The Reality of Getting Intimate With An Sugar Daddy for the First Time. (Part 1)
I feel like no talks about this. Social media is a cultural preference on how we only perceive the happy and successful parts of our lives. Tumblr is a wonderful example of showing off our money, bags, shoes, vacations from our Sugar Daddies. Life is just perfect, right? But what’s actually going through your mind when a Sugar Daddy gets intimate?
Are there hot sugar daddies out there? Absolutely! However, most are not for the price you want.
Tonight I went out with Mr. Louboutin. He’s a short, older man, 48 salt and pepper hair, big nose, old man stash… Very sweet and I enjoy conversations with him. Not to mention his pay outs have been pretty good. They range from $500 per meet up (so far) but this was the first time I got intimate with him.
When you first start out as a Sugar baby, you only look for attractive guys. Then slowly but surely it turns into what you can tolerate for the money.
When I met Mr. Louboutin I thought, yeah sure, I could fuck this guy. The conversation was there, attraction? Eh. it was okay, but for the price and what he offered? Piece of cake.
When going out to dinner with an SD you’re not really attracted to, you make up all kinds of bullshit smalltalk to prolong the night so you can escape easier saying, ‘It’s getting late.” You may also order another drink, dessert, ect. We’ve all done this.
Mr. Louboutin and I left the bar and he wanted to “drive me back to my car” even though it was literally a 30 step walk. I got into his car and he started driving around. I wasn’t sure what he was going to do at this point until he drove by a parking garage and said, “We could go in here for a few minutes.” Every story we went up my stomach just turned, like “Oh god… here we go.”
3) The pep talk.
Does anyone else do this? You give yourself a little pep talk to prepare you for what’s to come. You think about what exactly you’re going to do, what HOT GUY you’re going to think about when your eyes are closed kissing and doing things, how fast you could probably get him off and how. These were all things going through my mind.
4) Avoidance. The fight or flight.
There have been a couple times where I would flight. I just couldn’t and make up some random excuse not to sleep with them. This happens and it’s OKAY.
This is where closing your eyes and picturing someone else comes into play. You try to tune out their sounds they’re making, or seeing their crusty old dick. (sorry) Since I was in the car I just kept making out with him, or if my eyes were open while getting him off with my hand, I kept my eyes on his. I swear if I would have saw his dick I would have just thrown up.
5) The Payment
Thank god most older guys get off pretty fast and the relief is almost what makes it all worth it. $500 for 10 minutes? Not too shabby.
*** read Part 2 (click for link to post) with my thoughts on this.
Bucky pulled the hat down further to cover his face, he felt more comfortable with his disguise now that his beard was full and grown. Adjusting the shades he sauntered his way into the mall, nodding at men and women who caught his eye. He continued on his path, his pace only flattering when he approached the front of the one shop he wanted to be in. With a small smile he entered the shop, the smells hitting him full force. Taking a deep breath in he allowed himself to wander around the store, looking even though he already knew what he was going to get.
“Hello sir! What can we help you with today?” the perky brunette at the desk questioned.
Bucky shook his head, heading back to the corner that housed the specific candles he wanted. He reached out, plucking a candle of the shelf and quickly taking the lid off. Raising the candle to his nose he drew in the comforting scents of coffee beans, vanilla, and cinnamon. Putting the lid back onto the candle he hurriedly grabbed a couple, placing them in his basket before continuing to browse.
Tao looked down at the bright eyed little girl who looked up to him for answers. “Of course Mama is fine.” His daughter, at the tender age of five didn’t understand what check-ups were. In her mind going to the doctor was bad and meant you were sick.
“Then why did you say she wasn’t looking good?” The little girl hoped out of her seat and began walking around the waiting room worrying for her mother.
Synopsis: Sequel to Bombshell. Jason Todd and Reader are dating, but the reader feels Jason is buying them.
Warnings: Language, Sexual references, References to abuse.
A/N: Y/N = Your Name.
I liked writing this, so I hope it’s good.
Hope you like it!
REQUESTS ARE CLOSED!
