sitting-in-my-dorm

anonymous asked:

So I know you don't tend to watch little kids stuff but I wondered if you saw anything about the Navidad episode of Elena of Avalor? Because they introduced a new character in a wheelchair and I was wondering your thoughts on how they handled the portrayal?

Don’t watch little ki—?

I’m an Early Childhood Education Major!

In my fifth year!

I pay $20,000 a year so that I can sit in my dorm and watch little kids stuff to analyze its socioemotional impact on three year olds. Admittedly I haven’t seen this episode of Elena yet but I’ll check it out as a ton of the kids in my student teaching placement love the show. I’ll let you know!

However, you’re stupid. Remember that one time you shut down the country because you didn’t want to participate in government?
—  Hannah Hart, My Drunk Kitchen: a guide to eating, drinking, and going with your gut, p. 77

“What’s your biggest fear?”
“Being alone.”
“When did you feel most alone?”
“On weekend nights in college, sometimes I’d sit by myself in the corner of my dorm room with nothing but a little light on, while all my friends went out.”
“Why didn’t you go out with them?”
“It’s hard to say.”

(Hanoi, Vietnam)

It’s my freshman year at a university hundreds of miles from home. I’m pretty confident when it comes to meeting new people (I have to be, moving to a new state), but the frat boys at campus meetups are annoying or bland, and when my friend from English recommends Tinder to me, I download it just for fun. For a couple weeks, I sit in my dorm with my roommate, showing her the hilarious profiles I come across. I go on a couple dates with okay people, even enter into a very brief and stressful relationship with a girl (I’m bi), break up, and return to the app.

I match with a cute guy and considering our only shared “interests” are in In N Out, that’s how our conversation starts. When I’m at work on Halloween, he asks if I’m doing anything, and I don’t have any plans, so I invite him over to my dorm for Netflix & chill (my roommate is supposed to be out of town for the night). He’s adorable, cozy to snuggle with, smells good, funny. I ask him to spend the night, and he does. He’s nervous when it comes to sex and he makes me cry a little by calling me beautiful when I’m naked. That’s not how a hookup is meant to be, right?

One and a half years later, we’re living in an apartment downtown together with two cute cats, lovin’ the good parts of life and helping each other get through the bad. He always tells me he was extremely nervous that night and almost turned down my offer to spend the night because he thought I’d make him sleep on the floor.

Story Time

So tonight I was sitting in my dorm room studying in my pj’s for a big test tomorrow and my roommate comes and knocks on my door with this scared look on her face saying there’s a guy at the main door and she can’t understand him (English is her second language so it made sense). So I go to talk to the guy, and he was very hard to understand (some sort of accent plus he was super mumbling, I had to lean in to hear him). He was asking where our RA lives, whether he was on this floor or not. I told him I know he’s on the floor I just don’t know the exact room and so on, I told him the RAs name and to go check the nametags on the other doors. I told him good luck and bye, and was about to shut the door but the guy reached and held my door open so I couldn’t close it. At this point I was starting to get a little freaked out, I asked him if there was anything else I could help him with and the guy started asking me for my number. I was polite and told him no thank you, I don’t like giving out my number to strangers, but he kept pushing. At this point I was extremely uncomfortable. I told him no I’m not interested and tried to leave again but he kept asking me over and over. Eventually I blurted out that I had a boyfriend, which made him back off enough that I could say bye and close/lock the door. 

Mind you this little incident didn’t happen at a party or on the street or anywhere where I was out in public, it happened where I live. In the middle of the night. I was in sweats and a hoodie and not asking for it, I was clear and blunt and the guy still wouldn’t leave me alone until I mentioned another male presence. I should be able to feel safe in my own (albeit temporary) home, but tonight I did not.  

I’m sick of getting harassed by strangers, and it scares me because I’m not allowed to have any form of protection in case incidents like this go further. That could’ve been a criminal that walked in off the street, and he very easily could’ve overpowered me. And it terrifies me that I’m not allowed to keep a firearm or anything besides a tiny little can of pepper spray with me for self defense. 

