The best way to stay warm on these chilly mornings is from the inside out✨🌻 I made myself this delicious bowl of Spiced Apple-Pie oats, topped with more apple slices + @tableofplenty Natural Pink Lady Apple & Almond Muesli (the best oat topping yet👌🏼👌🏼). Makes for a very happy tummy🤗
RECIPE: simply cook your oats as usual, adding 1 grated apple and as much cinnamon, ground ginger, ground cloves + vanilla essence as you like to suit your taste. Add the toppings and enjoy!💛

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The Elite Bourbon From the 'Kingsman' Sequel Is Coming to Life
Statesman bourbon delivers a kick.

The Kingsman film franchise is a gift that keeps on giving.

We’re not just talking about delivering on laughs and epic explosions, but products, too. In addition to the clothing line in collaboration with Mr. Porter and costume designer Arianne Phillips,The Kingsman: Secret Service, out Sept. 22, is also bringing with it a new, premium liquor.

After director Mathew Vaughn settled on the idea of having a bourbon business as the front for the sequel’s new stateside Statesman spies (led by Agent Champagne, played by Jeff Bridges), it didn’t take long for him to get in touch with the folks at Old Forester, a Kentucky-based brand which has been churning out “America’s first bottled bourbon” since the 1870s.

“[Vaugn] was very purposeful in creating the equivalent of the British tailor shop as an homage to tradition for the second world, the Statesman world,” said Campbell Brown, president of Brown-Forman, which produces Old Forester. “He wanted a similar American type of backdrop for these spies to operate under and he landed on distilleries and bourbon.” He went on to describe a serendipitous conversation between his brother and Vaugn that took place across the pond, where he informed Vaugn of the rich family business which has been going strong for five generations.

“That’s exactly the kind of thing he was looking for,” said Brown.

From there, the Old Forester team assisted the Kingsman crew in re-creating an authentic set with all the proper vintage elements. “We provided his production team with some of the story elements, we showed them our Pre-Prohibition bottles, aging warehouses and barrels. Initially it was only a technical assistance,” noted Brown. “But then we got excited about the whole idea. Part of this film shows the Statesman brand, so we decided to create the actual Statesman Bourbon.”

When asked if the whiskey bourbon was simply a current recipe repackaged with a fancy “Statesman” label, as some companies in the movie-marketing sphere are wont to do, Brown guffawed at the idea.

“Of course we wouldn’t do that,” he said, before launching into a detailed description of the brewing process for the Statesman batch, which is smaller in volume, “with fewer barrels, which we selected from the warmest warehouses, and the locations from within the warehouses that get the most heat.” He said of the brew, “It’s got quite a bit of character.”

And unlike the traditional Old Forester, which is 86 proof, the Statesman batch is 95 proof. “We wanted something really rich, like the characters,” he said. “Statesman has a depth that you wouldn’t get on the 86 proof. It has a more robust flavor and feel to it.”

The Statesman bourbon ($55) will be available in limited quantities ahead of this weekend’s Kentucky Derby, and will be released wide to coincide with the film’s September release.

anonymous asked:

Any tips on how to start my very first grimoire? Im not great at organization rn, so any suggestion helps.

Yes I do have some tips :)

1. You do not have to keep a traditional pen-and-paper grimoire. A digital or printed grimoire is just as valid.

2. Avoid piling up huge amounts of information that you plan to transcribe to your grimoire later. You’ll never get around to it.

3. Don’t write down information you already know. People are stuck on making a grimoire that holds every ounce of knowledge they have in their brains and I’m like… why? Why do I need to write down color correspondences I know when I already know them and will never look at this page for reference? Why waste the energy? Grimoires, IMO, should be for information you haven’t memorized. Such as elaborate rituals, charms, and recipes you simply aren’t likely to remember.

4. Only write down spells, rituals, and charms that you have already tried and have proof they actually work. If you are going through the trouble of typing or writing out an entire grimoire, don’t go to the trouble of transcribing cool spells and rituals until you’ve already done them and have proof they work. So you’ve found 5 cool spells online that you want to try. IMO, a grimoire is not a Pinterest board of things you want to try out - it’s a working textbook of things you know will work for you. So only include things you know work :) This will naturally save you time as well! Also, why not a spiral-bound textbook to keep track of spells and things you are trying out before they go in to the grimoire? 

5. If you are hand-writing a grimoire, look up systems such as Bullet Journal or similar hand-written notebook systems to keep things organized. Just reviewing a system of organization should give you good ideas and tips on how to keep a handwritten journal organized :)

6. Don’t worry about sections. Occasionally I will leave a few pages blank after an entry when I know there will be more. Otherwise charms are scattered all over, rituals are scattered all over. My Book is basically written in chronological order of what I have learned. 

7. Use decorations to hide bad formatting. When a big space is left over due to skipping too much space, use pretty drawings and things to cover it up ^_^ This is more fun and easy for me personally than trying to decorate every page super fancy.

8. Don’t worry about being too fancy with it. The only thing I do for my grimoire that could be considered fancy is using the same type of pen and writing very neatly every time. Then, I fancy it up by using contextual drawings to cover up bad formatting ^-^ 

9. If you are going for a bound notebook without removable or transferable pages, I like to get a grid notebook such as those made by Moleskin. The grid helps me keep things extra organized on the page.

