so i am indebted to you

Namjoon: *speaks English*

Jungkook: That’s my father ladies and gentleman. I am his son. I am Kim Namjoon’s son. I will make him proud one day.

Seokjin: Bitch, that’s my husband. Look at him go. Look. At. My. Man. Go. When will your faves fucking ever?

Hoseok: Just smile and wave, boys. Smile and wave.

Yoongi: Man, the fuck are you saying? I was the one with the tongue technology… Kumamon would never disrespect me this way.

Taehyung: H-h-human? What is this godly tongue in which you speak? How has thou not graced us with this commodity? Teach me your ways, savior. I shall forever be indebted to your kindness.

Jimin: Yeah, boi. Watch dat tongue go. Dat man so damn f9. Bitch, my panties droppin’ over here, c’mere and give me some lovin’

honestly there are two kinds of people who make history posts on this blue hellsite, and they’re all either



“okay so unlike you basic bitches who can’t read, i’ve been doing some actual research so guess what? i, a 20-something in my first year of college, am now the only and leading expert on my chosen topic. yall better listen to me bc i’m right and you’re wrong, you uneducated babies. my interpretation of the source material is now absolute truth and yours is stupid and yall should be happy that i’m even telling you this, you worthless slime people, so fuck off. i despise my audience”

to my heart.

i have lost count of how many times I have let you down and disappointed you.
there’s been days whereby I felt you sing to my anatomy a little softer
because I knew how crippled you were.
days whereby I’ve felt you surfacing to my tongue from my throat in search of a breather because i was careless with how i handled you - how i allowed other individuals to caress you.
you and i have been through the thickest storms together,
i ushered you into the raging skies without being aware of how exposed and vulnerable you were.
they were times i knew you wanted to give up on me,
you skipped a couple of symphonies, and hushed backing vocals,
but you didn’t halt.
you knew how much of you i needed to live a full life, a rich life (rich in experience) so you gave me all of you again - in all those pieces, broken but whole.
i know things aren’t perfect yet, i know you’re still healing,
but i want you to know that i am not the same person, because of all that i have placed you through.
you are me, i am you, therefore your pain, was my pain.
i am wiser now, thick skinned, grown, spiritually full
and i have grown enough to allow someone in again.
i, solemly promise, to guard you with all that is me and all that i am.

to my mind

you know too much that isn’t true.
you have absorbed myths about yourself that were uttered by individual’s whom hardly even knew you. they were times i had to suppress your glory for acceptance, and i am incredibly remorseful for this. you remember too much that needs to be forgotten.
they are things i have planted in you that i want to harvest,
people i’ve allowed too close to you that i wish i hadn’t.
you are enough.
your substance is not ‘uptight’ and your thoughts are a beautiful scenery.
i want you to know you are limitless.
i couldn’t have known how to place feelings on paper if it was not for you.
thank you for remaining sane, in the midst of insanity.
mostly, thank you for reminding me of who i am.

to the soul &/or spirit

i let too many words touch you.
i allowed the tangible to have more of an impact on my being than i did you.
i felt you plead with me for food in form of supplications, prayers, meditation and writing but i had damaged you so much so, i didn’t know where would be the correct place to start.
i heard you cry, you housed the body and its contexts but it must have felt like you were a visitor in your own home with how much i shun you.
i felt your emptiness, and your hurt.
i am you.
and i am ever indebted to you.

—  wprn 
Desperate Times (Joker x Reader)

Okay. I’m so sorry guys, I know it’s been about 80000 years since I’ve posted but I’ve just had really bad writers block and I’ve been really busy with work and school and whatnot but here it is. 

This was a request from an anon: “Could you please make an imagine where the reader is given to Mistah J because they were in debt to him. He immediately because super obsessed with her, but the reader is very scared of him <3 <3″ 

This is like decently close to the request just i couldn’t figure out what to write. I’m sorry!!!!! 


“Please, no Mr. Joker, I’ll give you anything. You can have anything.” You saw the man beg for his life, for another chance. It disgusted you to see him like this. To see the man you once knew as your father beg for drugs. You shook your head in disgust and turned away. You had no idea why but he insisted you be there with him, maybe it’s ‘cause he knew it could very well be one of his last days, if not his last.

“Anything?” The green haired man purred as he circled your father. Your father nodded and looked you in the eyes as if he were apologizing. Confusion clouded your mind as to why he would be apologizing. Maybe it was for being a shitty father, or for making you witness this horrid interaction.

“You can have my daughter,” he stated simply. You eyes snapped open and your back straightened.

“Excuse me? No you can’t have me and what the fuck dad?” You said in disbelief.

“Oh she’s feisty, I like her. You’ve got yourself a deal there Mr. You can keep your life, and your drugs, in exchange for this lovely creature,” he said as his looked you up and down, drinking in every detail of your body.

“No. Dad what the hell is wrong with you? You’re not actually serious are you?” Your voice dropped as the look in his eyes confirmed that he was in fact serious about selling you to the Joker.

“I’m sorry Y/N. There’s nothing else I can do,” he muttered, embarrassed that he had gotten to this point. Your heart broke as you watched the man you once looked up to pick drugs over his own daughter.

“Oh we are going to have so much fun together little miss Y/N,” the Joker snarled in your ear. You flinched as his hands came down on your shoulders.

“Dad… How could you?” He looked down in shame and walked out of the room without a word. Tears were streaming steadily down your face as you stared at the door he had just left through.

“Hm. Dads, am I right?” The Joker broke the silence in the room. “Hi doll face, I’m the Joker, the man that your father is seriously indebted to, and you belong to me now! You can call me Mr. J,” he said, extending a hand towards you as if to shake hands. You glanced down at his hand and ignored the offer. “Oh sweetheart now that’s just rude. That won’t fly doll. Tsk, tsk, tsk. Gonna have to teach you a lesson then. Take a seat,” he said as he pulled you down to sit next to him. His face got serious and you knew you were in trouble. “You belong to me now. That means you do what I want, when I want, and where I want. If you disobey me sweetcheeks, you get punished. Are we clear doll face?” He gripped your cheeks, forcing you to look at him. You nodded and he released your face. “What’s your name sweets?”

“Y/N,” you said simply. He stared at you with a bored look as if he was expecting you to say more. You stared back in defiance and he let out a long displeased groan.

“Not a talker are we? I can change that y’know,” he said with a maniacal smile as he pulled his shiny gun out of the holster under his jacket. He lifted the gun and caressed your soft cheeks with the cool, hard metal. You stared him dead in his crazy eyes as he tried to scare you with the powerful weapon in his hands. His face fell as he realized you weren’t scared and you wouldn’t open up to him. “Now tell me doll, am I gonna have to find some other ways of getting you to open that pretty mouth of yours?”

“Fine. What do you want to know. You get three questions, choose wisely,” you said, boredom dripping in your words. Your father had dragged you in to a world of guns and violence, this was not the first time you had been threatened at gun point and you had a feeling it wouldn’t be the last.

The Joker raised his non-existent eyebrow and stared you down. He was vastly impressed by your cool composure and lack of fear. Most in your shoes would be trembling, begging for their dear lives but you, you just sat there, bored with his games and his old intimidation tactics.

“And who do you think you are making demands?” He sneered angrily.

“I’m just trying to get this show on the road. Question one, two more to go. Like I said Mr. J, choose wisely.”

“I like your spunk sweetcheeks. Alright, why aren’t you scared? Most people would be terrified out of their minds, why not you?” He inquired.

“You’re not the first basket case my father has pissed off. I’ve been tied down, beat, interrogated, the works. I’m used to it now. My father owes a lot of people a lot of money but what they always fail to realize is that I mean little to nothing to him. I must admit, I’m a little impressed. You’re different than the others. He’s offered me up before y’know? No one’s ever agreed but you, you fell for it,” you explained. He stared at you with a confused look spread across is tattooed porcelain skin. “Stop staring,” you said.

He stared at you open mouthed and went to wrap his hand around your neck only to retract quickly. “You doll, are special, that’s for sure. I can’t wait for all the fun we’re going to have. Last question, do you like the left or the right side of the bed?” He threw his head back as he howled with laughter, his infamous laugh ringing through your ears and the small room you two were seated in.

You rolled your eyes and mentally groaned at the stupidity of this man. “Right,” you said as you got up from the small couch. “Can we go now? I would really like to get out of here and take a shower. I’m assuming there’ll be towels and whatnot ready for me? Clothes maybe?” He shook his head at you and wrapped his hand in your hair and yanked back.