Something similar happened when I was seven years old. My father was out of town for the weekend on a business trip, leaving my mother and I alone for a while. Saturday night we hear a loud bang at our door, someone had kicked it in and was in our living room. Had my parents not kept that revolver under their bed and my mother not known how to use it, that night would’ve ended very differently. 

But what scares me the most is that one day I’m going to live in a world where I’m not allowed to keep a firearm in my home, when people who are willing to purchase and carry illegal weapons will have power over the law abiding citizens whose government has left them defenseless. 

Stories like the one with me and my mother seldom make the news, but hundreds and hundreds of crimes are prevented every year because people are still allowed to defend themselves, despite the strict gun laws already in effect in this country. Yet the stories where people are unable to protect themselves are plastered over every news station, crimes and tragedies that could’ve been prevented if the criminals had been evenly matched and the victims given a fighting chance.  

And there are people out there voting to take away the right for people like me to defend myself. Girls like me who live in big cities where it’s dangerous for them to live on their own, where even on a university campus they can get approached by strange men at night. 

Living a life of privilege where you’ve never felt the need to defend yourself does not give you the right to demand they be taken away from those that do. 

Please think twice before voting for gun control.  

I just want to learn to become comfortable with and accepting of the “now”, meaning where I’m at in any given moment. Like right now…no, I’m not exactly happy. No, this isn’t really how I pictured my time at college to be like. Me, sitting in my dorm room alone because I haven’t made any friends here, because I’ve never been good at making friends, and I wonder what’s wrong with me, why I’m different. Yes, I’m rather lonely–day by day, I’m lonely. Yes, it hurts, but life hurts sometimes. And yes, sometimes I wonder how much more I want to endure. But I know that each moment, no matter what it may look like, is a gift from God. Yes, every moment matters, but life is full of moments, and they’re all different.

Endurance is important. Patience is important. Pressing through each moment and taking it for what it is, is important. I have to keep reminding myself that moving through each moment is the only way to get somewhere–I can’t stay stuck or give up or let myself sink in depression because life’s a little hard right now. Yes, there are moments where I feel so low and hopeless I wonder if anything will ever be right again, but my life isn’t based on a single moment. I know there is so much good ahead if I stay the course and keep my focus on God. No, college isn’t exactly fun right now–but one day it’ll help me become a teacher, my dream, and that’s why I’m here. Yes, I’m lonely right now, but I know one day, God willing, I will find someone and marry and have a family, one to love and grow and just live life with. That is the bigger picture. That’s what I’m striving for.

Yes, there will be moments where I just feel like giving up because I have no idea what to do or why I’m here. But I’m called for so much more, I know. These moments I’m facing are just strengthening and preparing me for what’s ahead. I know God is present in each moment, weaving them together to form a much greater tapestry that is to be my life.

No, it won’t always be easy, but yes, it’s all going to be worth it in the end. I want to believe that.

i’m sitting in my friend’s dorm wearing my twenty one pilots shirt and this kid walks up to me and starts telling me how their concert was life-changing for him and now he just said ‘i feel like we’re best friends, i feel like someone else gets it’ and this is why this band is so important

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in addition to being addicted to the stupid phone game i went to the disney store at the mall of america yesterday and spent 25$ on my new best friends

Three Women Creating Awesome Stuff with Linux

Today is Ada Lovelace Day, a 19th-century woman widely regarded as the first computer programmer. Ada wrote various notes describing what we now would recognize as computer programs, envisioning these running on Charles Babbage’s “Analytical Engine” (an early take on what we would call a computer today). To celebrate the contributions that Ada provided to early computing we are taking the time today to recognize three women creating awesome stuff with Linux (and System76 computers).

We sent three questions to our friends Helena, Na’Tosha, and our very own Emma (from here at System76). Below you will find our questions and their fantastic answers!

