Day 5. (Tuesday) Ups and downs.
‘Ups and downs’ is an expression used by many to indicate good times (ups) and to indicate bad times (downs). Recently I have been having a lot of ups and downs, for example losing all remaining self confidence- down, Aunt’s party- up, and so on. The main reason I made a post about it today, is because I feel today was really one of those ups and downs days.
Two of my best friends are now currently in a relationship together (up), and it just so happens that the girl in the relationship is my ex (down). Now
it doesn’t bother me that they are going out I’m happy for them (up) but it may sound harsh on my ex, but I always thought I would be the one to move on first (down). Its not like i’ve not tried but here the thing; I get on well with so many girls and I’m a massive flirt (up) but I am always led on and told a bunch of bullshit I mean 'the friend speech’ which furthermore destroys my self-confidence and my hopes of a relationship (down).
This is how I feel and although I can’t change it I just wish I could because when the opportunity for a relationship comes my way, i’m so emotionally unstable that I mess it up and ruin everything. This happens way too much (down).
- Shea Monahan