“Now listen here Y/N, just because you’re not scared of me doesn’t mean you shouldn’t be. I’m sure you’ve heard of some of the things I’ve done and trust me honey, I can do worse,” he spoke in a deep, threatening voice. You felt the tip of his gun press against the center of your back. You had to admit that you were a little scared. The other men you dealt with were nothing like him. He was deadly, ruthless, and he could crack at any moment. “Now that we have the all cleared up let’s get this show on the road shall we?” His mood switched instantly.

A while later you pulled up to a lavish place. You were unsure of what to expect from him but you figured it shouldn’t surprise you that he lives in such an extravagant set up. He pulled you up from your elbow and you followed him inside. It was beautiful as you had expected upon seeing the outside of the house. Gold everything, marble counters, purple accents strewn around the house.

You glanced around, taking in what would be your new house.

“It’s beautiful,” you mumbled to yourself mostly. His hands came down on your shoulders in a gentle way, his hands travelling up and down your shoulders. You leaned your head to the side allowing a pleasant stretch to the tense muscles of your neck. “Do you live here all alone?” you inquired.

“No, the maid lives here, a few of my more trusted henchmen, for security measures. Not that I couldn’t protect myself, just don’t wanna do all the work myself,” he answered. You hummed in acknowledgement and continued to scan the room around you. “The room’s upstairs, I already had some of my men pick up your stuff from your father’s place, if you need anything else just tell me and I’ll send someone out to get it,” he said as he walked to the kitchen. You nodded, and dragged yourself up to what looked like a spare room. You plopped down on the bed and let out a long sigh.

So this is what my life is like now, you thought to yourself, looking around the lavish room. Joker stepped up to the doorway and stared you down before sitting down next to you on the big fluffy bed. “Why am I here Joker?”

“Please, call me Mr. J, Joker sounds… Too formal. I want you here because you’re a beautiful girl, your father did me wrong, and I want to make him pay.”

“Hah… Well jokes on you Mr. J. My father doesn’t care about me. Keeping me here is doing nothing but giving him the chance to shamelessly waste away without me yelling at him. You’re doing him a favor,” you explained. He nodded and spread a wide silver grin across his pale tattooed face.

“Y’know doll, maybe I just want your lovely company,” he said sarcastically.

“Y’know, maybe I just can’t stand your company,” you retorted. Before you could react, his hand came across your skin with a harsh sting. The force behind it made you fall back and place a tender touch on your cheek. You looked down, cowering away in fear. You loved to put on the tough girl act. Sure, you had dealt with crazies but nothing that ever came close to the Joker.

A slow tear dripped down your soft cheek. His eyes widened at the realization that he had made you cry. “Can you please leave me alone,” you muttered.

“Shit Y/N are you okay doll?” His voice was a bit quieter than before.

“Please just leave.” You were shaking, terrified to be in the same room as this psychotic, dangerous man.

“What’s wrong sweets?” You looked at him with a look of disbelief.

“You just slapped me across the face. If I’m being totally honest, I’m terrified right now. You scare the living daylights out of me. The moment I saw you I was scared for my life. I don’t want you in here. If I’m going to have to live with you I want to be left alone… I don’t want to be scared for my life. Please just go…” He looked at you, shock on his face.

“Alright. If you need something you can let someone know.” He placed a hand on your hunched back and left.

A small part of you felt bad for banishing him from your life but it wasn’t right for him to treat you in such an awful manner. You let out a sigh and laid down on the comfortable bed. Before you knew it you had slipped in to a deep sleep, forgetting about the disaster your life had become.

Catarinalosss’ Book!Malec Fic Recs

Anonymous said: 
Hey! I love your blog, and I was wondering if you could recommend some malec fics to me? I can’t seem to find book malec fic anywhere. Thank you!

Ohohoh, you’re going to be sorry you asked, anon.

I have the same problem with finding good Book!Malec fics, since they’re all buried under the gargantuan pile of Show!Malec fics. Luckily, I have the procrastination skills of a teenager my age, so I was able to go through that enormous pile, and filter through the Book!Malec fanfictions. I’ll sort this masterpost with my favourite authors (because some people have the writing skills of a genius and I love all of their fics) , my favourite series’s, and my favourite fanfictions. Enjoy!


Spun on

Oh man, I could go on and on why the author is one of the best fanfiction writer I’ve ever seen, but I’ll keep it brief for everyone’s sake. The plots of the fics are so amazing, they’re short and to the point, which is an immediate winner in my book, yet they have so much detail. They’ve got the characters spot-on, they’ve got the right ratio of fluff to drama, and they have amazing Malec content. Keep in mind that those are all Book!Malec fics. Also, this author has a lot of work based off the first three books in the series, there aren’t that many after CoFA.

I could literally list all their fanfictions as my favourites, but I can’t really do that, so without further ado, here are my top five:        

*Pride Goeth  [T, 1/1]

Summary: Magnus is attractively arrogant. Alec is horrendously sick for two days, but he gets to be right for once, so it’s worth it. “We should call it a holiday. ‘The Day Alec Was Right and Magnus Was Wrong’.”

Notes: Definitely one of my top three, this is so amazing. Great storyline, well written characters, and full of fluff. 

*Snippets [T, 6/6]

Summary: One hundred and fifty one-sentence Magnus/Alec fics - everything from angst to crack to pure fluff. “I don’t think writing ‘Property of Magnus Bane’ on the back of my jeans is the ‘subtle sign of possession’ you were looking for.”

Notes: This fic takes you on a journey. It’s short and sweet, terribly angsty at times, and I love it

*Payment & Indebted [K+, 1/1] [K+, 1/1]

Summary (Payment): “There were some experiences that just couldn’t be bought, and being shyly hit on by a drowsy nine-year-old was one of them.” Because I am in love with the concept of Magnus and Alec meeting long before the party.

Indebted: Sequel to Payment. When Magnus told him “In nine or ten years, come find me and then we’ll talk,” he probably hadn’t meant “Nearly get yourself killed by a Greater Demon so I have to heal you again.” Alec was better at this when he was nine.

Notes: These are so sweet. I love the idea of Magnus meeting Alec as a child, and this author has captured the idea perfectly. The sequel is amazing as well, definitely check it out.

Understanding [K+, 1/1]

Summary: Robert gets rocks thrown at him, Valentine is occasionally not a total sociopath, and Max almost ends up being named ‘Templeton’ - in short, eleven people who impacted Maryse Lightwood’s life, in one way or another.

Notes: This POV so refreshing, they’re all really great stories and I love Alec’s especially, it’s such an unusual fic and I adore it. (Malec at the end)

Occupational Hazard [K+, 1/1]

Summary: Preseries. “It’s tragic,” Isabelle says, “but you’ve been demoted to family pillow. Deal.”

Notes: The family dynamic in this is so great, I love all the alluding hints to the series and how the Lightwoods interact with each other (this isn’t technically Malec but it’s still great)

CumberbatchCritter on AO3

I loooove this author so much. They have such an amazing way of telling a short, fluffy story. I re-read this authors works all the time, because I adore them so much, and the amount of Malec fluff in these is almost too much, but not quite. Again, these are all Book!Malec fanfictions. There are a lot of sick!fics, which I love, but other people may not like, so just a heads up, but they are extremely well written.

Here are my top five:

*Out of Character [T, 1/1] 

Summary: “… The city… was devastated and… there was a lake of blood… I saw you… reflected in it… and you were drowning…” He raised his head, looking blearily up towards Alec. “I think it’s a trap… and I can’t lose you… Alexander.

“Magnus has a dream. One of those dreams. When he comes to, all he can focus on is getting to Alec.

Notes: Usually these fics of Magnus-having-a-vision-of-Alec-dying are so overdone, but this fic comes in my top three, it’s so amazing.

 **Marred Beauty [M, 1/1]

Summary: Alec has scars.

He thinks that they’re not important.
Magnus calls them battle scars.

Notes: This is probably my favourite from this author, be warned, the Malec content in this is extraordinarily adorable. Tw - mentioned attempted suicide and scars.

Poison [T, 1/1]

Summary: Magnus knew there was something to be said about being on his knees in front of his boyfriend, but he guessed the effect was lessened slightly when he was on his knees because he hunched over the toilet, desperately trying not to throw up into it.

Notes: Magnus gets food poisoning. Fluff ensues. Enough said.

When in Doubt, Add Glitter [T, 1/1]

Summary: Magnus wanted to kill whoever had given Alec the flu, because he hated seeing his favourite Shadowhunter (and boyfriend) so miserable.

