What I Want (Jelena One Shot)
What I Want (Jelena One Shot)
Was I really about to do this?
I stopped at the front door of Selena’s house wondering if I should just turn and leave.
It’s not like she invited me to her birthday party and if she wanted me here she would have right?
But then again, she wouldn’t because of her friends. They didn’t like me and for some reason Selena was all about making them happy.
She was all about making everyone happy.
Everyone but herself.
I looked up at the sound of her laughter, instantly spotting her dancing all by herself across the room.
A smile broke out on my face simply because of how good it felt to see her so carefree.
I crossed the short distance between us, wrapping my arms around her from behind in a bear hug.
“Happy Birthday.” I whispered in her ear. She spun around to face me, her arms coming up to wrap around my neck.
“Justin! Oh my gosh I’m so happy you’re here!”
I grinned as my eyes roamed her face.
She was drunk. There was no doubt about that.
But she was so happy and carefree. She wasn’t stressing about anyone or anything.
She was just enjoying herself and I loved it.
“Come dance with me!” She tugged on my hands, placing them onto her waist.
I followed her instructions and we stayed like that, uninterrupted in out own little bubble, for hours until Selena started to fall asleep on herself.
I laughed softly to myself when I felt her head drop onto my chest for the millionth time.
“Come on, let’s get you to bed.”
“Mmkay.” She mumbled sleepily.
I carefully picked her up, allowing her to snuggle closer to me as I carried her the familiar route to her bedroom.
“Where are your friends?” I wondered when I realized they hadn’t bitched at me yet.
“I don’t know. Probably with Abel somewhere.” She yawned.
“He’s here?” I asked in confusion.
“Mhm. He was with me earlier. They all were but then I lost them. I think I left them smoking outside.”
I didn’t get it. Why didn’t he come find her?
Selfishly, I was glad he didn’t. It gave me more time to spend with her.
I gently sat her down on the bed then turned to go get clothes for her to sleep in but halted my movements when her hand shot out and gripped mine to stop me.
“Can I get yours?”
“Shirt. Can I sleep in it? Please? I miss it.” Her little puppy eyes looked so sad and her voice was so tired and innocent.
My fucking heart melted.
“Of course.” In one swift movement I removed my jacket and pulled the shirt over my head.
Dropping it on the bed next to her, I bent down and removed her heels then began undressing her.
I pulled the dress off, my gaze going to her face when her hands held my face.
She slowly moved closer to me and before I knew what was happening, we were kissing.
My lips moved to her neck and her fingers began to undo my belt.
I placed my hand over hers to stop her.
“Because you’re drunk and I know you’ll regret this in the morning. I’m so sorry Selena, I shouldn’t have let it get this far.”
“Don’t be sorry. I’ve been wanting to do that for a long time now. I’m the one that’s sorry because this doesn’t change anything. I wish things could be different.”
“I know. It’s okay.” I soothed, pulling my shirt over her body.
“Will you stay with me until I fall asleep?”
“Sure.” I fixed myself next to her and draped the blanket over us.
“And Justin, for the record, I’ll never regret anything I do with you.”
She placed a kiss on my bare chest then closed her eyes, falling asleep almost instantly.
I should have left. That would have been the wise thing to do but I couldn’t find it in me to leave her.
Not when this was the first time I got to hold her in over a year.
I wanted to savor the moment. Make it last.
And that’s how I ended up drifting to sleep next to her, only to wake up when I felt the sunlight hit my face.
I checked my phone only to realize it was after seven.
With a heavy sigh, I pried Selena off me and grabbed my jacket and shoes in my hand then soundlessly left her house.
I already wanted to go back.
The saddest part was that there was once a time where it would be expected for me to be there with her.
I woke up to the sunlight hitting my face.
Ow. My head hurt.
Looking down I realized I was in a T-shirt.
No. This wasn’t his.
It smelt like Justin.
Oh yeah. He was here…
I closed my eyes as last night came back to me.
I missed him. So so much.
I wonder if he knew how badly I wanted to be with him. No one else. Just him.
I peeled myself off the bed and into the bathroom.
Once I was finished I walked downstairs into the kitchen still in his shirt.
I jumped when I saw Theresa and Abel sitting there.
“What are you guys doing here so early?”
“We spent the night.” Abel said.
“Looks like we weren’t the only ones. Explains why your door was locked.”
“What are you talking about?”
“I saw Justin creep out the door a few minutes ago. Minus the shirt you’re wearing.”
I rolled my eyes as I poured myself a cup of coffee.
“I didn’t put that there.” Abel pointed to my neck and I realized there was a hickey there.
“Fine. We made out but he stopped it before we got any further.”
“What the fuck Selena? You’re with me. Not that asshole.”
I scoffed, crossing my arms across my chest. “You say that like it’s my choice.”
“Are we really about to do this now?”
“Looks like we are.”
“Selena calm down. You know that you have to do this cause of the label. Besides, Abel is obviously the better choice. I mean Justin’s a total douche. I still don’t know what you ever saw in him.”
My blood boiled. Maybe the alcohol was still in my system or maybe I was just pissed.
Whatever it was, I was done.
“I’m done. I’m done with you and this entire fucking relationship. I love Justin. I want to be with him and I don’t care about what you or anyone else has to say about it.”
“What about the label?”
“I signed with them for my music. If they keep trying to force this bullshit I’ll find another one."I shrugged.
"Selena, slow down and think about this.” Theresa pleaded, blocking the door when I tried to pass.
“I have thought about it T. I can’t keep doing this.”
She studied my face before nodding.
“You’re making a mistake but there’s nothing I can do to change your mind is there?”
“Not this time.”
She moved to the side. I turned back to Abel.
“I’m sorry but this isn’t what I want.”