so happy and content and in love :((

oooh 2000 posts full of (mostly) mass effect love. thank you for sharing this experience with me, mass effect is so important to me and it’s just a really really great game and I’m happy others are interested enough in my content they decided to follow me. 

let’s share more mass effect love in the future ( ´ ▽ ` )ノ

Nagging

What makes me
Feel
So guilty  
Is I often forget
You’re real

Except in bed
Where I’m dreaming
And the thoughts
Run rampant  
Each night -

When I’m tired
And at my
Loneliest
As the dark
Continues to travel

In slumber
Across my memories
Suppressing  
This fact
You exist

Somewhere
Beyond that image
Which plagues
My head
With the faces

Of a woman
Content
In my presence
Whose happiness eats
At my peace,

For I know
By now
It was empty
As the effort I gave
So useless

When feigning
A dream
Inconsistent
With the person along
For its ride.

I’m not really sure
If I’m evil
Or a person
Confused
Like no other

But to think I tried
To still love you
Is what nags
At my soul
As a sin.  

- J. Pigno

i’m alive and happy. It’s still autumn here but it was still cold for me. The weather the past couple of days was so lovely, i was roaming about in my fav. sleeveless shirts. Nevertheless, i’m content.

anonymous asked:

Nice!! So my reason for liking shrinkyclinks is that I'm myself a skinny, really non-threatening looking, art loving guy with (frequently justice related) anger issues and I LOVE super intimidating looking men who are in reality huge softies, on top of having a thing for long hair. So you can imagine that I grew attached REALLY QUICKLY to shrinkyclinks, they're relationship goals <3 I love it even more when it includes trans!Steve because I'm also trans :D

Oh gosh this is the loveliest!! *^* 

I adore this and I’m happy to see that a lot of these are the same reasons I mentioned for loving them, I wasn’t that off! :D But it’s even better if you get to identify with them and it resonates with you so much!!

I hope that whatever Shrinkyclinks content I’ve put/will continue to put out there keeps speaking to you in such a way, this is wonderful <3

I’m Back!

I’m back from tour!!! It was incredible but I’ll probably talk about it more in depth soon in a video or again here.

I wanted to talk about the next couple weeks though because it’s gonna get messy. I’m back for now but I leave again in like 2 days to go on the Ready Player 3 tour and that means that the schedule is gonna suffer as a result. I prepped 2 a day for when I went on my own tour but this next run of shows is much longer so I’m going to need to change some stuff to make it happen.

For now it’s looking like I’m gonna record as much as I can right now, put those out as 1 a day videos and wherever the break happens I’ll just take a full gap until I’m capable of returning.

This obviously isn’t something that I want to do. I would love to be able to keep the schedule going because I’m incredibly proud of it, no gaps in 5 years at all. It’s physically impossible to do so however and I need to be able to make the shows really good instead of burning myself out completely, blowing my voice out and then making crappy performances, no one wins in that scenario.

I also think for my own mental health I need to take a break and just not think about it. I’ve stressed out way more times than I let on because of videos and scheduling conflicts, it takes its toll. So I think it’s necessary to distance myself from things every once in a while. It’s also healthy for you guys and the general audience too to get a break from me now and then and put things into perspective a bit.I bombard you with content constantly so it’ll be nice to have a bit of respite and also for the entitled people to realise that I won’t always be there every single time.

I need to take some time off now and then to really focus and do bigger and better things that will pay off in the long run. I’m really happy that most of you understand and have been as loving and caring judging by all the messages I get about it so thank you, sincerely :)

Does anyone else love bad weather? Like the kind that’s loud and dark and draws attention to its self like pounding rain drops and thunder and lightning that seems just so close. And you can sit near a window and it’s dark outside and maybe you’ve got a candle lit or a lamp and it’s so warm inside and you’re wearing you’re favourite sweater and watching a good show or reading a good book and it’s beautiful outside the rain and the clouds and the sound of it all and you’re just so content and cosy and happy