Notes: Alec contracts the Flu. Fluff-filled, very cute.  

*Wounds Left Open [T, 1/1]

Summary: “I’m serious, Alec,” Magnus said. “I had a knife against my throat and all I could think about was you… black hair, blue eyes, and the smile I fell for.”

Notes: Sort of a filler in between the return from Edom and the Malec make up, a little AU-ish, but still a favourite of mine.

Noisyhanners on AO3

AAAAA. This author is AMAZING. Their works are so sweet and nice and CUTE! If you like Lightwood-Bane family antics, this is the author for you. Max and Rafe are good kids, Alec and Magnus are great parents, fluff is STUFFED into these fics. All Book!Malec fics!

There are only four fics, so I’ll list them all as my top four:

*Rafe’s First Sleepover [K+, 1/1]

Notes: Rafael and Tavvy are future parabatai goals, featuring Emma and Jules. Very cute.            

*Max Goes to Prom [K+, 1/1]

Notes: My absolute FAVOURITE. They’re just a normal, happy, functioning family :“))

*Cat Comes to Dinner [K+, 1/1] 

Summary: Catarina not-so-secretly loves the Lightwood-Bane house.

Notes: Pure family antics, in Catarina’s POV. I highly recommend, super sweet.

*Total Bliss [K+, 1/1]

Summary: Alec and Magnus have a soft conversation over wine one rainy Saturday night-in.


Thewholocked on AO3

I’m a sucker for alternate universes, and this author has tons. Hogwarts, Childhood Friends and just pure fluff drabbles, this author has a LOT. Keep in mind that there are some show!malec fics, but there are twice as many Book!Malec fics. The writing is a bit punctuated, but I don’t really mind. Pretty sure these are all Book!Malec again.

Top five:      

*Hitting (On) [K+, 1/1]

Summary: In which Alec and Magnus are Beaters of opponent Quidditch teams and hate (love) each other.

Notes: Ahhhhh. Don’t you just love enemies to friends to lovers AND Hogwarts AU’s?

*And This is How it Starts [T, 1/1] 

Summary: Basically Malec friend to lovers au.

Notes: Childhood Friends and drunken kissing. What could go wrong? 

The Champions [K+, 1/1]

Summary: Alec is from Durmstrang, Magnus is from Beauxbaton and they both happen to be the champions.

Notes: Magnus is from Beauxbaton, Alec is from Durmstrang, and they’re competing in the Triwizard Tournament. Fluff. 

In Love [K+, 1/1]

Summary: ‘A diaper. An actual freaking diaper. I was looking for that last night, I wrecked our sock drawer trying to find it and-it’s not funny, Alexander!’
But Alec was laughing so hard he couldn’t even respond, his voice musical, his head thrown back and Magnus starting smiling too because Alec’s laugh was so contagious and so utterly honest.

Notes: Tooth-rotting fluff.

One Step at a Time [K+, 1/1]              

Summary: Alec and Magnus teach their son how to walk.

Notes: Adorable.   

thewarlocksbitch on AO3

This author does some amazing fanfiction, but be warned, there are a load of smut fanfictions. The non-smut and smut ones are REALLY cute, and well written, and some of my top 10.

Top five: 

like a mischievous teenager [E, 1/1]

Summary: 'my parents hate you so I’m sneaking you in at night for sex shhh’ malec high school au

Notes: Cute, and very smutty. 

fearless [K+, 1/1]

Summary: kiss in the accords hall from Alec’s pov

Notes: Hall of Accords. Need I say anything more 

surprise PDA [K+, 1/1]

Summary: prompt: i wasn’t gay but then i kissed you in front of some homophobes to piss them off and now im im kinda gay au (well actually I am gay but I’m closeted and didn’t know how much I like you)

Notes: ahhhhh this is so cute omg, I love how Alec is written in this.

*sleepover [T, 1/1]

“we’re in college and living in the same dorm, and I find you passed out in the elevator after a night out with friends” au

Notes: I just love college AU’s. Very cute.

*truth or dare? [T, 1/1]

Summary: malec highschool au with best friends to confused crushes after a truth or dare kiss and “Looks like we’ll be trapped for a while…”

Notes: Childhood BFF AU’s are the best. Really well written. 

LastHope on AO3

This author has everything. I love them. I feel as if most of what they write is canon in my mind, because it’s that good and that well written. There’s loads of Malec fics which are AMAZING, and some Heline fics which are SUPER GOOD and you should definitely check out. These are all Book!Malec.

Top five:

*A Conversation on Immortality [T, 1/1]

Summary: Aline comes to a realization, and seeks advice from the only person she can think of who knows what to do. Post-CoHF

Notes: This fic makes me cry every time I re read it. Amazing Malec, Heline, and Alec/Aline brotp. Highly recommend.

*Where Thou Diest, I Will Die [T, 1/1]

Summary: …and there will I be buried: The Angel do so to me, and more also. - Parabatai OathWhat happens to the other half of the parabatai bond when one dies?Alec’s side of the Battle of Brocelind Plain, after Jace was stabbed.

Notes: another heartbreaking fic, with Malec and platonic Jalec feels.

**Bewitching Bouquets [K+, 1/1]

Summary: All Magnus wanted was the cute blue-eyed man’s phone number. All Alec wanted was to be able to breathe.


To Love Someone That Much [T, 1/1]

Summary: Helen imparts some words of wisdom on Magnus about his past, and current, relationship with Alec before she leaves for Wrangel Island.

Notes: Pre-Malec make-up, when Helen kicks Magnus in the ass to get his act together. Another amazing fic.

*Secret Fights [K+, 1/1]

Summary: Alec and Magnus were supposed to have a happy relationship, not one like Mom and Dad’s. Isabelle hated hearing secret fights occurring in the middle of the night when the couples in question thought no one would hear them. She heard. Isabelle always heard.

Notes: During CoLS. THE ANGST.

Rena on AO3

Again, an amazing author which I highly recommend, they’ve got everything from sentence fics to chaptered. Such a beautiful writer.

Top five: 

Fragments [T, 1/1]

Summary: One hundred one sentence pieces of Magnus/Alec from angst to fluff. “Okay, I’m giving you exactly one minute to explain to me why and whereto all my clothes have vanished – and 'because they were black’ is not a valid answer.”

Notes: Amazing sentence fic, cute & funny

Five Times…. [T, 1/1]

Summary: ..Magnus Bane saved Alec Lightwood, and one time he couldn’t.

Notes: Hilarious fanfic, not what you think it is. 

These Fragments I Have Shored Against My Ruins [T, 1/1] 

Summary: In which Magnus lies wide awake at night and ponders over the fragility of their relationship.

Notes: Angsty af, but I love it.

Letters From Nowhere [T, 11/11]

Summary: A mysterious letter at the front door, with no indication who might have sent it. And if Alec wants to find that person, he has to solve the puzzle laid-out for him… 

Notes: Such a cute AU, I recommend this fic so much.

Kaleidoscope [T, 1/1]  

Summary: “At the height of laughter, the universe is flung into a kaleidoscope of new possibilities.” Drabble-collection.

Notes: Drabble collection. Very cute and occasionally angsty


Finding Out by jennynivea [T, 1/1]
How the different people in Alec’s life find out that he is engaged to Magnus. Includes Izzy and Simon, Jace and Clary, Aline and Helen and Maryse and Robert. With a dash of fluff, humor and heartfelt feels. 

Notes: Very funny, especially the Izzy and Simon section

Instruments of Chaos by pissedofsandwich [T, 1/1]
It all started with, “Marry me today.” Or, the one where Alec and Aline kicked ass in the Clave meeting. Or, basically, all of the official pairings cramped in one fic and caused chaos. 

Notes: This one is a bit cheesy, but I still love it. Notice the use of the unidentified snippets.

A Soft White Damn by twahtohnedskee [K+, 1/1]
She bet he was waiting for someone. Boys like that always were. She hoped that the girl was pretty, at least. By now, the boy’s cheeks were starting to color due to the cold. It was kind of adorable. She didn’t understand why anyone would keep a boy like that waiting. 

Notes: A beautiful fic, told in an outsiders POV.

We Can Try by prodigaldaughter13 [T, 1/1]
Jace is causing trouble once again, plotting to get Magnus and Alec back together. 

Notes: Basically someone’s take on how Magnus and Alec were going to get back together, it’s an adorable fic and I love it so much.

