Christian Yu x Reader: Let Me Explain - Chapter 4
Chapter 4: Who Would’ve Thought?
Word count: 4825 (omg I know it’s the longest one yet)
Series type: Angst, Smut (in later chapters) & Fluff.
Warnings: Bad language.
Additional Characters: DPR LIVE (Dabin) and mentions of other artists/fictional characters.
Rough summary: Christian is your boss but also your best friend. You both have feelings for each other but his way of living complicates your relationship.
A/N: Yooooo the response on chapter 3 was crazy! I didn’t expect it at all. I’m sorry for giving you all heart attacks and thank you from the bottom of my heart for supporting these series! Seriously ;) Also keep in mind English is not my first language therefore there might me some spelling/grammar mistakes
“Y/n open your eyes; can you hear me?”
“Y/n wake up”
“Y/n come on love, don’t do this to me right now!”
You can’t respond. You heard his voice though. It was him. You were sure of it.
Where were you? What happened? Why can’t you open your damn eyes?
“Stop yelling her name, it obviously won’t wake her up.” A female voice this time.
Whose voice was it?
“What the fuck happened?” he asked, he was worried. He sounded anxious.
“I don’t know. I was sleeping and a loud ass thud woke me up and when I got up to look she was just laying there on the bathroom floor.” The female voice answered.
Bathroom floor? The bathroom?
Yura!? Yura was in his bed! She was there!
In a shocked and panicked state your body jolted forward. You widely open your eyes and start to hyperventilate. What the fuck is happening? You’ve never had this before. You desperately look at your surroundings; you were on his couch. In his living room.
Unable to calm down you feel two firm hands on your shoulders. It’s Christian.
“Y/N shhhh it’s okay! It’s okay! It’s me, it’s me!” Christian said grabbing your face trying to get you to keep looking at him. But all you could look at was her.
The panic in your body shifted to anger. Giving Christian a venomous look.
“What the fuck is she doing here Ian?” you nearly yell at him swatting his hands off of you. Your heart was raising like crazy and all the emotions you felt before you collapsed came rushing back, making your blood boil even more.
“Babe calm down. Please” He begs putting his hands in front of him, showing you he won’t touch you anymore. “We don’t know how much you’ve hurt yourself yet. If you don’t calm down, it’ll get worse” he says cautiously looking at you.
You fainted or blacked out. Guessing the lack of sleep and malnutrition mixed with shock had gotten the best of you.
“He’s right, you must’ve hit your head pretty hard on the tile floor when you fainted.” She says cocking her head sideways while crossing her arms.
You look at her again and jump up, ready to rip her extensions out of her head when you suddenly feel light headed again.
Christian immediately jumped up when you did, and when he noticed your legs were giving out on you he caught you. Making you sit down again while he knelt in front of you.
Yura took a step back with, startled at your actions.
“You need to see a doctor” he says putting one hand on your thigh and another one on your waist
“No, you need to tell me why she was sleeping in your god damn bed” you say angrily and look down at his hand, smacking it away again. “And don’t fucking touch me Christian!” you yell at him this time.
He sighed. “I was going to tell you when you had fully calmed down and had some food, I swear.”
You only look at him, the both of you completely ignoring Yura’s existence.
Eventually Christian turned around, looking at her. “Could you leave us alone for a minute?”
Your eyes don’t leave him. You refuse to look at her. Knowing it would just make you more and more angry.
“Sure.” Her voice sounded sad for some reason. He waited until she was out of the room and diverted his attention back to you.
He looked at you, still knelt down in front of you. Not knowing how to start.
You looked straight into his eyes and crossed your arms. “I don’t think you quite understand how much it takes from me not to slap you across the face right now” you eventually say still looking straight at his face.
He sighed getting up and sitting beside you on the couch again.
This time you don’t look at him. The silence made it impossible for you to ignore the pounding pain and pressure on your head. You squint your eyes closed, trying to bare it.
