approach the top of the aisle and the minute he sees you he can’t contain the
smile on his face as he sees his future wife walk towards him. As he tries to gain composure you wink at him
knowing exactly how he’s feeling, causing him to smile even more. “Here come’s my best friend, my soul mate, my wife.”
Jaebum: He’s feeling
anxious as he arrives. He hasn’t seen you for the past couple of days and is
wondering if you’re feeling the same nervousness and excitement he is. He just
can’t wait to see you as soon as possible. “I want to see her, I can’t wait to hold her, I can’t wait for our forever.”
Jackson: He’s ready,
he’s been waiting for this moment for a long time. He announces to the rest of
the members in the room, “Okay, Let’s go.
I’m getting married!” He puts on his sunglasses as you two are having an
outdoor wedding in the summer like he’s hoped for. “This is really happening, not one single damn thing can ruin this moment for me”
Jinyoung: He walks
towards the venue with a few of his groomsmen, eager to see you and even more
excited that today you’ll become his wife. “Our hyung is getting married!”
Youngjae shrieks. Jinyoung grins unable to contain the sense of happiness he’s
feeling. “Our forever starts today,”
waiting for you and the minute he lays eyes on you in your wedding dress, you
take his breath away. He lets out a deep breath to try and calm himself down
but he can’t believe how beautiful you look. “How lucky am I?”
Bambam: It’s the
night before your wedding and he’s working hard on writing his wedding vows for
you. He asks Jinyoung for his help to read it over but he’s struggles to find
the right words to say to properly convey his feelings. “I’ll spend the rest of my life telling you how much I love you”
getting ready, laughing and blushing as his older members tease him in the
grooms room. “Look at our little Maknae, growing up” they pretend to tear up.
Jinyoung teases “are you sure Y/N wants to spend the rest of her life with
you?” Yugyeom turns around, “Of course she does!” a big smile on his face. “I’m ready to spend the rest of my life with her.”
Hiya! Can I request RFA/Saeran+MC going grocery shopping together? Could you also include which aisle they would spend the longest time in? I hope that's not too much >.< Have a lovely day~
Here ya go! Grocery shopping is nice because there’s a lot of food and I’m quite fond of that stuff.
Ok but this boy knows what’s up
He’s been to the grocery store so many times, he can
probably finish all his shopping with his eyes closed (or at least one of them
closed if you know what I mean hahahhaha sorry)
He’s like those moms who are into super couponing probably
because his own mom was too
He has a whole binder full of coupons waiting to be
used, and he’s categorized them all according to types and %off.
Even if you’ve been grocery shopping before, going
with Yoosung is a whole other deal
Jeez is it intense
Though who knew browsing the vegetable aisle with this boy by
your side would prove to be such an enlightening experience?
Unless you tell him you already know most of the stuff he’s saying, Yoosung will not hesitate to stop in front of every single thingand tell you about its various uses in cooking, or just life in general
And by every single thing I mean every single damn thing, even if it’s considered elementary knowledge
“This is a banana—“
“I know Yoosung,I know.”
He’ll also teach you really simple recipes while you
load up your cart with food
“If you have trouble sleeping, heat up some milk and
sprinkle some powdered nutmeg into it!” actually very comforting imo
“For really brown bananas, if you don’t want to eat
them or can’t use them at the moment, put them in the freezer and you can make
yummy banana bread with them later!”
“If you ever slice apples and want to prevent them
from turning brown, just dip them in a bit of lemon juice!”
Thank you Yoosung Sensei
Every time you go grocery shopping together, you know
you’ll return home feeling like you just took an intensive nutrition class
Spends longest time in:
The only aisle he doesn’t really visit is the liquor aisle, but other than that he’ll spend the same amount of time in each place. Occasionally he will steer clear of the milk section after remembering some, ah, unpleasant memories
Okay so he’s not quite a dolt when it comes to grocery shopping that’s for sure, like he knows about the basics, and of course he’s a beer expert
Though he is nowhere close to being on Yoosung’s Godly Grocery level
and Zen will neveradmit that he doesn’t know jack shit about what he buys most of the time
He’ll try to seem knowledgeable just for you, and he does want you to eat healthy (”Fruits and vegetable ares good for the skin! Though my skin is already amazing enough.” thank you zen that makes me feel so much better about myself)
But he’s not sure what to do with 90% of the stuff he puts in your cart
When you guys go home, he’ll sneak a phone call to Yoosung, list all the items that he bought, and Yoosung in turn will teach him a few possible recipes
Tbh usually such a phone call would sound like some shady drug dealing cuz it starts all like:
“Hey, Yoosung,” Zen casts a wary eye around before whispering, “I’ve got new goods. Can you hook me up with some plans?”
But it’s okay, you’ll relax once you hear them talking about the properties of lettuce
“Zen, let me get this straight. You bought a whole octopus…without actually knowing how to cook it?!”
“Well, I can’t be her knight in shining armor if I don’t know how to deal with a mere octopus!”