The Other Side by saraubs [T, 1/1]
Alec finds an old trunk full of mementos in Magnus’s closet and is upset to find that there’s nothing in there to remind Magnus of him. Or is there? Inspired by the short story “Magnus’s Vow”. 

Notes: Where Alec finds Magnus’ box of memories and gets a vision of all the moments featuring him important to Magnus. Very good ff.

Ask Me by himekohimura [K+, 1/1]
A short of the City of Glass scene. 

Notes: Aaaaa so cute!!!! I love re-reading this one.

Bits and Pieces by Take_Me_To_My_Fragile_Dreams [T, 3/?]
A collection of 1000 prompts all centering around Magnus and Alec.
Practical: “Magnus, sliding down a rainbow to reach the altar isn’t really the best idea, it’d probably spook the flying horses you’re so keen on having.”

Notes: A lovely sentence fic, ranging from fluff to angst

Don’t Touch My Heart (I Was Taken From The Start) by Take_Me_To_My_Fragile_Dreams [T, 1/1]
In a world where everyone has a soulmate whose name is tattooed on their wrist, Alec and Magnus are just trying to find one another among the masses. 

Notes: This is SUCH a beautiful fic. Honestly. If you like soulmate AU’s, this is the fic for you. 

Some Day by Take_Me_To_My_Fragile_Dreams [K+, 1/1]
Some day he’ll stop blaming Jace. (But not today). 

Notes: Hella cute phone conversation fanfic.

Of Weddings and Surnames by fakeditfromthewordgo [K+, 1/1]
'“I’ve met a lot of men–“ Jace snorted, and Magnus’ eyes narrowed– “but I don’t think anyone could forget Will Herondale.”’ 

Notes: Jace is nervous on his wedding day, and Magnus tells him about his ancestor. Not really Malec, but a cool fic anyways.

Flicker by may10baby [T, 1/1]
Set during the main battle of COA. Magnus’ POV as he rescues Alec from drowning. 

Notes: I have nothing to say except :“(((.

The Memory Room by ElvenAvari [K+, 1/1]
Imagine somebody who’s immortal having a gigantic room where all the walls are completely covered up with photos. Each one is of a different loved one whom they have outlived. 

Notes: *violent sobbing*

Open Doors by gigi_marlee [K+, 1/1]
The day Alec moved into Magnus’ loft in Brooklyn was the day he told his mother he was moving out.
It was easier to do when he practiced with Magnus.

Notes: Cute Mayrse and Alec dynamic, I really like this one.

Across the Realms by KataraAlchemist [T, 10/10]
It’s happened before, a shadowhunter moved wrong or just didn’t move fast enough, and the next moment they were gone. Sucked into another realm. And they never came home, not alive or in one piece anyhow. Now it is happening again, Alec is gone. 

Notes: This is such an emotional fic, it says in first person POV though, so don’t read if you don’t like.

things we’re good at by alicelightwoodbane [T, 1/1]
Notes: Post-CoHF. This is such a CUTE AND ADORABLE FIC! I cannot recommend this more.

Day 6: "Take my strength” Day by Malteser24 [K+, 1/1]
Notes: This fanfiction made me bawl like a baby, it’s such a sweet beautiful fic. Malec weddings are the best.

Very Good News by Kimmy [K+, 1/1]
Never had a phone call at three in the morning spelled good news. 

Notes: This is an amazing fic, adorable and sweet. :“))

Kiss the Teacher by Aristola Gracewell [T, 1/1]
Rainy days makes for lazy mornings. Magnus tries, and fails, to bribe his boyfriend to take a day off work. Being the sweetheart that he is, he offers to make-up for lost time by giving a nearly-tardy Alec a ride to work.
(Or: This is what happens when Alec’s students catch him kissing Magnus in the entryway.)


Boyfriend’s Lesser Talents by Aristola Gracewell [T, 1/1]
You hate cooking” Alec blurted out.
“But that doesn’t mean I’m not any good at it.”

Notes: Super sweet and domestic, I’m in love with this.

The Descent by GiveUpResistance [E, 10/10]
He brought a splash of colour, of life, to him when he sat down next to him with a graphite smudged face when he was fifteen, and after seven years of being his friend, Alec loves him still, falling harder and harder with each passing moment, with every word and look, every fight and every apology, a steepening descent. Malec AU set over seven long years of falling. 

Notes: Oh god. This fic made me laugh, cry, and everything in between. This is my favourite fanfic at the moment. It’s super angsty, sweet at the end, and will probably make you sob. tw for self harm.

A Splash of Colour by irie_eerie [K+, 1/1]
Alec always felt invisible, an outsider watching from the sidelines. Then he meets Magnus, a street painter who lives his dream in a world of color. “It just takes one person to make you feel like you belong. To make you feel special.” AU-AH, Malec. Inspired by the movie The Giant Mechanical Man. 


Harder Things to Say by Diabolus_Invictus [T, 1/1]
Following the events of 'City of Heavenly Fire’, Alec returns to Magnus’s apartment for the first time to figure out how this is going to work in the aftermath of… well, everything. 

Notes: This is such an amazing fic, it’s so good I consider it canon in my mind. HIGHLY RECOMMEND.

We’re Gonna Be Okay by Inrainbowz [K+, 1/1]
Isabelle observes Alec and Magnus and thinks that maybe, just maybe, everything will be fine. 

Notes: :“)))))))

Keep This Love in a Photograph by blushingkurt [K+, 1/1]
Magnus Bane, being immortal, had a hard time remembering things that have happened in his past. That’s why he turns to photography - to capture the more important aspects of his life so he can look back and remember them forever.

NotesThis is an amazing short fic, it’s a million times better than what the description says.

Frankly, Catarina by A_Graph_You_Look_At [K+, 1/1]
You are aware of the immense inequality in the dynamic of your relationship, aren’t you?”

NotesLovesick Magnus is one of the best Magnus’. Great fic.

Six Stages of Falling in Love by vulturemomen [T, 1/1]
Notes: This fic does not get enough credit. It’s so well written and beautiful.

They Go in Pairs by Inrainbowz [K+, 1/1]
All I want is the knowledge that I won’t ever have to chose between the two of you.“
Alec tries to understand the problem between Jace and Magnus. He is not asking them to be the best of friends, but he needs his boyfriend and his brother to get along a minimum.

Notes: A great fanfic. :)))))

Hold Onto Those by Inrainbowz [T, 1/1]

“Do you want to make a wish?” “Fuck off.” “Come on, it’s just a question. What would you wish for? If you could ask for anything.” “I would wish for this pain to disappear.” “Ah. A classic. My wish is to have the sentence "Be careful of what you wish for” tattooed on my forehead. But for now, it’s all about you.“

Notes: This fic doesnt get enough credit, and its so much more than the description. A take on post-CoLS

slow, steady and a little unusual by softlightwood [T, 1/1]

Isabelle blinks slowly.

"He kissed me, and i- i fell. Down the stairs”

Notes: tHIS IS SO CUTE, a take on the aftermath of malec’s first date, a little au-ish.

hold onto me by softlightwood [T, 1/1]

Is this the worst of it? Are you hurt anywhere else?" "I think I may have sprained my ankle” Magnus answers thoughtfully. “And my pride. But that’s the main source of the problem, I imagine”

Notes: Magnus gets hurt, Alec takes care of him :”) 

we’re good, we’re solid, we’re gold by softlightwood [K+, 1/1]

A rune comes to Clary in a dream. She knows exactly who it’s meant for.

Notes: If this doesn’t become canon, I’ll cry.

kiss me until the morning light by alicelightwoodbane [M, 1/1]

There are lots of different kisses.

Notes: post CoHF and adorable.   

Priorities by Pendragon2601 [M, 1/1] 

When Alec is badly injured after a routine patrol, Magnus is called to help save his life. Once he is cured, they then have a much needed talk about their prioities as parents. 

Notes: :”)


The Lightwood-Bane Chronicles by alecdvnpt
Three amazing stories following the life of the Lightwood-Bane’s. I would highly recommend this series, it’s so fluffy and adorable and great, I love it so much.

So that’s all! I’ll definitely add to the list when I come across, enjoy!

talkfeministtheorytome  asked:

I just wanted to say thank you for writing "Buffering." Thank you for putting into words so many feelings and emotions. Thank you for being you. You’re so incredibly brave and strong. I can’t even fathom the courage you have for sharing things that I can’t imagine telling my closest friend, let alone the whole world (or whoever reads your book). To know that someone else has asked the same questions that I have gives me hope. Was there anything in particular that inspired you to write your book?