“Y/n are you sure you feel fine?” he asks again just to be sure.
You know it’s childish but you don’t answer him. Not until he explains.
He sighs after realizing you won’t talk to him and he leans back, running his hand through his hair.
“She’s been staying here ever since that night” he finally says.
You slowly turn your head, looking at him, but this time he didn’t look at you.
“She was so drunk when I got back, the YG staffs were nowhere to be found so I just decided to take her home and let her sleep it off but then she told me I couldn’t take her home.”
You just look at him, waiting for him to continue. He finally looks back at you, trying to see if you had calmed down but your jaw was still clenched.
He took a deep breath closing his eyes for a few seconds and opening them again. Looking to the floor.
“Her parents kicked her out because she kept being a YG trainee a secret from them. When it was all over the news that YG was going to debut her, her father found out. They’re really conservative and don’t want her to be an idol or anything like that. Her dad is a lawyer, so he expected her to become one too. Her mom hasn’t even spoken to her about it.”
You unclench your jaw, relaxing a little bit. Looking at the floor not knowing how to feel anymore.
“Keep explaining” you finally say.
His eyes quickly darted back to yours, surprised you spoke to him, but he looked away again when he continued talking.
“She slept at the company or at a staff members’ house, but the staff member told her that she could only stay for a few weeks and when those weeks passed she just stayed at the company’s training center without anyone noticing.”
You chew on the inside of your cheek and sigh. “Why didn’t you tell me before?”
“Because you kicked me out, remember?” he says looking back at you. You avoid his gaze, suddenly feeling guilty about the situation.
“I didn’t feel the need to tell you because I figured she’d be gone in a couple of days. You still wouldn’t answer my calls or reply to my text messages so after a while I just stopped trying. Figuring that if you wanted to talk you’d show up yourself and well” he says looking at you. “Here you are.”
Noticing how your body language looked more relaxed he decided to continue explaining.
“YG only provides living arrangements for solo artists when they’re debuted.”
“Does that mean she has to stay here longer? I mean does she really not have anyone else to ask for help?”
He chuckled. “You know, she told me she was so desperate that she was going to ask you on the next dance practice, but I told her there wouldn’t be a next one with you. It was after I dropped her from DPR”
“I still don’t understand why you did that” you say under your breath.
“Because I care about you more than any deal on the planet y/n” he says looking at you.
You brush your fingers through your hair and sigh, leaning your elbow on your thigh to rest your head in your hand for support. As your hand touches your head you feel a bump growing on the side of your head. You flinch as you touch the painful area, trying to act as natural as possible before he noticed you were in pain, but your movements didn’t go unnoticed.
“Are you okay?” he asked sitting up, grabbing your wrist.
“I’m fine.” You say yanking your hand out of his hold.
“You should have told me the minute I walked in” you say staring into distance.
“I see that now, yeah.” He says rolling his eyes. “Uhggg how did I get myself into this mess” he groans throwing his head back onto the couch.
You don’t respond to him and play with your fingers in your lap.
“Where do you sleep” you ask, needing to know the answer desperately.
“The couch” he answered calmly. “I’m barely home and neither is she, this is just a place where I sleep and wash up that’s it, I rarely run into her.”
“I still don’t like it Ian” you close your eyes. “Literally out of all the people on the planet it just has to be her.”
He sat up looking at you. “She’s really not as bas as she seems y/n, I know that’s probably the last thing you want to hear but the whole façade that everyone seems to think is her personality, is fake. It’s just a defense mechanism so no one can get close enough to hurt her feelings.”
He’s right. You really don’t want to hear about how the girl you dislike, who sleeps in his bed and lives in the same space as him; may not be as bad as she seems.
“How much longer?” you ask.