Helena Bales
Algorithm Developer at the UGA Small Satellite Research Lab

How did you get started with Linux?

I found out about Linux and installed it the same day. It was my freshman year of college, and I had my very first laptop. I was sitting in the common area of my dorm when a bunch of the guys from my CS classes who lived in the building came back from the Oregon State University Linux User’s Group. Every year, LUG holds an InstallFest, where they help people get set up with Linux. I asked one of the guys what they were doing with their computers, and he explained what Linux is and how to use it. About five minutes into the conversation, I asked him to help me install Ubuntu as my primary and only operating system. I haven’t looked back.

What are you creating/doing on Linux?

I still use Linux as my primary operating system, although I do have a rarely-used Windows machine, so I use Linux for everything from studying and listening to music to developing algorithms for use in small satellites. I am currently involved with several space-based projects. With the University of Georgia’s Small Satellite Research Lab, I am part of a team of undergraduate students who are building two small satellites that will be launched from the International Space Station in around two years. I use my Linux machine as my primary development environment to adapt algorithms for use in our satellites. Our satellites are looking at earth to collect data about water color and topography. This is data that is already being collected, both from other satellites and from drones, so my primary task is to optimize existing algorithms for our use. My other space-based project is a payload for a sounding rocket through the RockSat-X program. This project is my Senior Design class, required for graduation from my program, where we get to pick a project to work on for a year. For the rest of this year, I am working with other undergraduate students at OSU in various majors to design, build, and integrate a payload for a sounding rocket.

What are you favorite/most used apps?

I am a huge fan of tmux with vim for development. I always prefer using my keyboard instead of my mouse, so I like that tmux allows for windowing of terminals while still only using the keyboard. Similarly, I like vim because it was my first real text editor, and because of its heavy reliance on keyboard shortcuts. I have been using i3 as my window manager, also for the use of the keyboard, as well as because it is effective at optimizing screen real-estate.

Na’Tosha Bard
Technical Director for R&D at Unity Technologies

How did you get started with Linux?

When I was young, I was always interested in science and technology.  I was pretty late in getting Internet in my own home growing up, but once I did in the late 90’s I found some Linux/Unix communities that got me interested.  I spent a lot of time on IRC channels and other chatrooms learning and getting help from other people and eventually becoming one to teach and help others.  The first version of Linux I can remember for sure installing was Debian Bo; I’m sure I experimented with others but it was a while ago now.  I went through a RedHat phase in the early 2000’s, and I went through a phase of being obsessed with source-based distributions (Gentoo, Sorcerer) and a brief stint with Slackware.  I went back to Debian around 2003 (I got tired of the compiling-everything-from-source thing, and I haven’t found a package management system I like as much as apt).  When Ubuntu became prominent, I was a bit skeptical but also intrigued; by this point, I had moved much more into a mindset of just wanting everything to work and not really wanting to tinker with my installation.  I switched to Ubuntu somewhere around 2005 or so, and I have been using it ever since.

What are you creating/doing on Linux?

I currently work for Unity Technologies, where we develop the Unity game engine and as part of that, I work on various projects, some of the most interesting ones being the Linux/SteamOS support for the Unity runtime and the Linux port of the Unity Editor.  I’ve also spent years working in the area of building internal tools for Unity’s R&D organization, and develop these from Linux (mostly Python web applications that are forks of open-source projects).  I’ve worked on a pretty wide range of software projects in the past as well, both at Unity and in other organizations.  Other than doing software development, I use my machine like anyone uses a computer: I play games, watch movies, listen to music, check mail and social media, etc.

What are your favorite/most used apps?

Well, if I’m being honest, probably my #1 most used application is Chrome.  Other than that, I’d have to say CLion IDE (the first C++ IDE for Linux that’s made me feel even partially sane), PyCharm IDE, and Steam.

Emma Marshall
Consumer Account Manager at System76

How did you get started with Linux?

