so goddamn pale

ive worn lipstick a few days bc i wanted to see what it felt like & my review is: 1. i like unnatural alterations to my body bc they give me a sense of control; 2. i kinda dissociate sometimes bc i dont look like me bc im looking at someone who looks like a woman & there’s a gap between womanhood and me; 3. people’s response to is largely encouraging which is fine bc no one Means anything by it but like… it’s odd to feel propelled toward femininity for the #validation; 4. dark colors look good on me bc i’m so goddamn pale, which i already knew but still

bodies are weird vessels. i don’t know what to do with mine