Basically the title has no connection to this entry at all. So yeah, here it goes.
Just this morning, I decided to let go. I think it’s time to let go of my feelings for this special little lady, because I realized I’m just hurting myself. I really do miss her a lot but there’s nothing I could do about things as we are separated by the largest body of water in the planet. I love her and she probably does not love me back (she’s so confusing though). She does not know I love her, but probably she has a hint of it already when I told her that I do care for her and I always want her to be happy. (which is what I really want). We’ve been trading long messages on facebook for three months already (ever since I got here) but ugh. I don’t know. I really wanted to tell her how I feel but I don’t want to end up hurting her IF EVER she felt the same because it’s most likely that I’ll be staying here for good. In my most recent message to her, I told her that I’m happy she’s happy already, I hope she’d be strong, positive and happy always no matter what happens and also told her I don’t want anything bad to happen to her.
Because of her I found out I was capable of doing such extraordinary things. She will always have a special place in my heart and I will never ever forget her.
WTF am I saying?