Guys I really don’t know what I’m gonna do. I need help. Please.
I’m in debt from past mistakes, and my entire bank account has been garnished. I had over $1000 saved up to help me take care of my debts, my car payment, my insurance, bills, etc., and now it’s all gone. My car will get repoed again if I don’t make the payment in a couple weeks. I’m gonna lose my discounted rates if my insurance is late again.
I need to make extra money. I need help with ideas. I’ve already got 3 jobs. I put an SOS out on facebook to take up some extra babysitting gigs. I just don’t know what else to do. I’m so stressed out that I’m legitimately crying. I can’t breathe. I don’t know what to do.
Okay, I’ve held my tongue for a while now. I’ve given Alpha a chance to fix their issues, I’ve even defended them for it. Maybe I’m just in a bad mood or something but I’m done.
Alpha, as a site, is not ready. It is not a finished site, and it sure as hell is not ready to be taking money from people monthly when, a lot of the time, it doesn’t even work. And now they’re working on an app? Focus on one thing at a time, maybe for starters get your streams to consistently work for the majority of people, there’s an idea.
And for those saying, “did you restart the stream? did you clear the cache? did you try a different browser?” Answer: yes, yes and yes. And honestly even if that did work, people should not have to go through all of that just to get your fucking website to work. Ridiculous.
One of the first excuses they used was that “Alpha wasn’t prepared to handle a large amount of people”. That’s SUCH A SHITTY EXCUSE. You are a LIVESTREAMING. WEBSITE. If you can’t handle large amounts of traffic, you are not ready to launch, and you are especially not ready to charge people.
Thank goodness I’m on the free trial, because if I was actually paying for this shit, I would be FURIOUS. Screw Alpha. Get your shit together if you’re gonna put content behind a paywall.
More often than not, I found myself moving along with the motions as if they were apart of my identity.
The same people-pleasing routine, with a smile plastered along my face that weighed my head down after a long day of pretending to enjoy those 12 hour shifts.
As much inadequate human contact I encounter in the “working industry”, you would think I would have found purpose by now. So many wandering souls with their own set of perks and demises- but no. I haven’t found purpose. Better yet, the little dignity I did have has been stripped from my core by the power of business.
When asked, “What do you want to do with your life?” I’ve always said the same thing with my shoulders broadened and the exact convincing tone each and every time and their responses have never failed to stray in different directions.
“Do what makes you happy.” I almost laugh because I know, from experience that they don’t mean an ounce of that sentences weight.
Why don’t they say what they mean? “Do what makes you money.” We all know they’re thinking it because truth is, know their corporate jobs aren’t an exciting adventure that awaits.
So I have promised myself to never settle for the purpose of a dollar. With nothing to show for any money ever titled with my name, this society of wealth has drained who I am and I won’t uproot the wholeness of my heart to be corporally inclined.
We don’t have to settle just to make a buck. We have soul and passion and that’s got to be more of value than any check i’ve ever signed.
// I don’t need money, I need heart
Taurus: Take a Bow
Gemini: Shut up and drive
Cancer: What Now
Leo: FourFive Seconds
Virgo: Russian Roulette
Libra: We Found Love
Scorpio: Shot a Man Down
Sagittarius: S & M
Capricorn: ***** Better Have my Money
Aquarius: Only Girl in the World
FIGMENT PILLOW PETS ARE BEING SOLD AT IMAGINATION GIFT SHOP.
We got off the ride and I spotted him from across the “lab”. I ran over and grabbed him. Apparently, they are having a hard time keeping them on the shelf (said the cast member). He is adorable and cuddly and perfect. I travel for work and now I have a new cuddle buddy.
so Okasna ( we-are-the-f0xes) and I have both been working really hard to see taylor swift in Chicago on Sunday. I saved up so much money and I even made a powerpoint presentation as a last ditch effort for my parents so that they would let me go.
Anyways, my mom was saying no and she pretty much SHUT DOWN the whole thing. But, she thought my power point was funny so she showed it to my grandparents. and I was like crying because I was thinking this is silly now im never going to this concert. BUT THEN MY MOM WAS LIKE ALRIGHT I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY
and then she said how she was going to surprise my sisters and I and take us on Sunday and that she had the tickets for a SUPER long time!! and then i literally sobbed it was kinda funny BUT I WAS SO HAPPY!!! AND THEN SHE SAID THAT WE CAN TAKE OKSANA TOO!!! I CANT BELIVE THIS GUYS I AM SEEING TAYLOR SWIFT! IM LIKE CRYING AS I AM TYPING THIS!!! I CANT WAIT THIS IS SUCH A DREAM COME TRUE!!
taylorswift I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE YOU THIS SUNDAY IM LITERALLY NOT EVEN SURE IF THIS IS REAL LIFE!! OMG THIS IS GOING TO BE THE BEST DAY EVER!!