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99 Problems (8/)

  Summary : You are an agent that worked alongside the Avengers , with an unusually close friendship with Captain Rogers. What happened when he reveals his true feelings for you before you leave on an undercover mission?  By the time you return from the mission, you’ve missed the events of Civil War.  What happens when you come home and most of your friends are gone? And when they return?

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader, Avengers x Reader.

Warnings: Swearing, flirting, angst, fluff, and smut ;)

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                                                       Chapter 8

   You hear the door open behind you , your hands fly to your cheeks to wipe away any lingering tears. 

“ Y/n?“  Steve asks, his voice coming from right behind you . 

You turn to him , plastering a fake smile on, ” Good morning Steve.“ you try to sound happy, but you can tell Steve sees right through it .

” You know, I can still read you like the back of my hand. “ he says as he crosses his arms. You sigh, then begin telling him what happened last night with Bucky .   When you finish the story , he pinches the bridge of his nose as he groans.

" Ill talk to him .” he says, moving towards the door. You grab his hand to stop him .

“No, Steve this is something I should do on my own . I just - not right now.” you answer quietly .

“ Why not right now? Y/n, he doesn’t want that girl, and if he does something with her its going to be out of spite & bother both of you. "  Yelling from outside breaks you from your conversation with Steve, you both look to the window, seeing Bucky and Johnny yelling at each other.                                                                                                                                 ” Oh shit. “ you say as you rush to the door with Steve hot on your heel. When you make it down to them , Bucky is reeling his fist back . You launch forward, grabbing onto it.

” Bucky no !“ you say as he turns to see who stopped him .

 ” Of course you’d be the one to stop me.“ he snaps.” What the hell is that suppose to mean?!“ you shout . Now you and Bucky are face to face, anger radiating off of both of you .

” Guys-“

” Shut up Steve.“ you both say at the same time.

” Bucky what the hell is wrong with you!“ you angrily ask .

” Theres nothing wrong with me ! Keep your boy toy on a leash , he was hitting on my girl “ His Girl? You hear the girl from the beach giggle, walking up and lacing her arm through Buckys. She leans up pressing her lips to his ,you nearly lose it . 

You let out a cold laugh , ” Oh really ? Your new girl? “ you ask , you direct you gaze to her , ” You have 20 seconds to get the hell out of here .“ you growl at her.

” I don’t think so.“ She replies bravely. You send her an impressed look , then take a step towards her. Steves arm wraps around your waist stopping you ,

” I would listen to her ma'am. I don’t think I can hold her back.“ Steve says to the girl.  She scoffs, moving behind Bucky to use him as a shield.  Bucky is wearing a sick grin that’s begging to be wiped off his face.

 ” Steve, let me go.“ you demand, and to your surprise he listens.

You lock eyes with the girl , ” You want him, you got him Honey. Goodluck. You did me a favor, Saved me from telling an asshat like him that I love him.“  The last words falling from your lips before you can stop them . Your eyes go wide, mirroring everyone elses. You didn’t even realize how far you had fallen until this moment when the words involuntarily flew from your lips in a moment of hurt & anger. You turn , leaving everyone absolutely silent.  You don’t try to fight the tears that are falling now as you climb the stairs to your room.   Before you can shut your door a hand slides through .

" 10 /10 on that performance . You left everyone speechless. ” Johnny says, trying to make you laugh . When he sees he failed, he pulls you to him . You push away though , wiping the tears from your eyes.  You hear a knock on your door, and he goes to see who it is . Him and Steve return ,

“  What Steve.” you snap when you see him staring at you .

“  Talk to him.” Is all he says ,all you can do is laugh.

“ You’re kidding , right Steve?” Johnny asks

“ I  don’t think so sweetheart. That ship, has sailed and sunk. ” you say while you flop down on your bed.

 ” Y/n?“ Oh hell no.You immediately sit up at the sound of Buckys voice,

” Get the hell out.“ you say . You lock eyes with him, and he steps towards you . ” What don’t you understand Barnes. Get. Out.“ you growl.  He keeps moving towards you , making your anger boil over.  ” Your girl wouldn’t appreciate you being in my room ,would she? “ you question with fake sincerity.

” Y/n I’m sorry I shoul-“   you push past him , exiting your room.

 Johnny catches up to you before you reach the stairs , he grabs your hand, pulling you with as he sprints down the stairs.  When you reach the bottom of the stairs he grabs a random pair of keys off the hooks then continues outside.  When he hit the alarm button on the keys,Tonys red convertible starts blinking.  You hear johnny pretty much moan at the sight and he hops in the drivers seat. You leap over the passenger door,landing in the seat beside him. Both super soldiers barrel out of the front door after you guys, but its too late . The car flies past them in a blur , you can hear them yelling after you but it soon fades.       