Y/N seemed different now. And not happy. She’d been happy for the past 9 months, but now something changed. She was more reluctant with gifts, for her and her kids, and insisted on paying for things more. She quite her job at the strip club and was now a waitress during the day at a diner and occasionally a bartender at a local club. I said she only really needed one job, but she insisted. Said it might come in handy one day.
We’d been dating for 9 months, after a month, I found a new place, mainly for her, but I spend plenty of nights there. She found a new job 3 months into the relationship. 5 months later and I insisted the kids move in with her and was always happy to help with the cash if she felt she couldn’t support them. I paid for the rent and the bills, so she didn’t have to worry about that. 8 months later, she contributed to the rent. 9 months later… she keeps trying to pay me back.
“Jason!” Violet, her daughter, bounded towards me as I entered the brand new apartment, recently established, carrying bags of groceries.
“Hey there, monkey!” I laughed as she clung to my leg. It should’ve been harder to walk, but she was tiny.
“What’s in the bag?” She whispered, she could see through the plastic.
“Ssh.” I winked and pulled out 2 chocolate bars for her and Ethan.
“Yay!” She leapt off me and bounded back to find her brother.
“Jason,” Y/N appeared in the doorframe that led to the kitchen, she had some red sauce on her navy shirt and flour on her jeans. Her hair was up in a ponytail and she wore no make-up. Her youth was showing. “I wasn’t expecting you tonight ”
“Yeah, sorry. I should’ve called. I brought food?” I raised my arms to show off the bags.
She cocked her head in the direction of the kitchen and went back in there.
I followed her in and started to put the items where they belong.
“How much do I owe you?”
“Don’t be ridiculous. You don’t owe me anything.” I tried to sound perky, but something was off. It was obvious. “The kids owe me though.” I joked.
“I just gave them a chocolate bar.”
As if as evidence, they skipped into the kitchen, chocolate rings around their mouths.
Y/N laughed, kneeling before them. Licking her thumb, she wiped their faces.
“Mum.” “Mummy.” They whined.
“What do you say to Jason?”
“Thank you Jason!” Violet cheered.
“Thank you Daddy!” Ethan ran at me full speed, knocking me off balance slightly.
I grinned and ruffled his hair. “You’re welcome, buddy-”
“Not ‘Daddy’, Ethan. 'Jason’.” Y/N snapped, harshly. She flinched at herself. I don’t think she meant it to be so cruel.
I have no issue with not being called 'dad’, because I wasn’t theirs. But it still hurt.
“Sorry, Jason.” Ethan pouted.
“It’s okay, buddy. Didn’t I call you 'Eben’ once.” I tried to cheer him up and it worked a little. A small smile crept onto his baby face.
Y/N breathed in sharply. “Violet, Ethan, go find something to watch on TV in mummy’s room.”
“Why not out here and Jason can watch it too!” Violet bounced up and down.
“No. Mummy needs to talk to Jason.”
“What about?” Violet looked like she’d heard that sentence before. She may be young. But I still remember being young and hearing similar words. Always followed by a string of curse words and roof-shaking shouting in my household.
“Just planning something.” Y/N held Violet’s hand in reassurance.
Violet was still hesitant, but complied, taking her younger brother by the hand she led him away and he waddled behind her.
What was about to happen? My heart was pounding.
“You need to stop this.” Y/N hissed the moment the children were out of sight.
“Stop what?” My brows furrowed.
“Stop buying us with all your money and special treats.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“No one gives some random stripper 10,000 dollars and then buys them a house without expecting something in return, so what is it? The more you pay me the more sex we have? How much is each time we fuck worth?” She spat, but kept her voice low, ensuring the kids heard nothing.
“Y/N, I’m not buying you. I love you and want the best life for you and your kids.”
“Bullshit.” She turned to the bench where hand-made pasta sat. “Just don’t pay for anything anymore. And we can continue fucking til my debt is done.”
“Y/N, there is no debt. I’m not, never would, lie to you.” I stood behind her, wrapping my arms around her torso.
