six month check up

Yesterday was my first check up since starting hrt. It was supposed to be my three month check up but I’m three months late so it’s more like my six month check up. Hard to believe it’s been so long. It’s been a really insane six months and I forget sometimes that I’m doing this. I’ve recently discovered that it takes me a super long time to get dressed. Every time I get dressed now I struggle with presenting femme enough or too femme or too masc and I calculate how many “sirs” and “ma'ams” I’m gonna get. (Usually sirs. sigh) But I’m really starting to see results and I feel empowered. It may feel like I’m crawling forward most of the time but I’m moving forward and I feel really proud of that.

6 Month Update

Dear my Half-Year Old Kian,

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Thank you for being mine. Thank you for being my best friend, the perfect son, the only one who can make me smile when I cry. Thank you for bringing so much joy into my life during a time when I thought I couldn’t sink any lower. You’ve been with me for just over 6 months, but I cannot even begin to imagine what my life was like before you were in it. Words cannot even begin to express how much I love you, how much you mean to me. But before I ruin this update by gushing all over it, lets move on to the facts and figures.

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