“She said she’ll be outta here in a week, her sister will return from her overseas trip so she’ll stay with her until debut” he explains
Another week? Even though Christian might not have the intention to win her over anymore it still bothered you to your core. Christian has the annoying habit of being a chick magnet. All it takes is being nice for them to fall in love, and even though Yura has a dating ban, you see the way she looks at him.
Your thoughts hurt your heart. You know he didn’t do much wrong…this time.
You’ve heard enough. Unable to handle more information for now.
“I’m going home” you say slowly getting up.
Christian’s eyes shoot up to you, standing up just as quick.
“You are in no condition to drive. You still haven’t eaten, and I’m a thousand percent sure you have some type of a concussion.” He says standing in front of you.
“I’ll just call a cab then” you say trying to walk passed him, but he stops you by grabbing your wrist again.
“No. I don’t want you to be alone.” He says letting go of you.
“Stay” he simply says giving you a hopeful look, hoping that your tired and unstable self would just agree even though he knew that your stubbornness wouldn’t.
“Not while she’s here Christian.” You say. “I just need space. A shower and my own bed.”
“Then I’ll go with you” he tries again, but you simply shake your head declining his offer.
Christian gave up, knowing you wouldn’t listen to him. He decided to do something he wished he didn’t have to do, asking Dabin for help.
The thought of you being alone worried him more than the thought of Dabin spending the night at your place. He knew Dabin would never leave your side if he heard that you hurt yourself, and he was also the only person he could trust to take care of you right now that you wouldn’t decline.
After Christian told you Dabin was on his way to pick you up, you relax. Feeling comfort thinking of him being here soon.
Waiting for him you finally gave in to your heavy eyelids and pounding head. Falling asleep on Christian’s couch.
- time jump –
You open your eyes slowly, feeling like you were being moved quickly.
Your eyes slowly adjust to the night sky, looking out the window of a familiar car watching other cars drive by in the opposite direction. You were on the high way, on the way home.
You felt nice and warm due to an unfamiliar leather jacket wrapped around your frame, blinking a few more times before you finally look beside you.
It’s Dabin, focused on the road ahead of him.
You shift in your seat, the noise alerting him as he looks at you. Giving you a warm smile as your eyes meet.
“Hey there” he says not too loud and not too soft.
“Hi” your voice was barely audible but you try to crack a weak smile at him.
“Aigoo” he chuckles. “You look like you’ve been through world war 3” he says looking back at the road again.
“I have” you joke clearing your throat a little.
“We’re going to the doctor first thing in the morning you hear me?” he says a little angry. “How do you not take care of yourself enough to the point where you faint y/n?”
You just nod like a little kid being told off, looking at your expression his face softens, sighing at the sight of you.
“But first you need lots of sleep okay?” he says steering with one hand and softly petting your head with his other.
He accidently touches the bump on your head making you flinch. You smack his arm in response.
“Ouch!” you whine.
“Fuck, Sorry. I forgot.” He says putting both of his hand back on the steering wheel again.
- time jump –
you enter your apartment. The smell of amber and vanilla welcomes you. You inhale and exhale deeply, feeling comfortable to be back home.
Dabin walked closely behind you, watching your every move.
“I’m okaaaay” you sigh, annoyed at his tense behavior.
“Are you sure you don’t want to eat?” he asks putting your handbag down on your kitchen counter.
“I just want to shower and go to sleep.”
“Okay, but eh y/n don’t lock the bathroom door just in case, alright?” he says sitting down on your couch and turning on the TV.
You roll your eyes and chuckle. “I won’t collapse again. I promise”
“You better not” he says following your movements with his eyes.
After you shower and put on your pajama’s you feel at least a hundred times better.
Dabin convinced you to eat a protein bar you had laying around before you went to sleep, and you had to admit. Even though the sight of it made you want to puke, you did feel better after consuming it.
He made sure your phone was in your charger. He even tidied your place up a bit when you were already sleeping.
He returned to your room, walking towards your bedside table, turning of the little light you always had on to fall asleep.