10. Obvious tip, but ensure you test your pens before you start on a new fancy notebook - nothing worse than starting the title page and realizing your new pens bleed right through the paper :(

11. If you do want a much more organized grimoire, go for a binder! If you want something cuter you can easily find or order half-sized or smaller binders and you can buy or trim paper to fit. This way you can easily reorganize all information and add decorative pages anywhere you like without having to plan ahead :)

Rosemary & Lavender : Smokeless Cleansing

For those of you who can’t or prefer not to cleans an area with smoke, this is perfect for dorms, and for those practicing behind closed doors.


  • Air tight bottle ( anything with a lid ) 
  • Couple sprigs of Rosemary & Lavender, fresh preferred.
  • Vodka ( if you can access this water will do )
  • ( optional ) spray bottle ( can be found in dollar stores )


  1. Take the sprigs of lavender and rosemary, ( not to much you have to fit them in your bottle/container ) and tie them together, at the stem. 
  2. fill your bottle half way with vodka, and the rest with water, and stick your herbs heads down.
  3. Let sit for at least a week, shaking lightly.
  4. (optional) if you purchased a spray bottle, after a week transfer your liquid to that, you can place the herbs into the bottle as long as there isn’t any free floating debris. 

For use

When it comes time to use it, simply pull the herbs from the bottle / container, using them to flick the mixture around the space. : Long swiping motions for large areas, and short flicks for small spaces. If your mixture is in a spray bottle simply spray it in the area needed. 

For storing

For storing keep enclosed, and watch to see if the herbs need to be replaced or simply taken out.

DIY Herbal Remedies

Can’t wait to try some of these!!


One of the best methods for extracting the more tenacious plant material, such as roots, bark and woody stems is by making a decoction. To make a decoction add one ounce of root/bark to one pint of cold spring water. Bring this mixture to a boil… then simmer for 15 – 30 minutes, depending on strength of decoction desired. Always keep the pot tightly covered. Store any unused portion in refrigerator. Use only glass, ceramic or enameled vessels for your herbal preparations.

To make an infusion pour boiling water over the herbs and allow the herbs to steep 15 to 30 minutes, depending on the strength needed. Remember to keep the container tightly covered during the infusion process.

Solar Infusion
I place my herbal mixture in a large glass jar with a lid. I add cool spring water over this and place in direct
sunlight for several hours. When the infusion has reached desired strength, strain the herbal material from the liquid and store the infusion in the refrigerator.

Lunar Infusion
Follow the above directions, only place your jar of water and herbs under the full moon’s rays overnight. Fresh flowers are quite lovely in lunar infusions. Do not use poisonous flowers! Avoid sprayed flowers. There are a lot of good reference books on edible flowers. Check them out before experimenting. Safe, edible flowers; Calendula petals, Chrysanthemum petals, Dandelion petals, Fuchsia, Hollyhock, Honeysuckle, Johnny-jump-up, Nasturtium, Pansy, Rose petals, Snapdragon and Violets. These are a few of the edible flowers that I use in infusions, salads and other herbal formulations.

Herbal Tinctures
I personally use the old folk method. To make a tincture, fill a clean dry jar one-half way with your herbal mixture, cover completely with vodka, brandy or grain alcohol, adding a couple more inches to allow for expansion as the dry herbs absorb the liquid. Steep in a warm place for three to eight weeks. Shake daily, strain when done and store in a dark colored bottle, label with content and date of preparation. I suggest keeping accurate files on all preparations, there is nothing worse than not being able to recreate a prize tincture. Over the some odd forty years of making tinctures, I have lost a few great recipes, simply because I was in a hurry and didn’t bother to write them down.

Medicinal syrups have been traditionally used for treating coughs, sore throats and digestive problems. Syrups are easy and fun to make. Because of the high sugar content in most syrups they will last for several weeks, if refrigerated. I’ve had a few of my syrups last for months and some of  my students have reported the same results.

To make an herbal syrup, add about two ounces of herb to one quart of water. Bring to a gentle boil, then simmer until liquid is reduced to one pint. Strain, and while the liquid is still warm, add ½ -1 cup of honey (or brown / white sugar or maple syrup.) You may also add six to eight tablespoons of plain or fruit brandy to the your pint of syrup. Brandy relaxes the throat muscles and helps to calm coughing spasms. Bottle for use and store in refrigerator.

Liniments are used for soothing strained muscles and ligaments. Liniments are for external use, and should be labeled accordingly. One of the most popular liniment recipes comes from the famous herbalist, Jethro Kloss. I use this for rubbing on tired, strained muscles after a busy day in the garden. I’ve also noticed that it keeps fleas and bugs off my legs. Combine one ounce of each of the following; golden seal powder, myrrh powder and echinacea, plus ¼ ounce cayenne powder. Place these dried herbs in a bottle and add one pint of rubbing alcohol. Shake this bottle daily for three to ten days.  Strain and store in a bottle.

Salves / Ointments
A salve/ointment, is a preparation that when applied to the skin will remain in place because of its thick
consistency. A salve can be made by first heating one cup of infused oil and  about one-fourth cup of grated beeswax. Stirring gently with a wooden spoon until all of the beeswax is completely melted. Remove from heat and let this mixture cool until you see a ridge forming around the edge of  your ceramic pot. Add a couple drops of essential oils of your choice, blending well. Immediately pour this mixture into small containers and store in a cool dark place. If you store your salves/ointments properly they will last a very long time. I have a tea tree mixture in my herbal closet that is over two years old.  When they lose their color and smell rancid discard them.

