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if you have an excoriation disorder (skin picking)

definitely look into getting hydrocolloid adhesive plasters. you can get them at CVS or Walgreens or even Walmart if you look carefully. they’re blister bandages that can be cut into little squares and put over picked pimples or any small infected wounds (such as cuticles, which I’ve got right now) and left on over night or for a few hours and they draw out infections and protect the wound from getting more germs in it. they’re really easy to use and the results are amazing, plus, they’ll keep you from picking already existing wounds, while helping them heal. if you’re using one on your hands, I recommend putting a bandaid over it just to keep it in place just because your hands move around a lot, but other wise they’re self adhesive and don’t need anything else to hold them on.

they’ve helped me a lot and I haven’t seen much about them anywhere so I hope this post helps some people!!

I’ve come to realize why it’s so hard to stop picking. this won’t make it any easier to stop picking but at least I’m self-aware. 9/10 times you pick, you leave a mark, it’s red and puffy, bloody, and the pimple comes back in the same spot or around the spot and it could even come back bigger. but that 1/10 time that you pick, you get the best sounding pop, the most satisfying pop, you completely clear the dead skin away, the bump goes away, the black/whitehead goes away, the area looks cleaner and better than it has ever looked. and we crave that feeling of satisfaction every time we think about picking, because we know how good it feels. and although you don’t get that feeling every time you pick because 9/10 times the picking isn’t successful, eventually that feeling will come back and you will crave it even more. picking appears worth it because of that one successful pop that you know will come eventually, you just have to be patient and deal with the scars and the bleeding and the embarrassment and the comments.. because it’s all worth it for that one pop, right?

ok i’ve seen a lot of fics where kieren has dermatillomania and other body focused repetitive behaviors which is so important to me! because i actually have dermatillomania, trich, and nail picking disorder and it would be amazing if this was cannon. seriously, so many people with BFRB have such a hard time feeling good about themselves because we constantly destroy our appearances.

i also read that kieren had to train himself to stop after he died because he knew whatever he picked off would never heal and i know how hard that is. we still see him softly chewing skin/nails a few times and picking his fingers lightly. i wonder if luke newberry meant us to interpret it as dermatillomania, or if he was just fidgeting as a classic sign of anxiety. either way, he’s a good actor for it. 

i also think a lot about other PDS sufferers who might have had BFRBs and couldn’t train themselves to stop after they rose. because BFRBs aren’t about the pain really, it’s just having something to focus on, to fidget with. imagine a teen PDS who’s mum made them shave off their hair because they couldn’t control their hair pulling. or someone else who wears gloves because they don’t want to freak people out with their half eaten fingers. they’re dead but they still live with their own shit. 

it’s not a problem at all!! (i hope you don’t mind me answering this publicly in case anyone else is confused)

dermatillomania, also known as excoriation disorder or just compulsive skin picking, is a type of body focused repetitive behavior (bfrb) characterized by, you guessed it, the compulsion to pick at one’s own skin. bfrbs are most commonly compared to ocd, but the symptoms have also been compared to those of anxiety and substance abuse problems.

last i checked, the cause of derma was still unclear, though it’s possible it can stem from genetics, trauma or heavy stress. i started picking when i was about three, so i don’t know why i did, but for many people it starts some time in their teens for various reasons.

i’d like to stress the difference between derma and occasional mild scratching, tho. lots of people pop a zit every now and then. lots of kids have to be taught not to pick at their scabs. for them, whether they pick or not isn’t a big deal. it can leave an embarrassing mark for a day or two, yeah, but that’ll go away and they can move on.

for me, it’s not that simple. when i get the urge to pick, it takes literally all of my willpower to ignore it. i’m lucky if i can go one full day without opening an old would or making a new one. sometimes i’ll pick without realizing it. sometimes a half an hour will have passed before i can collect my thoughts and stop myself. some people can do this after two minutes. others need two hours. everyone experiences it differently.

the constant, though, seems to be that it fucks with your life. you gather an impressive collection of scars. you learn how to hide your bleeding face from people around you. you learn how to tolerate long pants in ninety degree whether. i’ve canceled meetings with friends, skipped school, refused to wear shorts or go swimming in what feels like forever because i’m too ashamed to let people see my skin. some people don’t have it as severe as i do. some have it worse. either way, shit sucks.

on the bright side, i’ve gotten pretty damn good at washing out blood stains B)

((pls keep in mind that i am in no way representative of the bfrb community and if any of u guys wanna add on to this with ur own experiences or correct something i’ve said, feel free!!))

lilkalamata replied to your post:i’ve always struggled with acne and picking and so…

i had very VERY severe cystic acne id pick at for years so i totally know where you are coming from!! I got rid of mine by washing my face with natural products, moisturizing with grapeseed oil, and using burts bees spot treatment :)

oooo hmmmmm grapeseed oil??? hmmmmm thank you for the advice! I currently am washing my face with mario badescu aloe face wash and aloe toner and it has been pretty nice for my skin but i haven’t found anything to moisturize w/ that doesn’t seem to clog pores even more

also ps yr handle is really fun to say “lilkalamata”