She sighed and pried my arms off her, shoving me back. I fell against the fridge, hitting my head.
Her eyes widened in panic. “Oh my god! I am so sorry! That was an accident,” she rushed to my side, “crap, I’m as bad as my ex.” She eyed me up and down, checking for injuries.
“I’m fine.” I took her hands into mine. “I’m fine.”
Her face softened. “I’m sorry.” She looked at the floor, her hands and body shaking.
“It was an accident.”
“I know.” I placed a hand on her jaw, bringing her her eyes up to look into mine. “I love you. And I mean it.” I refused to even blink. “I care very much for your kids. I really am just trying to help and I all I ask for in return in is,” I paused to reach into my back pocket, “I wish I could’ve done this better but,” I placed the small, velvet box in her hands, “all I ask for is that you stay with me,” she opened the box and gasped, “as my lawfully wedded wife?”
Requested by anon: Aaay so i saw that you dont have a fic for exo on your masterlist so maybe i’d request one??? Like one with sehun where you visited him to practice but he wasnt there so you’d hang with the others but then he shows up and gets jelly about it?????????????THANKSSSBOOO i love ur nct scenarios btw i have ur tumblr on bookMARK (lol geddit) kbyyee
Word Count: 1475→ a little short, sorry!
Y/N: Lol I was really struggling with coming up with a title so I used Spiderman Boxers even though it’s a super minuscule part of the scenario hahaha
You hummed as you put the final touches on the lunch boxes you were planning to bring as a surprise for all the boys. You were so excited since you hadn’t surprised them in a long time and with their comeback happening, you knew that they would be tired. You had even gone out and bought some sweet desserts from a popular bakery as well. Although you were excited to see all of EXO, you mainly just wanted to see Sehun. The two of you had been dating for around five months by now but it was difficult to spend time together. You hoped that today the two of you would get to spend some time together after not seeing each other face-to-face for a few weeks.
Practically skipping out of your apartment, you headed to the SM building where the boys would be practicing. You checked your texts from Sehun quickly to make sure you were heading to the right place.
“12:30, sixth floor, second room on the right,” you murmured and stepped onto the elevator. Reaching the matte glass door, you listened to the sounds of, “Shimmy shimmy ko ko bop, I think I like it,” playing from the large speakers in the corners of the room. You pushed the door open with a flourish and threw your arms up, showing off the bags full of goodies that you had brought for them.
The boys scrambled over to you while Suho turned off the music. You looked among the crowd of eight hungry… wait there were only seven members? You counted heads again and looked at everyone’s faces to come to the realization that Sehun was not there.
“Hey, away from the food!” You playfully pushed back a sweaty Chanyeol from grabbing one of the bags.
“Where’s Sehun? He said that all of you guys would be practicing here today,”
“Oh yeah, he ended up having to meet up with some people to talk about something. I don’t know what though,” Xiumin spoke from behind everyone (poor baby he’s towered over by everyone).
You nodded, slightly disappointed at the thought that you wouldn’t be able to see Sehun.
“Don’t worry, he said that he would be back by 1:30 at the latest,” Kai assured you. Instantly, you brightened up at the prospect of seeing him later on. You then relieved yourself of the heavy weight of the bags and handed them over to the eager group.
The boys decided to take a break to eat your lunch boxes that you had cooked for them. They set everything out on the floor and sat criss-cross as they dug into the food. No words were spoken while everyone ate with relish.
“Augh this is heaven,” Chanyeol spoke while he gobbled up his rice as if it were his last meal ever. You smiled happily as you watched the members enjoy your food.
Despite you being only barely finished with lunch, the boys were already fooling around with each other, the empty lunch boxes littered on the ground.
“Let’s give Y/N a mini concert!” The guys eagerly got into position and performed Ko Ko Bop and The Eve for you with great gusto. You clapped along to the beats and would occasionally sing with the music.
Afterwards, they dragged you from your relaxed position on the floor to the center of the room. They attempted to teach you the dance to Ko Ko Bop and teased you about your dancing skills. Finally, they gave up on trying to teach you the dance and began to fool around together. Pillows were thrown (honestly, nobody knew where the pillows came from) and laughs seemed to bubble out of everyone’s mouths.
