Tony can handle being interrupted in the middle of an important project. He can handle realizing there’s no coffee left. He can handle ridiculous politicians. And the media. And crazy fans. All this on top of saving the world from vengeful demi-gods, killer robots, giant ants, and whatnot.
What he can’t handle is seeing someone he loves get hurt. He doesn’t want to think of all the times he failed his loved ones. Pepper. Rhodey. Happy. JARVIS. Too many.
And now here he is pressing shaky hands to Steve’s chest, mentally willingly the blood to stop seeping through his fingers, while the man is clenching his teeth in pain. They were fine five minutes ago. The mission was simple: Get in. Clear out the baddies. Get the stolen tech. Get out.
It was supposed to be simple, but Tony’s beginning to think that maybe they’ll never catch a “simple” break in their lifetime, mission or not.
And he had only turned away from a second. A second!
Next thing he knows, a bang sounds off and Steve is stumbling into him and then crumbling to the floor, blood racing from a small wound on his chest. Tony doesn’t think. He reacts. Arm up, a beam of pale-blue light later, and the shooter isn’t standing anymore. Tony doesn’t care if the guy lives or dies. Right now, all attention is on Steve.
He’s out of the suit and on the ground as quickly as FRIDAY can open it. He presses his hands to Steve’s chest, flinching at the gasp that escapes Steve’s lips, and demands FRIDAY call for a medic team and for one of the other Avengers to find them.
Tony tries to not freak out as Steve’s eyes flutter while the man fights to stay conscious.
“At least it’s not you this time,” Steve manages to choke out, a thin line of blood escapes the corner of his mouth and runs down his jawline.
A bitter laugh falls from Tony’s lips. “God, Steve. Just shut up.”
Steve cracks a grin despite it appearing that he can barely breathe.
“ETA, FRIDAY?” Tony calls when Steve coughs and specks of blood fly.
“Three minutes,” FRIDAY replies.
“It’s y-your turn to pick a p-place to eat, you know?”
Tony’s eyes sting with tears threatening to fall. “Like that matters right now,” he whispers.
Steve doesn’t get the opportunity to reply because the area is immediately flooded with medical personnel and Avengers. Tony allows himself to be pushed away and turns down the offer for help. Bruce, wearing only a robe, kneels next to Tony and checks over himself despite Tony’s protests.
“Steve would be upset if he found out you didn’t let someone check you out,” is the only thing Bruce says.
Tony doesn’t reply. Instead, he gazes at the large pool of blood left behind after Steve was taken away. There’s just too much.
“He’ll be okay, Tony. He’ll come back from this.”
“He’s a supersoldier, but that doesn’t mean he’s invincible.”
“Be careful,” Clint calls from a few feet away. “You’re starting to sound like Cap.”
It’s meant to lighten the mood, but Tony doesn’t react. Clint doesn’t push. And Tony doesn’t remember getting up. He doesn’t remember being led away from the scene or making it onto the Helicarrier. He doesn’t remember changing into his pajamas.
He doesn’t remember falling asleep, but he remembers Steve’s bloody lips.
When he wakes up, it’s too a voice speaking softly about art?
“ - and I couldn’t find the charcoal pencils you bought me so I improvised and used grease. I hope you don’t mind. DUM-E didn’t. He was rather enthusiastic about help.”
There’s a chuckle.
A very familiar chuckle.
Tony’s eyes snap open and he shoots to a seating position. Sitting next to his bed, in a tank top with a sketch pad and tentative smile, is a living Steve Rogers. There’s some faded bruising around his temple and his skin hasn’t fully returned to its natural glow, but Steve looks much more alive than before.
“What are you doing out of bed?” Tony asks quickly.
“Well,” Steve starts as he scratches at his cheek, sheepish smile in place, “I woke up and no one was around. I feel much better and I went looking for you and you weren’t in your workshop so FRIDAY told be where you were. I found one of my sketch pads and decided to draw until you woke up.”
“You should be resting, Steve! You lost a lot of blood!” You shouldn’t have come looking for me.
Steve shakes his head. “Supersoldier, remember?”
“Uh, no. If I can’t use the excuse of ‘having the suit’ then you sure as hell can’t use ‘supersoldier’ to get out of this.”
He gets a head shake in return. “I’m okay, Tony. I mean, it was a close call. We’ve all had close calls.”
