anonymous asked:

how do you feel better when everything feels so foggy and sludgy and impossible? sometimes i can't make myself leave my apartment because the outside world feels too much, but it really only makes me feel worse.

hey anon, i’m sorry I haven’t gotten around to answering this sooner, I hope you see this. 

i’ve been having a pretty rough week, for no discernible reason. WHICH IS THE WORST. what do you do when nothing?? is wrong???? but something?? is wrong?? i’ve been tired and frustrated, i’m chewing the inside of my lip (my worst nervous habit, leftover from self-harm days), nightmares, etc etc. today I woke up stupid early (6ish) on my day off (my 4th in a row, which isn’t helping) and I wanted really badly to go to a museum. I told myself I would go ahead and get up and go and i’d have a nice time sitting in the sculpture garden reading my book. and then I just went back to sleep. I woke up again at 10 and said, okay now i’ll go, it’s still early. I showered, got dressed, packed a lunch. i walked to the train station. and then I turned around and went back to my apartment. 

it’s okay. what I did do this weekend is I cooked new things! my schedule this semester has been pretty great in that I have 3 day weekends every week, but if my mental health is Not Great, that much free time is not good for me. I end up taking 4 hour depression naps. but yesterday, I went to the market (across the street, low levels of energy required) and got some fruit and baked a cake. the day before that, I used whatever I had in the fridge to make a pretty good pasta dish. i’ve been cleaning, which is probably not ideal for most people or even doable if you’re depressed but it’s very therapeutic for me (especially because i have a lot of anxiety about clutter and mess) 

living with someone you’re close to helps w/ this, but even when I lived alone and my depression was the worst it’s been in years, I would open up the one window in my room and let fresh air in, and I would write something or clean something. or just walk around the block. 

I guess what i’m saying is if you can’t make yourself get out of your apartment, do stuff in your apartment. actual activities that involve movement and goals and things you can accomplish. not just sitting on the couch or napping. we all have those days and that’s fine, but after a day of yourself it’s time to push yourself to do even just a few small things. whatever you like to do. but things that, at the end of the day, you could hypothetically check off a to-do list (or not hypothetically, I love to-do lists!)

Passing the Time on Shift Tip #3:

All that random food lying around abandoned in the break room? That shit is yours. See what you can make by combining different things. Think of it as an exercise in creativity!

Perfectly eatable combinations I’ve made with left-over unclaimed food:

1. A root beer float using flat Mountain Dew shoved in the back of the fridge instead of root beer and some freezer burnt chocolate ice cream. 
7/10: the perfect combination of sludgy, cold, and mysteriously crunchy.

2. Shish kabobs that use a fossilized Slim Jim instead of a skewer, stabbed through canned peach slices.
2/10: Not worth all the ensuing bathroom trips. 

3. Nachos made from stale corn chips and a drizzle of marshmallow sauce, eaten out of an empty ramen packet because you don’t have any containers and the break room tables are probably covered in Staph bacteria. 
6/10: Salty, pathetic, and weird. To be fair, I can see this being a hit with college students. 

Pro Tip: Don’t feel like talking with your coworkers? Make any one of these concoctions, sit in a corner, and make unsettling eye contact with anyone who even so much as glances in your direction. People won’t try to talk to you again for weeks

When I was a little boy, we used to live in a house that was perched halfway up the top of a mountain. And behind our house, there sat under a tree an old man. A hermit, a monk. He’d lived under this tree for half his lifetime, so they said, and had learnt the secret of life. So, when my black day came, I went and asked him to help me… I’ll never forget what it was like up there. All bleak and cold, it was. A few bare rocks with some weeds sprouting from them and some pathetic little patches of sludgy snow. It was just grey. Grey, grey, grey. Well, the tree the old man sat under was ancient and twisted, and the old man himself was, he was as brittle and dry as a leaf in the autumn… He just sat there silently, expressionless, and he listened whilst I poured out my troubles to him. I was too unhappy even for tears, I remember. And when I’d finished, he lifted a skeletal hand and he pointed. Do you know what he pointed at? A flower. One of those little weeds. Just like a daisy, it was. Well, I looked at it for a moment and suddenly I saw it through his eyes. It was simply glowing with life, like a perfectly cut jewel, and the colours… the colours were deeper and richer than anything you could possibly imagine. Yes, it was the daisiest daisy I’d ever seen… So, later, I got up and I ran down that mountain and I found that the rocks weren’t grey at all. They were red, brown, purple and gold. And those pathetic little patches of sludgy snow, they were shining white. Shining white in the sunlight.
—  The Doctor, Doctor Who, ‘The Time Monster’

