show people who you are

I think what hurts the most about being alone is how much love you have to give yet no one to give it to. At times it feels like an emptiness that devours you whole. You desire to make a meaningful connection yet have always been outcasted for being too intense, too strange, and too obsessed for most. It’s this need to connect yet feeling like an annoyance whenever you reach out to someone. You grow too easily attached to people who show you attention. That you can detect the slightest change in tone and behavior. The tendency to overthink and over feel simultaneously is crushing like a knot in your chest on fire. Then when things fall by the wayside you become more isolated even suicidal to a degree. You’ve become accustomed to loneliness but it’s never sat right with you. You feel like your wasting away and not living up to your potential. And there’s nothing you can do and nowhere you can go.

You dream up these fantasies in your head of someone special. Usually whoever you’re infatuated with. To you, it’s not just a concept. It matters so much more to you than that. You are extremely forgiving of flaws because you recognize your own and would hate for someone to judge you base solely on them. You imagine them in front of you and how they would react. Playing out scenarios in your head with even the most subtle signs of intimacy. From the way, they look at you to the way they embrace you and laugh with you. Even to imagine how it would be to make passionate love to them. 

Then you realize ten times outta ten it never goes that way. Most of the time connections just fade or completely burn out before they had a chance to begin. No one ever sticks around let alone reciprocates or even comes close to you at that depth you’re at. So in some cynical joke, you are a hopeless romantic who somehow thrives on a dead dream. And being so stubborn in your heart you cant let it go completely. You hold out hope that if by just chance or fate, that things would be different just this one time. So, in essence, you pretty much destroy and rebuild yourself every time. And you are just exhausted with trying to the point of not even bothering anymore. To never reach out to anyone ever again for further risk of getting your hopes up. And it hurts because there will always be that part of you waiting for something that never comes.

  • Ivy: Tickets are $550 each. No exceptions.
  • Jacinda: Are you kidding me? It's a kids ballet recital. Who would pay that much for a ticket? I'm literally only interested in going to support my kid. Who are these people showing up? And you're telling me all the other kids' parents and grandparents are fine with paying $550 each to see their kid hop around AFTER paying a huge amount to the studio each month for lessons? No. Nuh-uh. Not buying it.

A Thing Regarding Episode Links

So I know that a majority of people in The Loud House Fandom only get to watch new episodes illegally. By illegal I mean with people uploading it to Google Drive or other means like kimcartoon.

I always have people asking me for the links to the new episodes after they air, and I don’t mind. However, I think a lot of people have been doing this instead of supporting the show legally (ie watching it on TV or the app), which is wrong.

So from now on, I will only be giving out the links to people who cannot support the show legally. Meaning if you have cable and can watch it on TV, then I will not give it to you. If you miss it when it airs, and you have cable, then use your cable provider to login to the app and watch it. You’ll have to wait until the next day after it airs.

If for some reason you have cable and miss it on TV, but cannot get into the app, then please message me and we can talk about it.

Now for the people who live in countries other than the USA, I will give it to you if you message me. This also goes for people who live in the USA, and don’t have cable or you don’t have Nick in your cable package. I will no longer be taking Anon asks about the episode links.

I’m doing this because after a lot of thinking, as well as some initiatives that were taken by the admins of the group where I get the links from, cartoon piracy can really hurt the show. Like A LOT. Because people don’t want to wait until the new episodes come to their country.

That’s one of the reasons why Viacom is having problems with certain cable companies, because of people uploading their shows illegally.

So please if you can, please please please watch it on TV or the app. If you live in another country where they air TLH, then please be patient and watch the episodes when they finally air in your country.

Sorry this was so long

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Which do you prefer?

