homesick at home
where is the deepest grave?
where can i curl up and feel safe?
i want to flee but am trapped in this womb with spears all pointed towards me where the only opening is a pit of eyes on fire
Harry was, surprisingly, a heavy sleeper. Maybe it was because he finally felt safe; finally felt like he didn’t have to bolt out the door every time there was a noise, or a bump.
Though, it wasn’t always so easy for Harry to sleep. Sleep made him vulnerable. Sleep made it easy for someone to attack . Draco would set up wards, and charms before bed every night. He would hold Harry till his heart beat slowed, and his breathing evened out. Draco would wait, watching Harry’s fist uncurl, and his body stop twitching.
But that was a long time ago. Now, Harry is asleep before his head touches the pillow. Yet, somehow, he always manages to wrap himself around Draco, as if he was is anchor, his protection, his lifeline.
And Draco would hold him back just as tightly, because Harry was, after all, his whole world.
i’ve waited all day to let these thoughts and feelings out the way i want. i try and get my words straight and ordered but everybody talks and moves so fast they’ve already moved on, sometimes i am standing still seeming confident but completely lost. my body feels heavy and torrential, sometimes i just need sleep and sleep and sleep. even at my worst and saddest i am there for people, always reliable, never giving up on people, but where are they when i need them most? my silence is probably to blame, if i only i could straighten out my words properly to explain
A soothing sachet to tuck under your pillow or hang over your bed. Get a good night’s sleep and wake up refreshed!
Pick and choose some of the following herbs. I typically use a mixture of about 4, or whichever I happen to have on hand at the time. I try to avoid too many at once because that results in an overwhelming scent.
Anise - Known to repel nightmares.
Calendula – Brings about a good night’s sleep.
Cedar – Calms the mind and wards off bad dreams.
Chamomile – One of the most powerful sleep herbs on the list.
Jasmine – Gives good dreams, but can cause erotic dreams in women.
Lavender – The ultimate in stress relief herbs.
Lemon Balm – Stress relieving sleep aid.
Mugwort – Helps ward off bad dreams.
Mullein – Can be used to protect against bad dreams or psychic attack.
Rose petals – Brings about dreams of love. Can also cause erotic dreams if used too heavily.
Next, gather the following stones.
Clear Quartz — Who doesn’t love clear quartz? It’s like an energy booster for your other stones.
Amethyst — This gem helps guard against nightmares, but also helps soothe an overactive mind and wipes away the stress of the day (or week).
Rose Quartz — Bring in some of rose quartz’ love and peace. This brings deep, restorative sleep and over time can build self-love and overall happiness.
Lepidolite — Probably my most recommended stone. Lepidolite is like kryptonite to even the most super-est of stresses and depressions. It can stop obsessive thoughts, bring mood swings into line, and will upend dependency and mental anguish that might be keeping you up at night.
Take the stones (little chips are just as good as big chunks) and place them in a bowl. Add any essential oils (many of the floral herbs are more fragrant in their oil form) and use your hands to roll the stones around until coated. While doing so, focus your intent as soft pink or yellow (or whatever color is soothing to you) light radiating from your hands.
Next, add the remaining herbs. Continue to hand mix the ingredients while focusing your intent. Once thoroughly mixed, hold your hands over the bowl and really expand that “light” into a ball of positive, soothing energy.
If you’d like, say a quick invocation or spell. Something like:
When I lay me down to sleep
I ask of you my dreams to keep.
No more tossing, no more turning.
No more stress and questions burning.
Only rest and gentle sleep,
Until the morning’s dawn shall peep.
You can change the words to fit your needs, or skip it altogether. It doesn’t have to rhyme - that’s just a simple device some people use. Hell, it doesn’t even need to make sense, as long as it is you channelling your will into the mixture.
DO. NOT. RUSH. THIS. PART. Breathe. Let your will do its work.
Once you’ve imbued the mixture with your will, transfer it to a muslin bag or pouch. Hang near your bed or tuck under your pillow.
As a side-note, always feel free to experiment with this and any of my other recipes. This is what works for me. Maybe you find catnip or vervain soothing. Add it! Maybe tourmaline is your power crystal. Add it! And if you experiment with the recipe and find something that seems to work really well, let me know!
Imagine Person A always sleeps as if they’re reaching out to someone who isn’t there when they sleep alone. Person B finds Person A likes this, and comes over on the side where Person A is reaching and holds them. Person A sleepily pulls Person B closer.