Tony just looks at him in disbelief. “I thought you were dead, Steve. Or going to be. There was,” Tony swallows, suddenly feeling anxious, “so much blood. Too much.”
Steve’s smile vanishes and he now looks distressed. He reaches forward and grabs Tony’s hand, eyes looking straight into Tony’s.
“I’m okay, Tony. I really am.”
Tony looks down at his hand before his shoulders slump and he sags against his pillows. Steve, good ol’ Steve, is trying to reassure him. It’s not supposed to be like this. Instead of saying this, Tony turns his hands over and Steve immediately entwined their hands.
“I don’t know what I’d do if anything happened to you,” Tony says finally.
“The feeling is mutual.” Steve strokes his thumb over the back of Tony’s hand in a soothing fashion.
Tony’s eyes drop to their hands. He sees a faded scar on his ring finger from a time he was messing around his open wires without wearing safety gloves and got shocked. He was lucky to not lose the finger.
His gaze falls to Steve’s thumb and he turns his hand to look at the back of Steve’s hand, to look at the bare ring finger.
It’s not the first time he’s thought about it. Almost everyone has said they argue like an “old married couple,” that they’re too “domesticated” around each other. They had jokingly called each other “husband” before and used varying terms of endearment.
“You know I love you, right?” Tony asks.
“Of course,” Steve replies with a bright grin, face lighting up in happiness. “I love you just as much.”
“Good because we’re getting married today. Or tomorrow. Gotta’ call Pepper and work some things out. And Rhodey since he’ll be best man and all.”
Steve’s happy expression turns to confusion, then shock, and then he’s laughing. “That’s the worse proposal ever, Tony.”
Tony finds himself grinning. “I don’t hear a ‘no’ from you.”
Steve shakes his head, smile turning almost shy. “Of course there won’t be a ‘no’ but you could ask properly.”
Tony squeezes his hand. “Marry me?”
They lean towards each other at the same time and seal the proposal with a kiss.
sketched yesterday in starbucks. it’s true what they say, you use it or lose it. i haven’t practiced basic still lifes in idk how many months, and this is pretty garbage compared to where i was at a year ago. but i don’t mind, it felt good to get back into it and i’m gonna keep practicing again. fall is coming && i feel the creative vibes.
I write you from soothing rain I write you from quiet night I write you from after the grade one field trip of tying shoes bandaids playground unruly lines packed lunch noise.
I write you from clarity thinking about clarifying itself I write you from peace thinking about moving in (where should I put the couch where should I put these shelves) I write you from a messy tattered heart I’ve grown to love and loved into growing and from the garden just beginning all muddy tentative sketched confident bold.
Have a plan: From the moment you’re done with classes on Friday, write down what you need to get done over the weekend. Have a rough sketch in your mind of how schedule these tasks. Keep in mind that this sketch is tentative, do not beat yourself up for taking more time on some things. This is normal, and it is also something you should plan for.
Take adequate breaks: I try to break every 20-40 minutes of work. If you’re really in the zone, break when you come to a good stopping point. Stuck? Maybe you are overdue for a break! When I break I go to the bathroom, check my phone, get a snack, or switch study areas. Make sure you monitor how long your breaks are! Try to keep them between 5-15 minutes.
Coffee: Especially if you begin to feel groggy or bored. Coffee not your thing? Try black tea or opening a window for some fresh air! All of these things can wake you up just enough to help you move along. Just don’t have too much caffine! This can make you jittery and restless, not to mention you will have to get up to go to the bathroom much more often than ideal.
Remember to leave room for self care! Healthy meals, exercise, and laughter are all important elements in avoiding burnout and lost motivation throughout your busy weekend.
Oh my goodness, I’ve been pumping out these things for the last couple of days. This is unusual for me, not gonna lie. O_o
I figured now would be as good time as any to draw my precious alien daughter, Starlee. The top two sketches were of AUs I wanted to explore with her, one being a Mermaid AU, and the other a Fantasy AU (with Cody, as a young prince, falling in love with Starlee, princess of the elves :3c ). The bottom sketch was a tentative design for the Back to the Sewer version of her. I figured I’d give her one since Cody received a new design in that season.
While I’m not the happiest with most of these sketches, Starlee was still a lot of fun to draw. Hopefully, I’ll get the chance to draw her more in the future. c: