Bez marzeń

Stare siwe kelnerki
w kawiarniach w nocy
już się poddały,
i kiedy idę oświetlonym
chodnikiem i zaglądam do okien
widzę, że czar już
widzę ludzi siedzących na ławkach w parku
i ze sposobu w jaki siedzą
i patrzą
widzę, że urok minął.

widzę ludzi prowadzących samochody
i ze sposobu w jaki prowadzą samochód
widzę, że już nie kochają
ani że nie są kochani –
nie myślą nawet o
seksie. wszystko zapomnieli
jak stary film.

widzę ludzi robiących zakupy w sklepach
i supermarketach
widzę ich jak chodzą wzdłuż półek
i wybierają rzeczy
i ze sposobu w jakim pasuje
do nich ubranie
i ze sposobu w jaki chodzą
z ich twarzy
z ich oczu
widzę, że nie dbają o nic
i że nic nie dba o nich.
co dzień widzę setki ludzi
którzy poddali się

kiedy idę na wyścigi
albo na mecz
widzę tysiące
które nie współczują niczemu ani
i nie otrzymują współczucia w zamian.
wszędzie widzę tych
którzy nie pragną niczego prócz
jedzenia, mieszkania
ubrania: na tym się
bez marzeń.

nie rozumiem dlaczego ci ludzie nie
nie rozumiem dlaczego ci ludzie nie
dlaczego chmury
nie wymordują ich
dlaczego psy
nie pożrą ich
dlaczego kwiaty i dzieci
nie zabiją ich,
nie rozumiem.
chyba jednak ktoś ich morduje
mimo to nie mogę oswoić się z
myślą ze jest
ich tak wielu.

co dzień,
co noc,
jest ich więcej
w metrze
w domach i
w parku.

nie przeraża ich to
że nie kochają
ani że nie są kochani
moi liczni liczni liczni

Charles Bukowski

Shawn Mendes - Six Flags

Request:  Shawn request please, y/n and Shawn are at six flags and she’s too scared to do any hfs rides but Shawn gets her to do a roller coaster and she gets super scared so he wins her a teddy


“I already told you, there is no way I’m going to get on that Hell!”

“It’s not that bad!” Shawn said trying to convince me while pulling me towards the biggest rollercoaster.

“No, Shawn, I don’t want to go!” I whined.

“Baby, I’ll be there next to you the whole time!”

“That doesn’t change the fact that I’m scared to death to even watch this thing go round!”

“But it’s completely safe, baby, you just have to sit there and enjoy the ride!” I rolled my eyes at him. I really didn’t want to do this, but it seemed like I didn’t have much choice.

It was his only free day for a while since he had to work so much lately and I could barely see him in the past few weeks. I didn’t want to ruin our fun, but it wasn’t my kinda thing. He wanted to go on the biggest rollercoaster but I was too scared. But I knew he wouldn’t leave me alone until I don’t say yes. He was quite convincing to be honest. When he was looking at you with puppy eyes and everything, you couldn’t say no to him.

“Okay, let’s go,” I groaned finally giving in.

“Yes!” he shouted throwing his fist into the air.

We stood at the line for a long time until we finally could get on the rollercoaster. I was so damn scared I was afraid I would just faint or piss myself.

“Baby, are you okay?” he asked taking my hand to his as we waited to the ride to begin. I took a deep breath.

“No,” I whispered terrified. He gave my hand a squeeze and then the ride began.

I screamed the whole time from the top of my lungs. I was so fucking terrified, I thought I was going to just die. I wanted it to just end right away, while Shawn enjoyed it so much.

By the end of the ride, my whole body was shaking and I even started to cry. I thought I wouldn’t stay alive. This was the worst like, five minutes of my life.

“Aw, baby, come here,” Shawn said hugging me tightly.

“It was so awful,” I cried into his chest.

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t push you. I’m so sorry baby.” He held me close while I tried to pull myself together. I finally felt safe in his strong arms and I just wanted to stay like that forever and avoid that hell of a machine for the rest of my life.

“Better?” he asked after a few minutes. I nodded into his chest sniffing a bit. “What do you want to do now, baby? You choose.”

“I don’t know,” I said in a hoarse voice. I just wanted to stay on the ground for the rest of the day.

We started to just walk around, looking at things, he held my hand the whole time not letting me go. He kissed me from time to time, making sure that I was okay.

We found a booth where you had to shoot ducks with a squirt gun, and Shawn wanted to try it out. But he ended up playing with it for more than fifteen minutes, when he finally won. The prize was an enormous teddy bear, it was almost as big as me.

“This is for you, baby,” he said kissing me happily.

“Thank you! It’s so cute!”

I literally had to carry that big ass bear to everywhere, it was like our third wheel. But I loved it, because Shawn won it for me. It was every girl’s dream, to have your boyfriend win something for you.

At the end of the day we said goodbye to Six Flags and headed home. I was so tired, I just wanted to sleep. I thought Shawn would have to go home, but he didn’t.

“I can spend the night, if you want me to,” he said getting out of the car.

“I would love that!” I said with bright eyes.

We went outside, we both took a shower and then just cuddled on my bed, watching TV. We

were like an old couple, but I loved nights like these with him.

“What should we name the bear?’ I asked looking at it. I put it down to the corner, not knowing where a bear this big could fit at my place.

“I don’t know. I feel like it’s a boy. We should name him Bob,” he said nuzzling his face into my neck.

“Bob?” I asked laughing. “I like it. He is Bob.”

“Bob is going to protect you while I’m away. He is going to be your guardian.”

I smiled at that thought, it was just too cute.

“I like Bob.”

okay!!! but!!! planning a day to go to the pumpkin patch with Calum, and little man Hood, and the two dogs you just couldn’t live without, and it’s fall and theres a chill in the air so little man Hood and Calum color coordinated their sweaters!! (calum can’t even be embarrassed because, “momma look!! me and daddy match!!”) and so your sweet little family hops in the car and and baby boy Hood is babbling to the dogs in the back seat and giggling at the faces his daddy is making at him in the rearview mirror and when you finally get to the pumpkin patch you stop by the concession stand to get some apple cider for your boys and you can’t help but melt when baby Hood asks if everyone can just share one drink because, “We’re a family momma!!” and so with your one huge cup of cider you walk hand in hand with Calum as little man Hood runs between the rows of pumpkins and giggles when one of his puppy pals licks all over his face when he falls down because he just got too excited!! and Calum is taking so many pictures of you and his baby boy and the dogs and he can’t help but sit back and think of how lucky he is to have this sweet little family and then before you know it little man Hood has picked out 3 little pumpkins and hands one to you and one to Cal and then keeps one for himself and giggles happily before squeaking “That’s mommy pumpkin, and daddy pumpkin, and this is baby pumpkin and we’re all a happy family!!” and before you know it he’s hugging your legs and giggling as Calum bends down to kiss his cold chubby cheeks and you’re on the verge of tears bc after everything, you finally got the man you love with a sweet baby boy you love even more and :(( wow i gotta GO


Zrobiłam sobie znowu siwe włosy i dlatego chce zrobić promo i je robie XD Zasady jak zawsze i wszędzie. Daje Wam czas do jutra wieczora, Wasza Siwka🌸

Getting a head start on Self-Insert Weekend because I have so many that I’ve never actually drawn! This is my Wadanohara/Ice Scream OC, Stay. She’s a sting ray that talks big but isn’t that tough. She wants to beat up Idate to show that she’s the toughest in town, but also kinda wants to kiss him because I’m a gross orca-loving nerd. orz I’ll probs draw a nice colored picture of her for SIW.