  When you return to the house a few hours later,  you feel much better . You spent the day arm in arm with Johnny, walking around & eating at every icecream shop you could find. You both try to sneak into the house quietly,  you’re praying the team is out back or on the beach  . It was too early for them to be asleep .

You silently close the front door,  you and johnny both yelp when FRIDAYS voice appears.  ” Sergeant Barnes, Miss Y/n has returned.“ He would ask to be told when I’m back . Fucking creep.

  Bucky walks through the kitchen doorway , standing in front of you. Awkward silence ensues, until you break it by laughing. ” Well, that was fun . But I’m gonna hit the showers. Night boys. “ you say as you go to the stairs.

 ” y/n its only like 6 !“ Johnny calls after you . You flick him off over your shoulder as you start on the stairs.  You don’t get too far before a hand wraps around your wrist. You turn on the step , as you an arm snakes around your knees and you fall over someones shoulder.

” What the fuck. Put me down!“ you yell, you look up seeing Johnny in the same spot you left him .Oh fuck . You realize Bucky is the one carrying you , you start squirming in his hold.

” Unless you wanna fall head first down the stairs I suggest you stop. “ he warns as he climbs the stairs.  When he finally stops , he tosses you onto your bed.

“  I should of let you explain last night, I jumped to about 500 different conclusions instead. I thought you were embarrassed that Johnny caught us, or that maybe you wanted him instead.  Or that you came to your senses and realized that you deserve more than me .  I love you Y/n , I’ve known for a while, but when you kissed me I couldn’t hide it anymore. The thought of you not -”

“ Stop.” you say  . You are barely holding in the tears now, you move from your bed to your door.

 ” Y/n please-“ his voice cracks .

” Your goal was to hurt me by being with that girl, right? To hurt me like you were last night? Congratulations,you got what you wanted.I thought you were different ,I didn’t think you’d ever hurt me on purpose, whether we are friends or lovers.  You’re not who I thought you were . “ 

 " I’m the same person Y/n,  I made a mistake, and I am sorry for it.  But can you honestly tell me you wouldn’t of done the same if you were in my shoes last night ? If I pushed you away , what would you of done?” he was getting aggravated now, anger taking over his tone.  

“ I would of let you explain!”

“ Oh really? Like you did today when you took off with Johnny!?” he shouts.Oh crap. 

You sigh , realizing he is partially right. When you don’t answer, he sighs as he pinches the bridge of his nose. You walk back to the bed and sit on the edge. He sits next to you , your elbows brushing eachothers.

 "When I came here, I really only had Steve.  You didn’t even know me, and you came to my rescue when Ross showed up . You came hurling into my life like a hurricane; a beautiful, crazy as fuck, caring hurricane. You blew away everything I thought I knew , and accepted me as I am; a broken monster . I didn’t think I stood a chance, why would someone as wonderful & sweet as you , love a disaster like me?“ he says . 

 You turn, your hands going to cradle his cheek. Tears are slowly falling down your cheeks at his words, at how low he sees himself.

” You are not a monster, do you hear me Bucky? You are far from it .“ you tell him , but you see the insecurity in his eyes.  " I didn’t want to push you away , ” you sigh , trying to gain the courage to continue, “ You spent your life having decisions made for you , never having the chance to choose what you wanted to do . I didn’t want to bombard you with my feelings, and make you think you had to feel the same.  You’re still piecing together your memories Buck, I didn’t want to add more weight on your shoulders. “ 

” So , you made the choice for me , huh?“ he scoffs.

 ” No! I was just- okay I know it seems like that . But I wasn’t - ugh this is just so- I wanted to talk about it with you last night. See if that was you really wanted, if I was what you really wanted .“ you say shyly.  The room is filled with silence, until Buckys deep laughter shatters it. You whip your head towards him in  confusion at his outburst.  

He shakes his head, then leans over and places his lips gently on yours in a quick kiss, ” I love you.“ he says , his lips brushing against yours.

” I love you Bucky.“ you confess. The second the words leave your lips his fingers card through your hair, pulling you closer to him . You don’t resist, giving in as his lips move with yours . You run your tongue over his bottom lip, and he immediately parts his lips to let you in. As the kiss gets dirtier, you push his shoulders back, knocking him flat on the bed . You straddle his lap, quickly taking off your shirt. 

