since i can't be there to make you feel better

anonymous asked:

Rn I'm living on kind of a toxic house for idk how much longer (trying to move out asap) but a lot of things make me anxious/angry/feel all kinds of negative emotions. Could this affect my magic? If so, what can I do to fix that? I can't go anywhere else to do magic and I have to be discreet, my parents are hardcore Christians. I don't want to stop doing witchcraft tho, I really enjoy it even if it doesn't work, it kinda helps me feel better.

It can if you think it will. I assume that’s already a worry in your mind, since you’re asking this question. It’s like how we say doubting your spells can actually help them fail - this is sort of in that vein of thought. If you think it matters, that it will have an impact on your impact, then it can.

A lot of people talk about not needing to be in a calm / positive state when it comes to your spellwork - it really comes down to your frame of mind. Some spells require those emotions to fuel them - mostly curses, but certain spells call for you bring up those things to bind or banish them as well.

So, at that point it’s a matter of letting yourself believe and know that it will not affect your magic, and trying to keep the doubt from your mind. And I know it’s easier said than done, but as long as you keep trying, keep pushing those thoughts, eventually one day it will just be that way (the whole “fake it ‘till you make it” mantra, right?). 

You can still research magic and call yourself a witch, even if you’re taking a break between castings. I mean, it’s been, like, months since I did a “proper” spell, with candles and crystals and herbs and stuff like that. But here I am, still a witch, just focusing on expanding my knowledge at this time. That can be an option if you are willing to wait until you leave the house to do magic, so the negativity won’t impact it. And it makes me feel better too, I feel you.

Otherwise, you have a couple of other options as well.

You can [cast a ward] (tw: gif) around your bedroom - think of it like a layer of thick and potent energy coating your walls, as close to them as possible - so as not to allow any other negativity from the rest of your house in. Here are some more options for warding techniques:

Alternatively, here is this post: [Transmuting Energy: An Alternative to Shielding] (tw: gif as blog header).

From there, [cleanse often] to keep any negativity out of your space, and from you. A discreet cleansing is open up a window and direct the airflow to come in, sweep up any negativity, and bring it back out again. The “light visualization” is also a wonderful way to cleanse a space with no tools. You can also [decontaminate people before they enter your space], an amazing idea brought forward by @stsathyre​.

Self cleansing is also great to help with any negativity you may have picked up in the meantime - you still have to interact with the rest of the house right? Shampoos and body washes can be enchanted simply to help you cleanse as well as clean in your shower. My favorite method of self cleansing is standing out in the rain as it falls - and it’s getting to be better weather (at least where I am), the ideal time for this! 

Discreet practicing comes down to a lot of [energy work], in my opinion - you don’t need any tools, really, just your own body and an understanding of working with energy. I do spells with my intent and tapping debit machines to make them load faster. I also draw down rain by willing it, and some subtle hand gestures. 

Here are some more resources on discreet magic:

* not my choice of title

So. That was a bit of stuff, lol. I hope it can help you or give you some more ideas. Best of luck, anon! :D

anonymous asked:

Kiinnnnnnn!!!! I love you so much I keep telling my friends that you're amazing~~~ I'm buying your pillow case as reward for finishing a school presentation tomorrow - I can't wait!!!!!

Awww thank you so much for your support ♥

tbh, i’m really nervous during the pre-order period since i don’t know if people will like it or not ;; but seeing your message makes me feel much better, thank you // A \

Good luck with your presentation! :D

anonymous asked:

I love all of your writings, especially Heart Valley Daycare and A Willing Demon's Decent!~ I can't wait for your updated from those fanfic. I hearty like the way you right and the way you make me laugh throughout the story you create, specifically Heart Valley Daycare! \(*A*)/ (/♡_♡)/ I wish the best of luck in your writings and keep up the good work!~ <3 <3 <3

Awwwwww! Thank you so much sweet Anon! I’m so happy to get kind messages in my askbox about my work such as this! Makes me feel so much better, since I have so much work to do this month as well as the next. 

I’m happy you’ve enjoyed reading Heart Valley Daycare, with all the fix-it bakudeku drama sexual tension/kid-fic, as well as my darkest origin story villain deku with bakudeku angst and pain. lol Like the two different direction fics, which is honestly cool, since you liked them both. More Heart Valley Daycare to come soon, but oh my goodness…I have so much on my plate this month and I’m behind on everything -cries- butttttt-

I shall not give up any of my in-progress fics, like Heart Valley Daycare! Thank you again for the love and your kind words about my writing, for that is always an uphill struggle. <3 -Unoutan

anonymous asked:

I hate interracial couples, non black women generally have been the worse in middle AND high school. They've always told me how beautiful they are and how better they'll do by black men since black women treat black men like trash (FALSE). What's tiring is, no matter how much I love black men, they don't seem to find brown /dark black women attractive. They can't find beauty in themselves on a women. The self hate is real but I rather be with my black man


Black Girls Rant. 👸🏿

*Send in a rant about what bothers you, annoys you or makes you feel insecure as a dark-skin woman or just a black woman.

elle-is-a-freak  asked:

Hi, I'm starting to get the flu and I'm pretty sad since I also have to give away my dog tomorrow so it is just making me worse. Can I have a scenario of Rei, Ritsu and Mao taking care of a very sick Anzu that can't get out of bed who's also having high stress? Thanks! :)

oh no i hope you’re doing better now !!! i wrote this as soon as i saw your request, i hope i’m not too late… please take care of yourself ! ♥ - mod mademoiselle

Mao :

“Really, Mao, you didn’t have to come all the way here…” Your boyfriend pointedly looks away, now busy making sure you have enough pillows and you feel comfortable in your bed. You squirm a bit under the three blankets he’s piled up on top of you, and he mistakes that for you trying to grab another pillow. He’s already put one under you before you even have time to protest, and you just sigh, admitting your defeat.

