In calling me deceptive, Varner invoked one of the most odious stereotypes of transgender people, a stereotype that is often used as an excuse for violence and even murder. In proclaiming “Zeke is not the guy you think he is” and that “there is deception on levels y’all don’t understand,” Varner is saying that I’m not really a man and that simply living as my authentic self is a nefarious trick. In reality, by being Zeke the dude, I am being my most honest self — as is every other transgender person going about their daily lives.
Zeke Smith wrote a guest piece for the Hollywood Reporter about being outed as transgender on Survivor, and it is too good for one quote to do it justice. Read the whole thing here.
yuri is selfish. it’s how he’s been able to get this far, by putting himself first when no one else would. so when he can no longer take the heavy ache in his chest, the dull and constant need for more than gentle touches and soft reassurances, yuri cuts otabek out.
skype requests get rejected, text messages ignored, & it takes all of yuri’s willpower not to let otabek’s warm voice filter into the quietness of his room after the fourteenth missed call that night. yuri needs to let go, needs to purge from his body the longing that he knows goes unanswered.
and then, it all stops. yuri notes with bitterness that this is the part that hurts the most. the part where they become strangers again, where otabek walks past him at worlds without sparing a second glance, the part where yuri realizes that despite everything he is still stupidly in love with someone he cannot have.
I'm still relatively new here. What readings would you recommend?
Capitalby Karl Marx Capital in Mangaby Variety Artworks Capital Illustratedby David Smith Reform or Revolutionby Rosa Luxemburg Workers’ Councilsby Anton Pannekoek Why Marx Was Rightby Terry Eagleton Ours to Master and to Ownby Immanuel Ness and Dario Azzellini Subterranean Fireby Sharon Smith Four Futuresby Peter Frase Caliban and the Witch by Silvia Federici Red Rosa by Kate Evans Democracy at Work by Richard Wolff A People’s History of the United States by Howard Zinn Lies My Teacher Told Me by James Loewen Socialism…Seriously by Danny Katch The Reactionary Mind by Corey Robin Parecon by Michael Albert Seventeen Contradictions and the End of Capitalism by David Harvey
These have probably informed my own ideas the most, so I highly recommend them. I apologize for not being able to provide links to these at the moment. Capital is free online, as are Reform or Revolution, Workers’ Councils, and A People’s History. Hope this can be a helpful reading list for you!
I think of reading like a balanced diet; if your sentences are baggy, too baroque, cut back on fatty Foster Wallace, say, and pick up Kafka, as roughage. If your aesthetic has become so refined it is stopping you from placing a single black mark on white paper, stop worrying so much about what Nabakov would say; pick up Dostoevsky, patron saint of substance over style.