When Seven hears about this, he’s all like “move aside fabled evil dragon, the princess in the tower is now guarded by a wriggling, squishy octopus. How will Zen slay the mighty beast?”
Spends longest time in:
Cosmetics aisle! And I mean spends a loooooooooooooOOOng time. He wants you to try stuff on. Then he wants you to give hima makeover. Then he wants to take pictures. Then he finds new products to try. The infernal cycle begins again.
She never really had any time to go grocery shopping before, and so
she would just buy her meals from the convenience store
So the first time you went shopping together, oh boy was this girl lost
Although she knows all the fruits and vegetables and different types of meat, so the basics, she just doesn’t know what to buy because there are so many choices??
She just wants to buy everything and try it all
And so she does
You’re zooming around all the aisles, and soon each of you have your own cart chock full of food
In the end, two end up buying too much and invite Yoosung over to help y’all cook
“Okay, I get that you wanted to buy a lot to get variety, but that does not explain why you had to buy 10 packs of meat and a total of 5 types of squash,” says Yoosung, mildly exasperated.
Spends the longest time in:
The bakery section! She likes to look at their desserts to get inspiration, and will sometimes by those that catch her fancy. Although she also does spend a lot of time in the coffee section, however, there usually isn’t a lot of variety so she tends to be a bit disappointed.
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Jumin Han grocery shopping?
“Why go to the grocery store when the grocery store could come to you?”
“If you really want to make food yourself, why don’t you just order the ingredients online?”
Because grocery shopping is fun? sometimes
If you’re so insistent about going to the store, he’s 100% down to open one someplace in the building just for you.
Once you turn down all his extravagant ideas and manage to drag his fine ass to the store, Jumin is frowning.
Just like Yoosung, he’ll stop in front of every product there is. But this time, he’ll talk about them from a business perspective.
“If a watermelon costs this much for one pound, then for it to be of a profitable price, the amount of edible watermelon must be equal to—”
“Jumin we’ve been standing here for ten minutes.”
He’ll still occasionally stop to calculate the price per consumable unit though
Mutters to himself the whole time
But he proves to be immensely useful
You’re comparing two types of dumplings, different companies, slightly different prices
“Jumin, which one comes out to be the best buy?”
Hoooooooh he’ll go all out
He compares approximate size of dumplings, nutritional values, price per unit, reputability of manufacturer, you name it
So when you go grocery shopping, always bring yourself a Jumin Han to buy the best products in the store
Also because this rich boy is really cute when he wanders around, a little crease between his eyebrows, whispering equations to himself under his breath as he trails behind you like a little kid
Spends longest time in:
Pet food aisle, duhh. Would never dare feed Elly ‘commoner cat food’, though he’ll consider it if you make some brand suggestions. On a side note I feel like Jumin has tried Elly’s food before, especially if it’s something she seems to really like. “Maybe I can replicate this taste but make it something safe for humans to eat?”
cOme ON iT’S SAYOUNG WE ALREADY KNOW IT’LL BE A MESS
First of all, you guys are never both walking. Either you’re in the cart and he pushes, or the other way around.
Here’s the thing though, he’s not so much in the cart as under it
I saw a picture of this but I can’t find it… you know how there’s usually a rack beneath the cart? Yeah, he just lies down on that.
If you leave him under the cart and wander too far away, he will yell “MArcO!” until you answer “polo” in an equally loud manner
This has gotten you kicked out more than a couple of times
“What do you mean soda and chips aren’t enough to sustain the human body?”
“What’s a vegetable?”
It’s like, he knows of the stuff, but he’s never seen any in person
“Wow…that’s…is that really an orange? In flesh????”
“This is edible?” he says, holding a pack of shrimp in his hands
While in the frozen food section: “I wonder what would happen if we blended a pizza, and then used that pizza to make pizza sauce for another pizza? Like…pizzaception.”
you guys actually tried doing that but regretted it because that shit was disgusting
He will try to be more serious if you tell him, but why would you?
Saeyoung makes grocery shopping seem like an adventure
Spends longest time in:
I mean when he’s under the cart he doesn’t really have a choice so he’ll chill there and contemplate whether or not he should lick the floor while you get the food. However, if he’s the one pushing you, you bet he’ll head straight to the snack section. That’s his turf. Will glower at those who dare approach his precious chips. “So um Saeyoung are we just gonna wait around here and chase people away all day or…?”
He’s the type of kid that has absolutely no idea about anything
He’ll point at a cabbage and call it a cucumber
He says carrots grow on trees
You get a lot of stares because he calls everything by the wrong name with so much confidence
The baby is super proud of himself and you don’t have the heart to tell him he’s wrong
That changes when Yoosung goes shopping with him once though. Yoosung almost cried when Saeran asked him what this weird, round white thing was called (answer: an oinion. HAH SAERAN IS LIKE AN ONION, HE HAS LAYERS HAHAHAHAHHA I’M SO FUNNY)
Yoosung lowkey kidnaps Saeran and they have a study session together where Saeran learns about the marvelous world of fresh produce
But once you go back to the store together after he studied hard, it’s so precious
Saeran correctly identifies most of the stuff, but after every time he names something, he’ll glance at you, as if waiting for your approval
once you give him a tiny nod, a smile playing around your lips, his eyes will just light the fuck up and ;sdfja;lskdfjaslkdfja the baby bean is gonna blush a lil’ because w oW he did it???