Thank you so much for your kind words and for reading the book. I am so deeply touched that so many people took the time to listen to the story I had to share. I am so blessed to be given the opportunity to do so when all of us have our own stories to tell. 

BUFFERING: UNSHARED TALES OF A LIFE FULLY LOADED has meant the world to me. I am indebted forever to my online community for making it possible for me to tell my tales.

Littlefinger was not trying to get under Jon’s skin, he was trying to do the opposite

I think few people misunderstood this scene. 

“I delivered his bones myself”

He wants Jon to know what a great deed he did. Ned Stark rests in his family crypt because of him.

“Do give Lord Tyrion my best when you see him.”

He wants Jon to know that he is cool with a man Jon trusts and considers a good man. LF wants Jon to know it was through him Tyrion sent the bones of his father. 

“I was sorry when he died.”

He is not mocking Jon. He is trying to let Jon know that he shared his pain. 

“Your father and I had our differences, but he loved Cat very much. So did I.”

Telling Jon his daddy and him had something precious they both loved, it linked them in a way, put them on the same side. 

“She wasn’t fond of you, was she? Well it appears she vastly underestimated you. Your father and brothers are gone, yet here you stand, king in the north. Last best hope against the coming storm.”

Again he is not using a condescending tone. He is trying to praise Jon. Get on his good side. He is sucking up to him.

“If it weren’t for me you would’ve been slaughtered on that battlefield.”

Reminding Jon how he owes him for saving his life, how he should thank him. 

“You have many enemies my king, but I swear to you I am not one of them”

Promising Jon he is on his side, kissing his ass like no one has ever done before. 


I love Sansa as I loved her mother.

This! This is why he was kissing Jon’s ass this whole time, reminding him how, and for what Jon should feel indebted to him for so when he asks for Sansa, Jon would give her to him. He is the king, if Jon ordered Sansa to marry Littlefinger, she couldn’t say no. 

Many people complained Littlefinger is dumb for doing this. I think the show Littlefinger is obviously no where as cunning, or intelligent as the book Littlefinger but this scene was not out of character for him. This is how he always does business. First he politely reminds the person what he has done for them or what he can do, then he humbly asks for what he wants in return. And right now he wants Sansa, he wants her for personal reasons and needs her for business. There is no way in hell Littlefinger can ever become a king on his own. He will need a powerful queen to become king, and he has bet all his money on Sansa. He has no other choice but to stick with Sansa.

i just realized i forgot to do a little con recap! this one was so hectic and my schedule was so bizarre that i’m so behind!

so, like, @neven-ebrez is my safety blanket at cons now. she is who i talk to!!! SHE IS MY SISTER! MY MOTHER! MY WIFE! and all of her flights got canceled and there was nothing i could do about it except scream into the void. which still did nothing. i was so worried i had too much but didn’t have enough variety, or that i might be a waste of space, or whatever may have you in multiple anxious ways

but thanks to you guys, you made my con weekend wild. SO LEMME TELL YA

  • ALL COPIES OF GOD’N’GABE SOLD OUT. i have never had this happen. ever. and the g’n’g figures sold out friday morning. THAT’S INSANE. i met matt a little more formally for the first time, and even he congratulated me on the sellout! YOU GUYS ARE THE COOLEST i even ended up doing surprise sunday commissions! i stopped around 10 after deciding my hand was going to fall off
  • all The Dads stopped by the table!! i did not expect this. it was super sweet. and i decided i wasn’t going to stop by swain’s table over the weekend–i had nothing for them to sign, and i feel like the most awkward potato when i just go over there to talk. so they came to me. they were disgruntled but like I’M NOT A SPARKLING CONVERSATIONALIST
  • I GOT TINY POP!SCOUT FROM @funkoadventures AND IT’S STILL THE COOLEST THING. i also got some really cool god and gabe-related things from several new faces, friends, etc. and that was Insanely Cool, thank you so so so much everyone
  • i got to meet some fresh faces of the media teams. the new social media manager for Creation’s things is a sweetheart and i’m so excited for them to get acclimated to the crowd. and the con staff was really looking after me, as it had somehow spread that i am somewhat unintentionally neglectful of myself when left to my own devices
  • which, also, EVERYONE was looking out for me. i can’t overlook this. people i’d just met, some i never talked to, close friends, everyone. i had so much food, water, and love vaguely tossed at my face over the weekend, the BTS of the table looked absolutely ridiculous it was such a mess

so thanks, you guys. ♥ i really couldn’t even be a fraction of heartfelt as i wanted to be. i didn’t know how to physically show that much emotion. i’m so indebted to everyone for the massive support.

so that’s all i got, i think! i leave you with something embarrassing from SNS

Story Time

So last week some girl on YouTube started leaving comments to me regarding Bobby. Normally I don’t even pay attention to such things, but I responded to her, basically just telling her not to worry about Bobby and myself because we weren’t worried about her.  She responds to it again saying that I’m pretending to be married to him and that since I’m selling his art, that I am a “leech” and all this other silly nonsense.  Like I’m just sneaking around selling his art without his knowledge 😩. I go to reply and notice that 3 years ago, she had made a comment on that same video of Bobby saying that he had a nice body and she’d have sex with him or whatever 😳(which doesn’t bother me..I even put a like on it years ago).  So I figure, okay, she must be some jealous girl.  I respond and she doesn’t say anything else on there, which is surprising.

Today, I get a letter from Bobby and included with his letter is a letter he got from some girl and his response to the letter, which he told me I could mail to her if I wanted to or throw it away if I wanted to.  So I read her letter:

(Yes, I was kind enough to block her address)

And when I get to the second paragraph, I see that what she’s saying sounds remarkably similar the chick on YouTube. So I do a little digging.  I find the lady’s facebook who wrote to Bobby and what do you know, it’s the same lady who was on YouTube talking shit.  Like this bitch really tried it.  I guess the reason she hasn’t replied on YouTube is that she was awaiting Bobby’s response and hoping for idk what, that he’d respond to her in kind and talk shit about me? Try to get with her?  I don’t know what she was thinking, but here’s his reply:


Dear Ms Portales,
I can’t even remember the last time I responded to a letter that wasn’t written by my wife.  I’m not a big fan of the whole pen-pal deal.  The older I get, the more jaded I become~ most people who write to me are full of shit and believe I’m too stupid to see it.  But with that being said, I’m curious about something you said in your letter and I wish to clarify.  

You mention some petty drama on the internet/ social media concerning my wife and someone to be claiming my wife…and for the life of me I can’t understand why people do that shit.  Are women out there actually so desperate they have to claim a relationship with someone they aren’t even speaking to, never met, and never will?   Fucking weird people out there.  Haha. Some goddamn clown out there actually set up a page on Facebook pretending to be me. Who the hell does that?

But I digress…the whole point of my writing to you is to make myself perfectly clear so there is no more misunderstanding as to my marital status~ since people out there seem to be losing sleep over it.  Ha ha ha. Talk about someone needing to get a fucking life.   Anyone with nothing better to do than worry about who I’m married to or not sounds like someone who should seriously re-evaluate their own miserable-ass existence.  

So! Without further ado, and as unequivocally as I can possibly state: I, Bobby Ray Gilbert (AKA Snake) am married to, indebted to, loyal to and best friends with Jessika M Gilbert (aka The Death Merchant).  

You know, the same lady whom you say should get a life because she helps promote my art.  She has a life and you can believe it isn’t spent worrying what the hell you’re doing with yours.
How about returning the favor?
Get a life

So yeah.  He summed it up better than I ever could, more eloquently and with better handwriting (I’ve never known a man with better handwriting than me 😬), but I still wanted to say I figured your ass out! I guess some guys in prison are assholes and would try to be shady in this kind of situation, but my husband isn’t one of them and you look like a damn fool for trying.  But for future reference, I hate fighting online, but I’ll be in Pensacola in 2 weeks and we can continue our little disagreement in person if you’d like 🙄.

So anyway Miss Giselle, I’m just posting this here so you can read Bobby’s response. You’re welcome. 🙂

shellynikohara  asked:

Hey may I am you something? How does someone get noticed and popular like you? I've been trying a lot but nothing seems to ever work. My art never gets noticed and I'm starting to get desperate. Please tell me how to get noticed!

Okay from what I have noticed a lot of people get popular on youtube or tumblr by doing the following: 

A. Appealing to children. Yall are gonna dislike this one, but the majority of people who have time to be involved fans of things are underage. Typically around 12-14. The majority of my audience probably falls in this range, and as such I tend to tailor my content towards that. AKA I do a lot of ship videos, since 12-14 year old fans like to squeal over them, and I do a lot of edgy shit, since 12-14 year olds are typically pretty edgy. 

