so enjoy the feels

(it’s been a rough week, lads - so the obvious solution is to write horrible things happening to percy, right…? one day, i will stop being so in love with the idea of ripley ruining percy’s life even after dying, but. today is not that day. written for the prompt “sabotage” on the hdmof discord.)

cw for mentions of past torture, general ripley things

He should have known, even in death, she’d find a way to hurt him.

The first time Animus misfires, it’s… unpleasant. He’s used to the scorched fingertips, the painful jolt up his arm, the too-hot metal and grinding noise and frantic panic mid-battle that he’s weaponless and defenceless – but this is more than that. This is a flash of fear, crawling up the back of his brain, animal-sharp and dragging with it a wave of memories he’s spent a long, long time pressing down into the dark.

He swallows, un-jams the guns, and presses them down again. Back where they came from, back into the pits of his mind, back where he’ll hopefully never have to see them again. He doesn’t want to think about them again, doesn’t want to think about her again, not ever – but especially not now, with a dragon bearing down on him and his friends bleeding into the snow around him.

Animus doesn’t stop misfiring, though. It’s not often, not even semi-regularly, but… it happens, every once in a while, the familiar heat-jolt, and the memories. Every time, they come back a little easier, a little sharper. His own screams crystal-clear in his ears. The blood and pain and fear like a knife to the gut.

Every time, they’re a little harder to press down. A little harder to send back to the dark.

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It feels really nice to dress and present myself the way I want.

anonymous asked:

*opens door a crack and slides in a piece of cake* I love your comic, thanks for sharing -Love, the shy anon

Aww thanks so much, Anon! I’m so happy to hear you enjoy my comic. Please don’t feel like you have to be shy ^^’ I’m pretty shy myself but really appreciate being able to chat with you guys.

Your cake it very much appreciated <3

anonymous asked:

Ahhh! Thank you for re-blogging The McReedus! I literally just woke up and saw this, and for me, that pic gives me so much more enjoyment than the show right now. Sad, but true, lol.

i’ll forever reblog all things melissa or norman. and most definitely anything melissa and norman together. they are my absolute favorites and i love them so incredibly much. their friendship is so, so special to me. i’d honestly kill to have someone like that in my regular, offline life, you know? i don’t enjoy this season and feel you so hard. i mean i still love the characters, but with everyone being at different places and all that n*gan overload is so damn tiring. these two keep me around, that is for sure.

existentialcrisisconvention  asked:

hey fam heres some asks to take up ur time lol,, 2, 13, 14, 24, 36, 37, 63, 76, 118, 120, 128, 139, & 153. thats alot but you asked for it,, and i hope u feel better soon and let out some steam man <33

2: Zodiac sign
13: Favourite color
GREEN! I love green. As I’m typing this I’m resting my head on a green fluffy cushion in a room with the same coloured walls. I love any type of green really, that’s why I say green rather than pistachio or something, but I’m particularly impartial to limes and natural greens.
14: Do I have a crush
Nah. Unfortunately I don’t. Sorta wanna have one to see what it’s all about, but then again it sounds very stressful, so idk.
24: Favourite style of clothing
I really enjoy feeling important, so I love being in fancy clothing. I enjoy wearing my big black coat, and I’m normally in a dress shirt and some black trousers. That’s not really a style I suppose, but it’s my so idk.
36: Tattoos and piercing i have
Don’t have any. I grew up being told tattoos were basically satanic, and piercings were only for females in the ears. That’s obviously changed now, but I suppose I unfortunately still have a slight fear of the more extreme ones.
37: Tattoos and piercing i want
Idk. I sorta want to get my ears pierced but then that’s very permanent, and I’m the same with tattoos really. I sorta want to get a minor aesthetic one, or maybe a few, and maybe a couple to remember people I love.
63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
( @little-cheeky-monkey 😏) Idk. Def aliens. It seems highly improbable to me that intelligent alien life doesn’t exist, and even more improbable that microbial alien life doesn’t exist. As for ghost, idk, not really, but maybe they do?!?
76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?
Either pence or trump
118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
No. As I said before I haven’t had a crush before. I can certainly look at other males and see that they are aesthetically pleasing, and I have been found to have called random guys hot, but it’s never a crush. I don’t want to date any of them, I don’t want to do anything with them really.
120: Wore make up? No. Unfortunately I haven’t. I’ve painted my nails a few times and plan on doing it many more times. I’d like to try makeup one day, but it does seem very time consuming.
128: Stalked someone on a social network?
Most certainly. I’m very protective of the people I love, so if someone has a new friend or something I’ll find out everything I can so I can protect my friend.
139: Favourite Tv Show? I’m inclined to say Sherlock, however, as we all know, there isn’t much of that to watch, so I think I’ll say either QI or Would I Lie To You
153: My closest Tumblr friend
Most certainly @little-cheeky-monkey
I have a few tumblr friends, and I love them all very much, but I speak to her everyday for years. I have a few good friends who have blogs but I know them irl so yeah.

Thank you very much for the ask! I had a lot of fun answering them all. And thanks I have calmed down a bit now, and I think it’s still on the down.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.