Saeran reverts back to a toddler when y’all go to the store, you better hold his hand or he’ll wander off and get lost in another dimension
Spends longest time in:
ya, the ice cream section. you can get ice cream on a stick?? w h at???? a pre made ice cream cone???? w HA t??? I CAN BUY TWO LITERS BUCKETS OF ICE CREAM??? W H AT?!??!??!?! It’s a Saeran heaven and half the bill goes to his own, full cart of ice cream.
And to add salt to the wound, these people actively DENOUCE licensed medical professionals as being liars and that they are the right ones... their CEO Gary Young approves of the action bc it sells his damn product... I have anxiety and depression and I've been told to my face that their oils would do more than my meds (news flash, I tried them and still wanted to die every day, only now I smelled like ass bc their oils reek) which they defend by saying "IF IT SMELLS BAD U NEED IT" like ???
For anyone new here and who isn’t aware: I’m extremely chronically ill. I have an undiagnosed auto-immune disorder (because they can’t pin the sucker down) but it looks like it’s either going to be MCAS or something else equally random and horrible, and I have had a lot of bad experiences with the current medical community and doctor’s neglecting me, so I understand the appeal of searching out other means of trying to help yourself. Where my Dr can only prescribe addictive pain killers that don’t really manage my pain effectively, I’ve had great success in relieving my pain through things like regular massage—including aromatherapy.
In my quest to find someone who knew what they were doing, some people claimed outright—not knowing that I hold…I think it’s 12? alternative health therapy qualifications at this point?—that they could cure me through the application of certain essential oils. Those people never even got to touch my body let alone get a cent of my money.
Anyone who claims they can CURE anything like depression or other chronic conditions through the use of essential oils, is a lying predator and I’m 100% ready to fight.
They can be a valuable part in helping to improve your quality of life, and they are most certainly potent when used in the hands of someone who knows what they are doing. But anyone claiming they can cure a single damn thing with them is selling you nothing but snake oil. And that companies like YL have become so prevalent is just so depressing.
In the Ronan trilogy I want to see Ronan coming out to Declan. Because to me it was implied Ronan’s gayness was a contributor to his self-hatred, his fear of going to hell -the whole greywaren thing just kinda overshadowed it, and we know Ronan isn’t the most rational - I can definitely see that even if his brother has never expressed any homophobic behaviour in his life he’ll still get it into his head somehow that it’s an issue
I want to see it bursting out of Ronan one day when it’s just the two of them (they’ll try to fix their relationship - maybe Ronan will see how Adam feels better for trying with his parents, maybe he’ll just mature) and so they’re somewhere doing something together when. It just can’t stay in Ronan anymore, he needs his brother to know-
And I don’t know how he’ll say it - but I know that Declan will reach out and put a hand on Ronans arm, look him dead in the eyes, and tell him that whatever differences they may have had, this would never matter to Declan and he needs Ronan to know that him being gay doesn’t change a single damn thing between them.
And Ronan starts to say thank you - thank you for not hating me, thank you for still loving me - and Declan, mouth twisting, just says “I’m sorry if I’ve ever made you think you need to thank me for treating you like a human being. I’m sorry if I ever made you feel like you being gay wouldn’t be okay” and from that point on Declan asks after Adam and Ronan starts to think that maybe his brother isn’t just a thing to be hated after all
Any thoughts/fave moments on the new gaming vid? :^) bless us with your words pls
ahhhh god they just seemed so happy and chill in this video didn’t they? i enjoyed it quite a lot. it was unexpectedly funny in places and pretty typics bants for them and i loved that phil voiced pretty lengthy opinions throughout it. i also thought dan went out of his way repeatedly to signal his awareness of the audience gaze, making this an interesting video in that it was simultaneously more calm and less “produced” or over-performed but also v self-aware (whereas normally when dnp get super in their heads about recognizing that everyone is watching them they become v persona-y and overdone.) i’ve divided up my thoughts for each of them and thought i’d go sort of question by question (they are bolded)!!! i think in general there aren’t too many profound conclusions to be drawn from this video–the thing about their being super aware that this is going to go out to their audience of millions is that they become more restrained in saying anything actually illuminating about their more serious thoughts/feelings. but that being said there were obvi a solid number of noteworthy moments
the boy was so assertive and even sassy in this. i was excited. lil comments throughout like, ‘I’m a bit concerned that you’re seeing it as a brown circle .. new video: getting dan’s eyes checked,’ or ‘life isn’t grand theft auto guys,’ or just the way in which he delivers the ‘let me tell you my answer’ during the monkey question .. he was just so forthright in voicing his thoughts and taking no shit and i was rly loving it the whole time, bless him
when introducing the vid dan talks about how the audience will judge them but phil quickly follows with a reassuring ‘we’re learning things about each other’ and i thought that was interesting like he wants to insert that note of authenticity to push back against dan’s comment. i mean i rly doubt they’re doing this game to learn a single damn thing they don’t already know about each other but phil with this comment is trying to make us feel more like we are watching them do something genuine on a chill afternoon at home, instead of something that they are literally performing for us. cool cool
illegal firearm: good stuff. a lovely demonstration of phil’s ~lateral thinking~ and tendency towards constructing a fuller narrative for whatever info is presented to him.
