For the first time, I’ve finally realized it was all a lie, there was never one second where it was real, for you anyway. For you, it was just a game, you had me twisted around your finger. You told me you were falling in love with me, then boom–nothing. You made me think you would actually choose me, when really, I was never even an option. The sad part is I fell for it, I fell for you. It was realer than real for me; you took something I will never get back. You’re happy with her, like you were the whole time, but here I am feeling so alone and broken and you can’t even see what you’ve done. How pathetic that I don’t even hate you, I can’t, physically, emotionally, mentally, can not hate you. There’s been a hole created in my heart, made by a bullet; and you pulled the trigger.
— i finally understand.