B. Consistent storyline/schedule. You’ll notice that the videos of mine that have the most views are parts of a series. Ask blogs also tend to do well if they have a set schedule and update very frequently, honestly you don’t even need to be that good. Like I’ve seen a lot of people who I’ve honestly thought are not that talented get extremely popular because they do really popular fan comics and update a lot. Same goes for undertale comic dubs. I’ve seen a lot of people who are bad at making videos and bad at acting in general thrive because they chose a series no one else had seen and stuck to it. That brings me to the third thing actually

C. Do things no one has seen yet. You’re not going to get popular by releasing worse versions of things people have already done. This applies moreso to youtube I think, getting to the series first is a BIG part of getting popular if you’re not a very well known youtuber. Like I’m gonna hear some of you say “buT YOU DO SERIES PEOPLE HAVE ALREADY DONE WHY AREN”T YOU FOLLOWING YOUR OWN ADVICE” well let me counter that. I currently have around 240000 subscribers, so most of the views we bring in now are directly linked to the popularity of our channel, and not necessarily the comic itself anymore. Don’t get me wrong, the comic is a huge part, but we are a pretty huge channel. However, I got popular due to underline, there’s really not much denying that. I loved the series, and I still am fully indebt to the creators for being such amazing people, because they truly got me to the place I am now. This is because everyone had done underline part 1, but no one had continued it. I did, and that alone got me around 20k subscribers. 

D. Actively try to improve. It honestly doesn’t matter if you start out weakly, or if you don’t really know what you’re doing or how to do it. Take a look at my first videos, they were AWFUL. Everyone starts out not really knowing what they’re doing. Don’t let that deter you from actively trying to become better. And remember, the best way to do that is practice. Sure you’ll get some haters in the beginning, but try not to let that affect you and push forward, I promise you its worth it! 

E. Sometimes there isn’t a secret to success/Focus on your own work. Sometimes people will just like something that you think is absolute trash, and you’ll ask yourself ‘how on earth did they get popular??’ but the internet is a weird place, and people can just spontaneously become popular sometimes. If their art/content has worth to someone, you can’t deny that. And because of that, I recommend not getting super invested in that and being like ‘THIS PERSON IS POPULAR BUT IM NOT???? THEYRE GARBAGE THO? I QUIT’ like just try to focus on your own work and don’t get too caught up in other popular blogs/content if you dont have a similar format. If you do however, I actually recommend keeping an eye on them and see what they do, since it can be really fun to do some crossovers or possibly get to know them.

F. Make friends. that one’s pretty self explanatory. 

ANYWAYS this was my very long and very indepth guide to my “secrets to success”, although the important thing is to not get too caught up in this kinda stuff and just have fun making your content. I wish you all luck~ 

also the only reason I really gave such an indepth answer is a lot of yall have been asking me similar questions, so I thought it would be nice to sit down and fully explain. 


what a remarkable night. I got to see one of my very favorite people with some of my very favorite people, and meet so many new friends. Shout out to @cuethetommo for organizing our larrie meet up, @silverfoxlouis @newleafover @jimmytfallon @gaysilk @iampackratseemehoard @afirethatcannotdie @twopoppies @metal-eye @tightropeofhope @jlf23tumble  @justlarried everyone else for being there, @andro-saurus for running into me afterwards and being so lovely, and to @bayit for providing the ticket to my mom so she could go with us. Most of all, sweet Jaki for getting me the ticket of a lifetime. I am indebted to you forever! 

I am so grateful to this community and so grateful be a one direction fan. I have never felt so seen, supported, or understood being a fan of anything. You all are my home, my second family, and I love you all so so much <3 

to her parents:
i think about you all the time, i think about what i would say if i ever saw you again. its nearly one in the morning months after ive last seen your daughter but the sight of her never leaves my mind, let alone my heart. and so i would tell you this. you have raised one hell of a child. i have learned from her much of what she learned from you, the values you instilled in her, and the morals you have given her. i would tell you that because of her, because of you i am who i am today. you saved my life. your daughter saved my life. i am forever indebted to you and your family. because of you i have seen love, compassion, empathy, and every quality i desire to have in my life. the countless holidays spent with you and your family in the home that one just felt like a house to me have changed me forever. you created a daughter so strong, so relentless, so caring, compassionate, and overall such an amazing human being that i am forever in awe. and i am convinced i will never meet another young woman or family that means as much to me as yours has. i would say thank you, as i said to you that first week you met me on your living room couch, i would say thank you, thank you for opening up your home and your hearts to me as i know it must not have been easy, as i have until now been a stranger to you. thank you for letting me meet your daughter, as she means more to me than you could ever imagine, and i love her more than you will ever know and i always will. you hugged me after that and then she came down the stairs and it was our secret. i would say those very words to you again, but i would say this, thank you, thank you for letting me meet your daughter as she has saved my life. she has made me into a better person than i ever believed i could have been, thank you for being my family when i needed one the most. i hope to one day be even half the mother you are to her and were to me. and i hope to raise my daughter to be exactly like yours even if it isn’t your granddaughter. thank you, thank you for letting me meet your daughter.
—  to her parents.

Why, hello there.

Originally posted by rowdy-redhead

I can’t believe I have 4K of you following me, that is pretty freaking amazing.

Originally posted by rowdy-redhead

Since I couldn’t have done it without my very lovely, supportive, and frequent readers/followers, I’ve decided to do a quick tag and thank you. Keep in mind that I went through all my old stories at 3:00AM so I may have missed out a few names (if that is you, I am so sorry. Please know that I love you anyway)

Originally posted by natashasromanoff

I’m really, really grateful to all of you; all of your sweet comments, your reblogs, your hearts, and your requests and- just everything, everything you do for me. I thank all of you for turning my hobby into something special, something more- well, kinda. I’m not getting paid yet, but at least my work is getting out into the world; that is amazing and I am forever indebted to y’all.


@ateliefloresdaprimavera @always-an-evans-addict @avengersfan25 @alderaan-is-aldergone @alievans007 @ariallane @andreiaafaria @alxpxe @basicwhiskeyprincesss @bombsandsparkles @blood-red-dawn @broken-fairy-wingss @brittanywalsh-16 @barbaralovespjo @brobrobreja @boonerganggbang @borkybeansxsteeben @captainhallow @camerica96 @crititcalminds @caitsymichelle13 @chrisevansisdaddy04 @cringefeelings @castellandiangelo @chrisevansisbeautiful @captainstantastic @captain7899 @cabbagemagic @clumsy-writing-rdb @chrisevans-imagines @capdanrogers @deansquirreljerkwinchester @deejohnston @daryna-ray @dontwanttofly @deanwinchesterisamazing @danielle030 @daniellejade14


@edward-lover18 @fangirllegacy @fuckinxqueenx @femminilefemme @firecamofficial @faye22 @frede05 @fightinthepain @gryffindor-hybrid @gaccrewfangirl @gabby913 @geekyyears9 @ggggggggggga @hemmingspuppy @helloitsmaryblogme @hemmingsbae @how-dare-you @horrorsaika @haterpenny @humanandangel


@i-cannot-escape-this-fandom @imaginary-world-of-mine @imaginesofdreams @im-dope-n-ur-nope @ifitwerentforchrisevans @just-a-short-girl @jennicrisp @jules-1999 @juliacastillo @kaffit @kitty-kat10 @katiew1973 @kylaa-marieee @kitkat761 @kitkat1690 @krystleskorner @lifetimeofadventue @lukeskullwalker @lordquaz


@maece-rette @misschrisevans @mrs-jjamespotter @moonsycardigans @missminnie-123 @mrs-captain-evans @michelleberger @maisy-24 @mydreamsunlocked @musicalninja @me-myself-and-my-fandoms @mimosainprovidence @marvelandtears @michellekeehlmello @martymcfly5639 @m-a-t-91 @nyxunivers @nutellaclouds @nelina95 @nutmeg2080 @nargazi @phoebe-21-99 @poloraid8 @professionallycrazed


@queenropagrim @rileyloves5 @reminiscingrogers @sammyissassy @sebbystanlover-vk @smilexcaptainx @shamvictoria11 @sebbaevans @shadowprincess0218 @sammyrenae68 @ssweet-empowerment @see-you-around-red @sunflowerinthecity @senpainevernoticesme @systemfailuresunshine @sweetdreamsofstars @starspangleyimagines @thefilmmaker1999 @taylorayres13 @theperksofme99 @too-old-for-liam-payne @theblackestofwidows @theycallmebecca