You lean back down to connecting your lips once again . His hands are all over you , massaging your breasts, then sliding down your sides to grope your ass . He flips you both , then removes the rest of your clothes, then his. The feeling of his metal fingers swiping through your drenched folds sends a new set of chills through your body.  His fingers tease your clit as his lips trail down your neck .  

” Bucky , I cant wait. Just please.“ you beg through the moans that slip out. He leans down , starting a passionate kiss as he glides his cock through your folds . Your hips lift as you feel his tip prodding at your entrance . He slides into you , both of you moaning at the feeling . He gives you a moment to adjust before he begins slowly thrusting .  He stays slow for a while, before he grips your hips and starts pounding into you.

” God, you don’t know how good you feel doll. “ his voice was raspy and strained.Your back arches as he picks up his pace, you can tell you aren’t going to last long from the way you can already feel yourself clamping around him.

 "Bucky I’m-"   His grip tightens on your hips, his pace quickening as he slams even harder into you . ” Oh my god.“ you whimper . You spiral into your orgasm, loud whines leaving your lips as you tightly shut your eyes.  Bucky doesn’t stop though , just continues relentlessly fucking you as he chases his finish.

” I think I can get one more out of you Darling.“ he says between grunts. His fingers find your clit, the feeling of cold metal hitting your sensitive folds sends a shock through you . He keeps his animalistic pace as he harshly circles your clit. You can feel his rhythm falter, signaling you that hes close.

” Bucky , harder !“  He listens, almost violently fucking you into your second orgasm and him into his . He cums moaning your name, and you swear it’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever heard.   He rolls off to your side, both of you panting  .

  ” Mr.Barnes,  Mr Stark requests your presence in the back yard when you are ready .“  FRIDAYS voice startles both of you . You can feel the ache in your body forming already as you stand to dress.  Before you can take a step, Buckys arm is around your waist tugging you back down.  

” Don’t go anywhere. Ill be back. “ He says as he gently kisses you . You giggle and lay back down.    

 When you wake up , you grab your phone and see its been a couple hours since Bucky went to talk to Tony. You look to the other side of your bed and find it empty. Where is he?  You roll out of bed to find him . You find him in the kitchen, staring out the back windows at the ocean.  His posture was tense, setting off alarms in your mind. What could Tony of possibly said to him  .

” You never came back .“ you say quietly. He doesn’t turn around when he responds ,

” I know. “ You step behind him, beginning to wrap your arms around his waist from behind. As your hands go to meet at his stomach his hands stop you, grabbing onto yours and removing them .  

"  Whatever this is, its over."  he says coldly.

"  What are you -  It barely even started Bu-”

“ Its over. I dont want this. ”

I’m sorry , what?

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Hey noah fence but

Where the actual h*ck is my Bare: A Pop Opera fandom? There was an excellent soundtrack, good characters, a compelling story and heartbreaking queer protags (seriously, go check out the song ‘Ever After’– if that shit doesn’t leave you in tears nothing will)

Y'all won’t shut up about Be More Chill and its never canonically mentioned Amazing LGBT Characters™ but when a musical has ACTUAL STORY CENTERED CANON GAY PROTAGS y'all suddenly fall asleep.

And don’t even get me started on the amazing twin sister of one of the aforementioned protags– she sees her weight as the reason she wasn’t chosen to be Juliet in a play, and sings a bitter sarcasm-dripping song all about it. She does NOT deserve to be ignored in favor of a girl who just really likes Pinkberry.

Look, I love BMC just as much as the next guy and insulting it really wasn’t what I wanted to get across with this post but…seriously, musicals fandom. Get your shit together.

