so i also don't really know what the problem is

hello, i’m erin.

i’m really poor, my family is financially unstable all the time because my parents have walking/moving disabilities and it’s hard for them to find proper jobs since they can barely move. lately we’ve been having major financial problems. 

they both used to work until the thing i was afraid of happened; my diabetic mom’s health condition started getting worse and worse. she couldn’t handle the pressure and the bullying at work so she had to quit her job. her health is the main priority in this entire thing so i don’t blame her at all.

as for now, my father is the only source of income. his monthly salary is $150 and as you can see that’s far from enough to maintain three people. i’ve tried to get a job myself but no one wanted to hire me because i’m a minor. 

for the past few months my mom’s illness has been progressing, we even got her a wheelchair since she couldn’t walk at all. she needs a damn expensive diabetic healthcare course right now. my father works day and night just to gain some money. also, i contributed with my savings even though it wasn’t much.

however, our efforts are not enough for my mom’s medical assurance. the amount of money we have by now can provide only half a month of medicines. my dad is working all the time he doesn’t even sleep at this point, it’s a miracle if he gets at least 2 hours of sleep a day. but unfortunately it’s never enough.

i feel pathetic and useless; the tears are streaming down my face as i’m typing this and the fact that i can’t help in any way is killing me.

only money can help us in this harsh situation so if you can donate i’ll be forever thankful. 

if you can, do it through paypal. my paypal email is; erin.rin@mail.ru

any amount will be highly appreciated, i’m not asking for much, really. also reblog this please, it does matter and i hope i’ll find people who can help.

it’s totally okay if you don’t donate, just keep my mom in your prayers please, it means a lot.

i’m desperate please help, i don’t want to lose my mother. 

thank you.

DWD CAST - BACK STAGE

Just because I can’t get this out of my mind. So I tried to convey it in some way xD

This is What if dwd was a live action and the dwd cast was all actors tag representaion lmao. Enjoy the randomness of this all, if you’d like :)

anonymous asked:

Hang in there but also remember your happiness is valid too. I respect you even more now knowing that you're staying unhappy so that your kids can be happy. Also remember that we're here for you! ily xxx

Thank you nonnie! Your kind message means the world to me. It really does. 

I know that my problems are so minimal compared to what others are going through and I try extremely hard to keep it to myself. I try really hard not to complain or bring my problems to others but sometimes I falter. Every once in a while when I have a bad day at work and I come home to my busy household and my increasingly hectic schedule and the husband is being a jerk and his usual seflish, lazy self, I lose it. Yesterday was one of those days, I just got overly frustrated and I vented and I probably shouldn’t have but I did and I can’t take it back, it’s out there and that’s it. I apologize if my post made anyone uncomfortable or upset. That wasn’t at all my intention. 

I love my kids more than anything in this world, I would sell my soul for them. I do everything in my power to give them everything I can. I sacrifice in every way possible to give them and allow them to work toward achieving their dreams. All I want is their happiness, regardless of what I have to do to give them that.

The thing is, my husband and I don’t fight and most days we go through the day without any issues. I am not in love with him anymore and the longer things continue with him treating me more like his maid/mother the more I resent him.

But each day is a new day and I wake up with a smile on my face and so much love and appreciation for the life I have with my kids. I love myself and I know that one day I will be able to be happy again. Our marriage wasn’t always this way and that’s what frustrates me even more. He wasn’t always lazy and selfish. He used to help make dinner and clean up, he used to like to go places with me and he wasn’t always a jerk. I just wish that he was more interested in our kids; the things they do and their accomplishments. I wish he was more interested in me and doing things together. I wish he wasn’t so negative all the time because it’s exhausting for me.

This is my life for the time being and I understand that. I also know that I am the only person who can change that. I wasn’t fishing for sympathy last night with my post, just simply trying to release some frustration and get some feelings/thoughts out. 

I do believe my kids are happy, though my daughter is at the age that I think I can ask her and get an honest answer. I don’t want to ruin their happiness because I am staying in this relationship to keep them happy. I hope that if they aren’t happy they know they can talk to me about it. If I find out that they aren’t happy then by all means I will make arrangements to get out. 

You know what I really want to see actually, Yang with a fan. Like some smart alick kid, who can be from Patch, or Vale, or even one of the other kingdoms, who got really attached to Yang during the Vytal tournaments. Maybe they have a little sibling they take care of and protect (hopefully not to the same degree) and thought it was so cool two sisters were on the same team, maybe they heard a pun or two around all the explosions, maybe they just like hand to hand fighters.

Have them be a mix of horrified but also refuse to believe what they saw was real. I imagine at least a little of Yang’s “he attacked me first!” got through before they cut the tape. Have them be unconvinced at the official explanation of stress induced hallucinations. Have them scower over their recorded tape looking for proof that their hero didn’t do it. Have them find somethings mall, like a weird blur half way through the fight, or that when really zoomed in, through its pixelated, you can kind of see that Mercury’s pants are completely undamaged and that doesn’t make sense!

Have people not believe them but they refuses to disbelieve or give up hope.

And then have them meet. Have Yang meet a kid who is in awe of her and believes her. Who isn’t family, has never met her, but thinks she’s awesome. Who gave them encouragement and strength to take care of their younger sibling. Who is never in need of protection of her, and really doesn’t need anything physical or tangible at all, just think she’s so cool.

…So I have this doodling problem