so good to see him

Things I want from Steven Universe:

  • Steven to confront the gems about some issues regarding their perception of him
         -He did not take Rose away from them
         -He is not Rose
  • Another episode that helps Pearl and Amethyst understand each other and deepens their relationship
         -Opal
  • To learn how Garnet met Rose and Pearl
  • Lapis
  • Steven to learn how to fuse with other gems
  • Steven to fuse with Lapis so she can know what it feels like to love herself
         -Connie and Lapis to become friends because they can understand each other’s loneliness and anxiety
  • A straight up Greg episode

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.