Friendly reminder that you should terminate relationships with people that talk shit about you. People that spread poison because there are running around empty. They have no sense of self. No sense of self love. Why would you allow yourself to be friends with someone that talks shit about you from behind your back. Just how much do you love yourself? Because if you understand the value of self love, you would never be friends with those type of people. It’s a matter of knowing your value. It’s a matter of you saying ‘I don’t have to be around these people in these type of environments and situations in order for me to finally see the value in myself. I love me independent of you loving me. I believe in me. I know my self worth.’ Don’t hang out and mess with those type of people. So they talk shit about other people and you don’t think they are talking about you? Are you that special? Here are the worst type of people in the world to me. The people who literally hate your guts and dislike you and you don’t have a clue that they feel this way about you because they’re able to cover up all of their malicious energy and intentions towards you without giving you no trace that they don’t fuck with you. And then when you finally find out you are like ‘oh shit. You have been saying this and doing this and you feeling this way about me? I had no clue!’ But when people show you who they are and you see it to point when you able to talk about it: 'can you believe what she said about me? Can you believe that?’ and you are able to talk about it then you get an invite from the same person you were just sitting over dinner crying about the following week and you show up. You don’t love yourself for you to be hanging out with these type of people. Nobody who loves themself would ever entertain the idea of ever fucking with these people. When people show you who they are you have got to believe it and you have to make the adjustment according to all of these things that are revealed to you. But what about family? They can talk shit about you right? Oh, so they are allowed to tear you down because it’s family? Hmm. Doing cuts me even deeper because we have the same blood in our bloodstream. I would much rather have a random person in the street talk shit about me and tear me down than my own family or people who I think of as family. You have to be careful to what and who you give emotional access. Friends, family, your girlfriend? You can’t get to the next level with all of the devils that you have in your life. You got so many negative, evil, mean, malicious, and dysfunctional people in your life and around your circles. This is the reason why you can’t clear out the clutter and get to the next level. Self love is the cure to self hate. You are not here to spread and receive hate and negative energy. You are here to love, forgive, and grow. Just don’t hang out with people that talk shit about you or others because you don’t want to be at the receiving end of the shit they are doing. You deserve better. Love. Only love.

there’s a rule about taking Doctor Who seriously and it’s that to take it seriously you need to not take it too seriously 

this show doesn’t take itself seriously, no matter how dark it might get at times

this isn’t some fucking gritty Edgelord show, this is a show watched by millions of children about hope and belief and trying to help people even when it seems hopeless and even when it doesn’t work, we should never hope that anyone in it stays dead, especially not anyone that represents so much for so many

above all we should never as older fans want anything for it that would take away from the enjoyment of the younger fans

you can’t treat it the same way you would a lot of other shows. its demographic is anyone who is willing to believe in it, anyone of any age. 

this is a show about an idiot in a magical box who fixes things with a screwdriver and a belief in the goodness of people

an idiot who gets into ridiculous situations that are often also dire, who saves the day always but only uses violence as a last resort, who tries to win with words and cleverness first 

over the last few years it’s been one of the only shows on television still trying to tell a hopeful story in a world obsessed with Edgy Cynical Realism, while never shying away from how harsh the universe can be

it is a show about possibility where almost any thing or person or story that can be imagined could be plausible (hello, people being killed by plastic inflatable chairs, a small box being infinitely huge on the inside, a lesbian being saved by her magical star girlfriend)

it is a show created by lifelong fans, it is a constant love letter to itself with stupid little in jokes and nostalgic trips, and above all it is a message and lesson of hope and kindness

take it or leave it but that is what it will or at least should always be

People always show you who they are. It just depends on us whether to believe them or make excuses for them.
—  believe them the first time // @abillionlittlethoughts
Mass hug for those who didn’t spoil the show for everyone else.

I’m so jealous that you got to go to the VERY first show.  You’re the only people who can say they had NO idea what to expect.  But the level of respect I’ve seen so far on tumblr has been amazing.  (I’m avoiding Instagram tags)

There have been no real spoilers, no real videos - I know he asked, but not everyone respects that.  YOU guys respected that, and the surprise hasn’t been ruined for anyone going in future.  You have no idea how grateful I am. I was really worried that by the time I get to go in Europe, the entire show would already be online in various clips and streams.

But if everyone is as respectful as you guys then we have little to worry about.

Thank you SO much for not spoiling the experience for the thousands who are awaiting their turn.  I can only hope those attending the next 2 shows are as amazing as you guys. 

Why you’re not improving your art

Have you ever felt like your art is on the same level for a long time? Have you ever felt like you can’t grow your skills. Have you ever felt like everyone around you grows in rapid speed and you are just like a snail at the end of the race?

I was thinking about that and trying to pinpoint the reasons why you might feel that way. I figured out some solutions that helped me and some other artists I know.

1. Not looking for critique/feedback

‘You can’t yourself pinpoint things you need to focus on because your eye still isn’t trained enough to pinpoint exact problems.’

This is number one problem I see and many professional artists will tell you about that. You can’t be too shy to show your work to people who can give you good critique. Look for professionals who are willing to help you and use that. Critiquing is mistaken to be something hurtful for young artists BUT in reality people giving feedback are trying to help you grow. I know how hard it is to hear that you are still not good enough, that your art is lacking something. Maybe you know that yourself but you can’t yourself pinpoint things you need to focus on because your eye still isn’t trained enough to pinpoint exact problems. The best person to go to would be professional with trained eyes who is able to say by flipping through your portfolio what it lacks and what you can do to make it look better. Don’t be afraid and seek that help. Don’t be too attached to your own art and accept that it isn’t perfect and you need a fresh pair of eyes to look at it.