i liked that he kept asking for more information and questioning dan w details like “how do i know they’re illegal” “whose drawer” etc. and dan tries to move on and end the speculative questioning but phil literally says “wait” to keep talking about the methods he would use to evade being accused of any crime if the firearm was in his own drawer.
also his voice is so northern here when he’s like ’then they’d know i didn’t touch it’ the way he says ‘touch’ yes good
the power to stop time: this one was mad interesting.
first of all. they’re not sleeping. phil only slept 5 hours. we’ve written so many posts about their being tired and rushed in their content bc they were churning out so many vids in the time before they left for australia but damn, to hear phil confirm he only slept 5 hours is p cray. it’s no wonder they were soooo ‘chill’ in this. they’re tired.
with respect to the actual question tho. i love phil asking ‘what is a pervy stuff’ and dan being so done w phils attempt at maintaining innocence. but then i also loved dan trying so hard not to smile when phil is grinning and clarifying that he doesnt mean that he doesnt know what a pervy stuff might entail but just that he needs to know ‘how pervy are we talking.’ lol dan is so amused and fond. then phil actually laughs so hard at dan saying ‘as long as u don’t leave a trace’ which is great bc phil’s unfiltered/genuine reactions to sex talk that aren’t trying to be revolted or unaware or uncomfortable are great.
phil’s actual real time go-to thought for what he would do with this power is sneaking into a locker room and he says it with a glaring lack of gendered pronouns. noted. in conjunction with his interest in abs this is very fascinating information to me.
and then dan is very insistent phil would do the pervy stuff even after phil states he’s going with disappearing from a convo. he signals it while phil is explaining his choice then even explicitly says ‘you tell the audience that.’
trapped in sewer: phil would lick a foot. dan needs us to know so he repeats it. ok sure fine
shitting when sitting: phil is a creative. the iron pants solution, king of innovative undergarments
mike tyson fight:
the synchronized ‘why would u let him win’ was cute.
dan saying ‘punch me dad’ is so chill now. like. no one gives any fucks. and phil is at the point where he literally agrees and says ‘guess that’s why’
i’m constantly shook about character development it’s starting to be unhealthy
visiting space: ok the first and only thing this made me question is whether we have ever heard phil utter the word orgasm. have we? i actually don’t think we have and i was laughing at how much he evaded saying it in the way he talked about this question. g-rated phil may be long dead but he’s still keeping things as clean as he can, given the circumstances. dan did not try and insinuate that phil is just saying moonwalking for the audience. so dan is fine saying phil rly wants to perv if he had the power to stop time, but he draws the line at insinuating phil wants to orgasm in space. good to know dan has (completely arbitrary) boundaries.
ah yes. the already iconic monkey question: several noteworthy lines.
p: i would spoon a monkey for sure. he didn’t miss a beat w that. confident statement of interest in animal intimacy from phil. splendid.
p: k-k-mar-kiss? i didn’t say kiss? d: that’s non-sexual it can be like a friendly kiss, a romantic one. interesting to me in that it confirms that dan draws distinctions between friendly (platonic), romantic, and sexual intimacy but that he also sort of equated platonic and romantic. on twitter he stated in a reply that he thinks friendly kissing is like a cheek kiss in greeting. its likely that romantic kissing is something more than that and more like the spooning and whatnot he suggested, but he lumps both of them into this category of a loving and intimate relationship. meanwhile sexual kissing is obvi ,, sexual kissing. but cool to hear a little bit about the way dan conceptualizes these categories
d: (about acting like a married couple) that could have a lot of drama and tears. you’d fight non-aggressively. i mostly think he’s using the common dumb jokes that society makes about marriage as being a loveless trap but also interesting that he went right to that dig and didn’t rly laugh about it or try to make it seem like a joke. he just said it and it’s sort of weirdly specific. ofc we can easily speculate that this might reveal some of dan’s thoughts about marriage or rly just his thoughts on a long term relationship bc it’s less about the institution of marriage. but i have doubts on whether that’s reasonable since, as i’ve been saying, dan is v aware he’s being watched and i doubt he’d take this as an opportunity to voice his thoughts about marriage and commitment and what is likely to happen when two people “act like a married couple”
d: i mean you couldn’t have anyone else in your life if you have this loving relationship. ah i love this one. dan confirming that whether or not sex is in the equation, a loving and intimate relationship would mean there would be no space for another person in phil’s life is just. good. unlike the marriage comment i do think we can analyze this one a bit further bc it’s almost a throwaway comment–it’s not the punchline or centerpiece of what dan is saying making it more likely to be a reflection of how he really feels. and it’s not a common thought to be honest, that if you’re in an intimate/loving relationship you can’t have anyone else in your life, meaning it doesn’t seem like some common joke he’s just repeating. i take it to mean that dan sees romantic love as a true marker of closeness and connection with someone–a closeness that you can’t and don’t share with other people whom you do not romantically love. and that that intimacy doesn’t have anything to do w the sex that you may or may not be having with the person that you love. what a romantic fuck. honestly spoken like a man whose best friend and long term romantic love are one and the same.
