you ever feel remarkably lonely because despite all your attempts at making friends you always feel like you're coming on too strong or too weak and then you get left in this lull of loneliness? I feel like all my close bonds have faded except for my girlfriend who i love so much but I'm so platonically lonely and I feel so useless at making friends, even online which should be easy. I'm sorry for the vent. I just admire you and didn't know who else to write to. I guess I could just use a hug.
Anon my sweet… I’m so sorry to hear you’re feeling this way. However, I want to remind you that friendships online are in no way easier than in real life — it’s easier to REACH people online, but keeping up with them can be very difficult due to life, time-zones etc. Don’t beat yourself over finding it difficult!
It can feel like hell, not being able to keep up with people you hold so dear, especially if you’re someone who needs and yearns for affection and verbal assurance of how people feel about you. I understand that, and I can imagine how bad you must be feeling. But please don’t pressure yourself or feel like people don’t care for you even if they can’t keep in contact with you day-to-day. It’s hard, it’s unbearably lonely sometimes, but please trust in the love your friends online have for you. It doesn’t disappear just because you can’t keep in contact as much as both of you’d love to.
Making friends is incredibly diffifult, and takes a lot of time. I understand how it could make you feel like an outsider, holding out on that time, especially if you see people socializing online all around you. Please don’t compare yourself to those other people with different situations, lives or social skills than you. Focus on your own feelings and what YOU want out of a friendship. Perhaps you should start out small, and try to make one friend first instead of trying to get a big bunch all at once?
I’m terrible at socializing, and most of my friends are painfully aware of this. But just because you’re clumsy socially doesn’t mean there’s no hope for you. You will make friends, slow and steady — just give it some time, and try to bravely contact people in communities you enjoy or share interests with. It all starts with babysteps, and will take time to grow. One friend becomes many, but it WILL take time and work. You’re alright, and you will get there. People love you, you have a wonderful girlfriend, and you deserve the friendships you yearn. Give yourself time. Don’t beat yourself over being clumsy about it.
I’m sending you tons of hugs, anon sweet. I’m sorry for ranting, but I wanted to let out what I think. I truly hope you’ll feel better soon, and will be gifted with all the affection and friendship you want and deserve. You’re a lovely person. Please don’t be afraid to reach out to people, both on- and offline. I believe in you!!!
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