Mercy Bonus Pt 2 || Kol M.
Song: River of Tears - Alessia Clara
Prompt: This is a flashback of the sorts when Elena threatened Y/N, as mentioned in the first part. It’s sad and I wrote this when I was depressed, so there might be some dark stuff in here.
I look out at the woods surrounding the Salvatore Boarding house, I stood on the deck. The slightest wind blowing through my hair, I felt like Rose standing at the nose of the Titanic, minus the adrenaline, just the drowning sadness.
I close my eyes, tears drying on my cheeks from the cool wind. I imagine that I’m drowning, water surrounding me, my hair floating around me creating a halo. I picture my body slowly sink down to bottom to the ocean. I’m in a flowing dress that surrounds me like my hair. My body felt empty, but I found peace in it as I was in the water.
But that peace was interrupted as I imagined Damon watching me drown, doing nothing. I wanted him to save me, I thought he would, but he didn’t.
I fall to my knees, letting out a sob, still holding onto the railing.
“Oh, darling.” I feel Kol’s hand on my shoulder before I heard his voice. He sat next to me and I dive into him, clutching to his shirt, burying my head in his chest.
He laid he hand on top of my hair, wrapping his other arm around me, holding and rocking me.
“I can’t do this anymore Kol,” I said in his chest, my voice muffled. “He doesn’t love me and he never will.”
“I’m so sorry darling, you don’t deserve this.” He said, pulled away, looking into his eyes.
“I’m love Damon and I can’t help loving him. I’ve tried stopping, but I can’t.” He gives a sad smile and tucks a piece of hair behind my ear.
“I know,” I laid my head back on his chest.
“Why doesn’t he love me back, am I not beautiful enough? Not good enough?” I questioned, crying out.
“You are beautiful darling, you’re amazing. He’s not the one that’s not good enough for you.” Kol whispered in my ear, holding me close to his body.
“I just to want to die,” I whimper. “I’m tired of this suffering.”
“I know you are, but it’s not your time to die.” Kol said.
“Okay,” I whispered, my voice horse.
“Now let’s get you a glass of water and in bed.” He said, snaking his arm underneath my legs, the other around my waist, picking me up bridal style.
He sits me down on my bed, lays out clothes for me to change into, and took my boots off. He left me to change and went down stairs to get me water.
I numbly change into the short and shorts he laid out for me. Kol walked through the door as I’m getting into the covers, a glass of water in his hand.
“Here you go doll,” he said, sitting the glass on my nightstand. “Now get some sleep.” He kissed my forehead, tucking me in like a child. “I’m just a call away, okay?”
I nodded, burying myself into the covers. “I’m gonna go now, I love you.”
“I love you too,” I rasped, he kissed my forehead one last night and left.
I close my swollen eyes, listening as Kol left, and thinking about his words. When I’m almost asleep, a hand is buried in my chest, grasping my heart. My eyes snap open and Elena comes in my field of view.
“If you ever say anything to Damon about loving him or about this, I will rip your heart out myself, you won’t have to worry about Damon doing it.” She hissed, squeezing my heart, then letting it go. She disappeared, my blood covering her hand, me choking on my own blood.
I laid there, staring up at the ceiling, tears flooding my eyes. I’m never going to get a break, the rest of my life is going to be filled with sorrow, u can see it.
I know because I didn’t go after Elena for what she did, for threatening me. I’m not myself, but a hollow shell of who I really am.
I can no longer see the light of hope.