p: let me tell you my answer. i would spoon the monkey and watch some game of thrones and then go to bed in separate rooms. honestly, to me, this is the least interesting comment in this whole exchange. i know a lot of people think this sounds oddly reminiscent of dnp’s relationship or something but i genuinely think phil was in this scenario in his head. maybe he’s pulling from real life when thinking about the elements of being romantically intimate w someone that he could use for his example (aka spooning and game of thrones) but i think he’s rly thinking about the monkey and how not to spend too much time with it in this scenario, hence the sleeping in separate rooms addendum. idk. he’s talking about a relationship w a monkey yall i dont think he’s going to use that as a proxy to give us a thinly veiled clue about his day to day habits with his not-as-yet-confirmed boyfriend. mostly confused that a lot of people are treating it as “confirmation” that dnp don’t have sex lol
‘this is really going to say a lot about our personalities and you’re going to judge us.’ he opens strong with that audience awareness. it carries throughout the video.
house is on fire: probably the most interesting of the dan questions.
dan looks so uncomfortable as soon as phil inserts himself into this scenario by saying that he (phil) would be “all the people.” the sigh is so real bc dan clearly did not want to treat this like a serious question but phil framing it as dan needing to choose between his own life and a kitten’s life and phil’s life suddenly really ups the seriousness of it.
i feel for him. that’s honestly such a fucking difficult question to answer. i thought of the closest relationship in my life which is my sister and what i would do if she was like ha ha who would u save me or yourself and then having to actually think about both of those horrifying scenarios. either dan lives and has to live without phil or phil lives and has to live without dan and like jfc how r u supposed to pick or even try to take that seriously idk
i say all of this to add more context to dan’s answer and the sarcastic ‘bc the internet is watching,’ that he adds to it. i genuinely think dan was uncomfortable with this question and i also fully empathize with that so i think the sarcasm was added as a way to treat it more like a joke like ha ha i guess i’ll save u bc i’m a good person not ha ha i guess i’m picking this bc idk what to do since this question is horrific
‘everyone is inherently good,’ says phil. ‘or at least that’s what i want to believe.’ i always think the thing w phil+optimism is a bit overhyped but like damn if he’s rly out there trying to believe this, then that’s p cool and very very lovely
everything turns into gold: there was def a dan rant about physics or monetary inflation or something that got cut out of this question bc he yells about it being stupid then there’s a v glaring jump cut then he’s saying ‘in a universe where this makes sense,,’ lol idk whether to be relieved or intrigued about the fact we didn’t get to hear it
phil dead and he’s been hanging w the twin: i loved the bit when phil asks dan to ask him a question only phil would know the answer to and dan responds, essentially, that there isn’t a question he could ask phil bc ‘you’ve been fernando the whole time.’ dan is wrong lol the question doesn’t say that the best friend has always been the twin–just that the best friend died at some point in the friendship and was replaced w a twin, unbeknownst to dan. i love that dan can’t even entertain the possibility that phil could be replaced with someone at some point in their friendship like nope too outlandish it’s obvi just saying phil has been a person w a different name all along .. in which case, as dan rightly points out, there’s hardly a dilemma. it’s just that you didn’t know your friend’s real name. what is the point of that. lol. a cute and probably unintentional way of avoiding any of the emotional weight of this scenario and i love it
dan as pres: dan thinks he’d be good in the role of president. he probs would be ok
spider: i am very fascinated by the way dan leans kinda forward and mostly into phil at 9:04 when he’s talking about being a spider and exploring someone’s body. why did he do that. what is he doing idk
become a god:
making fun of lads and lad culture. i’m into it. i am always into them lowkey shitting on toxic masculinity. so funny.
again phil tries to insert himself in the scenario by saying that if dan chose to incinerate earth he’d be incinerating phil, but dan was absolutely not having it
overall they are cute and clever and good at knowing where to draw boundaries about the things they talk about but to do so in a gentle and natural way for the most part so this video was good and interesting but probs not revelatory but still very entertaining and funny and sort of soft in unexpected ways so i really liked it. i really like them xx
No author, content creator, artist, etc. owes you a damn thing.