A compress is applied directly to the skin to enhance the healing process. To make a compress, use a clean soft cloth made of cotton, linen or gauze. Soak this cloth in a hot infusion or decoction. Place this as hot as is comfortable, without burning upon the affected area. Change the compress as soon as it cools. For a cold compress use  a cold water infusion or cold water with a couple of drops of a soothing essential oil swished around in the water. My favorite essential oils to use are lavender, Clary sage, Chamomile and Jasmine. Remember only one to two drops of essential oil to one cup of water. Make sure you mix the oil and water well. When I’ve had a hectic day I pour some spring water into a lovely hand painted cup, add a couple of drops of  Clary Sage then dip my favorite fine linen handkerchief into the mixture. I wring out the excess water and place this over my forehead. It’s wonderful. I also keep a couple bottles of rose and orange water in my refrigerator, and I sometimes use the waters instead of infusions or decoctions. You can usually find these waters at well stocked Asian stores.

Tisanes / Teas
Place the herbs in a container with a tight fitting lid and pour boiling water over them. Replace the lid on the
container. Allow the tea to steep for five to twenty minutes. Steeping time will depend on herbs/flowers used. Sun tea can be made by placing your herbs in a sun tea jar and pouring cold spring water over the herbs. Place this jar in direct sunlight and let it infuse for several hours. To prepare lunar tea,  place the herbs in an open glass bowl. Cover the herbs with fresh water and place directly in the moonlight. I sometimes cover the bowl with a glass lid to keep the neighborhood  squirrel out. Allow your tea to infuse overnight and refrigerate first thing in the morning.

Infused Herbal Oils
Infused oils are simply wonderful, I use them in making my cosmetic creams, ointments, massage oils, salves, dream balms, shampoos, hand lotions etc. I use either dry or fresh herbs. I find the lighter oils such as almond, apricot or grapeseed oils are the best. If you choose to use fresh herbs, make sure they are completely free of moisture. To make infused oils I simply add two ounces of herbal mixture to two cups of oil in a large glass jar. Cover tightly. I place these jars in a warm sunny spot on my windowsill. Let the mixture infuse for two weeks, strain, adding a fresh batch of herbs to the oil, and infuse for an additional two weeks. At the end of the two weeks, strain the herbs into a new bottle, and store it in a cool dark area. When I’m in a hurry I use my crock-pot. Place the herbs and oil in a crock-pot turn to the lowest setting. Check for overheating and allow this mixture to infuse from two to four hours. Strain the mixture and pour into clean dry bottles. Store your infused oils in a cool, dark place. The left over oil can be pressed from the herbal residue and stored in a separate container, this oil is usable, but of a poorer quality. My favorite infused oil is made by using equal parts of Calendula flowers, Roses, Lavender, Chamomile flowers and Comfrey. Comfrey used as a cosmetic herb,  is reported to regenerate aging skin. To the finished infused oil, I also add a few drops of Blue Chamomile essential oil.


BLACK SAPOTE • have a think about how you can use this beauty next week chef? Commonly known as chocolate pudding fruit. This amazing fruit is best eaten fresh or used as a chocolate substitute in recipes. Simply mix the pulp with yogurt and lemon juice for a refreshing treat.

Crime, Law and Emotional Evasion


Parts: 1/?  

Pairing: Jamilton

Summary: Hamilton had always been ahead of everyone; being a world-class criminal, it was simply an expectation. However, after becoming a prime suspect of a crime he didn’t commit, the world seems to be speeding above and beyond his control. Crime continues to dominate his life in ways he would never have suspected, and soon enough, convincing Officer Jefferson of his innocence comes to be the least of his worries.

Warnings: Cussing

Word Count: 2220

Dedication: To @xaandiir  for not only being my beta, but also my personal cheer squad. Thanks for everything you’ve done and will continue to do, my prince ;)

Tags: @thehazardsoflove13

A/N: I can’t believing I’m actually doing this.

Who was the person that came up with this sticky note idea? They needed a raise. It was ingenious! Putting sticky notes all over his cop’s car- each one inscribed with a semi-dud code. Hamilton honestly wished he had come up with the idea himself. And sure, he would be taking most of the credit for it. He even made sure to smile and wave at the security camera across the street. Nothing topped off vandalism like the ‘fuck you’ face of an identifiable world class criminal. It was just such a time-wasting goose chase and he couldn’t wait to see the horror of the car’s owner when Hercules finally tapped into the camera.

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Hey everyone!

I’m so excited to be hosting “Answer Time” on Tumblr tomorrow - March 30th at 6:30pm (EST) or 6:30 am (WST).

I’ll be here to personally answer your questions!

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My favourite ab exercise? Advice on motivation? My favourite recipes maybe?

Simply send me your question via my “Ask Me” box here: during the above times.

Talk soon!