“It’s fine, I was planning to come anyway. And I can’t just leave you like that, who knows what you’d be up to if I wasn’t here ?” He laughs embarrassedly when he meets your eyes, and lets out a little sigh of his own.

“Maybe I kinda overdid it”, he mumbles, eyes on the ground. Now you feel like comforting him. Great job, Mao.

“Yeah, you did, honestly.” He looks up at you, still stuck and unable to move under the pile of blankets, your fifteen pillows threatening to take over the bed at any moment. His nerves eventually get the better of him and he starts giggling like crazy, soon joined by you. Once your nervous laughter finally subsides, you’re left wiping away at a stray tear while he fumbles around, retrieving a bottle of cough mixture from a paper bag.

“Did you buy medicine too… ?” He nods at your question, busy reading the package leaflet while you’re left staring at his bag in awe. Did he really think of everything… ?

“Of course. I’d be a pretty bad boyfriend if I didn’t, right… ?” He laughs weakly, trying to measure how much cough mixture he should pour in the little plastic spoon he found inside the box. You just stare at him, vaguely embarrassed, while he timidly moves the spoonful of medicine near your mouth.

“It’s not exactly tasty, but it should do the trick… I think”, he says hesitantly. You groan when a drop of sticky liquid falls on your chin, and he barely suppresses a nervous chuckle before angling the spoon better and finally getting it in your mouth. You can only grimace as you swallow the medicine, and he smiles, putting the bottle away.

“It’s the worst I’ve ever had”, you comment, looking away as he bends closer to you to wipe the drops that fell on your chin and pillows, courtesy of his trembling hand.

“Sorry about that. It works really well, I promise.” He smiles weakly at you, although his cheeks are more than a little red. Maybe it’s the sudden proximity… He jumps up a bit when you grip his wrist, admittedy a bit tighter than you intended.

“It’s fine, Mao. I’m… I’m just really happy you’re here… Especially since I needed you so much.” Wow. You managed to say all that without bursting into tears. Your voice did crack a bit on the last few words, but you’re still mildly proud of yourself. Are you this emotional because of the fever, or is it because you’ve been so stressed out recently, you wonder…

“Don’t worry, I wouldn’t let you deal with that by yourself. Besides, thanks to Ritsu, I’m used to taking care of sick people. You wouldn’t believe how cranky he gets when he’s sick.” You laugh softly at his comment, making him smile in his turn. You can’t help but notice how pretty his eyes look when they’re twinkling happily, and so close to yours at that… You want to look away, but he inches just a bit closer, already slowly closing his eyes. His cheeks are beet red, and you try your best to muffle a chuckle before he shakily presses his lips against yours. They’re so warm and nice against yours… You close your eyes in your turn, parting your lips slightly when his tongue shyly pokes against them. Before you have time to truly melt into the kiss, a sudden weight on you makes you gasp, and Mao immediately moves back, removing his hands from where they awkwardly landed on your chest.

“Sorry, I kind of toppled over…” He tries his best to smile despite the embarrassment, before his face suddenly contorts in disgust. “You were right, this cough mixture tastes disgusting”, he adds, nose scrunched up in a way that makes you giggle.

“Told you so. It’s your fault for suddenly kissing me like that. What if you get sick too ?” He just shrugs at your question, giving you a shy little smile that makes your heart beat slightly faster.

“I don’t really care. If it’s the price to pay to see you smile and get better, then so be it.” You’re left staring at him, eyes wide, and he awkwardly blinks. Then realization dawns on him. “Did I say something cheesy again ?” he laughs, and you can only join him.

“You did. But it’s fine. I like it.” You’re not sure you actually said that last part out loud, but the warm smile on your boyfriend’s lips and the blush that spreads on his cheeks and ears seem proof enough. Maybe he’s just as glad to be with you as you are he’s there taking care of you when you most need it…

Ritsu :

“I can’t breathe, Ritsu…” You squirm a bit, but he squeezes you even tighter in his arms. You didn’t even know he was that strong… Maybe it’s what you deserve for not knowing he had it in him to almost hug you to death. Your boyfriend mumbles adorably, still half-asleep, then lazily opens his eyes. His red gaze meets yours, and he lets out a little smile.

“Too bad. I’m not letting you go.” You groan in response, and he chuckles, slightly relieving the pressure of his arms around you. There, much easier to breathe. He waits until you’ve made yourself comfortable on your bed to nuzzle against your neck, sighing in pleasure as he gets ready to nap again.

“Are you sure it’s going to make me feel better ?” you ask, not entirely convinced by his method of choice. He simply nods, looking up at you from under long dark lashes.

“Trust me, I’m an expert… A good nap can do wonders. Just rest and let me heal you…”  You’re about to question that last part when he starts nibbling on your skin, right at the junction between your neck and shoulder. You barely muffle a little yelp, while Ritsu just smirks against your skin.

“Is that part of the whole ‘healing’ thing too ?” Ritsu doesn’t answer your question, letting his lips wander lower and lower, kissing your collarbone and licking his way down to your chest, where he rests his head before he shoots a grin at you.