They don’t owe you a certain ending. They don’t owe you a certain pairing. They owe you, not a single god damn thing. Especially if you harass them and act like entitled children for not getting what you want.
It doesn’t matter how shitty you think they are. It doesn’t matter if you think that their skills suck. It doesn’t matter if you think that they are trash.
As a matter of fact.
If you think THAT lowly of them then they definitely didn’t owe you shit to begin with.
Bathtub Tears - ((Tom Holland)) Peter Parker x Reader | 3rd Person
Prompt: (requested by anon) hey!! could I request a story where the reader has a crush on Peter Parker but she doesn’t know if he likes her back, & she used to have an eating disorder (I’m basing the character off of myself, pls don’t worry I’m much better now!) & one night at a party her drunk friend says something like “did u eat today” and Peter overhears and takes her aside and asks if she’s okay and like helps her and it’s rlly cute? TYSM love u! also hope u feel better! :)
a/n: i changed it so instead of already having the disorder, she currently has it. if you guys ever feel sad, dm me, i’m here for you! THIS GOES OUT TO MY FELLOW THICK BABES AND YOU ARE ALL PERFECT NO MATTER WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE! FUCK ANYONE WHO SAYS OTHERWISE BECAUSE YOU ARE FUCKING PERFECTION, AND THAT’S A FACT.
Friday nights. Red solo cups filled with alcohol. Shit music with people dancing to it. Nobody giving a single damn. These are the things most people (Y/N)’s age lived off of. Friday nights were their saving grace, but not exactly for (Y/N).
Everyone at these parties wore their tight clothes, hooked up in random bedrooms, walked around topless or streaked across the front lawn, which was admittedly very amusing to most. In (Y/N)’s opinion, it was terrifying. How could all those people be that confident in their bodies, when she hated everything about herself.
Her thighs didn’t have a gap, her arms looked fat, her ass was too big, her stomach was too big were only a few of the many things she thought “made her ugly”. She absolutely despised her body, and would give anything to be model-thin. Being surrounded by in-achievable and unrealistic body standards was mentally draining, so eventually (Y/N) had decided to do something.
It started off small, just skipping a few meals here and there, but eventually got so much worse. She had developed an eating disorder that had become horrible for her health. It had only been a few months of this self-destructive behavior but you could already see how weak she had become.
Nobody had really noticed (Y/N)’s ways, except for her best friend. (Y/F/N) found out, and did everything in their ability to try and stop it. Unfortunately, most of her attempts had fallen flat, and (Y/N)’s eating disorder had started taking over her life, one day at a time.
Later, (Y/F/N) had managed to drag (Y/N) to a party, which (Y/N) knew she would hate every single minute of. Upon arriving, they both went to the drinks table, where (Y/F/N) had poured something that was sure to get them wasted.
“Drink!” They declared, handing the drink to (Y/N), who hesitantly took a gulp. After swallowing, she made a face and asked what (Y/F/N) had put in it, to which she only received a, “It’s a secret recipe! I call it the ‘I need to get drunk so I’ll drink it to get there the fastest’ drink!” Rolling her eyes, (Y/N) continued to take small sips, landing her tipsy, but not quite drunk.
Meanwhile at the party, Peter stood against the wall. He took the occasional drink out of his red solo cup and just observed. Not caring to dance or participate in party games, he was having a good time being a wallflower.
He easily noticed (Y/N) across the room, it was hard for him to not notice her with her friend. They were good friends, and over the long period time he had known her, he fell in love. Peter walked across the room to refill his cup, and overheard a conversation between (Y/N) and (Y/F/N).
Drunkenly wrapping an arm around (Y/N), (Y/F/N) began talking, “Look, I know about your eating thingy, but I have to ask you something. Did you eat today? I care about you so much and I just want to know if you did,” they asked, slurring their words while hiccuping in between.
(Y/N)’s body froze, had anyone heard that conversation? She ran to the nearest bathroom and closed the door behind her. She started to cry, and for some reason, her drunken thoughts decided that the best idea would be for her to crawl into the bathtub and sob, which she did.
Peter had heard everything, and watched as (Y/N) bolted down the hallway into the bathroom. Thoughts quickly began pouring into his head. Why the hell would she have an eating disorder? Did she think she was too fat? Why would she think that? Why the fuck would a girl that perfect think so lowly of herself? Deciding to follow her, Peter walked down the hallway and knocked on the bathroom door.
After knocking, he didn’t receive an answer, so he entered. Upon walking in, he saw (Y/N) sitting in a bathtub bawling her eyes out. Locking the door behind him, Peter said, “Hey,” which caused (Y/N)’s head to shoot up and look at Peter.
Surprised, (Y/N)’s eyes widened and she said, “Peter? Oh my god this is so embarrassing! I’m sorry that-”
“I heard what (Y/F/N) said,” Peter said quickly, “But what I don’t understand is why, why would you do that to yourself?” Knowing that what he asked was insensitive, he mentally kicked himself and felt terrible.