I got started with Linux when I discovered System76. There was a link on the Website that linked to the Ubuntu Community page and it sucked me in instantly. The more I read about Ubuntu, the more I wanted to be a part of the project and join System76. I started using Ubuntu at home with a dual boot setup, but after starting work at System76, I found myself not needing to boot into Windows at home anymore since I was able to accomplish so much more in Ubuntu.

What are you creating/doing on Linux?

I use Linux at home and work. I currently spend the majority of my work day trying to convert people to Ubuntu. Although I sometimes use graphic apps like Gimp, InkScape, and Libre Office to make help documents for new users, most of what I do every day is just talking with customers about Ubuntu and is done through a web browser. In tech support, I help other people get their Linux machines back to working like normal. That takes research, testing, and collaboration with the rest of our support team. I’m joining a podcast this week which involves using a handful of Linux applications that I’ve never used before, so that will be an adventure! At home, I use Linux to create videos, photos and graphic projects for my family. To sum it up, I guess you could say that I use Linux to spread Linux!

What are your favorite/most used apps?

My favorite/most frequently-used apps in Linux are Firefox, OpenShot, Gimp, VLC and Diodon. I could list 10-20 other favorites, but this week, those are the ones I’ve been using the most.

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I didn’t think it would be possible to love my dorm more this year, but here I am.

“In my short time I’ve realized there is so much more to life than getting older and getting mine.”

“This is my ready, set, let go attempt at finding who I am.”

The first time I heard this song, I was sitting at the desk in my dorm room. When I started college, I thought I would find out who I was in the first semester. Pretty quickly, I found out I was wrong. I didn’t make many new friends, and I was falling out of touch with the ones from high school. My grades, while not bad, were not what I expected. I didn’t do much other than go to work, go to class, and see my family. I was sure that there was more to college than this.

When times get tough I’ve learned that breathing is the best thing I can do.”

Luckily, I had two really great mentors my first year of college. They encouraged me to follow my heart with the confidence that I would succeed. They reminded me of the strengths I had forgotten and why I chose the path I did. They reminded me that I was young and that I still had time in my life. I needed to meet people in this world and form relationships with them. With their guidance, I began making my college experience what I wanted it to be. I learned to take deep breaths and relax when I was stressed. I learned to ask for help.

I’ve learned to fight, the difference between wrong and right, and how to sleep at night.”

In the past three years, my college experience has been full of surprises. There have been opportunities I would have only dreamed of at the age of 18. I’ve learned a lot about who I am as a person and how to take care of myself in healthy ways. I’ve learned how to be a better friend and that it is OK to be vulnerable and scared of the future. Overall though, I’ve learned that as each year passes life is going to continue to change. I am going to continue learning new things and growing from experiences. I’ve learned that people will come and go into my life and, as hard as that may be, it is going to be OK.

Something in my heart is telling me I’ve learned to love who I’ve become. I know my learning isn’t done. But oh, I’m afraid I will never quite understand the way I wish I could know everything I would ever need just in case I ever lose my way.”

I am always going to struggle with the idea that I won’t always have the right answers. There are always going to be difficult weeks and difficult questions. We never know what may lie ahead. The beautiful thing about it, though, is that there is room for change in our future. It has been a long journey for me to accept the fact that I will never have all the answers. But that’s OK. I just have to take life one day at a time. I have learned to live life with other people, because while I won’t always have all the answers, other people might have some of them.

Golden, we are golden because we’re alive. Illuminate our own way from inside, we shine so bright, we shine so bright.“ 

We are alive and the world is in our hands. Let’s make the most of it, together.

- Molly, TWLOHA Fall 2014 Intern

My parents were in finance. They thought I was going to be a stockbroker and go to business school and college–and my brother’s at Notre Dame. All my friends are at college. I keep one eye on the path I didn’t choose every day. That’s why I go and attend journalism classes at my friend Abigail’s college. Because I just want to sit there and see what it’s like for a day. That’s why I go to Notre Dame and visit my brother and sit in his dorm room. The life I chose is very different from theirs.