“Yeah. It’s supposed to make the illness go away.” You can only blink at him while he lovingly nuzzles against your chest, hands pawing at it. He really looks like a cat… You’d almost let him do as he pleases, just because of that lovely face of his, weren’t it for one particularly insistent grope.

“How is that supposed to make me feel better… ?” He rolls his eyes at your question, as if the answer were obvious and you were just particularly slow.

“Simple. To make you feel better from a fever, you’re supposed to get hot, right ?” His mouth is pursed in an adorable self-sufficient little pout, almost making you want to kiss him. If only you didn’t risk making him sick too…

“Well, yeah, but…” He cuts you off before you have time to explain.

“Don’t you feel hot, right now ?” He’s staring at you intently, lips finding their way to your neck again. You’re not sure if he’s genuinely trying to help with your fever or if he’s just found an excuse to do as he pleases again…

“Um, yeah, I do”, you concede, looking away when he inches closer. He’s grinning widely now, visibly satisfied his unusual remedy is working wonders.

“There you go. Told you it works.” Before you have time to refute his claims, he suddenly kisses you, not leaving you time to breathe. You were just starting to kiss back in earnest when he pulls back. He’s somehow still smirking, but you notice he’s slightly out of breath too…

“Was that part of your healing technique too ?”  you tease. He nods, snuggling close to you again and looking supremely satisfied.

“Yeah. And the next step is a long, long nap. Lucky you, I’m an expert at this too.” You roll your eyes but it’s too late : he’s already dozing off. Your fingers softly run through his hair, petting it slowly as he falls asleep.

His chest is moving slowly as he takes deep breaths, and you’re left to admire how pretty his face looks when he’s asleep. He looks almost like an angel… too bad he’s not always like that. You smile a bit, imagining his reaction if you’d told him that. He would probably huff his cheeks and cross his arms, throwing you an unamused glare… Really, his glares would impress you a lot more if he didn’t look like an adorable but quite pissed off cat.

As your thoughts are wavering, you find your eyes slowly closing. Unconsciously imitating Ritsu’s deep breaths, you’re on the verge of falling asleep. He’s so warm against you, too… You lean against him, cuddling him as your conscience drifts away. You’re barely awake when he opens one eye to smirk and whisper “Sleep well…”

When you wake up, you’re feeling strangely refreshed. Maybe the medicine Ritsu gave you really worked wonders on you… You still feel a bit feverish, but you’re doing a lot better. You turn to your boyfriend to tell him when you notice he’s tightly gripping you, face hidden in your neck. Is he still asleep… ?

“Ritsu ?” You gently touch his shoulder, and when he looks up at you, your eyes go wide. He’s shivering and his cheeks are burning hot… “Oh no, looks like you caught my fever…”

Your boyfriend barely represses another, longer shiver, looking at you as stoically as he can with cheeks that red. “I’m fine. What matters is that you’re better. Besides…” Before you can say anything, he’s hiding in your neck again, hot breath dancing on your skin.

“You can always try my great healing method on me… right ?”

Rei :

Honestly, this all feels so weird. Having Rei lovingly nurse you while you’re sick definitely wasn’t what you expected from a guy who claims he’s a vampire and tries so hard to be seen as hardcore. Well, him giving you medicine wasn’t so bad. But maybe reading you a bedtime story before your nap was a bit too much. You did fall asleep in record time, but still…

You wake up to feel slightly disoriented, before you remember you’re in Rei’s bedroom. The furniture clearly mirrors his aesthetic and tastes… He’s nowhere to be found, though. You’re just about to get up and go look for him when he comes in, holding a tray, and smiles at you.

“Oh, fret not, my love. Go right back to lying down, would you ?” You begrudgingly comply, while he puts the tray on the nightstand and comes to arrange your pillows so that you’re in an almost seated position.

“You know, I can get up just fine”, you say, but he doesn’t answer. Instead he lets you rest against the pillows, brushing a piece of stray hair behind your ear.

“You do not need to. I believe I already told you how I planned to take care of your every need.” He sits next to you and grabs a plate on the tray he brought, gently blowing on it to cool down its contents. Is it… soup ?

“Did you cook for me too… ? You really didn’t have to, you know !” You’re feeling a bit embarrassed, but he gives you a little smile. Clearly, he’s happy nursing you like an overprotective mother.

“You took such good care of me when I was in need, my love. How the tables have turned…” He chuckles, but brings a spoonful of soup closer to your mouth, and you feel your cheeks slightly blushing when you realize he wants to spoon-feed you.

“Really, I can eat myself—“ He completely ignores you, but you can see the corners of his mouth quivering. Is he fighting off a smile ?

“If you would please open your mouth, just like me. Aaah~” He opens wide to set an example, and the little light twinkling happily in his eyes tells you he’s having a lot of fun. You dejectedly do as he says, looking away as he spoon-feeds you. The soup is delicious, making you suspect he really cooked it himself… He clearly reads you like an open book, given that he smirks a bit.

“I see you are enjoying my home-made cooking. Do not worry, I longingly thought of you as I was preparing it…” You’re too tired to do much else than rolling your eyes. He’s gonna tease you no matter what, anyway. But as he dutifully feeds you until you get embarrassed and take the spoon yourself, you’re left thinking he’s not doing this to make fun of you. Not with the loving way he looks at you. Once you’re done with your meal, he takes the tray from you but makes sure you take vitamins. There’s really no way to escape his surveying gaze and you down them soon enough, much to his satisfaction.

“Very good. You shall see, you will be doing much better now.” He seems to mean it’s thanks to his loving care, but truth be told, it might rather be the ultra-efficient medicine he got you. You just nod wearily, but blink down in surprise when he leans down to softly kiss your forehead. His lips barely touch your skin before he turns away with one last smile.