grey's anatomy sentence meme pt. ii ( various seasons. )
  • " i'm sorry, i get mean when i'm tired. "
  • " i'm dependable. "
  • " i just want to run. "
  • " you know, i'm here for the sex if you need it. "
  • " i live my life under a banner of avoidance. "
  • " i can't help it, i'm an avoider. "
  • " tonight we will have hot, perfect sex. "
  • " it's okay to let your guard down. "
  • " you don't have to be tough all the time. "
  • " every bone, every muscle just aches. "
  • " did you only shave one of your legs? "
  • " the only thing you're going to get from me is sex. "
  • " i can't anymore. "
  • " i'm not looking for a relationship because i'm never good at them. "
  • " i'm letting go. "
  • " how did this happen? "
  • " how did we end up here? "
  • " shut up, i'm your person. "
  • " i don't know what to say to you. "
  • " it’s like candy, but with blood which is so much better! "
  • " so you blew me off for a bottle of tequila? "
  • " what is this? what're we doing here? "
  • " you know some people would call this a relationship. "
  • " beer is dripping from your nostrils. "
  • " there's nothing to talk about. "
  • " whatever, just spit it out. "
  • " it never get's any easier. "
  • " nothing surprises me. "
  • " okay, what's wrong with you? "
  • " you realize this constitutes hugging? "
  • " i'm having a moment here, don't mess with me. "
  • " thank you for not dying. "
  • " yeah, hi, did you bring liquor? "
  • " i feel empty. "
  • I took a walk to get some lunch at mcdonalds. I got my food and I sat down to eat it. I couldn't help but overhear these two kids who looked like they had to be in 9th or 8th grade. The convo goes like this
  • Kid 1: "man, I just can't and there's nothing wrong with that."
  • Kid 2: "why? They can be hot too!"
  • Kid 1: "I wouldn't go out with them because they don't have attractive women and that doesn't make me racist!"
  • (I was about to get upset but I had to hear the rest)
  • Kid 2: "yes it does! Klingon women can be beautiful too!"
  • Kid 1: "I don't find them attractive!"
  • Kid 2: "what the hell, dude?! You'd date a Romulan woman but not a Klingon one?!"
  • Kid 1: "yes! What's the problem?"
  • Kid 2: "Romulans have no honor!"
  • Kid 1: "shut up Zuko!"
  • (I started to laugh my ass off and everyone was staring at me)
Deleted lines from The Walking Dead 5x11 - The Distance
  • Daryl: This barn smells like horse shit.
  • Rick: I don't smell anything.
  • Daryl: Yeah, probably not, on account of your hobo asbestos beard.
  • Rick:
  • Rick: There's... There's nothing wrong with my beard...
  • Rick:
  • Rick:
  • **(baby pigeons fly out of it)**
Nothing Left To Say rp starter meme [Imagine Dragons]
  • Who knows how long I've been awake now?
  • The shadows on my wall don't sleep
  • They keep calling me. Beckoning...
  • Who knows what's right?
  • The lines keep getting thinner
  • My age has never made me wise
  • But I keep pushing on and on and on and on
  • There's nothing left to say now...
  • I'm giving up. Giving up.
  • Below my soul I feel an engine
  • Collapsing as it sees the pain
  • If I could only shut it out
  • I've come too far to see the end now
  • Even if my way is wrong
  • I keep pushing on and on and on and on
  • I keep falling, I keep falling down...
  • I'm drowning in the waters of my soul
Stop Putting the Blame on Mordecai for what happened at the sweater party
  • Mordecai: *loves Margaret*
  • Margaret: *loves Mordecai*
  • Margaret: I have to go to my dream college! I'm really sorry!
  • *both cry*
  • CJ: Hey Mordecai, how's it going?
  • Mordecai: Hey, you wanna be friends?
  • CJ: Sure!
  • *does lots of fun activities together as friends*
  • Mordecai: You're awesome!
  • CJ: You two!
  • *hug*
  • Rigby: ASK HER OUT.
  • Mordecai: I want to remain friends with CJ until Margaret comes back.
  • Mordecai: What do you mean?!
  • *weird shit happens sending both of them to phone guards*
  • Phone Guardians: ASK CJ OUT.
  • Mordecai: Jfc guys, I'm waiting for Margaret! There's nothing wrong with that!
  • Both Phone Guardians and Rigby: YEAH THERE IS SHE IS NEVER COMING BACK.
  • Mordecai: When did she sa-
  • Mordecai: Goddammit you guys *asks CJ out*
  • CJ: Sure
  • *both get into committed relationship*
  • Mordecai: *still loves Margaret even though he is with CJ*
  • *sees Margaret*
  • Margaret: Hey, Mordecai!
  • Mordecai: FUCKING SHIT.
  • Both: *talks it out*
  • Margaret: I didn't think you'd wait for me, you deserve to be happy!
  • Mordecai: Thanks
  • *hugs which triggers past memories of them together and feelings for each other*
  • Both: *absent-mindedly makes out because they still love each other*
  • Mordecai: GODDAMMIT
  • Margaret: NO.
  • *CJ runs off crying*

anonymous asked:

Omg. I am so ashamed but I've just started to know that there's a band called All Time Low and that they seem to be really supportive to people struggling with mental issues. Could you tell me a lil more about them and some songs to listen? Maybe I can become a fan! lol :) Soooorry for the bother.

Id start from Nothing Personal/ So Wrong Its Right and then to Put Up Or Shut Up, Dirty Work, Dont Panic and Future Hearts. Songs to check are: therapy, missing you, guts, dear maria, remembering sunday and weightless.