sigh amazing movie is amazing

I guess i wanted to believe. Cause if i just believe, then i don’t have to see whats really there. No i’d rather pretend i’m something better than these broken parts. Pretend i’m something other than this mess that i am. Cause then i don’t have to look at it, and no one gets to look at it, no, no one can really see…
Cause i’ve learned to slam on the break, before i even turn the key. Before i make a mistake, before i lead with the worst of me. I never let them see the worst of me…Cause what if everyone saw?…What if everyone knew? Would they like what they saw…or would they hate it too? Will i just keep on running away from what’s true? All i ever do is run. So how do i step in? Step into the sun…
—  Dear Evan Hansen “Words Fail” (the one and only musical to EVER bring me to actual falling tears by voicing my own inner thoughts on myself)