Bucky/Darcy, Lovecraftian Horror AU

for @marriedtocake

A/n: This one’s a fusion with MCU and Lovecraft’s Dagon.  The narrator of that one always kind of reminded me of Bucky.  Bucky’s story has a happier ending, though.  ;)  

Bucky wasn’t sure how they got here.  One minute, he’d been frolicking with his girlfriend on the beach and then the next…

The next they were back here.  He spun around to look at their surroundings.  Mucky sludge at their feet, oozing over their toes.  The reek of dead fish.  The yellow shroud of darkness punctured by that all too familiar rune covered stone.  As big as life.  

Darcy’s hand tightened around his.  “Bucky? Buck…what’s wrong?”  

He turned to look at her. To search her eyes. He saw fear there. Fear and confusion.  

It suddenly dawned on him.

She couldn’t see it. She wasn’t scared of what he was seeing. She feared him.

He blinked, willing the vision before him to go away.  Willing the muck that was sucking and pulling at their feet to turn back into the white sand. The ocean.  Willing the acrid smell to leave his nostrils.  This wasn’t happening.  It happened thirty years before.  And it hadn’t happened to him.  It had happened to the asset.  

He closed his eyes, forcing it to pull back.  

And it did.  It did.  

When he opened his eyes, the sun shone bright, warming his skin.  The muck and dead fish disappeared, turning back into sand and surf.

Even the rune covered stone was gone.  He was back in Maui with his girlfriend.  And that…that thing?  

The thing lurking in the back of his mind…

“You see that thing again?  That…monster thing?”  Her hand smoothed down the side of his face.  Her eyes peered into his.  Full of worry, not fear.  

He swallowed thickly. “Yeah…well no.  I was…I was about to.  I was seeing the place.”  

It slunk back there. To the deep dark depths of his mind.  Weakened by the surge of happiness he felt when he looked at Darcy.  

Weakened.  But not dead.  

Today I am feeling all of the things.

I’m homesick as fuck. I’m lonely. I’m hormonal. I’m ugly and I feel like a great big ball of sludge. I’m tired. I keep thinking about things that happened 2 years ago. I cried about it earlier before napping for 4 hours which is Not Good. When I sleep to avoid feeling bad, it reminds me of when I was really mentally sick and I don’t want to get there again.

Overall, just a bad mental health day. Feeling like nobody needs me or loves me, really. All your good vibes would be appreciated. ❤


SOS Dinobots

We stay in the rocky general surroundings as usual because drawing backgrounds in cartoon shows costs money, but we get a random trippy hologram and, of course, another goddamn waterfall based power plant. In this episode, Wheeljack and Ratchet play God (or parents), Starscream is severely unimpressed with everything, Bumblebee doesn’t do what he’s told and we meet new characters who will actually stay around this time! 

Next time, we leave for different locations again, Spike meets a girl, magic is a thing apparently and another landscape is completely ruined. 

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Disney Channels Worldwide EVP of Programming Adam Bonnett 

AKA “Guess we’re not moving to ABC Family any time soon.” 

I’m really looking forward to see how they will play serious high school issues on Disney. We’re all taking a risk here by letting this be pulled off on Disney, GMW being our life force and all. Don’t make this into another cliché, stereotypical, cheesy high school drama/comedy Disney. Remember, you’re about to attract more number of older audience, so don’t let let them label GMW as ‘another tween show on Disney that doesn’t know that high school isn’t a High School Musical’ from this season. 

I understand that there are boundaries, but let GMW be close as you can get to those lines. GMW is girl’s POV of BMW. There are things that could be addressed that do not cross/is close to the line such as: 

  • mind numbing stress 
  • seriousness of exams and education 
  • pressures of college selections, applications, preparations, interviews and entrance exams
  • types of teachers and how to deal with each type
  • student expectations in high school
  • volunteering
  • bullying from upper class girls 
  • realm and realism of popularity 
  • hacking
  • Driving (Lucas will turn 16 next year)
  • realistic dating 
  • dating someone due to their reputation/wealth
  • inter-racial dating
  • realism and seriousness of marriage (most girls think marriage is the culmination of an epic love story and it’s a happily ever after. Some marriages happen without a love story and for some it’s the end of their love story. Corpanga isn’t the case with everyone.)
  • body image 
  • media’s effect on young girls and young boys
  • being put in unhealthy competition against your own gender (cat fights)
  • stereotypes
  • feeling invisible and being an outsider
  • feeling too old to be beautiful (sounds like a job for Topanga and Katy. Many women lose self worth (not confidence) because we’re told that beauty is everything in a women and if you got wrinkles and saggy skin, you’re not beautiful enough and that you’re ‘time’ is over. This happened to someone I love dearly)
  • cliques 
  • high school parties
  • racism
  • feminism and equalism (doesn't this scream like a job for queen Rowan?)
  • suicide
  • murder (yes suicide should be addressed separately)
  • cheating and temptations to cheat on significant other
  • temptations as a whole
  • truth about the portrayal of life, women and men in movies and on tv
  • double standards faced by women
  • puberty and hormones 
  • love triangles (we already have this going on, so kudos. Some may not like it, but this is very natural and real.)
  • Police involvement in school

However, there are soo many other things that girls (including myself) go through in high school and I’m still highly doubtful whether you could even address them on the channel. Here are some examples of sexual/intimate realism girls face in today’s world. Yes, they cross your borders but they are real. These are serious things I’ve seen and heard happen.