Kayla xx

good morning

hows about some nice soda bloated sans

him just collapsing on the couch in a lazy stupor and just demolishing a couple two liters of some shitty knockoff soda

his belly starts out soft and unassuming under his shirt but eventually blimps up and takes up half his lap, bubbling and gurgling and overall very unhappy with the liquid being pumped inside it by the gluttonous monster

only after the third two liter does sana realize he has made a mistake, as papyrus calls him from the kitchen and he has to stand; his belly seems to refuse to sag even an inch as he wobbles back and forth to try and assume some semblance of balance

his belly is sloshing and gurgling and as he tries to walk he has to suppress a burp and place both of his hands, fingers splayed, on the taut skin of his overtaxed belly, rubbing the skin and feeling gas bubble up, resulting in another burp.

he feels huge and heavy and bloated as he tries to waddle towards the kitchen, an overfilled water balloon just inches away from popping

he looks awfully similar to a pregnant woman like this, leaning back to accommodate for his huge gut and rubbing it, trying to soothe the skin

needless to say, papyrus is displeased that sans refuses dinner and ends up force feeding him his new chicken alfredo recipe by simply just settling himself on his lap because sans is too heavy and bloated and powerless under even his brothers slight weight, simply just taking it and feeling his stomach blimp out even more with every bite

when papyrus is finally finished with him, he merely teleports to his room, feeling his mattress dip under his tremendous weight

the next day his figure is definitely a little different, stomach heavy and gravid amd soft and his thighs expanded, testing the seams of his shorts

man sans is such a gluttin reblog if u agree



In my mind, every bangin pot of beans starts with a good sofrito. Nothing smells quite like it when it’s sizzling around in some oil, ready to pack some real flavor into whatever it’s combined with. It’s not just beans that sofrito goes in; meat, fish, veggies and rice also get taken up a level when sofrito goes in the pot.

Sofrito is a cooking base that is *essential* to Puerto Rican cuisine; every solid Puerto Rican home cook and chef either has it on hand in their fridge (or OG style…frozen in ice cube trays).

The beauty of sofrito is that you can make a big batch that will last you for tons of meals. You also can’t beat that all it takes to throw your sofrito together is a quick rough chop and blend on the ingredients. Bottom line… it’s definitely worth it if you’re going for that true Puerto Rican flavor. But before you get started on your sofrito, peep the notes below:

1) Freezing your sofrito in ice cube trays makes it easy to pop out a cube or two when you are getting your meal started.

2) Depending on where you live, culantro, cubanelle peppers and aji dulce may be hard to find. Unfortunately, there’s no real way to replace them. If you can’t find these, you can still blend the rest of the ingredients for a nice cooking base…won’t be a true sofrito, though.

3) Sofrito is NOT a sauce on its own; the flavors are super concentrated and must be cooked into a meal.

4) Olive oil in the recipe is simply to give your sofrito a smoother texture when blending.

5) It is *not* recommended that you season your sofrito. No salt necessary, as you should adjust the seasoning of your final dish that the sofrito goes in.

6) Never, EVER use tomato.

That’s it! Wepaaaaaaaaa  :)

18-25 cloves garlic, peeled (I tend to go overboard with the garlic because too much of it is never enough in my book)

2 Spanish onions, cut into large chunks

4-6 cubanelle peppers, stemmed, seeded, and cut into chunks

1 large bunch cilantro, washed and roughly chopped

8-15 ají dulce peppers, stemmed, seeded, and cut into chunks

4-6 leaves of culantro

1- 2 green bell peppers, cored, seeded, and roughly chopped

1-2 tablespoons of good olive oil

1) put onions and cubanelle peppers in workbowl of a food processor fitted with a steel blade. Pulse until coarsely chopped.

2) keep the motor running and add the remaining ingredients one at a time and process until smooth. Transfer to ice cube trays and freeze or store in your refrigerator for immediate use.

kiddyshizukajoestar  asked:

You must use some major product for that hair. Is it worth it?

 “Oh, I simply use an old ‘recipe’ a good friend of mine showed me years back. Take a bit of normal shampoo, I use the cheap stuff, and you just add in a small bit of scrambled egg yolk to the small portion of the shampoo that I’m going to use. It works pretty well, for what I use it, despite how odd it may seem.”

Recipe of the Day: Ina’s Irish Soda Bread        
No kneading, rising or waiting is involved in Ina’s fuss-free recipe. Simply throw the ingredients in the mixer and you’re ready to bake a St. Paddy’s Day classic.

anonymous asked:

Kady I really struggle with staying vegan. I think part of this is that I have a major sweet tooth and there's very few affordable vegan sweet foods in my country. All the cheap vegan meal ideas I see are super savoury. Do you have any advice with this? Or any good simply recipes you make that don't involve loads of expensive ingredients/a high speed blended. I know you've been vegan a long time so I'm sure you must have some good ideas xxx

You could try making sugar cookies, chocolate cookies or even oat cookies?
It’s pretty easy to find recipes, you won’t need much for some basic cookies :)  

anonymous asked:

Can you write a short story of kara and Lena cooking together??