@winter-tospring @widowsfics @xoxomioxoxo @xbooperdooperx


@yourcaptainsoldier @yesterday-was-tuesday @yourbuddyyour-bucky @831918 @5secondsofsomerhalder

Thank you all once again,


Originally posted by shenghoutony


Our Bestiny 
You’re very surprised aren’t you..?
Firstly, to our Bestinies who suffered so much, believed in us, and waited for us, I wanted to deliver you good news but I’m unable to do that so all I can be is very apologetic.
You were probably very disappointed and surprised but I saw the fans’ posts that instead encouraged me, supported me, and thanked me and my heart dropped so much.
It was difficult seeing you so close and I know very well you’d wait and suffer for us so my heart hurts much much more..
But even until the end I couldn’t repay you once and am indebted to the fans like this.. 
Even though I’m usually someone who doesn’t have confidence and is very timid, promoting as a member of BESTie I was viewed as a way more pretty and cool person than I saw myself as thanks to the fans’ love and it’s thanks to the fans who discovered the good sides of me I didn’t even know I had that I became very confident and truly felt “I’m also a person who is pretty and can be loved” and “I’m an alright person after all”.
It was always because of the fans that I received a lot of healing and experienced a lot of happiness from the fans’ love, and seeing the fans who liked watching me I thought not only that but I thought oftentimes that it was a great relief.
Likewise I thought I needed to become the coolest singer for the fans, just like how they viewed me as, and I think that had very much so become my motivation.
I was off to a good start but there were also many times I hated myself for falling into slumps and doing my job poorly and there were a lot of regrettable stages I didn’t like as well, but even during those moments you supported me, monitored me meticulously, and even when I was upset you were even more upset than I was.
You don’t know how reassured I was seeing our fans who were unconditionally on my side.
Should I convey my eternally grateful heart? Should I write a letter to Bestiny? These things I’d thought about remain with me even now and I’m very upset but..
In the future I’m not sure how and with what image I’ll end up seeing the fans again, but I’ve gotten stronger from the fans’ support and will work hard so that I may surely be able to come see you again with a good image.
Thank you for creating many good memories and happy memories for me these past 4 years.
I’m sincerely grateful to you for supporting me until the end.
Thank you for being by my side and loving me who is still lacking.
Today as usual, I’m sorry, I thank you, and I love you.

trans cr; fy-bestie
please take out with full credits

life will do what life will do (A)

This is realll depressing just as a heads up… I have no idea where I was going with this, I hope it isn’t that obvious :/ 


 Jungkook x reader (Angst) 

I used to believe in forever, but now I think forever is too short.

-Winnie the Pooh

Originally posted by anta-e

“Look…I know life will do with whatever it pleases” She hung her head low, her hair covering her eyes. She didn’t want him to see the tears forming in her eyes. She didn’t want him to see that she still hurt. 

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Hi, I’m Elliot (trans, disabled) and I’m homeless and living out of an extended-stay hotel. My ex-roommates and ex-landlord lied to me about selling the house in order to throw me out, moved up the date to have my stuff out (which it is now) and served me an eviction notice claiming I owe a large amount of unpaid rent (which is not true) on the move out day when it SHOULD have been a tenancy termination served a month prior. The landlord was an alcoholic with a tendency to frequently flip her shit over nothing and yell and threaten to call the police over the tiniest things, so I don’t lose sleep wondering why she had such hatred for a disabled trans guy living in the basement unit she was renting to her daughter.

I desperately need help. I had to quit my job in June last year over manager abuse and mental health deterioration, then my conditions progressed to the point that I had to stop job-searching in Dec and apply for disability benefits. I am currently appealing a denial for SSDI, and as usual it is taking forever. In the meantime, I have had no income and now no place to live. I am in deep shit.

I need to get a proper MLST to help my disability case, because a neurologist’s diagnosis isn’t enough for the SSA/DDS to believe I have narcolepsy, apparently. (As though the sleep attacks, cataplexy, 24/7 fatigue, and the injuries from passing out in bad places aren’t enough proof already.) I NEED dental work done very soon or I could become very sick. I need to be able to afford my antidepressants, my doctor visits and bloodwork, and my testosterone prescription (which I am fine on for another 3-4 months thankfully). A family member is helping me by paying for this hotel, but I don’t know how much longer she can afford it.

I have a lawyer to work with me once my appeal is denied (85% are at the 1st appeal level) and he is well-known and good at what he does, so I know he can help me win my case. But what am I supposed to do in the meantime? Being on my feet is so hard when I have surgical screws in the bones. I get sleep attacks on my feet and have gotten in major trouble during past jobs for it. My chest isn’t small enough to hide, and if I end up on the streets I can’t wear my binder 24/7 or while sleeping so I will be in a dangerous position.

I am very scared and anxious. I need help and being in the position of begging for assistance is absolutely humiliating and I feel so guilty for it. It makes me sick that I’ve ended up like this because of my body and mind being so broken that I can’t hold a job.

If you are able and willing to help, I would be indebted. If you want something in exchange, consider commissioning me. I crochet and draw, the first a lot better than the last. It just might take a while because my narcoleptic attacks and my other major health issues aggravate each other and cause me a lot of trouble and pain.

Sorry for the length. My paypal is and once I am stable and win my case I will pay all the generosity forward. (Not that I need an incentive or a reason to be kind. It’s a promise that it WILL be paid forward to the best of my ability, no matter how long it will take with my health.)

Thank you for reading. Signal boosts are appreciated more than you know.

Forged Love, Chapter 13

Chapter 13 is now posted on AO3.

The wait is over.

I am indebted to @papofglencoe, @finduilasnumenesse, and @titaniasfics for their dedication to helping me write this story. It wouldn’t be the same without you guys. :’-)

And the banner! Deep sigh. Hugs to @akai-echo for her gorgeous creation.

To the readers whose support is so appreciated: I’m excited to share this chapter with you! 😘 


Wow, I am at such a lost for words. I can’t believe we’ve made it to 5K, like- that is more people than I have living on the island I call home. I am so grateful to everyone who clicked on the follow button after reading my little pieces; your follows, likes, and reblogs really are appreciated.

I’d like to do a quick shout out to those on my tag list, of course. You guys have supported me through a lot, I am forever indebted to you for helping me find my passion and for urging me to pursue it as a career.

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I’d also like to single out @chrisevans-imagines (otherwise known as my darling best friend, Ava, whose absolute brilliance is something I know you are all familiar with) and @yourenotrogers (the beautiful and talented Salma, who runs @fvckingsteverogers and who is someone I still can’t believe reads my stuff). These two angels are the most supportive, kind, inspirational, and drop dead gorgeous beings I will have ever come across. I’m so proud to be able to call them my friends, or soul sisters (’cause we’re oddly very similar people) and I do hope I get to meet them in person one day. I will, without a doubt, fawn over the both of you in person just as I am doing now over the internet. If you don’t know who they are, update yourself and go read their amazing work. You will not regret it, at all.

Of course, I gotta single out @ateliefloresdaprimavera @sammyrenae68 @always-an-evans-addict @m-a-t-91 @michellekeehlmello @widowsfics @katiew1973 @winter-tospring @shamvictoria11 @tabi-toast @pegasusdragontiger @palaiasaurus64 @ssweet-empowerment @justanotherfangurlz @feelmyroarrrr @advorepayne @imaginesofdreams @evanstanimagines @dreamingintheimpalawithdean @createdbytinyaddiction @buckys-shield Who always leave the best comments that just brighten up my day. I love you guys so much and I can’t tell you how much I appreciate you taking the time to leave a comment or a question in my inbox, or messaging me personally.

How can I not thank @yourtropegirl who is always adding me onto her recommendation list? Honestly, you are just so nice and I do really appreciate you helping me spread my work. I love you too. X

Then we have my silent readers, who somehow find my pieces despite not being on the tag list. I notice y’all even though y’all think I don’t.There are so many of you that while I may not be able to tag you all, I just want to say that I do appreciate your support. I also love seeing your little icon pop up in my notifications, especially your Snoopy one @megan-tumblr. It makes me so happy to see that you’ve all read and liked what I wrote.