“Now, if you will excuse me, I have dishes to wash.” He was about to leave when you manage to catch his arm, and he immediately stops in his tracks. He doesn’t even look surprised, rather worried.

“Wait… Can you stay with me ?” Rei doesn’t answer right away, instead slowly blinking. “Please ?” you add in a tiny voice. You’re already feeling all gloomy again. Maybe that’s because of all the stress you’ve been feeling lately…

Rei just puts the tray down again and sits on the bed. Before you know it, he’s looming over you and kisses your forehead again. This time, his lips caress your skin a little longer. His fingers gently brush your cheek, and you can’t help but get lost in his mesmerizing ruby eyes for a moment.

“Of course, my love. I am devastated you are feeling so sad.” You don’t remember ever telling him about it, but it’s not even surprising. Rei’s ridiculously good at reading you… When he hugs you tight, you hide in his chest. He’s big and his arms are strong, making you feel safe and protected… You close your eyes when he starts tracing intricate and soothing patterns on the back of your neck with his fingers, whispering sweet nothings in your ear until you calm down.

“Everything is fine, do not worry… I am here, by your side…” You weakly nod, sniffling softly. It feels kinda lame, just unloading all your stress in front of your boyfriend, but at least you feel a bit better now. And when he leans in to kiss you, all the tension just melts behind your closed eyelids.

When you resurface, he’s gently cradling you in his arms, his voice a caressing murmur trying to lull you into sleep again. With how tired you are, you gladly snuggle against him, letting go of all your worries. He smiles gently at you as you fall asleep, and you weakly smile too. He is so good to you…

anonymous asked:

Hey, Mira. I hope you're doing okay. If this request can maybe make you feel a little bit better, maybe nalu, college au? I've always thought it's a bad time. I don't know what you've been through, so I can't do much to help. I'm sorry. Take care

A/N: *hugs you* It’s all right; your well-wishes mean more to me than you know. I don’t want to bore people with my life too much anyway, heh, so don’t worry about it. So I might as well get to your request I am just the best procrastinator since I’m now only a couple semesters away from graduation! So things are getting better for me for sure, slowly but surely ;u; I hope you enjoy this; thanks for the request!

I’m sorry for the lateness (and possible rustiness ‘cause wow am I out of practice)! Baby steps. :’3


Natsu’s heart just about leapt right out of his chest when his phone suddenly buzzed out of nowhere in his back pocket. He did his best to calm his heart as he sat up and fished out his phone to check what it was—this shady spot under the trees in the campus park was just too easy to doze off at.

The first thing that caught his eye was the time—and he immediately blanched. Had it already been this long? He’d been so sure he had another half hour at the least…

He sighed and ruffled his matted salmon-pink hair, brushing out the bits of leaves and twigs that had gotten tangled in them when he’d laid down and fallen asleep there…again, before finally checking to see what notification he’d received.

It was a text from Lucy.

Hey, Natsu; I just finished class for the day! Where are you?

Natsu bit back a groan as his heart sunk a bit lower—he really had slept for way too long if Lucy had already finished her classes. What sort of excuse could he give her now? He had nothing!

He waited for another minute or so before he texted her back:

Eh, just at the usual spot, you know the one
I’ll wait for you

And he sat back and stared up at the tree branches while letting the light breeze tickle his cheeks until she arrived—which wasn’t long; he could hear her calling his name from a distance after only a couple more minutes.

“Hey, Natsu! I’m here!” Natsu raised his head and turned in the direction of her voice—the slender blonde was holding her schoolbooks under one arm and had slung her purse over her opposite shoulder, smiling and waving at him as she jogged over to meet him.

Natsu couldn’t help but smile to himself as she approached even in spite of the storm of tirades he knew would eventually come his way.

Damn it; she’s beautiful…

“Hey, Lucy,” he greeted her in return as she reached him, finally standing up and dusting himself off. “Doing good today?”

“Oh, yeah; today was good! I finished off the rest of my homework, and I’m free over the weekend!” She then smiled at him expectantly. “What about you? How did that presentation of yours go?”

Damn it; she just jumped straight for it without giving him any time to come up with a legitimate excuse. He exhaled sharply before rubbing the back of his neck, not meeting her gaze.

“I didn’t go,” he answered at last.

Lucy’s warm brown eyes widened. “You…didn’t go? W-wait a minute; you mean you skipped?

He stared down at his worn shoes now as he lowered his hand, still not looking up. “…Yeah.”

“But…Natsu, that presentation was worth thirty percent of your grade! Now you’re pretty much guaranteed to fail it!”

“I know.”

“Then why didn’t you—?”

I don’t know!” he finally snapped—he didn’t even need to look up to realize that she’d flinched back at his sharp retort. He sighed heavily, covering his face with his hands. “I just…I don’t know. I know it was an important assignment; I know passing this class was hinging on whether or not I aced that presentation. I know. I just…” His hands fell away from his face and he returned to staring up at the tree branches above them, the regret gnawing away at his chest. “I don’t know why I didn’t do it. I didn’t even have anything prepared, not even an ad-lib or an outline or even a fucking notecard. I honestly tried, but I couldn’t make myself care.” 

Natsu still wouldn’t look at her face, but he could hear the tender concern in Lucy’s tone as she murmured, “Natsu…”

And for some reason, that only aggravated him even more.