“Sleep tight y/n” he softly whispers pulling your covers over you.
He walked back to your living room, getting comfortable on your couch, reaching for his phone to text Christian, knowing he would be stressed out of the rest of the night if he didn’t know how you were doing right now.
- time jump –
Dabin opened the door for Christian. He walked in with bags filled with take out.
Dabin rubbed his hands together taking the food from Christian. “Fooo-ooood” Dabin says overjoyed as he walks towards your kitchen immediately. Christian just chuckled, taking off his shoes.
He walked into your living room, feeling somewhat weird being here again. The last time he was here he didn’t make it past the hallway.
He sighs walking towards Dabin, sitting down on one of the high stools behind your breakfast bar.
“Is she still asleep?” he asks watching Dabin devour the food already.
“Yah-yah-yah! Chew before you swallow” Christian says throwing a napkin at Dabin’s face.
“I’m hangry leave me alone.” Dabin says catching the napkin to wipe his mouth.
Christian leaned back on the stool. “Is she?”
Dabin simply nods as he takes another bite of his burrito.
Christian got up “I’ll go check on her” he says walking towards your bedroom leaving Dabin alone with his food.
He opened the door slightly and put his head through, checking to see if you were still asleep, and you were.
He walked in, slowly closing the door behind him, sitting down on the bed beside you.
He smiled looking at your sleeping state. He sweetly put your hair out of your face and put some strands of hair behind your ear. Taking his hand down further to caress your back.
He suddenly felt your fingers intertwine with his other hand. And he looked down to see you looking at him.
Your sudden act of affection surprised him a little, but he understood. You were sorry for jumping to conclusions, no matter how fucked up the situation at hand is right now.
“Hey” he whispers softly squeezing your hand, lifting it up to kiss the back of your hand.
“Hi” you greet him back staring at him. Your voice was raspy and low from just waking up.
“Can I join?” he asked giving you a little smile.
You nod shyly and scooch over.
He quickly got under the covers with you, you lay your head on his chest, wrapping your arm around his waist. He also wrapped his arm around yours, running his fingers through your hair the way you like it, making sure to avoid the bump on the side of your head.
He kissed your forehead. Closing his eyes. This is the first peaceful moment in forever.
Christian sighs, opening his eyes again after a minute or two.
“How do we get back to where we were?” he asks, mostly to himself but also to you.
You open your eyes hugging him tighter, not wanting to return to reality where your relationship is still too difficult to comprehend.
“Baby steps” you say. “It’ll take time”
“Luckily we have plenty of time.” He says caressing your back again. “I promise I won’t be a fuck up anymore. But you have to promise me that if something happens, you have to give me a chance and let me explain.”
You nod against his chest. Closing your eyes again
- time jump –
A week has passed.
Today was the day that Yura would move out as promised. Christian and you have been slowly working on your relationship again, taking it day by day. You have talked some things through and you made it clear to him that mending your trust would take time. He has been amazing to you though. Always checking in on you and calling, bringing over food because he knew you’d be too busy to cook. You even started tagging each other in meme’s again.
You had a mild concussion from your fall, and were able to go back to work after just a few days of bed rest. You ate and slept a lot through these days, trying to get yourself back to optimum health before you got back to work.
Dabin and Christian would take turns to check on you, the first day it was cute, but on the third and last day it started to get annoying how they wouldn’t leave you alone. It felt like old times though. How you would just laugh and mess around with each other. You smiled to yourself, thinking back to last night when the three of you watched a horror movie together and how Ian and Dabin would jump, scream and hug each other out of fear. Pussy’s.
You park your car and get out, closing the door.
You arrived at the YG training center. Taking in a deep breath before you entered.
You decided to give Yura another chance. Feeling bad for her with everything that has been going on in her life. You enter the dance studio and see her sitting down, stretching, just like you always told her to do before practices. She looked at you surprised when you walked in. Standing up immediately.
