In Arthurian legend, Sir Lancelot is “The Brave” and Sir Galahad is “The Pure.” Therefore, it is fitting that Eggsy does not earn the title of Lancelot and instead goes on to take Harry’s place as Galahad, as Eggsy demonstrates repeatedly in the film that he is pure of heart, and Roxy earns the Lancelot title by conquering her fear.- (x)
I would actually like to start this post off with a MASSIVE thank you to SubKulture Entertainment and all of their staff for fighting for my inclusion in ways that I have never and would never EVER have expected. It’s given me a hope for a brighter future. When @the-nev sent them a message to discuss accommodations for a hi-touch (that as a stand alone thing sounded like death and the end of the world to me because I can’t touch strangers without freaking out) I expected a ‘no’ or ‘sorry there is nothing we can do’ in return but instead I got meetings and feedback about what could and couldn’t be done to make my concert experiences a positive one.
Concert experiences are always a mixed bag for me. I often question why I
go in the first places because I am Autistic and concerts are
everything that my Autism and I tend to disagree about. Loud noises,
bright lights, the smell of BO, and people running into me or touching me. It’s the potential for meltdown city on so many levels. I was fully prepared to opt out of hi-touch but SubK wanted to make sure I had the chance to be just like any other fan so they not only let me go at the back of the line but made sure that I was safe and as comfortable as possible the whole time.
I am grateful for the chance I had to enjoy such an energetic and funny concert. Seriously it felt a little bit like a stand up show at times. I love how much courage the boys had speaking English for almost the entirety of the concert. Even JB who hates his accent.
I had the worst panic attack I’ve had in probably five years. I wont go
into the gory details of how or why that happened, I’ll just say that I don’t remember most
of the encore stages or hardly any of the sitting around waiting for
hi-touch to begin. I have a vague recollection of Bounce playing in the background while the room spun but that’s about it.
On the flip side of that though, here are the things I won’t ever forget: I wont forget the looks of concern on all of the boy’s faces when Eddy the hi-touch line guard of awesomeness explained to them that I couldn’t touch them and they couldn’t touch me. I’ll never forget the look on Junior’s face when I gave him tiny hearts because I couldn’t remember how my mouth worked or the utter shock on Mark’s face when I managed “You’re my favorite,” or his subsequent and genuine thank you). I’ll never forget how JB reached for me but stopped, smiled brightly and shot hearts at me instead. I’ll never forget that BamBam tried to strike up a conversation with me about my dog when I told Youngjae that I have a dog like Coco (I have a four year old maltese named Sir Lancelot the Brave) or the look on the face of noona trying to shuffle me along when he started ACTUALLY ASKING ME QUESTIONS. WHAT?! He seriously tried to have an actual conversation with me about my dog and I tripped on my own mouth so bad I kind of wanted to die; I kid you not. I’ll never forget that freaking Youngjae did a 90 degree bow at me and thanked me for being an agahse (or that his hair smells like mint and rosemary because it almost hit me in the face). I’ll never forget that Yugyeom was so distracted by the hangul tattoo my friend Aly has on her forearm that I made him jump when I the corner of his vision and I will certainly never forget the way Jackson held his heart when he said “Staying healthy is the most important thing, please please stay healthy it’s so important.”
I will really never forget Mark screaming “Hey, I LOVE YOU!” at the top of his lungs as I was leaving or the fact that they all waved and shot hearts and told me that they loved me more like it was some kind of competition.
I will also never forget having to go back around through the hi-touch area to go to a back exit because of the terrifying death wall of fans on the other side of the curtain that looked so much like the zombie apocalypse that I backed into a wall. Oh there was no way that was happening lol. But mostly because we walked back through as BamBam and JB were the last ones to turn the corner on the other side and BamBam waved and yelled “Bye! Take good care of Lance!”
I have never felt so much like a human being at a concert. For the first time in my fandom career (which has been very long and very diverse) I felt like I was being included in the fan culture in a way that wasn’t toxic or harmful to my desire to keep trying…if that makes any sense?
Last night I was an autistic fan, but I was also a person, and that has never happened to me before. I’m so overwhelmed and so happy and so many things I don’t have words for. SO thank you SubKulture, and thank you GOT7 (seriously thank you for being so understanding and so caring of a quiet stranger) and thank you JYP Entertainment, for helping me feel like a person, not a burden on the system or just a disability.
Aries - Arthur Pendragon (bravery and justice)
Taurus - Sir Gwaine (sense of humour)
Gemini - Guinevere (loyal and loving)
Cancer - Uther Pendragon (driven mad by grief)
Leo - Sir Lancelot (bravest of the brave)
Virgo - Gaius (wise and undoubtably loyal)
Libra - Morgana Pendragon (loyal, but hates)
Scorpio - Mordred (dies for love, in the end)
Sagittarius - The Great Dragon (cunning)
Capricorn - Morgause (bestfriend-sacrifices self)
Aquarius - Sir Leon (by your side until the end)
Pisces - Merlin (loyalist of them all)