“I know I probably should care, but I just don’t. I don’t even get the point of this class; what does it even have to do with my major? At all? What even is the point when I’m not going to apply this in my daily life ever?” He paused and drew in a deep breath. “Fuck college. Fuck all of it and its stress-inducing and greedy money-grabbing ways. I wish I never applied. I never even wanted to.”

An uncomfortable silence hung in the air between the two as Natsu finished his rant, only being interrupted by the gentle rustling of the leaves above and the distant chatter of the campus students scattered about as they went about their business. It was a moment before either of them spoke.

“…Natsu?” Lucy said at last.

Natsu sighed, bracing himself for the incoming lecture. “Yeah; what?”

“Do you…want to grab some coffee before we go back to the dorms?”

He felt his eyebrows arch in surprise as he finally turned to look at her in full. She wasn’t going to yell at him?

“Wait…you’re not upset?”

“Well, of course I’m upset…upset that you didn’t tell me about any of this sooner.” She crossed her arms with a huff, puffing out her cheeks somewhat to make that oddly adorable indignant expression. “Aren’t we best friends? Best friends that agreed on the whole never keep secrets from each other thing? Seriously; what’s with you?”

Natsu was at a loss for words. His mouth just hung open in his astonishment. “Uh…I was…I just thought that you, um—”

Lucy stared at him for a moment before laughing and taking his hand. “C’mon, you idiot. You really need a dose of caffeine right about now.”

“Ah—hey, wait a minute—!” Natsu couldn’t get anything else out past that before Lucy began pulling him along toward the parking lot.

“We’re going to talk later—once we’re back at our dorm with our coffee!”

But I don’t even like coffee!!

anonymous asked:

Would you be down with writing something about R not really liking physical contact during normal circumstances, but something happens or they're just feeling shitty and irritated and K can't figure out what to do because normally she'd comfort people but R doesn't like to be touched, but this time R actually wants to cuddle.

Originally posted by jjlowe58

“I wish I knew how to make you feel better,” Kara murmured.  You had been tense since you had come home and if it was Alex or Winn or James or J’onn she would have been affectionate and just the right amount of clingy.  But, you were you and she knew that it wasn’t your thing and it made you uncomfortable.

“Just…uh,” you groaned and flopped down on the couch to her.  Much to Kara’s surprise, you settled in next to her with your head against her shoulder and your hand gripping her arm lightly.  “I don’t know.  Just this.”

anonymous asked:

This is prompt is almost the same as the guys are having a bad day so shy s/o wants to cheer them up & pull them to somewhere private but instead of kissing, they hug him from behind and tell them honestly "I'm sorry you had a bad day. I know I can't do much but I'm sure you'll be ok. You have overcomed so many things. This won't stop you and I'll be there for you. I believe in you."while nuzzling his back and a sweet smile on their face. How does Todoroki, Shinsou and Midoriya react?

Sure hon! These might be a little short since this is such a specific request okay?

Todoroki Shouto

  • He finds the hug comforting and warm, something that really makes him feel good inside! He loves how gentle his s/o is with their hug and their encouraging words make it all the better! He turns around and pulls his s/o into another hug, thanking them.

Shinsou Hitoshi

  • He’s surprised at the sudden contact from his shy s/o but really appreciates it! His s/o knows exactly how to make him feel better! Their sweet words really make him want to try his best for himself and for his s/o!

Midoriya Izuku

  • Kinda squeaks when his s/o hugs him from behind, he’s not used to the sudden contact from them! He eventually melts into the hug, pressing against them and holding their hands. He takes their words to heart, it being something he really needed to hear to help him feel better. 

anonymous asked:

I just finished my first manuscript and I just feel... like shit. I love the characters and the story but I feel like I'm not good enough for them and I can't get any better and ugh. Any advice?

I’m assuming you just finished the first draft of your first manuscript, yes? If that’s the case, chill out. This is only the beginning. You have undoubtedly grown significantly as a writer since you first began this project. You are about to make this story shine. Is moaning and groaning about yourself going to make it better? No. So stop beating yourself up for being human, celebrate the fact that you did something a VAST MAJORITY of people CANNOT do (how many people start a book and never finish? A LOT), and get to work sprucing your WIP up. You did not write an entire draft just to mope about it. You are better and stronger than this. 

anonymous asked:

Has the fic Steal My Heart (steal my whole life too) been deleted or did the writer change their URL? I just found the fic in a recommended post I had saved from a few months ago but when I try to go to the fic it can't be found?

it’s just a url change from one of the two authors! you must have saved it from before my url change, but we’ve updated all the links on the masterlist since then! Here you go anon!

Steal My Heart (steal my whole life too) -  Captain of the Royal Guard and Prince of Morellia, Philip Lester has never been given the chance to find love. Instead, he’s run from a system that works to end class differences and improve equality for its citizens. Happy as he is to make the world a better place, Phil can’t help feeling bitter towards his ancestors for making it impossible for him to find someone who will actually love him for more than just his title, and strives instead for a life of justice and doing good - only to meet his match in the King of Thieves, a man who will change everything he once thought he knew in life. Together, they must depart on a quest to save the kingdom, and, in the process, destroy their differences and find their own form of love.

- Eliza

bloodymare  asked:

Hey, I "found out" that I may be trans ftm, a few weeks ago, I never had a really bad dysphobic attack (I'm fourteen and my chest is really flat) but when I have my peorids or someone calls me by my name (Pietra - it's a female name in Brazilian portuguese) It's hard to breath. Sometimes when I look at my legs and I can't breath, or I just start to imagine how my life would be as a male. I've been saving money since I was 11, for what I had no idea until now.

