shy boy~

I bumped into you today. Your tall frame towering over my small one. As I walked passed you, you continued to look at me as I walked away. If only we talked to each other.
—  today // 8:00pm
Everytime I see you, I tend to look away because you’re making me feel nervous and shy. But it’s strange ‘cause all I want to do actually, is look you in the eye.
—  L.N
If You’re Reading This

If you’re reading this
I want you to know
that you are not the first boy
that I have ever loved
and you will not be the last.
But I think
so far
you have been the best
and the most significant.

If you’re reading this
I want you to know
how much my world changed
since that chance encounter
of meeting you.
You were like a natural disaster
blowing me around the inside of my own chest
and out the open door.

If you’re reading this
I want you to know
that my mind is suddenly blooming
like the most well-groomed
garden of flowers
you ever saw
and it’s all because
the watering can was all of a sudden
overflowing
with your name.

I do not say it out loud.
I’ve learnt to keep my lips together
for the shy boys.

If you’re reading this
I want you to know
that you called me home.
And with perfect timing
the world becomes safe
and stable
and I am exactly
where I am supposed to be.

If you’re reading this
I want you to know
that the things you said
they hurt me.
And you can’t blame me
for being so hopeful.
After all,
revolutions are built on hope.

But the revolution
it is not in your fingertips
like I thought.
It is in the purity
and the honesty
with which I communicate
concepts
like Love.
Even if you
do not
want to hear it.

If you’re reading this
I want you to know
that you weakened me at the knees
but I’ve found my feet now
and I’m hurtling
along the runway
to my dreams
and I don’t apologise
for the poetry.