2.  Not implementing the feedback

'Implementing is the key step in the process of growing.’

After you have done first step from my list and you finally found a professional willing to give you feedback try to implement feedback. Don’t just listen to it, nod few times pretending you understand what it being said. Don’t defend your art and don’t give excuses if the critique is genuine. Implementing is the key step in the process of growing. There is no use in feedback without you actually trying out the tips you were given. The whole point of that is to change your work. You are not being better artists by collecting thoughts about your art. Now it is time to do the work. It actually requires to put time and effort . Usually what people do,after receiving feedback, is  they pat themselves on back like it was 'job well done’ and being lazy. They are not willing to actually put in the work to implement feedback. It is time consuming and you need to put a lot of effort. Although without that there is not any point in seeking feedback.

3. Not trying/not failing enough

'Embrace failures as a valuable lessons.’

Yes! There is lesson in failure! As hard as it is to understand. Once you collect experience you grow from it and become wiser. You know what path to choose to avoid next time failure. Successful people are the ones that can try something many times before they finally succeed. When they finally succeed it’s just a result of many attempts they have made before. No one is born ready for challenge. People are scared to lose because for our psyche it hurts more than a win feels good. People will try avoid at any cost losing so at some point they give up and stop trying. You can’t say for sure you will be successful artist after you did it for a year and don’t see result. You are not the one deciding how long it takes. It will be done some day. some day you will meet your artistic goals. But you will only meet them by trying and failing probably hundred times on a way. Just don’t be afraid. Those mistakes on a way are path that differentiate you and a professional. They already failed many times to get to where they are now. When you understand that you will embrace failures as a valuable lessons.

4. Doing things that are not  challenging you.

'Feel uncomfortable and pick up this damn pencil and draw like no one else is watching!’

Don’t settle in your comfort zone. You’ve heard that already many times right? That is why. You limit your skillset. Good things come out of comfort zone. If you feel like you have problems drawing something you are probably right. The reason is you don’t challenge yourself enough to draw things that are difficult for you. For example if you are only drawing a boy in front view standing with hands straight it doesn’t sound like the most exciting art right? But what if it’s the only thing you can draw and it looks somewhat decent? Well then, solution for that is easy - experiment with different angles, experiment with expressions, with composition, with different species. Be brave here and discover topics you don’t draw. You art will become more interesting and you will be more confident drawing. Personally I know that this is the hardest part for artists. It is hard to let go of what we know and discover unknown. We feel vulnerable and  like we can’t really draw. This feeling sucks. As much as this feeling sucks you know what else sucks? Sucks that your skills are stagnating. Feel uncomfortable and pick up this damn pencil and draw like no one else is watching! I guarantee that after some time you will be surprised with what you created and how your art have changed.

Good luck to everyone who is on path of improvement!

Unless you can talk and read Korean perfectly, please do not mock idols when they speak English. Often they learn the language to better communicate with you and it is rather disrespectful when you make fun of them for making a effort. It is annoying to see intl fans being desparate for subtitles when idols make tv appearances but then when idols do speak English, unless it is perfect, it is not good enough. If you want to enjoy parts of Korean culture, please show respect to the people who make the content you consume.

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haikyuu!! - 30 day challenge
day 1. favorite character
→ sugawara koushi

The Fic Writer’s Beatitudes

Blessed are the readers, for theirs is the archive.

Blessed are the betas: for they help us write the stories we see in our hearts.
Blessed are they that kudo, for they reassure us that someone likes what we’ve done.
Blessed are the rebloggers and reccers, for they help the readers find our work.
Blessed are they which leave comments on a WIP that say something other than “write more please”: for they comfort us when we feel taken for granted.
Blessed are the commenters; for their words bring us joy.
Blessed are the loyal fans, for they keep the fandom alive.
Blessed are the fan artists, for they bring our worlds to life before our eyes.
Blessed are they which read an entire long fic and comment each chapter, for the string of comment notifications fills the writer’s heart with delight.
Blessed are ye, who rec our fics in public and tag us, for seeing that we made somebody squee is the light in our days.
Rejoice, and be exceeding glad; for great is your reward in fandom.

