so glad i told chris to kill me

anonymous asked:

Who is Chester? Everyone is talking about him but I have honestly never in my life heard of this person? Also what drove him to take his life? Does anyone know

Chester Bennington was the lead vocalist of one of the most famous and commercially successful then-nu metal bands in history, Linkin Park. You seem to be young because they were incredibly popular in the early 00s. While they remained successful, they aren’t as visible in the mainstream media anymore due to change of the music charts. Back then, nu metal, pop punk, and pop rock were highly popular and considered to be part of the mainstream. Nonetheless, many young adults connect Linkin Park to their teen years. You couldn’t listen to the radio (yes, radios were more commonly used less than 10 years ago) without coming across at least one Linkin Park song. Every Naruto AMV had a fucking Linkin Park song in the background, man. I am certain you are familiar with their most popular songs up to the present day, ‘In the End’ and ‘Numb.’ If not, ‘Crawling’ or ‘Breaking the Habit’ might be familiar to you by chance.

See, it was well-known among Linkin Park fans that Chester struggled with substance abuse. He was emotionally abused and molested by a childhood friend when he was around the age of seven. This abuse continued well into his pre-teen years since he was too afraid to speak up, meaning that he was constantly abused for six fucking years. I can’t even type this without crying, ugh. After that, he struggled with his parents’ divorce and with the fact that his dad was barely there for him to support him emotionally. It’s painful to know all of this and then, to listen to his songs where he expresses his emotions through his voice and lyrics. This song was released two hours before his death was announced.

Anyway. 

Back to his psychological issues, Chester was suffering from depression. At one point, he reported being a full-blown alcoholic. However, it seemed as though he got better. According to the news, his friends and family (he left his six kids and wife behind) believed that he was in a stable place now. Unfortunately, they were wrong. Chester hanged himself yesterday. I still can’t believe it. He was 41 years old… His friend, Chris Cornell, who sadly died as well, hanged himself just two months before. Chris, like Chester, was a musician and member of the bands Soundgarden and Audioslave. You probably don’t know about them either, but they were pretty influential in the 90s and early 00s. See, the people around him noted that Chester was never the same after his friend killed himself. And on Chris’ birthday, Chester took his own life. This is fucking heartbreaking, I can’t even find words to describe how shocked I was. I truly thought it was fake news when my friend told me about his death. I’m glad that I had the opportunity to see Linkin Park in late 2014. Chester was alive and real.

Chester was such a loving soul, tremendously humble and down to earth. He helped many people with his songs. The way he delivered his feelings… so truthful and incredible. He didn’t deserve what happened to him, and he most certainly didn’t deserve to die, but I hope he finally found peace. I really hope that, I really do, and I’m crying again. May he rest in peace. Yesterday, we lost the voice of an entire generation, Chester Bennington.