Honestly- all of you are amazing. Y’all have no idea how much I love every one of you, like- I talk about you all the time with my friends and my family and- you know what, sometimes even strangers who ask me what I like to do. “I like to write and I’ve been writing a lot on Tumblr where I just have the best and most supportive group of readers.” Whether or not I’ve mentioned you here, you have to know that I love and appreciate you. Like a fuck ton, a fucking truck load of love and appreciation here.

Anyway, I will continue to shower you with fluff and romance as long as you continue to read. Even if you get bored with me, I probably won’t get bored with this so- I’ll be here whenever you need something to read again. I love you all so, so much.


anonymous asked:

PIRATE AU ☠️ !!!

gafou and stanfou prompts are very welcome! 🌺

This ficlet’s also on AO3!


“Well, what have we here?”

Someone pulled the sack off of Gaston’s head, and he blinked in the harsh sunlight.

He almost gasped when he recognized the man standing before him.


His captor pulled on his hair to shut him up, and he winced.

“A damsel in distress, eh?”

The monarch pulled her rapier from her belt and pointed it at the captain. “Do not dare, pirate,” she spat. “This scoundrel” - she tapped the nape of Gaston’s neck with the hilt of her sword, and he grunted - “has already tried and failed to abduct me. My husband would have your hide if he found out something else had happened to me.”

“Oh?” the marauder smirked, his gaze fixed on Gaston. Something strange glinted in his eyes. “And who would your husband be?”

“Prince Adam, protectorate of France.”

LeFou grinned and pushed his hat out of his eyes. “Well, that makes you a princess, then.”

“Yes, I am Belle,” she said; “Princess Belle of Villeneuve. I am sure my husband has sent the armada after me by now, but if you could kindly rid me of this ruffian and point me in the right direction, I would be forever indebted to you.”

“Oh, I will gladly take this man off your hands, your highness. I’d like to know, however, what a French noblewoman such as yourself is doing so far off the coast of Spain?”

Belle sheathed her sword, adjusted her skirts, and said, “My husband and I were on a diplomatic mission - forging a new alliance with Spain - and had just set foot on the docks when this man accosted us and told us that if we didn’t abandon the agreement, he would ensure that the prince would never see me again.”

“Ah, yes, I can guess the rest,” LeFou said. “Adam refused, so you were kidnapped, and now you’re lost.”

She narrowed her eyes at him. “Yes, well - how did you know?”

“I am well acquainted with the stubbornness of princes, madame.”

“I see. Well, this man picked me up like a doll - he’s extraordinarily strong, by the way, I’d watch out if I were you - tossed me into a nearby rowboat, and took off before my husband had even realized what was happening. About halfway through our little escapade, I decided to take matters into my own hands and regained control of the situation; it was clear from the start that this miscreant had no idea what he was doing. He didn’t tie me up or anything - just let me sit there - so I managed to steal his sword and threatened to kill him. 

“Now this is the strangest part: he didn’t struggle at all. He just let me tie him up and put that sack over his head, and then he sat peacefully until I almost thought he had fallen asleep. I would’ve left him like that had it not been for my dress - it rather constricts my legs and makes it very difficult to swim, and we were already too far from the harbor. I wasn’t really sure what I was going to do, but that’s when I spotted your boat from afar and decided I would board it.”

“Hmm,” LeFou hummed. “A very interesting tale, my lady. One I’m sure your husband will be eager to hear once you have returned to the Spanish port.”

“You’ll help me, then?”

“Why, I’ll not only help you, but I’ll pay you, too.”

“In livres?”

LeFou laughed, and Gaston’s heart ached at the sound. “No, of course not,” he chuckled. “We’re in Spanish waters! French coins have no meaning here. I will give you fifty doubloons if you leave my ship and your rogue behind.”

“You are too generous, sir,” Belle said with a curtsy. “I am not sure of what use the man will be, but I am glad you are freeing me of him.”

“Here,” LeFou said with a smile, beckoning one of his men forward. He reached behind Gaston and loosed his bonds, and he fell forward, splaying his hands against the grain of the deck. He still couldn’t believe he was on a pirate ship - and LeFou’s pirate ship, no less.

“Bring the princess some supplies and a compass,” LeFou said to another of his hands, who promptly disappeared below-decks. “You are to head due north, your highness, and that will take you directly to the Spanish harbor you came from. I am sure your husband is still there, or will perhaps meet you on your way back.”

Belle nodded graciously and thanked him again. After a few moments, Gaston stood up and surveyed his surroundings. The captain called a few orders to his men while he waited for Belle’s things to be retrieved. Gaston kept trying to make eye contact with him, but to no avail.

This is all an act, he realized when LeFou’s eyes flicked away from his again. He can’t have forgotten me - not after all this time…

Finally, Belle was on her way, a bag of food and doubloons slung over her shoulder. She thanked the captain profusely and agreed to give her prince his regards before climbing back over the side again.

Gaston moved to the railing and watched her row away. Business on the frigate continued as usual, but LeFou stayed where he was.

“So,” he eventually said, taking a few steps forward and leaning against the balustrade. “Why did you try to abduct her?”

“That’s it? That’s all you have to say to me after twelve years?”

LeFou looked at him - hard - for a few moments, then announced, “Everyone below-decks.” The crew quickly obeyed, and suddenly, the two of them were very, very alone.

“I thought you were dead, LeFou -”

“Well, I wasn’t,” came the bitter reply, and something in LeFou’s voice sounded like it was close to breaking. “I was just… gone. Now will you please tell me how the hell you ended up on my ship?”

Gaston sighed and gripped the railing. “When… you never came to the front like you said you would, I feared the worst. I knew that some places in France had been struck with plague, and I was afraid that our village had fallen. Then it occurred to me that maybe you had been allowed to stay behind - maybe we didn’t need any more troops - but when I talked to my superiors, I was proved wrong.

“So I waited. For seven years, I fought and rose through the ranks to captaincy. And then we lost, and it was over, and I was so eager to go home and see you again - and when I finally reached Villeneuve, you were nowhere to be found. No one knew where you had gone - your mother wouldn’t even speak of it, and your father had apparently died a year after I left. It was like a spell had been cast over everyone; they seemed to have forgotten you had actually ever existed. But I didn’t.”

LeFou rose to his full height and crossed his arms, but didn’t interrupt. Gaston cleared his throat and continued: “So I waited still. I was so sure that you would come back, but you never did. Four years after I returned, Belle - who had come to Villeneuve with her father while I was away - found her way to the prince’s castle and broke the spell that had cursed everyone. She and Adam are married now, and -”

“What was the curse?” LeFou interjected. “What did it do?”

“It made everyone forget about the prince and the castle and all the servants,” Gaston explained. “After it broke, everyone remembered their loved ones at the castle - the prince, who had been transformed into a beast, and his employees, who had been turned into sentient objects - but still, no one remembered you. I felt like I was going crazy, I… I didn’t know what to do with myself. My parents kept telling me to marry, but everyone in town just seemed so… small-minded.”

“You still haven’t answered my question,” the captain said. “How did you find me?”

Gaston smiled bitterly. “I went to the sorceress who had cast the enchantment a few months ago - it was stupid and foolish, but I thought that she could maybe… lessen my sadness, perhaps - and asked if she could tell me the outcome of my fate. She said she wouldn’t, but she could give me a way to… well, ensure my ‘happy ending.’ If I didn’t stop the prince and princess from creating a new treaty with Spain, then my fate would be irretrievably ruined. So I followed them, and, well…”

“And here you are,” LeFou finished.

“And here I am.”

LeFou stared out at the sea, and for the first time in twelve years, Gaston looked at him - really looked at him. His clothes were ridiculous compared to what he had worn in Villeneuve, but pirate garb somehow suited him. The hat was a little silly, but his hair - loose and windswept - was curly and familiar. It was a comforting sight.

“Do you remember when you were sixteen,” he suddenly said, “and you protected the village from Portuguese pirates?”

Gaston nodded, and LeFou exhaled heavily.

“They came back a few months after you left - for the war, I mean. I… well, I tried to be a hero like you were, but…”

That was all he said, but Gaston didn’t need anything else.

They lapsed into silence, which LeFou broke after a few minutes by saying, “You never married, then?”

“Of course not,” Gaston replied, a smile tinging his voice. “How could I?”

LeFou closed his eyes for a moment and said nothing. Gaston placed his hand over his on the balustrade, expecting him to pull away; he didn’t.

“I have missed you,” he said slowly, “and loved you, for so many years.”

The other man opened his eyes, smiled up at him, and said, “And I you.”

Notes: The tidbit about the foreign invaders is canon! Luke himself talked about it in this interview.