The Gazette LIVE TOUR 15-16 DOGMATIC FINAL 「Full Show」 

Set list 

02. RAGE
03. DAWN
12. LUCY
14. UGLY
16. DEUX

 Encore 1 


 Encore 2 

24. Kare uta
25. Shunsetsu no koro
26. LINDA~candydive Pinky heaven~

Fresh off of enrapturing us with a sensational remix of Skott’s Porcelain comes a face melting new remix from Los Angeles’ AWAY. There’s really no easy way to put this. AWAY has given psych pop darling BØRNS’s American Money a jaw dropping edit that might keep your pulse rate heightened for the rest of the night. Good luck trying to sleep soon after listening to this sludgy dark, savage trembling remix. The gratifying future bass and trap remix is cinematic haunting. At the rate AWAY is going, he might be my favorite future bass artist of the moment and for much time to come. 

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Rexsoka Week — Day 1 — Captain and Commander

Characters (Pairings): Captain Rex, Ahsoka Tano, Anakin Skywalker (Rexsoka)

Era: The Clone Wars

Word Count: 1,253

“That isn’t going to work.”

“Oh, c’mon, Rex. Where’s your optimism?”

“Back with the ship,” the captain muttered.

By which, he meant the smoking, charred ruins of their handy little runner, sleek and fast and absolutely no match for the Separatist frigate that had swatted it down like a buzzfly, not twenty minutes before.

Rex hadn’t commented on her piloting skills. Ahsoka was grateful for small favors.

Knowing her Master, she’d be stuck in sim-training when she got back, anyway.

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Auntie Christ “Bad Trip” b/w “The Nothing Generation” 1997. Lookout! Records.  Auntie Christ was the side project of X members Exene Cervenka and D.J. Bonebrake along with Rancid’s Matt Freeman.  This single, recorded as a demo, was the band’s first and both songs appeared on their full-length Life Could Be a Dream. “Bad Trip” is fast and loud and full of scathing commentary on the state of the nation (for example, “all those savings & loan emptied vaults and congress says pay; tell them it ain’t your fault, this land is their land, this land is their land, I wanna hear the sound of one hand grenade clapping, America tripping I’m having a bad trip). “The Nothing Generation” is sludgy and dark, like a bad heroin trip, which the song references and bemoans in no uncertain terms. “The nothing generation lives where something used to be. It’s not that they’re so depressed, it’s just that drugs are so cheap, almost free. They’re not even trotted til they get too deep. They’re not even into Johnny Thunders cause he’s not on MTV. Stupid fucking kids, wake up! You’re like sheep sheep sheep stupid fuckin’ kids!”

multirpuniverse  asked:

((So Doctor Strange, to catch you up on what happened last week, a corrupt Freya went after your family, Anakin fell into sludgy water on Montunui saving Maria and ended up getting corrupted himself but he eventually got rid of the darkness and now he's resting up and recovering just fine. Freya's now free from the darkness and Montunui's oceans are un-sludged.))

I’m away for one month and…

Alright. I won’t train in the Mirrored Dimension for that long again.

Rajigaze Sep 30

Reita (reading question): “My band from university is going to be covering the GazettE’s songs this month. I’ve always wanted to [cover your songs], and I’m so happy my wish has come true. I play the guitar, and I’ve been practicing really hard. So, if you know any surefire ways to get a crowd excited, please tell me! By the way, we’ll be playing Hyena, Filth in the Beauty, and Sludgy Cult. I would really appreciate your advice.”