That’s defiantly sounds like you are experiencing dysphoria. But it’s okay, once you realize what’s going on you can make steps to make yourself feel better. Remember that when people call you by your birth name that it doesn’t make you any less of a man, it’s just a name.

I would start with this link :

Tips for help with dysphoria:

Here are some coming out tips (if that’s something you want to learn more about) :


anonymous asked:

I accidentally stumbled onto an Olaker's tumblr. They were making fun of Terries (because Tony's "get a grip" was definitive anti-Terry proof.) They were talking abt how Fitz was weak/abusive to Liv (since season 1). I think bc he'd grab her and kiss her when he was saying "no" or "we can't." I don't know. It was garbage. I feel dirty. One thing I got from reading. I honestly don't think some Olakers see Olake as great together but that Jake is cuter/better than "married", weak Fitz.

Not sure why you were there, but none of their logic makes sense. Another thing I will hold against Shonda forever is that she “normalized” Jake’s behavior towards Olivia, and so many people (girls) think it is ok for dudes to behave this way towards them

anonymous asked:

Could I get Reaper and 76's reaction to some guy having the biggest crush on their s/o (having no clue that they're with someone) who ends confessing to them and kissing them completely taking their s/o off guard? Pretty please?

(You get four from this, since Gabe/Jack before the end of Overwatch would definitely be different than after. ALSO; if you want a more ficlet type of deal with these, please let me know! Sorry if it sounds silly? I kind of wrote like I was thinking as each version of the character, so it sounds kind of silly to me.)


  • Would have probably kept distance between his S/O and this person for some time since he didn’t want that prick thinking he had a chance
  • During the incident at hand, it probably would have happened when Gabe was doing something for his S/O (making dinner, helping with laundry, something mundane that caused him to have his back turned for like two seconds)
  • Guy walks up and confesses his undying love or some BS (Gabe didn’t have the patience to listen)
  • As he turns around to see this douche kissing his S/O, his fist would be applied to his cheek faster than you can blink“If you still want the ability to have children then get the fuck out of my sights.” and probably some cursing in Spanish
  • Would immediately as his S/O if they were alright and if they wanted to press harassment charges, etc. He’d be super protective after that.


  • Gabe’s always been kind of clingy to things he can call his, since a lot of what he wants or has had is or has been taken away from him
  • So he’d be ESPECIALLY protective of his S/O, since if someone can find a monster like him attractive, then they must have a heart of gold and is too pure for this world
  • This would probably never end up happening in front of him, since anyone who looks at his S/O twice is usually threatened with a bullet up the ass
  • He would end up finding out later on through his S/O that this happened (congratulating them on giving the dude a broken nose)
  • He would then go find this person to kill them–or tell someone else to kill him—and if for some reason he felt it was absolutely against him to kill this dude (S/O would be mortified/super upset or whatever) then he’d have him shipped off to another country–reminding him that if he ever came back he’d be ball-less.

Jack Morrison

  • Jack’s kind of naive, yo. He’d probably be super blind to the dude having like THE BIGGEST CRUSH ON HIS S/O.
  • S/O would have to express concern for this dude before he would ever know, besides now.The two would be enjoying something like a cheesy picnic on the lawn of the base, probably not the most romantic but whatever, when the dude was all like ‘YO ILY BBY’
  • This is where Jack’s like ‘wait what’, but before he gets a chance to respond dude’s like ‘lemme kiss you real quick’.
  • Then he’d be all “Soldier!” all sternly, this dude freaks out because that’s JACK FUCKING MORRISON commander of overwatch omg.
  • Even if this dude’s not part of Overwatch, he’d probably still react the same–especially with being threatened to be fired if he didn’t apologize and excuse himself.

Soldier 76:

  • Sad, lonely, and pretty grumpy honestly. He still ends up being a superhero in the eyes of many, despite everything.
  • He’d cherish his S/O and protect them at all costs, keeping a close eye on them whenever they’re somewhere that’s not 100% safe
  • He’d probably leave his S/O to go get some coffee or tea or something for the two of them, when the dude approaches
  • All this dude hears after kissing said S/O is — “I’ve got you in my sights.” since he lacks all shits to give

-Admin Kitty

anonymous asked:

Hook is not a piece of shit because he regrets past actions and tries to better himself, CS is healthy because Hook always praises Emma, refuses to abandon her and will do anything for her, and his redemption arc is not based around just wanting Emma since he's also shown regret and a desire to change based around things unrelated to Emma (remember Ariel and how ashamed he was of how he handled that?) That, in a nutshell, is why. If you can't see it, then that's on you, not the writers/actors.

I’m just going to assume that this message is about this post. If not, feel free to correct me.

“Hook is not a piece of shit…”

Sorry, I needed a moment to laugh. Let’s continue.

“He regrets his past actions and tries to better himself…”

  1. Has he shown any remorse for making Bae grow up thinking his mother was dead? No, didn’t think so.
  2. Has he show any remorse for helping a woman abandon her son, after he himself claims to have been abandoned? Didn’t think so. 
  3. Has he shown any remorse for selling out Bae to Pan? Didn’t think so. In fact, he continues to act like he and Bae had a good relationship. What a prick.
  4. Has he shown any remorse for helping Cora? None whatsoever.
  5. Has he shown any remorse for leaving Regina to be tortured? None. And it doesn’t matter what Regina has done because she had done nothing to him directly and therefore he had no reason or right to leave her there. Does he have any morals? Like at all? Jesus.
  6. Has he shown any remorse for standing aside and letting Cora rip the hearts out of the villagers he had lived among for months? No, instead he hid under their corpses. Those people trusted him; he was the town blacksmith. But he stood aside and did nothing to stop Cora.
  7. Has he shown any remorse for leaving Emma, Snow, Mulan, and Aurora in Rumplestiltskin’s cell to die? No, it’s like the fandom and the characters have brushed that under the rug.
  8. Has he shown any remorse for trying to send Henry to New York without his mothers’ permission, even though he knew New York was dangerous and that Zelena could get there? No. He tried to act like he was being a hero. By sending a child off alone into a dangerous area. Yes, much hero, very regret, wow.
  9. Has he shown any remorse for harming Archie? Didn’t think so.
  10. Has he shown any remorse for any of the three times he tried to kill Belle? No, his apology was a joke.