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happy birthday, seyma! @doumekism (●♡∀♡))ヾ☆*。

hey i wanna talk about erik klose

  • “i feel like he could hold me up forever” erik isn’t just emotional support he’s a soccer player and he is s t r o n g
    • he got them Midfielder Thighs™
  • he fuckin loves soccer movies ok 
    • nicky, already grinning, in response to erik’s parents asking how his day was: alles ist gut
    • erik, sliding into the room in his socks and running into a wall: soLANGE DU WILD BIST!!!!!
    • used Bend It Like Beckham and She’s The Man to practice his english
    • he definitely has a poster of jess bhamra in his room, she’s his hero
  • he is SUPER tall
    • (he’s actually taller than matt when his hair isn’t spiked)
  • him and nicky are low key competitive as fuck and they run together when nicky starts training for exy
  • nicky quickly learns that trying to outlast a midfielder on a run just. doesn’t work. they do the most running on the team and typically go whole games without getting subbed out.
    • 3 miles in nicky is wheezing and dying and erik is laughing like the absolute traitor he is
  • but!! it wasn’t all sunshine at first i mean come on,, this is the foxes
    • when nicky first got to the Klose’s he was reserved, quiet. 
    • erik was taking a year off to travel with friends during the first 6 months nicky was there
    • when both parents agreed nicky could stay for the summer for some extra classes so he could graduate on time (by american standards), he finally met erik
    • tall, athletic, kind erik, erik who came home with all kinds of candy from all kinds of countries to give to a boy he never met all to make a pun about what a “sweet deal” it was to have someone new in the house, he felt his heart race when nicky smiled at him for his ridiculous efforts
    • that’s the first time the klose’s saw a real smile come from nicky
  • erik convinced nicky to go to church after a while
    • it was hard at first, especially when nicky noticed erik was getting some weird looks from some of the older people in the congregation
    • when nicky asked why, erik told him about how when he came out his grandmother stopped speaking to him, and how some parents didn’t want to let erik come over to see his friends
    • but then erik told him how his parents told anyone who wasn’t okay with their son that they weren’t worth having around, that they loved erik and they wouldn’t allow anyone to try and make him feel bad for being himself
    • and how his cousins snuck out and took him to his first pride parade in hamburg
    • surrounded by people who actually care, nicky started to hope again
  • nicky starts to smile more and erik…he’s so smitten. his new mission in life is to make nicky smile
  • erik’s humor is usually really awful puns and dad jokes, but he also is really good at keeping a straight face while saying absolutely ridiculous things, leading people to question whether he’s really serious or not and nicky fighting super hard not to bust out laughing (because he’s the only one who can tell he’s joking)
  • nicky prides himself on being pretty fashionable so he’s not entirely sure how the hell he lets erik get away with wearing those awful toe shoes. the. the individual toe ones.
    • you know the ones
  • the first time they kiss, erik was climbing a tree and fell out, because all his grace stops the minute he steps off the field
    • it was a forehead kiss because, well, erik’s face was bleeding, but yea
    • they’re a bit of a mess, but they’re cute, ya know?
  • nicky and erik are the type of couple to go to the grocery store at 2am because they really want to make mac n cheese and accidentally end up buying 4 pounds of candy instead while serenading each other to the weird 90s music the store is playing
  • erik loves aldi’s and wants to live there. everything is so cheap, nicky. they have my favorite cheese, nicky. nicky. where are you going. nicky i live here don’t leave we haven’t bought any bread yet-
  • he owns crocs. he just. he does. he bought orange ones when nicky joined the foxes and fuckin little white fox paw insert thingies because he’s a supportive boyfriend, dammit
  • he draws smiley faces on everything. notes to nicky, his notes at school, on his meeting notes at work, and his favorite place: on nicky. 
  • he’s one of those people who can’t tan for shit, he just burns then freckles. nicky is constantly nagging him to wear sunscreen. he always forgets and sends nicky pictures of his bright red shoulders only to get pages of texts ranting about sunscreen and melanoma
  • he’s got scars everywhere but theyre all from like. the dumbest stuff. there’s a big one on his knee from sneezing while on a run and subsequently tripping on the sidewalk and wiping out. several are from falling out of trees. he broke his nose falling out of the shower because he freaked out when he saw a spider. again, all his grace is on the soccer field. everywhere else he’s a hazard.
  • he’s really, really clumsy. he loves fiercely because that’s how his parents taught him. he knows he’s lucky to have a family that stuck by him, he knows it’s the least they can do, but so many gay kids have shitty parents. kids like nicky. and erik may be gangly and clumsy. he may be competitive and he may not always understand how nicky feels because he hasn’t experienced what nicky has. but he has fallen out of more trees than anybody he knows, and falling in love with nicky is an ache he’s never been able to ice away, and would never want to anyway.
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—though we’re tethered to the story we must tell,
when I saw you, I knew we’d tell it well.