(FITB starts playing in the background)

Reita: Well, since they’re on guitar, let’s ask Uruha. Hyena, Filth in the Beauty, and Sludgy Cult. How do you get the crowd excited?

Uruha: Well, especially at a university, I think they should have a decently persuasive stage presence…but I’m tryna think, what do those three songs have in common?

Reita: Uhh…(giggles)…they’re by the GazettE. (laughs alone at his own joke)

Uruha: Well, in the end it’ll depend on their energy while performing, you know?

Reita: Energy is important.

Uruha: Mhm.

Reita: Really important.

Uruha: It depends on how much your spirit (energy) is reaching them, the fans – audience – the audience?

Reita: The audience.

Uruha: I could even go as far as saying it doesn’t matter if you’re not confident in your performance.

Reita: Mhm.

Uruha: Just put that aside for the moment –

Reita: Put it aside.

Uruha: If you’re letting it show that you’re not confident, your mistakes are just gonna stand out that much more.

Reita: It’s true.

Uruha: So to cover it up, you have to kind of…put on a show – huh? Uhh –

(Reita laughing)

Uruha: I mean, you don’t have to overdo it, you can show it with your face.

Reita: Yeah, yeah, I get it.

Uruha: So that people will look at your face and go, “wow, this guy’s into it!” Facial expressions are important.

Reita: If you’re acting nervous, even if you make a small mistake, people will notice it right away, but if you’re acting all confident, people usually don’t notice.

Uruha: Yeah, so you should keep looking ahead of you (at the crowd).

Reita: Yeah, for sure. And we used to get nervous too.

Uruha: Yeah, yeah, yeah, and when you’re nervous and you’re not confident, you focus too much on your playing, so you end up looking down a lot of the time.

Reita: It’s true – and I don’t know how many times these kids have performed live before…but like, when it’s your first time, you think you’re looking at the crowd and head-banging a bunch, but then when you watch the video after you’re not at all. (laughs)

Uruha: It’s true…so you should watch the video after and see how you did, and like, make a point to look ahead more.

Reita: Yeah, that’s a good idea.

Uruha: If you practice doing that, you’ll get better.

Reita: Yeah, for sure. I want them to practice like that in the studio so they can do the live full of confidence!

Uruha: Well, they’re probably already doing that.

Reita: I guess…if so, then sorry.

(Uruha laughs)

Reita: But what I wanna know is, they’re performing at their university, right?

Uruha: Mhm.

Reita: Will everyone…know the GazettE?

Uruha: Obviously not.

(both laugh)

Reita: I’m a bit worried about that…

Uruha: That’s exactly why I want them to do a good job!

Reita: Exactly. “Ah – what’s this song…? It was the GazettE, right?” (*he’s pretending to be someone at the show lol)

Uruha: Yeah.

(Reita laughs alone at his own joke again)

Uruha: I really hope they can put on a cool performance.

Reita: Yeah, please do your best!

Anonymous asked:
Could you draw how you think Dark Perlite would look? :D

I originally thought about using black pearls as a theme. But then I thought Akoya would’ve loved his ‘pretty innocent angel’ façade too much. 

I’d like to imagine that Akoya detests dark things. So his dark form would be (ironically) blindingly bright so that you’d either see him (the only thing pure and bright in this world) and only him… or you could see nothing at all.

Nothing sloppy, sludgy, or dark. His purity would blind all that is not bright and beautiful, or those that worship it, and condemn them to the filthy darkness.

Isn’t it true that the more a person thinks of themselves as cute… the blacker their heart must be?

  • Complex
  • Unruh
  • Setting Fire to Sinking Ships

Unruh were a metalcore band from Arizona. Formed in 1995, out of the ashes of the band Uruk-Hai, they had a sludgy, dark sound, at times wandering into grindcore/crust territory (ala Dystopia). This song is a great example of that description, I think, especially the clean guitar interlude towards the middle. They broke up in 2000 after releasing two full lengths and three 7″s.