For the past few days I’ve woken up feeling a lot happier and way more positive, simply by starting a few more healthy habits. I figured that I might sprinkle and share some of my positivity with you peeps! ♡
If you are recovering from any mental health issues, or want to take the next step, this might be benefitial to you, as it was to me - however, I will warn you that different things work for different people :)
before bed: practise self-care and self-love, think positive thoughts, breathe fresh air, listen to calming music, read a good and positive book, drink water - stay hydrated kiddos, drink some calming tea, take any medication you need to, make sure everything you need for tomorrow is prepared and make sure that you room is in good conditions to sleep in.
when you wake up: don’t reach for your phone the moment you wake up, open your curtains, open your window and let some fresh air in, have a drink, stretch and remember the positive thoughts you went to bed with.
“Quick fact. Ready? Consuming protein prior to bed time may enhance sleep quality by providing the body with amino acids necessary to create human growth hormone. This hormone plays a role in deepening sleep, as well as muscle recovery following exercise.” | @thepowerwithin
Monsta X reacting to their best friend (crush) asking to sleep in their bed with them
A/N: Guess who took ages to make this! Yes, me :( Still, this is for a wonderful anon who made the request. I hope you like it and sorry for taking so long.
He would try to look super chill about it, and make some jokes as an ice breaker he would think it’s a good oportunity to have a late night conversation with you, but when you finally fall asleep he would be terrifyed to touch you because he wouldn’t want you to think he’s actually taking advantage of the situation.
Jooheon: be careful, Y/N, I move a lot in my sleep, you might end up on the floor. You: can you just shut up and let me sleep, Jooheon? I’m tired… *a couple of minutes later in the dark…* Jooheon: Hey, Y/N are you still awak- *accidentally touches your boob* You: LEE JOOHEON WHAT THE FUCK! Jooheon:
He would be super nervous and start making a million scenarios in his head, as he wouldn’t be sure if you just wanted to sleep in his bed, or sleep with him. So he would just pull the typical Wonho move, play it cool (and collapsing in an embarrassment breakdown 2 seconds later).
You: Wonho… Would it be awkward if we slept together? Wonho: No at all… Pfff… Wait a second, though. Do you mean sleep, sleep, or sleep sleep, because if it’s the second one… You: Wonho, for God sake… I’m literally just gonna close my eyes and pass out. Chill, boy. What did you have in mind? Wonho: Me??? Nothing… Of couse I knew you meant that… *sweats*
This little savage would try to act like it’s not big deal while he would actually be so happy inside because he’s gonna have the chance to have you sleeping in his own bed. He would still try to hide his true feelings for you.
You: Can I sleep in your bed tonight? I’m too lazy to go back home. Hyungwon: Of course not. I’ll give you a blanket, you are sleeping on the floor. You: HYUNGWON! Hyungwon: Okay, okay… You can sleep here but you have to do it on your side because I’ll only give you 20cm of my bed, so good luck trying to fit in. You: CHAE HYUNGWON! Hyungwon: OKAY THEN. God, why are you so greedy?
(Just to make the feels rise a little more, Ik he would stay awake till you fell asleep so he could stare at you BYE)
Oh this boy is everything but shy. He’d be glad you asked and he’ll be lowkey (and by lowkey I mean HIGHKEY AF) trying to getas close as he can to you, just being his clingy self. He’d take it as an oportunity to have a taste of the kind of relationship he wants we you but he doesn’t have (yet).
You: So… I can stay the night here? Minhyuk: Yeah, that’s my side right there, you can have the other one. You: Okay… Now I have a side… Minhyuk: Of course you do. That’s how it works… Both: *get in bed* You: Hummm… Minhyuk… can you please go to your side, you are technically over me… Minhyuk: (you are Jooheon)
I showed up twice in the SWCO Closing Ceremonies reel - which was gorgeous and is here.
The first was from the 40th Anniversary panel tribute to Carrie. I was standing on a chair, and every one of those people around me was so wonderful and supportive. The second was from the Rebels panel with @lorna-ka immediately following Filoni’s announcement that the show was going into its final season.
The past four days have been intense, mad, overwhelming, frustrating and so very wonderful. Thank you to every single person that I met, whether it was holding hands at the 40th anniversary or grabbing a quick photo, the fastest hello or a compliment or hours spent sitting in a queue together, or standing in the middle of the floor when a quick photo turns into an hour long in-depth chat. Thank you to every child who gasped, smiled or waved when they saw Hera walking their way, and to every fellow cosplayer who swapped tips and techniques. Thank you to everyone who adopted me and let me adopt them, and to everyone not here who has been following along on instagram and twitter. Double triple quadruple thanks and love to @lorna-ka . I love Star Wars and I love the incredible community around it, even if I only interact with tiniest little corner of it.
What a wonderful thing we love, and my gods I am ready to sleep.