Anyone out there bashing the idea of Keith being autistic in canon esp when autistic people see themselves in him and he stims in the vlog like…why does the idea of Keith being autistic bother you so much you feel the need to type up a post about how it isn’t really canon?


Just because Keith doesn’t walk around telling everyone he’s autistic doesn’t mean he isn’t. You can watch the show and see some traits that commonly come with being autistic.


Actually I’ll outline them right now why not


1. Attention to detail and organization skills


  • His “conspiracy board” is really just an organized way of laying the information he was gathering out so he could see it all together. Might be a visual learner.


  • Recognized that the lines on Hunk’s chart matched the nearby mountains exactly


  • Didn’t understand what Lance was trying to tell him with his gestures in Return to the Balmera but looked around and figured out what Lance was thinking by looking at the layout of the cave.

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2. Social cues


  • Not understanding the team cheer, and going back and analyzing it trying to figure it out but it still not clicking. Him being frustrated over this is very relatable.


  • The whole Lance advice scene, Keith really has trouble picking up on Lance’s cues. Or just doesn’t know what to do with them. In the end Keith’s face screamed nailed it and lance leaves like ): and it’s hilarious but I’ll save that for another post


  • While he’s awkward with people, he views himself as way worse at it than he actually is. It’s hard to tell how good you’re doing when you have a hard time picking up on it in the first place. Sometimes it feels like you’re stumbling around in the dark.

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3. Thinking literally


  • Thinking in pretty literal terms. When they are trying to form Voltron in Some Assembly Required Keith suggests they “literally form voltron” by stacking the lions on top of eachother.

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I could pull out more but I think you get my point by now. All of this isn’t a miraculous coincidence.


Even if a character doesn’t show “signs” of autism, who are you to tell autistic people they can’t have an autistic hero?


When do we ever get a badass autistic hero? Heroes that aren’t looked down on for it or made autism the sole aspect of their “personality” or character arcs?? Especially in a show for kids??? I’ve never seen a character I saw myself in as much as I see myself in Keith. Him being autistic really isn’t a long shot, you guys claim to love rep.. so where’s the love?


To anyone out there trying to “disprove” that Keith is autistic: I urge you to really reflect on why you’re trying to disprove it in the first place.

  • Riverdale: *literally just started* *hasn't finished its first season yet* *it's still on its fetus stage*
  • Antis: LET'S FUCK UP THE FANDOM AND FILL IT WITH HATE BECAUSE I DON'T AGREE WITH WHAT YOU'RE SHIPPING SO THEREFORE I WILL BLAST TO THE WORLD OF HOW WRONG YOU ARE IN YOUR TAG CAUSE WE'RE PATHETIC THAT WAY!
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lavi for best wingman 

BONUS:

u kno they dead

PLEASE DO NOT REPOST/EDIT/USE WITHOUT MY PERMISSION

My ex told me he found out on twitter that Big Brother players make $8,000 just for making jury and now he wants to audition for next summer and since he knows nothing else about the show other than that, he will get casted.

My current partner is a superfan who is also auditioning for next summer and since he is an eye doctor and CBS STAYS ON THESE CHEESY liners like “~The eye doctor got hit with a blindside he didn’t see coming~” and thrives off casting doctors for some weird reason he will also get casted.

And I’m going to be here, watching these two living in a house together. 

So, someone mentioned how Andrew liked neck kisses and all I could think of was how that physical show of affection was perhaps one of the few things that wasn’t tainted enough for Andrew to be physically or mentally repulsed by it and I was suddenly drowning in headcanons. Allow me to indulge on the few I could think about without feeling that I might stumble upon a possible trigger:

  • Neil pressing his nose to the underside of Andrew’s jaw makes something stupidly warm and fastidiously content want to hug his not-boyfriend but he knows he doesn’t like feeling contained and he doesn’t want to make him uncomfortable but he’s moving away an
  • Neil using his fingernail to draw lines on the palm of Andrew’s hands as he lays on top of his other arm, making sure to assure him that he can take his hand away whenever he wants to, while staring dreamily at his hand makes it a little easier to associate softness and delicacy with his touch
  • Neil sliding his hand around the crook of his arm as their walking 
  • Neil tracing each line and curve of his countenance with delicate touches of his fingers as their siting astride the edge of the fox tower (i.e. thumb brushing softly and slowly across eyelashes as he stares blankly at the dazed look on his face, fingers curling as they follow the curve of the outer shell of his ear then to the line of his jawline, etc.) then slowly coming down to cup his jaw and ask for a yes before softly pressing a gentle kiss to the lips Neil had pointedly avoided touching with his fingers