Silent Lucidity
Silent Lucidity

There’s a place I like to hide

A doorway that I run through in the night

Relax child, you were there

But only didn’t realize and you were scared

It’s a place where you will learn

To face your fears, retrace the years

And ride the whims of your mind

Commanding in another world

Suddenly you hear and see

This magic new dimension


“Silent Lucidity” by Queensryche

Empire (1991)

my favorite songs from all 11 seasons - [listen]

Back in Black by AC/DC | Highway To Hell by AC/DC | Hot Blooded by Foreigner | Fly By Night by Rush | Rock Of Ages by Def Leppard | Laugh I Nearly Died by The Rolling Stones | Hey Man Nice Shot by Filter | Peace Of Mind by Boston | No One Like You by Scorpions | Bad Company by Bad Company | (Don’t Fear) The Reaper by Blue Oyster Cult | She Brings Me Love by Bad Company | Burnin’ For You by Blue Oyster Cult | Road To Nowhere by Ozzy Ozbourne | Fight The Good by Fight Triumph | Turn To Stone by Joe Walsh | Bad Moon Rising by Creedence Clearwater Revival |  Stranglehold by Ted Nugent | Time Has Come Today by The Chambers Brothers | Wheel In The Sky by Journey | Can’t Fight This Feeling by Reo Speedwagon | Fell On Black Days by Soundgarden | Cold As Ice by Foreigner | Renegade by Styx | Down on Love by Jamie Dunlap | Knockin’ On Heaven’s Door by Bob Dylan | The Crystal Ship by Doors | Back On The Road Again by Reo Speedwagon | House of the Rising Sun by The Animals | Silent Lucidity by Queensrÿche | Rooster by Alice In Chains | Hell’s Bells by AC/DC | Every Rose Has Its Thorn by Poison | Heat Of The Moment by Asia | Wanted Dead Or Alive by Bon Jovi | You Shook Me All Night Long by AC/DC | Lonely Is The Night by Billy Squier | Eye Of The Tiger by Survivor | Ready For Love by Bad Company | Long, Long Way From Home by Foreigner | A Well Respected Man by The Kinks | Thunderstrike by AC/DC | Spirit In The Sky by Norman Greenbaum | Simple Man by Lynyrd Skynyrd | Rock And Roll Never Forgets by Bob Seger | Cherry Pie by Warrant | Too Hot To Stop by MarcFerrari and Steve Plunkett | O Death by Jen Titus | Beautiful Loser by Bob Seger | Smoke On The Water by Deep Purple | The Gambler by Kenny Rogers | Back In The Saddle by Aerosmith | One Way Or Another by Blondie | Hero by Federale | Miracles by Jefferson Starship  | Loudest Alarm by Scars On 45 | Play With Fire by The Rolling Stones | Slow Ride by Foghat | Black Water by The Doobie Brothers | Two Days in February by The Goo Goo Dolls | 4AM Blues by Barrett Johnson| I’m All Out Of Love by Air Supply | Ridin` The Storm Out by Reo Speedwagon | Dear Mr. Fantasy by Traffic | Start Me Laughing by Dead Confederate | Wake Up Little Susie by The Everly Brothers | Turn Into Earth by The Yardbirds | Walking On Sunshine by Katrina & The Waves | Vincent by Don McLean | Born To Be Wild by Steppenwolf | Locomotive Breath by Jethro Tull | Man In The Wilderness by Styx | What’s The Matter by Milo Greene | We Gotta Get Out of this Place by Eric Burton & the Animals | That Old Familiar Pain by Trevor Gordon Hall | Katmandu byBob Seger | I Touch Myself by The Divinyls | Goodbye Stranger by Supertramp | I’ll Surely Die by The Rubens | Nice To Be With You by Gallery | Who Do You Love by George Thorogood And The Destroyers | For Those About To Rock by AC/DC | Stone In Love by Journey | The Famous Final Scene by Bob Seger | You’re No Good by Linda Ronstadt | The Sun Ain’t Gonna Shine by Frankie Valli | If You Wanna Get to Heaven by The Ozark Mountain Daredevils | Little Black Submarines by The Black Keys | Can’t Find My Way Home by Blind Faith | Heartbreaker by Pat Benatar | Imaginary Lover by Atlanta Rhythm Section | Sundown by Gordon Lightfoot | Travelin’ Man by Bob Seger | The Weight by The Band | Long Black Road by Electric Light Orchestra | Ashes The Rain And I by The James Gang | Shake It Off by Taylor Swift | Head Full of Doubt, Road Full of Promise by The Avett Brothers | Behind Blue Eyes by The Who | Blue Eyes Crying in the Rain by Willie Nelson | Wherever You Wanna Go by Patty Griffin | Run Through The Jungle by Creedence Clearwater Revival | The Guitar Man by Bread | Night Moves by Bob Seger | Bad Girls by M.I.A. | Hell To Pay by Five Finger Death Punch | Changing Tracks by Wishbone Ash | Good Vibrations by Brian Wilson | Fare Thee Well by Rob Benedict | Carry On Wayward Son by Kansas |


I was watching Heart and I had never thought about the fact that Madison was wearing Sam’s shirt when he killed her.  Then Silent Lucidity came on my iPod and this came out of my head. - sammit-janet

Sam holds Madison’s body close to him, sobbing and trying to stop the bleeding; even though he knew it had to be done, even though he’s the one who pulled the trigger.  Her blood soaks his shirt; God, why did she have to be wearing his shirt?  

Dean walks in the room, wiping his eyes.  “Sammy?  Someone had to hear that shot.”  Sam doesn’t respond and he walks over and gently places his hand on Sam’s shoulder.  “We better go, the police will be here soon,” he says quietly.

Sam just keeps pressing his hand to the hole in her chest that his silver bullet made.  This, this is why he didn’t want to love again.  Everything he loves is always taken from him.  Mom, Jess, Dad.  He must be cursed, he has to be cursed.  Why else would this keep happening to him?

“Sam,” Dean squeezes his shoulder.

“Yeah, I know,” Sam chokes out.  He lays Madison on the floor, sliding her eyes closed with his hand.  He kisses her on the forehead and stands, knees threatening to collapse under him.

“Hey, all right, I gotcha,” Dean pulls Sam’s arm around his shoulders.  He leads Sam out of Madison’s apartment and doesn’t allow him to look back.  

Once they get to the car, Dean opens the passenger door and helps Sam inside.  Sam buries his face in his hands, sobs wracking his body.  Dean closes the door and walks around the back of the car.  He opens the trunk, pulling his gun out of his coat.  There are a few specks of blood on the pearl handle.  He wipes them off and puts the gun in the trunk.  He knows that gun is the last thing Sam needs to see right now.  He closes the lid, resting his hands on top of it.  His head hangs down as he takes a few moments to gather himself. What Sam just did, that took a lot of strength.  Will he have that same strength if he has to kill Sam?