(Y/N) was quiet. After a minute of silence she said, “I hate myself. I hate how my body looks. I fucking hate my thighs. I fucking hate my stomach. I fucking hate myself for doing this. I fucking hate what I’ve turned out to be!”
Peter couldn’t believe what he was hearing. In front of him sat the most beautiful and perfect girl to have ever lived, saying that she hated herself. Still sitting in the bathtub, (Y/N) sobbed, rambling about the things she hated about herself when Peter had enough.
“(Y/N)!” Peter said loudly, surprising the both of them. She looked up and her tear-filled eyes met his, “You are single-handedly the most beautiful, smart, amazing, gorgeous, funny, and overall perfect person that I have ever met! I don’t understand what there isn’t to love about you! You are the definition of perfection!” Peter said to her.
Her mouth dropped open and climbing out of the bathtub, she ran over to Peter, hugging him tightly. (Y/N)’s tears stained his shirt, as she cried into his chest. In return, he hugged her back, being as comforting as he possibly could be.
“Thank you. Thank you so much,” (Y/N) mumbled into his chest. Looking up at him, she said, “I know this is going to sound so stupid, but I really do love you right now. And I want to get better.”
Peter smiled at her, “I love you too,” he said, having been in love with her for so long, “and I promise you, I will help you get better.”
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Pairings: Bucky x Reader, Natasha x
Bucky, Platonic Tony x reader.
Warnings: ANGST. Pregnancy,
violence, insecurity and self-loathing, Mutant reader (powers similar to Jean
from X-men with a little immortality thrown in) smut. Tiniest amount of fluff
moye serdtse-my heart
His screams fracture the dream your having,
searing into your mind, you have no defense against it, you sit bolt upright in
bed, breathing heavily trying to pin point the danger, your sleep hazy mind
taking its sweet time catching up with reality, it takes you a minute to
realize the screaming is coming from Bucky’s room, you scramble out of bed, not
bothering to find your pajama pants, you can feel his terror in your mind,
seeping into your every pore as you run down the corridor to his bedroom, you
slowly open the door, your heart shattering at the sight before you, Bucky’s
back is arching off the bed, his hands fisted into the bed sheets, sweat
pouring off him in waves, small whimpers leaving him in between screams, you
know better than to approach him, instead you stand at the foot of the bed and
gently call into his mind “Bucky, you’re dreaming” he relaxes slightly “moye serdtse, come back to me, you need to wake up” he
gasps, one final scream leaving him as he flies out of bed into a defensive
position, his eyes scan the room, landing on your form at the edge of the bed
“I’m not going to hurt you Bucky, Take a deep breath” you say calmly, he closes
the distance between you in two short strides, pulling you fiercely against his
chest, he sobs into your hair “don’ please, don’ do that again, you can’ do
that again, I need ya, please” you don’t bother asking him what he’s talking
about, he’s not going to tell you, he never does “shh Buck. I’m right here. I’m
not going anywhere. I promise” his hold on you tightens, “stay” he pleads
“stay, I sleep better when you’re here” he’s staring at you with a look you
can’t decipher “yeah buck” you reply “I’ll always stay with you”
“you have a baby” Bucky dumbly
states “Where’s Tony?” you reply numbly making shushing noises at Adriana, “you
have a baby (y/n), why do you have a baby?!” He asks, voice climbing with every
syllable “Where.is.Tony” you spit out through clenched teeth “you left. In the
middle of the FUCKING NIGHT AN’ YOU CAN’ EVEN TELL ME WHY THERES A BABY
STRAPPED TO YA CHEST” oh man he’s mad. Oh shit he’s beyond angry “can you keep
it down James? You’re scaring her” you hiss as Ari starts to wail “I do not owe
you an explanation James, in fact I don’t owe you a single damn thing, so
where. Is. Tony” you spit, “no, ya aint runnin’ out on me again doll, you an me
are gonna discuss why there’s a child strapped to ya and why you left me. Right
now,” he replies, calm, angry Bucky is
not a good Bucky.” Left you? I did not leave
you James, there was no us, you made that abundantly clear when you started
dating Natalia, when you told me I was nothing but a mistake” you falter “so
you can shove any notion of an explanation up your ass because you aren’t
getting shit from me” he groans “look kitty, I know I hurt ya, I was a fuckin’
idiot an I’m sorry I really am, I tried ta talk ta ya but you would-“ “hurt
me?” you cut him off “no James what you did was so far beyond the realm of
hurting me it’s ridiculous” you whisper “you broke me James, and there isn’t
anyway I’m coming back from that” he stares at you stunned as you push past him
“and if you ever call me kitty again I will rip your throat out. With my teeth”
you add as you make your way to Tony’s lab.
Bucky fucking Barnes your fuming, furious,
your hands are shaking, Ari is screaming bloody murder as you unsuccessfully
try and sooth her, your running through every curse word in every language that
you know, you’re covered in blood, running high on adrenaline and anger and
you’re going to murder Tony.