Lena: “Are you sure it says for 15 minutes? ‘Cause I think it’s basically ready now.”
Kara: “The recipe says 15 minutes, so it’s gonna be 15 minutes. Trust the system, Ms. Luthor!”
Lena: “Mhm… But shouldn’t we taste it and figure it out by ourselves? What If we burn the whole thing?”
Kara: “Mmmpfffft, what?? No way it’s gonna happen!”
Lena: “Oh yeah? And why not?”
Kara: “’Cause we’re following the recipe!”
Lena: “We also have five senses: there might be a reason for that, Kara.”
Kara: “Then use your sight and tell me what’s written here.”
Lena: “Oh my God, I get it that it says 15, but it smells good like something that is ready to be eaten!”
Kara: “Please, Lena: I’m the food expert, I am the one who knows when something is ready to be eaten.”
Lena: “…”
Kara: “…”
Kara: “I see you, don’t you dare to make a joke out of that.”
Lena: “What a waste, though.”
Kara: “Lena!”
Lena: “Alright! Tell me then, if you’re such an expert why don’t you know how to cook?”
Kara: “I… I could cook! Actually, I do know how, it’s just that… t-that I don’t have time for cooking, that’s all! I can cook! Everybody can, you just have to-”
Lena: “’Follow the recipe’, yeah, I got that part. I still think that there are some variables that the recipe simply can’t include.”
Kara: “Such as?”
Lena: “Such as the type of oven you use, which cookers, pans and so on.”
Kara: “What’s wrong with my kitchen??”
Lena: “Nothing is wrong with your kitchen, I’m just saying that the recipe can’t consider all these factors, it’s generic, so we can’t blame it for any human mistake.”
Kara: “No human mistake is gonna happen!”
Lena: “Oh, I’m sure of that, honey, trust me.”
Kara: “Besides, whoever wrote this clearly knew their stuff! Have some faith!”
Lena: “It’s not a matter of faith, it’s a matter of logic!”
Kara: “I’m illogical now??”
Lena: “Oh for fu-… Fine! We wait 15 damn minutes, okay? But if this thing is gonna have some burnt taste, you’ll be the one who’s gonna eat it while I’ll order something edible for me.”
Kara: “Pfft, deal! It’s gonna be delicious and you’ll learn to never doubt a Danvers! You’ll see!”
                                              Half an hour later…

: “I think the smoke is almost all gone. How is it?”
Kara: “… Not… too bad.”
Lena: “You sure you don’t want some of mine? I’ve ordered a lot.”
Kara: “I.. like this…”
Lena: “How unfortunate, ‘cause this is exquisite.”
Kara: “…”
Kara: “Maybe just a little… The part you won’t eat, in case you won’t eat some.”
Lena: “Oh, I’m pretty sure I’m not gonna need all of this.”
Kara: “You sure?”
Lena: “I’m a damsel in distress, be my hero!”
Kara: “Well, if you put it in that way!”
Kara: “… Mhmmm, yummy in my tummy!”
Lena: “Great, while you enjoy those, I’m gonna throw whatever-we-made in a place where no body can get poisoned.”
Kara: “It wasn’t so bad!”
Lena: “…”
Lena: “Kara.”
Kara: “… Okay, it’s terrible.”
Lena: “Thank you. Honesty is the best policy.”
Kara: “Luthor’s motto since… Mhm, let me think… HAHA, NO, I HAVEN’T SAID THAT, I HAVEN’T SAID THAT!! OHH, NONONO DON’T TAKE MY FOOD AWAAAY!”

anonymous asked:

Parent head cannons for Megumi, Erina, Souma and Takumi

Megumi Tadokoro: 

  • Megumi is a mother that wants her family to eat together, putting hardwork and love into each of her meals and making sure it warms up her family from the inside as they all eat together.
  • She takes requests from her children and spouse, wanting to make them foods that they live; if she didn’t know how to make a particular meal, she would simply find a recipe and put her own spin on it to test it out.

Nakiri Erina:

  • Erina is a strict parent and has large expectations of her child(ren), their life never being easy but they do get rewarded for their hardwork and receive praise from their hard to please mother often.
  • Erina would appear at every single competition that her children are in, taking great pride when they win, and offering advice but never losing faith in them if they lose.

Takumi Aldini: 

  • Takumi is a doting father who likes to be a part of his child’s life, his Italian side shining through with how highly he regards spending time together; he grows more agitated as they go through their rebellious stages, but refuses to give up on them. 
  • Wants to have a large family, so that he’ll never have a dull moment; he had always had fun juggling multiple tasks, and would find that the more children he had to love and spend time with, the happier he’d be.

Yukihira Souma:

  • Souma initiates the same type of relationship he had with his father with his own child, wanting them to follow in his footsteps; he doesn’t mind if they don’t, but it helps him get to know his child even quicker if they have the same interests.
  • Souma is an affectionate father, kissing his children goodnight every single night, holding them when they’ve had a bad dream, and reading them stories if they can’t sleep.
Begin Again

Originally posted by vinnikaite

Originally posted by sensualkisses

Based on Prompt: I have a prompt that would mean a lot to me if you wrote it at some point. One where the reader has had a past abusive/manipulative relationship and is afraid to date again. She meets Bucky, (post tws maybe?) and they start hanging out, but soon he realizes that she’s very nervous and panics at small things, like when she thinks Bucky is upset. & she breaks down to him about her abusive relationship he is very supportive and loving in return!

Potential Trigger Warning: mention of past abusive relationship, PTSD of sorts

A/N: So I hope this is okay.  I wrote it to the best of my ability, I did some research and stuff and I hope that it is decent.  I mean no disrespect or anything to people who have dealt with this, and if there is something that is offensive or wildly incorrect, please let me know so that I can change it.  I hope it’s not terrible.  Also, because it’s more delicate subject matter, I’m not gonna tag anyone, just in case.  Hope this is somewhere along the lines of what the original requester asked for!


