the shop, looking down at his feet like a small child who’s been told to be seen and not heard, and asks if Dean can take a look at the truck, because its making weird noises.
And from there Dean slowly starts to wiggle his way into Cas’ life, dropping by the house to compulsively check on the truck, starts running through the park because he learns Cas like to read under the trees, shows up at Ellen’s office to bring by lunch more often since Cas got a job as a receptionist there. Cas starts to open up around Dean, starts laughing at his jokes and even letting it slip that Ellen thinks he could be a good medical assistant with the way he interacts with the omegas and kids that come into the office.
Dean’s obviously protective of Cas and the pup growing in his belly, always asks Cas how he feels and if he needs anything. Cas is 7 months pregnant when Dean finally asks Cas out on a date, no pressure, something casual like a movie. Cas says he’ll think about it, and then suddenly Cas calls out of work 3 days in a row, and Ellen gets worried and asks Dean to make sure Cas is ok. Cas doesnt answer the door, but Dean’s worried as shit that somethings wrong with Cas or the baby and he /technically/ breaks into the house but hes got a reason so it doesnt count.
But while Cas does have a little bit of a cold, he’s mostly wallowing in his bed, pregnant and anxious and hormonally and emotionally exhausted, and he finally tells Dean his story. Because he doesnt want to be someone else’s pretty little omega even though he knows Dean isnt Crowley or Michael or Zachariah and he knows Dean is a good person and Alpha and he wants to be with Dean more then anything but he doesnt want to go back to being less than a person.
And Dean just wraps him up in his arms and mutters nonsense into his ear until Cas calms down and promises that he’ll respect whatever Cas wants to do and wont go faster than what makes Cas comfortable and Cas nods, dried tears on his face, and asks if Dean would stay with him. Dean smiles and makes grilled cheeses for them and he lays in bed with Cas and they watch ridiculous reality TV until Cas is sleepily slumping onto Dean’s shoulder and Dean is yelling at every stupid person on the screen. And as he’s slowly drifting off while Dean rubs against the crick in his back, making sure not to put a possessive hand on Cas’ belly so he wont feel threatened, and the last thing Dean hears Cas say before he starts snoring softly is “this isnt the worst first date I’ve been on”, and Dean cant help but laugh, jostling Cas on his shoulder.
They go quickly from there, kissing a week later, sloppy and rushed handjobs within the month. When Cas enters his last month of pregnancy, he’s stuck in this constant seesaw between whole-body discomfort and horny like he’s in heat and unable to do anything about it since he’s officially too big for any kind of “strenuous activity”, and Dean just thinks he’s downright adorable when he pouts in his bed that he’s too big to do anything, especially after Ellen demands that she had better not see him for the next three months unless he’s coming in as a patient.
So they patiently wait until Cas bravely makes it through 32 hours of labor and baby Emma is born, and shes the most beautiful tiny little creature Deans ever seen, and he wants her to be his. As Cas doses off to sleep with the infant nursing at his chest, he mumbles over to Dean “as soon as I stop feeling like I got run over by an 18-wheeler, I’m gonna bite you, and you better bite me back.” and Dean just smiles and kisses Cas’ forehead and says “whatever you want baby,” and holds Emma in his arms after Cas falls asleep and she’s done nursing and just stares at the two perfect people who he loves so much.
YOU DONT UNDERSTAND I WANT TO EXPAND THIS INTO A 50K FIC AND POUR ALL MY EMOTIONS INTO IT AND I DONT HAVE TO TIME DX
ALSO how do I link people in posts, if anyone wants to give me a quick lesson????
I don't usually like applying the term "queerbait" to Japanese media since it was made specifically with western shows/culture in mind (that and the definition seems to change slightly depending on who you ask), but y/oi seems like the kind of show that tumblr would normally peg as queerbaiting.
there is no such thing as ‘queerbait’ in asian media. people dont give a FUCK. but the queerbait element of y o i which is targeted and marketed towards western fans is so obvious and i cant believe they still fell for it.
there was a chinese tv series last yr which is widely popular and will be considered as ‘queerbait’ if put in the western context but did anyone say anything?? ofc not. they just sit and enjoy the show and not caring if there actually are lgbt characters or not, unlike western fandoms who cry queerbait bc their o tee pee didnt become ‘canon’ (throwing shade at a certain fandom)
in the eastern fandom nobody here cares if vk is canon or not. they just ship it and everything’s ok. there are no 5k meta posts explaining why they are canon. western fandoms and asian fandoms are fundamentally different and i just really want to remind people of that.
but i agree with you anon, queerbait shouldnt be applied to asian media in general but i just want to put it in a western context bc so many fans/antis are from the west
suddenly i came back to live to make a small rant about baekhyun’s acting !! seriously, he did so goddamn well. even in the begin of the show, he did so wel portraying a young youthful and playful prince i was honestly surprised. first time acting and he does it like that?? wow. im not even being biased or anything. the last scene he did, the death scene. i knew that it was coming i was prepared and thought i wouldnt cry, but god i sobbed for atleast an hour and had to pause the episode to get some air. his facial expressions, his voice, i couldnt help but let the tears flow. the way he couldnt believe his wife was gone literally, he portrayed so well that a young man who just fell inlove loses his most precious possesion. and that hurt! because i didnt think he’d be able to pull it off. his voice when the arrow hit him was so on point i was shook™. barely able to talk but still struggling trough it. ofcourse i wanted a happy ending for wang eun and soon deok, but i cant help but love his death scene, how beautiful he did it. im so proud of him you don’t even understand, he did so well. ive fallen even more inlove with byun baekhyun and i didnt think it was possible. i hope the best for him, that he gets cast in many movies and shows because his acting skills are wonderful and he so much talent. good job baekhyun im so fucking proud of you.