“Oh…eonnie…What are you doing here?” she asks cautiously.
You place down your bag walking to the sound system to connect your phone to it.
“Sorry I’m late” is all you say.
She immediately got the hint. Her confused and cautious facial expression shifted to a slight smile.
“T-thank you eonnie, I’m really sorry about everything that happened, I never intended to come between the two of you and- “
you stop her from talking anymore. Not wanting to ruin your good mood.
“Let’s put that behind us. We both acted crazy.” You sitting down on the floor with her.
“Christian oppa was the only person willing to help me out. I would have asked you too but we weren’t exactly getting along well…”
“You know, I would have let you stay with me. Not out of pity, but because that would make me a lot more comfortable than knowing you were with him every single night.” You say honestly.
She blinks a few times at your words. “I did like him.” She suddenly says.
You look up at her, surprised at her confession. “You did?”
“The first night” she sighs “The first night I tried to come on to him but he declined me, telling me he was already seeing someone.” She says looking to the floor.
“Wait what?” you say trying to get her to tell you more.
“When Christian oppa told me he was seeing you, I was so sad. I immaturely put his clothes on when I came to the meeting, knowing you’d be there.” She says embarrassed looking to the floor.
You just stare at her. Unable to wrap your head around her words, you just burst out laughing.
She looks at you surprised and awkwardly laughs with you.
“I’m still…really sorry eonnie” she says.
“It’s okay. I know how easy it is to fall for him” you say stretching your legs. “Let’s begin okay?”
- time jump –
You drank some water and sat down on a bench looking at Yura lay on the floor spreading her arms and legs, panting out of exhaustion.
“You did well today” you say taking another sip before throwing the water bottle to her so she could have a sip.
She caught it with both hands, quickly drinking out of it as if she had been dehydrated for a couple of days.
“I tried extra hard today” she says getting up and stretching out.
“You better. I would have walked right out again if you didn’t” you say in your teacher like tone.
Your phone rang, it was Christian.
“Hey, where are you? I’m at your house but you’re nowhere to be found.” He says.
You quickly look at Yura who was on her own phone, probably going through social media.
“I’m at YG” you say
He didn’t respond.
“…Ian?” you ask.
“uhh why?” he eventually answered.
“I’m giving Yura another chance.” You say, hearing her name she looked up at you. Knowing who you were on the phone with she paid a little more attention.
“I figured that if I could give you another chance than I could give her one too.” You say pursing your lips together.
Yura smiled to herself at your words, and focused back on her phone again.
“Does…that mean…you’re back with DPR?” he asks cautiously.
You sigh. “Yes”
“Oh my god!” he nearly screams through the phone. Ecstatic and relieved.
You hold the phone a little further from your ear at his loud voice. “If that’s okay with you of course” you say teasing him a little.
“Of course it is. Without a doubt. No fucking question about it.”
You were happy that he was happy again. Things really were slowly getting back to normal, he might even still have a chance to direct her mv.
“I’ll be there in 10” he says hanging up.
You chuckle at your phone and put it down.
“Was that Christian oppa?” Yura asked getting up.
You just nod and give her a soft smile. “He’ll be here soon, If you freshen up we’ll give you a ride to your sisters place. “
She nods, taking her towel and her phone “Thanks eonnie” she says walking to the ladies’ room to change in clean non-sweat-drenched clothes.
You close your eyes, content with being alone in silence for a little bit. How did all of this happen in just 10 days. You feel like the past two weeks were just as long as two months.
After exactly 10 minutes Christian and Dabin walked in. You greet both of them with hugs and they sit down on the floor with you, waiting for Yura.
“This is literally the last place I expected to find you in” Dabin says scratching his head.
“I decided to be the bigger person” you say shrugging.
Christian just smiled at you, giving you a kiss on your cheek.
“Stop that shit, not in front of me.” Dabin says dramatically waving his hands around.