“Do you know where the baking stuff is?”

Bucky freezes at his spot next to the counter, cereal spoon halfway up to his mouth.  He turns to look at you, eyes wide like a deer in the headlights.

The two of you have never met before, but you’re terrible with introductions.  You usually get so nervous that words start spewing out of your mouth in the wrong order and it’s awkward and embarrassing.  So much for attempting to avoid that.

“Second cabinet to the right, top shelf,” he says finally and you breathe a sigh of relief.

“Thanks,” you smile, scurrying over to the cabinet.  You open it and your heart drops.  The cabinet’s tall, ridiculously tall, and of course, everything you need is at the very, very top.  There’s no way you can reach it from the ground and as you look around, you realize there’s no nearby chairs or step-stools to use to climb up.  The only other option is to climb up into the counter, which is not the best option considering the fact that you’re wearing a skirt.  

You stand there, looking up and weighing your options when you feel something brush against you.  You jump back, force of habit, and see Bucky silently reaching up.  

“What do you need?” he asks.

“Flour, sugar, baking powder, and vanilla extract,” you recite.  He grabs the items as you list them and hands them back down to you.  Once he’s done, he returns to his cereal.

“Thanks,” you say.  “I’m (Y/N), by the way.  New S.H.I.E.L.D. liaison.” 


You nod, unable to come up with any sort of dialogue to further the conversation.  Bucky nods and shovels another spoonful of cereal into his mouth.  You grab milk and eggs from the fridge, along with a mixing bowl and whisk and spread yourself out at the opposite side of the counter.

Every few seconds, you sneak a peek at Bucky, trying to come up with something to say.  Something so that you’re not permanently just ‘that awkward human’ in his head.

“So, um…you like cereal?” you say and immediately cringe.  It sounds so awkward, so desperate.  He looks up at you, his eyes unreadable.

“It’s alright,” he mumbles.

“I was just wondering,” you say, mixing together the ingredients.  “Cuz I’m making waffles, so you know.  If you want a waffle…I can do that.  I’m making them anyway, so…”  You let yourself peter out, resigned to the fact that Bucky now probably thinks you’re a total dork.

“You want to make me a waffle?” Bucky asks.  “Do you…you don’t even know who I am.”

“I do now,” you reply.  “You’re Bucky.”

“No, that’s not…” he takes a deep breath, and when he looks up at you, you catch a flash of pain in his eyes.  “I used to be the Winter Soldier.  Hydra’s assassin.  I killed people.  Lots of people.”  You stop whisking for a second, trying to figure out how to respond.

“Well, if you could quell any particularly murderous urges,” you say, trying to keep your voice light.  “At least for the next twenty minutes…”  

You hear him laugh, a low and quiet chuckle, but it’s enough to break the tension in the room.  You continue whisking, stopping to grab the waffle maker and plug it in.  You look back up at Bucky, whose gaze has gone back to being unreadable.  

“Did you…you heard what I said?” he asks, and the apprehension in his voice breaks your heart.

“I did,” you say, pouring the mix into the waffle iron.


“I don’t think your past should define you,” you say simply.  “I don’t think it dictates your future.  And it certainly isn’t gonna change my opinion of you.”  The two of you don’t exchange any further words until ten minutes later when you slide his plate of waffles across the table.

“Thank you,” he says.

“You’re welcome,” you smile.  “Nice to meet you, Bucky.”

“Nice to meet you too.”

After that, the two of you are fast friends.  You form relationships with all the Avengers, but you and Bucky have something different.  When you’re not preparing mission briefings and Bucky’s not training or attending therapy, the two of you are out exploring New York, or trying new recipes, or simply talking on the Tower’s rooftop.  Pretty soon, Steve has to fight to get any time at all with his best friend.  


“You’ve got to try these, doll.  I didn’t know what anything was, so I just grabbed two of everything, but they’re the most amazing-”  Bucky doesn’t bother finishing, shoving another one of the tasty appetizers into his mouth before handing you the plate.  You smile and place one in your mouth, eyes widening as you realize Bucky’s right.

“Oh my god.  These are really good.”

“Right?” Bucky smiles.  “Stark sure knows how to throw a party.”  It’s then that he realizes that you aren’t alone.  Another man is standing across from you, clearly irked by Bucky’s present.  “Sorry, was I interrupting something?”

“No, it’s fine,” you say, trying to mask the relief in your voice.

“I was just leaving,” the man says.  “I’ll see you around, (Y/N).”  He walks away and you make a face at Bucky before digging into the rest of the appetizers.

“Who was that?” Bucky asks.

“Co-worker,” you say, polishing off the last of the appetizers.  “Where’s the food table?  I want more of these.”

“Doll, are you sure I wasn’t interrupting?” Bucky asks, watching the man’s retreating figure.

“Absolutely,” you say.  “He had just asked me out.”  You’re examining your empty plate, so you don’t see the flood of emotions in Bucky’s eyes––disappointment, quickly chased away by guilt––before he composes his face into a smile.

“Hey, don’t lie to me,” he says playfully.  “Next time, just do some sort of signal and I’ll give you some space.”

“No, your timing was good,” you reply.  “I had just turned him down.  So you kind of saved me.”