so my friends date cancelled on him and I was trying to comfort him right after it happened and tried talking him into making plans again and stuff but it wasnt helping and now I guess he’s depressed because he won’t talk to me and idk, I am worried about him but at the same time I’m annoyed with him because the last thing he texted me the other day was that he was crying and he wouldnt answer after that so I was afraid that he had gone and done something stupid and didnt know that he was okay until he watched my snapchat story today. I was worried and he wouldnt answer any texts or calls or anything
that one post i made about neglect has gotten a huge and shocking amount of positivity and im honestly so happy about that it makes me wanna cry but
hh maybe i worded things wrong because people have commented and called me out for throwing csa survivors under the bus?? i really didnt intend to do that, i was just making a point that the overwhelming majority of posts on this side of tumblr are for csa survivors, and as a csa survivor myself, im like? extremely glad there’s so much to help us? i never meant anything negative by it but i seemed to have caused some confusion there
heard you like curly! (sorry I didnt have anything else to draw) but I really like your blog so I wanted to draw something for you! also, the submit thingy is only letting me submit one? but ,,,i made 3? so i guess should i submit those after you get this one or like? message it to you? (lemme know maybe? i dont wanna bother you tho)? idk, just keep bloggin!
(THANK YOU SO MUCH OML IM GANNA CRY PLEASE MESSAGE ME ITS SO GOOD I CANT EVEN DRAW A LINE😭❤️❤️❤️)
aaaah im sorry i feel really bad i just skimmed ur blog when i sent my thoughts on kara :(( i didnt mean to add to u feeling bad or be all discoursey i hope u feel better! at the end kf the day its just an anime
no it’s fine you didn’t cause anything! despite my lack of a response, I did read your opinion on kara and I genuinely did appreciate it so no worries
I dont know why people say that Ron doesnt deserve Hermione, Ron really deserved Hermione cause He is the one who steps forward to catch her from a falling chandelier while Harry and Draco ran away to get into safety. And he is the one who sacrifices his life in the movie (philosophers stone where he sacrifices his life in a chess so harry and hermione can pass through) he is the one who followed harry’s decision to follow the spiders even though his afraid of it. Ron is not a coward! And Hermione cries for him cause she LOVES him. And it will not change anything. Dramione and Fredmione are nonsense cause they didnt have any relationship especially Draco, he is the one who makes her cry in Chamber of Secret by telling her that shes a “Mudblood” and Yes Ron Weasley stood for her and protected her. Harmony makes sense a little but Harry loves Ginny and we should respect that. Ron and Hermione love eachother so deeply and as far as i know Hermione and Harry only treated eachother as brother and sister and know they are already relatives cause Harry married Ginny then Hermione married Ron. And actually they lived happily ever after. So stop messing around. Focus on Romione’s bitter/sweet relationship.
SO I SAW DANIEL ANTHONY PADILLA IN CHIPOTLE TODAY AND I WANTED TO SAY HI BUT I DIDNT WANT TO BE RUDE BECAUSE HE WAS ORDERING AND I WAS SITTING ALONE ON A TABLE AND HE LITERALLY JUST JOINED ME BECAUSE THERE WAS NO SPACE LEFT AND I DIDNT SAY ANYTHING HE WAS JUST ON HIS PHONE RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FACE EATING HIS CHIPOTLE AND I MENTALLY SCREAMED HE WAS SO BEAUTIFUL
okay but can we talk about chanyeol crying alone in a car because he didnt want to spoil anyones mood even though he had so much shit building up like im fucking crying too because thats so selfless.thats legit one of the most selfless things ive ever heard because when youre about to break its human instinct to reach out for something- someone- to help u stay in one piece or to help u rebuild but chanyeol, my beautiful big hearted chanyeol, kept it all to himself because he didnt want to be a burden on anyone else and if that shit doesnt fuck u up like ????? he gives so much of himself away and never expects anything in return and im so heartbroken. im so fucking heartbroken because hes so good and this world can be so awful. im legit fucking crying i love chanyeol with all of my smol dying heart and i think he deserves the best. the absolute best.
and i actually didnt want to post because i´m very, very, VERY shy. Anyway it´s fanart, which i drew like a couple of days ago. I drew Juvia Jockser from Fairy Tail, which belongs to Hiro Mashima, since she is my current favourite character (beside queen Sakura Uchiha <3) and the sole reason i still keep up with Fairy Tail.
(if anything happens to my baby i will cry, Mashima pls…)
The backround looks kind of weird and i liked her outfit in white, that´s why i decided to post two versions of Juvia. Why a military theme? I don´t know either =D