The only person he has shown remorse toward is Ariel. That’s the only thing he has owned up to.

“CS is healthy because Hook always praises Emma…” So you consider it healthy for him to praise her with lies?

“Emma, you defeated Pan.” That’s a lie. Rumple killed Pan.

“Emma, you defeated Zelena.” That’s a lie. Regina defeated Zelena.

“I was there when Cora tried to rip out your heart.” Were you, Hook? Were you really?

You were unconscious, you lying piece of shit.

He “refuses to abandon her”?

Then tell me what happened here, when Hook ABANDONS Emma in the Dark One’s cell. After she begs him not to.

I couldn’t find a gif of him calling her “dried up and useless” so here’s a picture of him ABANDONING her. 

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He “will do anything for her, and his redemption arc is not based around just wanting Emma…”

Oh, so you mean when he helped Charming and his redemption arc “started.” Oh wait. He did that to get Emma. And he doesn’t even deny it. 

So, is it still on me, Anon? Or is it on the writers? Is on it me that none of this has been addressed? Or is it on the writers for being lazy and whitewashing Hook rather than redeeming him? Unless you have more of a compelling argument, please stay away from my inbox. 

charmedrumbelle, it seems that someone has tried to explain why Hook is not a piece of shit. But it wasn’t compelling, so they don’t get the money…

It’s really sad whenever someone says they don’t know how to deal with you, because then you just feel like everything about you is wrong. Maybe you try your hardest and you think you’re better but still no one knows how to deal with you.

Watch on

Rip Jongdae stans

anonymous asked:

Can you make a list of what each planet and house represents real quick if it's not too much trouble? I feel like I can't trust other astrology blogs to give me accurate information. Thanks for your time.

There’s not really a quick way to do this, and certainly books have been written on both subject. I’ll give a keyword reference, but considering the limitations of such a reference, I doubt it will serve much better than anything else you’ve found. I’m also not going to get into the outer planets, since there is generally ambiguity around their meaning, and they tend to be less significant in their personal influence.


Sun - Conscious identity, the self, what we see our purpose as, and what we feel truly matters. In some way what we must overcome within ourselves and what we want/expect/hope for from life.

Moon - Subconscious identify, the person we are in our dreams, or when we recall events, the things we do without thinking about it like tying our shoes, what feel like home to us, how we respond emotionally, what makes us laugh, cry, get butterflies

Mercury - How we think, solve problems, use language, figure things out– more than anything how we divide things into categories

Venus - The way we express love and experience beauty. For many women it is how they express their idea of femininity, and for many men it is how they relate wealth and prosperity (as society has shifted, this has become more true for women as well). For people who identify primarily as masculine, their Venus placement tends to be an indication of the feminine qualities they look for in a romantic partner. Venus also indicates what types of conditions make us feel at peace or in harmony with those around us, and what we consider valuable and beautiful

Mars - How we feel power, fight, fuck, get things done. For people who identify primarily as feminine, Mars tends to indicate the masculine qualities they look for in a partner

Jupiter - The planet of faith and luck. What makes us feel like it’s all going to work out in the end

Saturn - The planet of doubt and worry. What makes us feel dread


  1. Identity
  2. Possessions
  3. Education
  4. Home
  5. Love 
  6. Service
  7. Marriage
  8. Secrets
  9. Philosophy
  10. Career
  11. Friendship
  12. Spirituality
  • Me, an asexual: I can't believe I finally found a label I fit under! I knew I couldn't be straight by default, it never felt right since I wasn't attracted to anyone! I feel so much better knowing that other people experience the same thing I do! I'm so happy that it's okay to not want sex! It feels good to know that It's okay to not be attracted to people! I feel good!
  • Half of Tumblr: you are making this whole thing up you scumbag you just want to be oppressed
  • Me: Oh...
140317 Healing Camp - Taeyeon's Confession
  • Kim Jaedong: Because Taeyeon entered the industry in her 20s, we heard that she felt puberty hit her later.
  • Taeyeon: I made my debut at the age of 19 and with back to back promotions, I spent my days not knowing how the day went by and what do you know, a year, two years would pass by just like that. At times, I forget how old I am. I felt as if I stopped at 21.
  • Lee Kyungkyu: Your age?
  • Taeyeon: Yes. So when people ask me how old I will be this year, it's to the point where I have to think about it because I can't remember.
  • Tiffany: (Whispers) 26.
  • Taeyeon: Yes, I'm 26.
  • Sung Yuri: You still seem like such a baby.
  • Taeyeon: And then we had a year-long hiatus. During that hiatus, I had a lot of time to think to myself that the emptiness gave me. My personality type is the one to keep picking at my scars and I make myself tired from all the stress I cause.
  • Lee Kyungkyu: We heard you drink a lot also.
  • Taeyeon: Y-yes...I don't go out to drink but to help myself sleep better since I can't sleep from all the thoughts running through my mind. I don't drink heavily either, since I'm good with just a glass of beer. When I talk about these hardships with other colleagues, they'll eventually say, "Well, you're SNSD." Even when I speak to my seniors, they tell us that this is the best part of our careers which leaves me feeling as if I can't really tell someone how I feel comfortably.
  • Lee Kyungkyu: (To Hyoyeon) Why are you crying?
  • Hyoyeon: It's because I never knew that a member was having thoughts like that. She (Taeyeon) seems as if she'd tell bit by bit to other members but I wish for her to either open up a little more or tell us more, and increase her time enjoying it with the other members which I think can be a solution to her keeping everything to herself.
  • Taeyeon: That's really the problem with me, that if no one asks me, then I don't tell. But the thing I'm so fortunate for is to be promoting in a group. I don't really have friends or close colleagues (so SNSD is all I have).