The both of you just chuckle, when finally Yura walks in. The look in her eyes alerted the three of you.
“We have a problem” she says in a panicked voice.
The three of you got up, walking over to her when she shows all of you an article on her phone.
“Former Kpop Idol and now director Christian Yu dating Kim Yura. YG’ Entertainments new gem.” you read out loud.
Christian’s eyes widened and so did Dabin’s. You swallow harshly. Oh fuck no.
“What the f-“ Christian says not finishing his sentence, taking Yura’s phone from her.
He clicked on the aticle to see what it says.
“Kim Yura was allegedly spotted going in and out of his house for 10 days in a row, confirming the fact that Kim Yura and Christian Yu, formerly known as Rome from C-Clown share an intimate relationship together.” He reads out loud.
He scrolled down. Looking at the “proof” seeing dispatch photos of the both of them outside of his house.
“This was today…when I helped her move her stuff to her sisters’ place.” he says still not believing his eyes.
Christian’s eyes dart to you, checking your facial expression. But your attention was diverted to Yura, who was now crying.
You rub her back trying to comfort her. “Oh my god if my manager sees this. If Yang Hyun Suk sajang-nim sees this!” she says choking up.
Dabin stood there awkwardly. Not knowing what to do given the fact he didn’t know Yura all too well.
“I’ll get you some water” he says escaping the scene.
Christian sat down on the bench. Looking at Yura crying on your shoulder.
This is literally the worst thing that could happen to a rookie idol. Dating scandals were awful to begin with, especially when they weren’t true, but try to explain that to the media and the public.
You felt bad for her, Christian wouldn’t suffer much damage from this, none at all actually. Maybe people in the industry would talk but he could simply clarify the situation to them. If anything this was publicity for him, but for her. Her whole world must be falling apart.
At that Dabin returns with a man behind him. He awkwardly stood behind Christian. Wrapping his arms around Christian’s neck, watching the scene unfold.
It was Lee Hyung Suk, Yura’s manager.
“I saw the article” he says dryly.
Yura looked to the floor facing him. “I-it’s not true”
“I DON’T CARE IF IT’S TRUE OR NOT. HOW COULD YOU LET THIS HAPPEN!?” He yelled at her.
She squinted her eyes closed, ready to take a verbal beating but you stepped in front of her.
“Hey, if you would have just arranged a place for her to live none of this would have happened.” You say angrily.
Dabin, Christian, Yura and her manager looked at you with a surprised expression on their faces.
Who would’ve thought you out of all people, would defend Kim Yura.
“Excuse me young lady?” he says looking you in the eye. He’s scary. Really scary. “We can just tell them the truth right? About her parents” You eventually say.
“Absolutely not. Having a rebellious daughter who disobeys the wishes of her parents is far worse than a dating scandal. We can make a better story out of this” he says as if it’s no big deal.
“A better story?” Christian asks getting up.
“Let’s just go with it for a while” Her manager says, looking at Christian.
“If we take this opportunity and mold it our own way we could take this ‘scandal’ and turn it into something worthwhile for the both of you”
Yura stayed quiet, quickly looking at you and Christian.
“Let’s just go with it.” Her manager says again.
Christian looked at him startled. “I don’t…” he starts. “If you don’t want to that’s fine also, but that means you’ll ruin her career before it has even begun.” Hyung Suk states crossing his arms.
“Oppa” Yura says. All of you look at her. “I know I have asked the world from you already. But if you do this for me, I promise I will never bother you again. I just really don’t know what to do anymore.” She says as tears fall down her face.
You take a step back, looking at Christian with burning eyes but he didn’t look back at you. Dabin looked at you knowing that if Christian agreed on doing this. Your heart would break, again.
He walked towards Yura, wiping her tears away.
“Stop crying.” He says letting go of her and looking at Lee Hyung Suk. “Well?” Hyung suk asks.
You close your eyes.
“Fine” Christian says “I’ll do it.”