Stare siwe kelnerki w kawiarniach w nocy już się poddały, i kiedy idę oświetlonym chodnikiem i zaglądam do okien przytułków widzę, że czar już prysł. widzę ludzi siedzących na ławkach w parku i ze sposobu w jaki siedzą i patrzą widzę, że urok minął.
widzę ludzi prowadzących samochody i ze sposobu w jaki prowadzą samochód widzę, że już nie kochają ani że nie są kochani – nie myślą nawet o seksie. wszystko zapomnieli jak stary film.
widzę ludzi robiących zakupy w sklepach i supermarketach widzę ich jak chodzą wzdłuż półek i wybierają rzeczy i ze sposobu w jakim pasuje do nich ubranie i ze sposobu w jaki chodzą z ich twarzy z ich oczu widzę, że nie dbają o nic i że nic nie dba o nich. co dzień widzę setki ludzi którzy poddali się całkowicie.
kiedy idę na wyścigi albo na mecz widzę tysiące które nie współczują niczemu ani nikomu i nie otrzymują współczucia w zamian. wszędzie widzę tych którzy nie pragną niczego prócz jedzenia, mieszkania ubrania: na tym się skupiają, bez marzeń.
nie rozumiem dlaczego ci ludzie nie znikną nie rozumiem dlaczego ci ludzie nie wymrą dlaczego chmury nie wymordują ich dlaczego psy nie pożrą ich dlaczego kwiaty i dzieci nie zabiją ich, nie rozumiem. chyba jednak ktoś ich morduje mimo to nie mogę oswoić się z myślą ze jest ich tak wielu.
co dzień, co noc, jest ich więcej w metrze w domach i w parku.
nie przeraża ich to że nie kochają ani że nie są kochani moi liczni liczni liczni bracia
told you, there is no way I’m going to get on that Hell!”
that bad!” Shawn said trying to convince me while pulling me towards the
I don’t want to go!” I whined.
be there next to you the whole time!”
change the fact that I’m scared to death to even watch this thing go round!”
completely safe, baby, you just have to sit there and enjoy the ride!” I rolled
my eyes at him. I really didn’t want to do this, but it seemed like I didn’t have
It was his
only free day for a while since he had to work so much lately and I could
barely see him in the past few weeks. I didn’t want to ruin our fun, but it wasn’t
my kinda thing. He wanted to go on the biggest rollercoaster but I was too
scared. But I knew he wouldn’t leave me alone until I don’t say yes. He was
quite convincing to be honest. When he was looking at you with puppy eyes and
everything, you couldn’t say no to him.
go,” I groaned finally giving in.
shouted throwing his fist into the air.
We stood at
the line for a long time until we finally could get on the rollercoaster. I was
so damn scared I was afraid I would just faint or piss myself.
you okay?” he asked taking my hand to his as we waited to the ride to begin. I
took a deep breath.
whispered terrified. He gave my hand a squeeze and then the ride began.
the whole time from the top of my lungs. I was so fucking terrified, I thought
I was going to just die. I wanted it to just end right away, while Shawn
enjoyed it so much.
By the end
of the ride, my whole body was shaking and I even started to cry. I thought I wouldn’t
stay alive. This was the worst like, five minutes of my life.
come here,” Shawn said hugging me tightly.
“It was so
awful,” I cried into his chest.
I shouldn’t push you. I’m so sorry baby.” He held me close while I tried to
pull myself together. I finally felt safe in his strong arms and I just wanted
to stay like that forever and avoid that hell of a machine for the rest of my
he asked after a few minutes. I nodded into his chest sniffing a bit. “What do
you want to do now, baby? You choose.”
“I don’t know,”
I said in a hoarse voice. I just wanted to stay on the ground for the rest of
to just walk around, looking at things, he held my hand the whole time not
letting me go. He kissed me from time to time, making sure that I was okay.
We found a
booth where you had to shoot ducks with a squirt gun, and Shawn wanted to try
it out. But he ended up playing with it for more than fifteen minutes, when he
finally won. The prize was an enormous teddy bear, it was almost as big as me.
for you, baby,” he said kissing me happily.
It’s so cute!”
had to carry that big ass bear to everywhere, it was like our third wheel. But
I loved it, because Shawn won it for me. It was every girl’s dream, to have
your boyfriend win something for you.
At the end
of the day we said goodbye to Six Flags and headed home. I was so tired, I just
wanted to sleep. I thought Shawn would have to go home, but he didn’t.
spend the night, if you want me to,” he said getting out of the car.
love that!” I said with bright eyes.
outside, we both took a shower and then just cuddled on my bed, watching TV. We
an old couple, but I loved nights like these with him.
should we name the bear?’ I asked looking at it. I put it down to the corner,
not knowing where a bear this big could fit at my place.
“I don’t know.
I feel like it’s a boy. We should name him Bob,” he said nuzzling his face into
asked laughing. “I like it. He is Bob.”
going to protect you while I’m away. He is going to be your guardian.”
okay!!! but!!! planning a day to go to the pumpkin patch with Calum, and little man Hood, and the two dogs you just couldn’t live without, and it’s fall and theres a chill in the air so little man Hood and Calum color coordinated their sweaters!! (calum can’t even be embarrassed because, “momma look!! me and daddy match!!”) and so your sweet little family hops in the car and and baby boy Hood is babbling to the dogs in the back seat and giggling at the faces his daddy is making at him in the rearview mirror and when you finally get to the pumpkin patch you stop by the concession stand to get some apple cider for your boys and you can’t help but melt when baby Hood asks if everyone can just share one drink because, “We’re a family momma!!” and so with your one huge cup of cider you walk hand in hand with Calum as little man Hood runs between the rows of pumpkins and giggles when one of his puppy pals licks all over his face when he falls down because he just got too excited!! and Calum is taking so many pictures of you and his baby boy and the dogs and he can’t help but sit back and think of how lucky he is to have this sweet little family and then before you know it little man Hood has picked out 3 little pumpkins and hands one to you and one to Cal and then keeps one for himself and giggles happily before squeaking “That’s mommy pumpkin, and daddy pumpkin, and this is baby pumpkin and we’re all a happy family!!” and before you know it he’s hugging your legs and giggling as Calum bends down to kiss his cold chubby cheeks and you’re on the verge of tears bc after everything, you finally got the man you love with a sweet baby boy you love even more and :(( wow i gotta GO
Getting a head start on Self-Insert Weekend because I have so many that I’ve never actually drawn! This is my Wadanohara/Ice Scream OC, Stay. She’s a sting ray that talks big but isn’t that tough. She wants to beat up Idate to show that she’s the toughest in town, but also kinda wants to kiss him because I’m a gross orca-loving nerd. orz I’ll probs draw a nice colored picture of her for SIW.