anonymous asked:

Can I have a Draco one shot where it's summer and I've broken my ankle at ballet practice, so Draco comes to visit me and make me feel better since now I can't dance the lead role anymore? Thanks!

Prima Ballerina

hope this is alright <3

‘Comment allez-vous, ma chérie?’ purred Draco as he strode into you room, carrying the most exquisite bouquet of pink roses.

‘Better now that you’re here,’ you beamed, gesturing for him to come closer.

These are for you, Prima Ballerina,’ he announced, bowing dramatically to hand them to you.

‘They’re absolutely beautiful, Draco.’ You mused. ‘You’re too good to me.’

‘Nonsense, you deserve only the best. Besides, surely a girl as angelic as you merits a rose just as sweet.’ He continued, placing a sensuous, lingering kiss on your cheek.

You blushed feverishly, smiling down at the flowers in your lap. Draco took a seat at the end of your bed (in which you had been instructed to stay in by your doctor).

Draco wasn’t exactly your boyfriend, but you were an item. The two of you had been flirting since third year but it was only in the months leading up to summer that he finally  plucked up the courage to ask you on a date; and ever since then you had been infatuated with each other.

‘I’m so sorry I didn’t come sooner, love. I was in Crete when I got your letter so naturally it took a little longer to get here,’ he apologised.

‘Oh don’t be silly Draco. It’s not like I’m going anywhere,’ you joked, pulling back the covers to reveal your cast.

‘So what’s the damage?’ He asked, examining your foot.

‘Bimalleolar ankle fracture,’ you said. ‘Let’s just say I won’t be dancing for a long time.’

‘You could try Skele-Gro,’ Draco chimed in.

‘How do you think the muggles would react if my severely broken ankle magically healed overnight? I’m just going to have to wait this one out.’

Draco inched closer and wrapped his arms around you. You nuzzled into his chest and he stroked your hair.

‘There’ll be other chances,’ he cooed. But there was no use trying to console you. The damage had been done.

Warm sunlight streamed in, caressing you both as it were if hands of the sun. You ran your fingers through his white-blonde hair and traced a finger along his sharp jawline, admiring his handsome good looks.

‘You’re very pretty, Draco,’ you blurted.

‘Pretty! I think the word you are looking for is refined, dear, or perhaps even dashing,’ he boasted.

‘Dont go getting a big head, Draco. I said you were pretty, not a Grecian God,’ you teased back.

'And don’t think just because you’ve broken your ankle I’ll let you get away with comments like that, you nutter,’ he said as he began to tickle you.

You laughed hysterically, thrashing your arms about in attempt to get free.

’D-Draco s-stop it,’ you giggled and he finally yielded.

You both lay back on the bed, watching Draco’s chest rise and fall as he caught his breath. It was amazing how even the simplest things he did (like breathing) seemed so fascinating for you to watch. When you first started seeing Draco, every moment together felt as if you were buzzing with electricity. But now that you had become more comfortable with one another you found being with him calming and tranquil. He made you feel safe; like there was no other place you’d rather be an that moment than in his arms.

’(Y/N) there’s been something I’ve been meaning to ask you,’ Draco finally said after what seemed like hours.

'Yes?’ You replied, suddenly feeling anxious.

'Well it’s no secret that we like each other and… We’ve gotten rather close over these past few weeks and well… What I’m trying to say is I think we should make things official,’

'Official? You retorted, propping yourself up on one elbow. You tried to hide the smile spreading across your face.

'Only if you want to, I mean you don’t ha—,’

'Of course, Draco! Of course I want to be with you,’ you flung your arms around him and pecked him all over his face.

'I was hoping you’d say that, otherwise I don’t know what I would have done with this,’ he said, retrieving a long, velvet box from his coat pocket. He slowly opened it to reveal a Swarovski crystal pendant in the shape of two ballet slippers.

You gasped, reaching out gingerly to examine the necklace.

'Draco you shouldn’t have!’ You exclaimed, hugging him again.

'Oh but I had to, you see it just crushed me to know you wouldn’t be able to wear your regular pointe shoes, but I think these will do just as fine,’ he assured, fastening the clasp. You felt his strong hands run along the smooth line of your shoulders, before pressing his lips to your neck. Shivers ran up your spine, making your whole body tingle. You welcomed the second kiss, more relaxed now and arched your neck invitingly. The third kiss was reserved for your lips as Draco tilted your head to face him.

'Am I dreaming?’ You asked dazed, staring into your boyfriend’s eyes.

'If this is a dream then I don’t ever want to wake up,’ he answered, closing the gap between you with one last burning kiss.