“you better be in here Stark” you yell, hearing various
implements crash to the floor “Kitty? Jesus, I got your message what the hell
happened out there kid? How did they find you? You were secure!” he asks,
frantically checking you and Ari for any injuries “I don’t know T, I did as you
asked, I made no friends, I didn’t go out unnecessarily, you said you had the
threat under control?” you’re so, so tired “I did, I had no indication that
HYDRA knew where you were there’s been no chatter. Not a peep” he says “you
okay kid? You’re looking like shit” he adds. “I had a run in with Bucky on the
way up and I’m dead ass tired, Ari nearly got taken and right now I wanna wake
up from this obvious fucking nightmare I’m having” silent tears are running
down your face, you don’t notice “you need sleep Kitty cat, give the baby to me
I can take care of the little monster while you get cleaned up and rest, I’ll
send out for supplies and clothes” you breathe out a sigh “you sure T?” “yes,
now give me my goddaughter, you’re of no use to either of us in the state
you’re in” you bark out laugh “such a charmer you are Tony” you reply as you
unstrap Ari “she needs to eat, she missed her feeding, and a bath won’t hurt
her either” you add. “you got it mama” he winks.
(y/n) you need to get
out. Now” Tony barks through the phone “I intercepted HYDRA intel, they know
where you are and that you’re pregnant, we need to move you” panic, Blind
searing panic “how? Why? I don’t understand T, I’m inconsequential” you breathe
into the receiver “I’m not important enough for them to come after me T” you
take a breath “what the fuck is going on?”
“I wish I knew kitty cat,
be ready to go in 5”
Making a quick stop in Steve’s room you grab a shirt and a pair of joggers, you’re covered in dirt and sweat, drops of blood covering your
clothes, you need a shower desperately, and a solid 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep,
you moan at the prospect, you can’t remember the last time you slept through
the night, Ari needed to feed every 2 hours and you were running on empty. Trudging
back to your old room you find Bucky sitting on your old bed, you sigh “James I
can’t do this with you right now” you speak plainly too tired to go another
round with him “well then ya best listen doll face, ya haven’t let me say my peace,
an’ I need ta get this out” “James please not no-“ He interrupts you “for once
shuddup an’ listen ta me alrigh’?” his face is deadly serious, brokering no
room for protest, “fine. Say what you have to say, and then leave” you answer,
he sighs, “Ya left me, Alone, no explanation, no warning, I mourned ya, ya
know?” he falters “I loved ya for so long and you were just gon’, I couldn’ put
the pieces together in my mind, why ya jus left like that” your crying, breath
coming out in short pants “I knew I had hurt ya after the las’ fight we had, I knew
I was an idiot, an’ Natalia offered comfort, I thought i loved her,I couldn
figure out what I wanted, who I wanted” you
can get through this (y/n) squeezing your eyes shut “ i ended it with Natalia as soon as i figured out you left,she was a replacement for who i wanted an’ i hurt her too“ he looks disgusted with himself “i looked for ya, i spent months tryna find ya, i felt like i was goin’ insane without ya” his lips curl back into a snarl “you are so deeply in-bedded in who i am, i don’ know what i am without ya, ya saved me from the dark, an’ i pushed ya into it”
“an then ya march back
into my life bold as brass, with a baby strapped ta ya, covered in dirt and
blood,with that fuckin’ attitude that makes me wanna tear my hair out, an’ ya shattered my heart all over again (y/n)” tears are streaming down
his face, Dont let him in You think
“I know the babies mine (y/n) an ya aint gonna keep her from me, I’m gonna be
her daddy, whether ya wan’ me ta or not” he adds “give me a chance, Kitty, I can
make this right, I can be who ya need me to be, please all im askin’ for is a
chance” he pleads. God how you want to give in, you want to wrap yourself in Bucky and never let go. You want to be a family, you want Ari to have both parents, but how do you know he wont turn tail when he starts to doubt again? No, Ari comes first. Always Adriana.
“I won’t stop you from being Adriana’s father James” he
“but you and I, we can never be anything more than we are
now. Too much has happened, I’m your second-choice James, your consolation prize, I was just a mistake to you, you said so yourself, I can’t”
you sigh “I can’t do that again Buck, I can’t go through that again, I cant put my daughter through that”
“I’m gonna prove ya wrong doll” he stands to leave
“ya were never my second choice” he adds “ya were the only
“an I was a fool ta only realize that after ya were gone”
Warnings: Language, Angst-ish (if you look reaaaaal hard)
Summary: Bucky doesn’t really believe in soulmates. But when Steve tricks him into becoming your roommate, it sends things down a path he never thought he’d go down.
A/N: Jesus Christ, Emily, stop dragging shit on! I’m gonna try and keep the flow but stop writing every single damn thing. (This is easier said than done, trust me). Enjoy! I’d really appreciate feedback as well, guys!