“What?  Why’d you turn him down?”  The corner of Bucky’s mouth twitches as his smile turns from façade to genuine.

“I’m just…not looking to date anyone right now,” you say, feeling the color rise in your cheeks.  Suddenly, your mouth feels dry and the words just aren’t coming to you.  “I don’t…I just…”

“Doll, it’s fine,” Bucky says, sensing your discomfort.  “You don’t have to explain anything to me.  The guy seemed a little uptight, if you ask me.”

“He is,” you say, glad for the change of topic.  “I think I hear some appetizers calling my name.”  

“After you.”  You smile gratefully and follow him through the crowd.  You tell Bucky almost everything, but there are still parts of yourself that you haven’t yet shared with him.  This is one of them, and you hope that you have time to figure it out for yourself before circumstance forces your hand.

As it turns out, you’re not so lucky.


The minute you walk into the room, you know it’s one of Bucky’s bad days.

You’ve talked with Steve about them at great length, but you’d yet to experience one first hand.  He didn’t have them as often as he used to, and the ones that had happened since you’d met had taken place on days you’d been sent out on missions.

Still, you spent so much time with him that you could tell that something was off today.  He seemed on edge, pacing back and forth, his eyes unfocused.

“Bucky?” you ask.  He looks up, and you see a hint of his normal self as he attempts to smile.

“H-hey doll,” he says shakily.  “I…nightmare.  Last night.”

“Why didn’t you call me?” you ask quietly.

“Didn’t want to wake you,” he says, and you immediately know it’s a lie.  When the nightmares are really bad, he calls Steve instead of you.  It’s unspoken, but you know he’s afraid that he’ll hurt you.  He knows Steve can hold him down if he has to.

“Bucky…” you say, stepping towards him, but he backs away.  He steps to the cabinet, opens it up and takes out a mug.  His hands are trembling, ever so slightly and the cup slips out of his hands, falling to the floor.  It shatters, the sound ringing out and echoing through the kitchen.  You feel every hair on your body stand up straight as your blood runs cold.

“I’ve got it,” he says quickly.  He bends down to pick up the shards, but the shaking in his hands has gotten worse and he slices his thumb open on of the sharper edges.  “Damn it!”  His voice, the anger in it, the volume, brings your memories up to the surface and you have to fight the instinct of every cell in your body.  Telling you to run.

“Bucky, I’ll get it,” you say and you’re relieved when he backs away.  You sweep up the pieces and deposit them in the trash, trying to ignore the cold sweat that feels like it’s enveloping your body.

“I’m sorry doll,” he says hoarsely, retreating to a corner of the kitchen.  You want to help him, but you’re fighting your own instincts in order to stay.  You reach into your pocket and send a quick text to Steve, knowing that you’re of little use to Bucky anymore.

“Do you want to talk about it?” you ask quietly.

“Not really,” Bucky replies.  The two of you stand there in silence, you fighting off the wave of memories that you’d had safely locked away, until the door finally opens and Steve steps through.  He looks between you and Bucky, trying to assess the situation.

“Everything okay?” he asks and you nod.

“I just…” you try to find the words, but you can’t bring yourself to use them.  “I had to go, and I didn’t want Bucky to be alone.”  You don’t give either man time to react, brushing out the door and hurrying away as fast as you can.  

You make it back to your room, locking the door behind you and pulling your covers over you.  You close your eyes and concentrate on breathing, counting the seconds as you inhale and exhale.  

Slowly, too slowly for your liking, you feel yourself calm down.  But you don’t come out from your room for several hours, staring up at the ceiling and keeping your mind as blank as possible.  You lose track of time.

The soft knock at the door focuses you.  You recognize it, you’ve committed the exact pattern that he uses to memory.  You rise and cross the room, unlocking the door before pulling it open.  

Bucky’s standing there, looking utterly embarrassed.  His eyes widen slightly when he realizes the door is open, his tongue darting out of his mouth to wet his lips.

“I…I didn’t think you would open the door,” he says.

“I’m so sorry, Bucky,” you say and he shakes his head, confused.

“What?” he asks.  “What do you have to be sorry for?  Earlier, that was all me.  I completely understand.“

“You don’t,” you say quietly.  “I haven’t told you about that yet.”

“About what, doll?” he asks gently, and your heart floods with warmth for him.  Here’s someone fighting decades of brainwashing, on his worst day, attempting to comfort you.

“Come in,” you say and he does, albeit reluctantly.  You close the door behind the two of you and take a deep breath.  “I don’t want you to think that my reaction had anything to do with your past, or that I was afraid of you.  So I’m going to tell you something about me.”

“You don’t have to,” Bucky says immediately.  “Doll, whatever you have to say-”

“My last boyfriend,” you say.  “He was…”  You look to Bucky and you see the understanding in his eyes.  “It wasn’t good.  And I stayed for a long time.  Too long.  And so that’s what that was.  Some type of…PTSD, or something.  I thought…I thought I was making progress.  So that’s why I reacted the way I did, that’s why I don’t date.”


“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you earlier,” you say, fighting to keep your voice from cracking.  “I didn’t want you to think that I was weak or stupid or-”

“Stop,” Bucky says.  “I don’t, won’t, couldn’t ever think that.”  He reaches forward, tentatively taking your hand in his.  He looks to you for permission and you nod.