  • peer pressure into sex from boys/bfs
  • peer pressure into losing your virginity, whether boy or girl
  • virginity-shaming
  • sexuality (This is here because have you heard what happened to the girl who played Charlie on Good Luck Charlie?)
  • inter-faith dating (this is hardly EVER seen on a tv show, but it does happen and is common in countries with high diversity (like the country I’m living in currently). I have plenty of real stories (plural) that has happened in my very own class itself, to my very own friends and myself.)
  • abuse (sexual or otherwise, abuse is abuse)
  • Sexual double standards faced by women
  • dressing provocatively just to keep the guy 
  • teachers hitting on student (I believe this was covered in BMW so I’ll give it a pass if it’s not addressed) 
  • alcohol and drugs
  • po*n and its addiction (this territory is mainly for the guys and some girls. This is 99.99% something that high school students go through these days with advancements in technology. This something that definitely needs to be addressed.)
  • how the above mentioned word affects guys’ expectations and mentality (such as sleep deficits/prone to anger and violence/mistrust in significant other/addiction), thereby affecting his idea of sex and girls. (Lady parts and guy parts don’t always look like that!)
  • teen pregnancy (yes this happened to a 11th grade girl)
  • Cat called continuously on streets by men (I wanna see how Cory and Shawn would react to this so badly. I think this is something that just crosses the Disney border.)
  • Harsh break-ups and threats (There was someone who had broken up with her bf and the guy constantly threatened her and even cut his hand until she gave into his requests. I’m not kidding).
  • Threats through social media (not cyber-bullying as in making derogatory and offensive remarks, but like asking for photos of certain uncovered body parts.)
  • Actually just bringing up the subject of sex (and not just in the context of reproduction)
  • Actually having the guts to go to the police to report in any case of threats, harassments and domestic/sexual violence (and be thankful that you’re not living in Rosewood where the police is useless as a gun without a trigger. PLL anyone?)

I will applause if above subjects are even lightly touched (using an innuendo for example) during their high school experience. If you could put a warning sign or some sort of content advisory, I’ll salute you. Let this be the show that changes everybody’s view of Disney.

Yes, my expectations are quite high because I’ve devoted soo much time for this show, (no wait, I mean universe) and I’m still holding on tightly because important issues are brought up and talked about as far they were allowed (example cyber-bullying). But I’m lowering the bar a little bit because I don’t want to have unrealistic expectations, with GMW still being a Disney show. That doesn’t mean that I underestimate the writers ability, I just have low-very moderate hopes on how far Disney will allow. I mean, they didn’t air certain episodes of BMW. Here’s what it says on wikipedia:

“Disney Channel edited many episodes that contained scenes with suggestive content deemed inappropriate for the channel’s target audience of 7- to 14-year-olds. All 158 episodes aired during the series’ initial run on the Disney Channel, however due to the adult subject matter and complaints from parents, Disney Channel omitted three episodes from later airings: season five’s “If You Can’t Be with the One You Love…” (due to its depictions of underage drinking) and “Prom-ises, Prom-ises” (whose main storyline involves Cory and Topanga contemplating losing their virginity on the night of their prom), and season six’s “The Truth About Honesty” (due to its sexual references).”

I still truly truly hope that GMW moves to ABC Family after the 4 season limit. Those subjects mentioned above are 100% real and cannot be ignored. Which other show will actually address those topics maturely and give Mr Feeny level lessons about it? BMW was a phenomenon because it touched real life, mostly from a boy’s perspective. Now show the girl’s perspective on real life. 

I’m giving you a big chance here Disney, so DON’T mess it up. :)

 17 year old fan, in her senior year of high school, really hoping that high      school on GMW is relatable, realistic and accurately portrayed. 

PS: I’m proud of you Michael and the entire team of writers, you truly are a legend. Thank you for all your efforts.

PSS: I’m sorry for this being so long and if you have to scroll past for a mile or two. This is the most serious thing I’ve written and it took over three and a half hours to type, but it was worth it. 

Stress Build Character
  • Stress Build Character
  • Dystopia
  • Human = Garbage

I am so tired.
Sometimes I feel so tired.
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep.
So tired.
The pressure builds and builds.
Seems like there's no release.
The things I see go unnoticed by some.
Fills my eyes and heart.
Anger and guilt and frustration.
And depression makes waking up every day harder and harder.
Where’s my fitness to the world with my chance to survive.
I got to get money so I can have a home.
So I can breathe, eat and live in this society.
I don’t even like money,
And I got to work everyday just to feed myself.
God it makes me sick.
I just wanna curl up into a hole and die in this.
This isn’t worth it.
I need a raise man!
I can’t survive on this faith anymore.
I can’t live on this.

So I’ve seen people GIFing the Riarkle moment before this with the “I know” and “Okay” but never this part

and I feel like this moment is just as important as the interaction before it

Riley gets that confused look on her face again

Then she literally scans his whole body

It’s almost as if she has a tiny realization because she unfurrows her brows and she gives him that small smile that seems to be reserved only for Farkle