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Unappreciation

You know I really feel unappreciated. Yes I have to admit, I expected you to answer a certain thing when I asked you the question but to my disappointment, it never came out. It’s like you never even thought of it, compared to the things you have mentioned those are nothing and are all full of shit, it’s like I could do all of those things everyday but what I did was something not everybody could do. I spent days working on that portrait and not even a mention of it on your blog or something. I really feel like my effort, my time and my courage all went to waste.

From the bottom of my heart along with all of the sincerity in me, I would really like to thank you for making me feel this way.

Acrylic Paint

Basically the title has no connection to this entry at all. So yeah, here it goes.

Just this morning, I decided to let go. I think it’s time to let go of my feelings for this special little lady, because I realized I’m just hurting myself. I really do miss her a lot but there’s nothing I could do about things as we are separated by the largest body of water in the planet. I love her and she probably does not love me back (she’s so confusing though). She does not know I love her, but probably she has a hint of it already when I told her that I do care for her and I always want her to be happy. (which is what I really want). We’ve been trading long messages on facebook for three months already (ever since I got here) but ugh. I don’t know. I really wanted to tell her how I feel but I don’t want to end up hurting her IF EVER she felt the same because it’s most likely that I’ll be staying here for good. In my most recent message to her, I told her that I’m happy she’s happy already, I hope she’d be strong, positive and happy always no matter what happens and also told her I don’t want anything bad to happen to her.

Because of her I found out I was capable of doing such extraordinary things. She will always have a special place in my heart and I will never ever forget her.

WTF am I saying?

First Post

I decided to make tumblr account because I am bored. I have nothing to do, no one to talk to so I would probably just put in here the things that go on inside my head, like my thoughts,my emotions, my horny-ness (if there’s such a word), things that inspire me, my art, other people’s art and stuff.