“Why not?” you whisper.

“Someone,” Bucky says.  “Someone very smart, they once told me that the past shouldn’t define you.  It doesn’t dictate your future and it doesn’t change my opinion of you.  That is definitely someone you should listen to.”  

You smile, despite the tears in your eyes and you allow yourself to lean forward, wrapping your arms around Bucky.  You feel his arms wrap around you and for the first time since the morning, you feel completely calm.

“I love you, Bucky,” you say, your voice muffled by his chest.

“I love you too, (Y/N),” he murmurs back.  “No matter what.”

anonymous asked:

Could I please request a drabble about Akashi accidentally falling for a more headstrong, defiant girl? One who doesn't just follow his orders, and how he reacts to it and deals with it? Maybe how he tells her?

It wasn’t supposed to be like this. 

No, he shouldn’t have fallen for you at all. Someone like you was bound to cause trouble one way or another, what with your stubbornness and how you were never willing to back down. It was simply a recipe for disaster.

But for some reason, he liked those traits in you. Someone who could stand up for themselves and had a strong resolve. Most people assumed that he’d go for someone who would easily go along with what he said (and maybe even Akashi himself had thought that for a while), but it would be much better if it was someone who challenged him, someone who questioned his every word. 

(Akashi still wonders why he’d like someone like that.)

He wasn’t too sure when he’d first noticed you, or when he first realised that he wanted to be with you. It might’ve been during one of Rakuzan’s debating contests, which you’d won through your strong arguments and ability to criticise. It was at that point that Akashi’s heart began to beat faster, and he could already tell it wasn’t a good thing.

You were one of the few people who wasn’t intimidated by Akashi; in fact, you stood up to him with your own confidence. That was a(nother) first for Akashi. He wasn’t at all used to people telling him that he was wrong, or going against his wishes. 

(Later on, after he gets to know you better, he realises that this is what is making him a better person.)

There’s a small part in his mind that is telling him to confess, but a small speck of doubt clouds his mind. That’s another first for him - Akashi nevers doubts himself. He does everything with certainty, ensures he can fully trust in himself. 

That’s the only reason he hasn’t confessed yet, is what he tells himself. It’s not because he’s afraid of change.

Easy Chicken Marinade - For any and all chicken recipes

Summary: a simple recipe using kitchen staples for an all purpose chicken marinade. Can be used for grilled chicken, fried, baked, pan seared, bone-in or boneless, frozen or fresh.
Can also be used for steak and turkey!


My fellow no-more-ramen eater, let me share with you an all purpose marinade to make any of your chicken adventures much, much tastier. Even if all you can do is pop it in a frying pan, or in your toaster oven, this’ll make any chicken juicier and more flavorful.

Chicken tips: More often than not, frozen chicken will be cheaper than fresh, but keep an eye out for sales! I tend to only buy chicken drumsticks at 99 cents/lb, but a local store of mine goes as low as 70 cents/lb! An easy $3 can feed 2-3 people, with leftovers! If you prefer chicken breasts, they do tend to cost more, but be wary of how much you spend at a time. Chicken freezes wonderfully, so if you have freezer space, stock up!

ALWAYS make sure raw chicken is cooked completely! 165F internal temperature, at the bone, with clear juices. Cook awesome, cook safe!

The following does not have portion amounts. Season it to taste! But do not taste it once chicken is in there, please! We mix it separately for this reason =D


  • Olive oil (alternative: cheaper vegetable oils)
  • Vinegar (balsamic, white, apple cider, rice, any will do)
  • Salt (garlic salt, seasoned salt, plain table salt, etc.)
  • Pepper
  • Sugar
  • Garlic (coarse chopped fresh, minced from a jar, garlic powder)

Optional for more fun varieties:

  • Dried herbs (oregano, basil, thyme, parsley, etc.)
  • Soy sauce
  • Dried red pepper (spicy!)
  • Dark chili powder (tastes like BBQ)
  • Minced onion (fresh, onion powder, etc.)

Most kitchens have the essentials already. This recipe is, in its simplest form, a vinaigrette. You can dress your salads with this recipe, too!

Simply whisk it all together in a separate bowl. Do taste as you go, and flavor it as needed.

Once combined, take raw chicken and add to a ziploc bag. Pour contents of the bowl into the bag, mix together, and ziploc it tight with as much air out as you can. Store in the fridge for 4 hours to overnight, and cook as you normally would whenever you’re ready.

Chicken tip: If you have boneless chicken breasts or thighs, cut ½ inch spaced cuts into them. Don’t cut all the way through, but it helps the marinade get inside the chicken.

If you’re more hands-on, feel free to mix the chicken with the sauce by hand, making sure to get some underneath the skin.

Enjoy your flavorful, juicy chicken, my friends! Don’t be afraid to message me (Shaniae) if you need any help or have any questions =D

Fruit Salad with Mint and Basil “Pesto”

Jazz up a regular fruit salad by adding this deliciously refreshing mint and basil pesto. Not much of a recipe required, simply blend up the following ingredients to taste…. A handful of fresh mint
A smaller handful of fresh basil
Squeeze of lime juice
Sweetener of choice (either maple syrup, stevia, raw honey or zylitol)
A few spoons of warm water
Top with a generous dollop of coconut cream or creme fraiche

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