Later, you found yourself sitting in a tight circle with the members, all of them sharing funny and embarrassing stories of Sehun. Baekhyun butted in to talk about Sehun’s “big nose”, which made all the members slap him. When quietness and boredom started to settle on the members, you looked at a some stray pieces of food from your lunch and an idea popped into your head. Grabbing an egg roll, you aimed and hit Kyungsoo right in the middle of his forehead.
Kyungsoo looked up in disbelief and stared at the wasted egg roll that had bounced off his forehead. Without a word, he picked up a tomato and aimed at Suho. Before you knew it, a large food fight had started. You steered clear from it, not wanting to get into the big mess that the boys were in.
You looked to see… Baekhyun and Chen were rolling in pizza? You shook your head and laughed before Baekhyun dragged you against your will to join them.
“We’re wasting perfectly good food!” You laughed as you were tickled intensely.
“Well then maybe you shouldn’t have started the food fight in the first place!” Chen butted in, helping Baekhyun torture you with endless tickling.
You protested, attempting to push them back when the lights turned off and all playful fighting ceased. Looking up, you saw Sehun standing in the doorway, looking straight at you in a rather awkward position with Chen and Baekhyun.
“Oh, Sehun!” You exclaimed, smiling at him.
“Y/N, can you come out with me?” He asked coolly.
You scrambled up and walked out of the room while hurriedly brushing pizza crumbs from your body. The moment you walked through, Sehun shut the door in a flash and backed you against it.
“Why the hell were Baekhyun and Chen touching you?” His eyes flashed in anger and you could swear that you saw flickers of fire in his eyes.
“Well we were having a food fight and I didn’t join in cause it was so messy and it was entertaining to watch everyone fight. But Baek and Chen just pulled me in and began to tickle me when I tried to escape.” You explained quickly, wanting to clear up the situation for him.
“I swear, it was nothing else. C’mon, don’t you have some trust in your girlfriend?” You grinned.
Sehun relaxed and you saw a tint of red appear on the tips of his ears.
“Aw, and now you’re blushing because you realized you were just being a silly little overprotective boyfriend, huh?” You teased him with delight and Sehun hid his face in his hands.
“Don’t embarrass me even more! I still need to go back in there and pretend that I wasn’t some super jealous guy.” He whined.
You pried his hands away from his face and slapped your hands lightly on his cheeks. “Don’t worry, c’mon! If we don’t hurry, the guys will take your lunch and fight with it too.”
The two of you entered back into the room to be greeted by teasing smiles from the members. “Sehun’s being a jelly boyfriend!”
“Ahahaha he’s so overprotective, he doesn’t even trust us!”
“Isn’t it so cute to see our maknae acting like a macho man?”
“Stop it!” Sehun’s face was flushed a light pink as the older members slapped him on his back and teased him some more. They poked at him some more, enjoying the reactions they got out of him.
Sehun escaped their killer grasps and grabbed your hand, eliciting a small gasp from you before he pulled you with him and escaped out the room and out of the building. He didn’t stop dragging you along despite your protests until you guys reached the nearby park.
You bent over with your hands on your knees, inhaling the air in short breaths. You weren’t a big runner and Sehun’s gait was so large that it was hard to keep up with him, even though he practically dragged you along most of the way.
“What… was that… for?” You asked between heaving breaths, still bent over. Out of the corner of your eye, you saw Sehun flop onto a bench. He didn’t even look winded. You scoffed, plopping yourself next to him.
Without any warning Sehun scooped you up in your arms and sat you in between his legs. He hugged you close to him and settled his head in the crook of your neck.
“I just wanted to get away from the guys. They were embarrassing me too much,” He spoke quietly, his warm breath hitting your ear gently. “And well, I want to look cool in front of you,” Sehun mumbled sheepishly, almost inaudible.
You laughed at him and held his large hands in your own. You kissed his hands and responded, “Don’t worry, you’re always cool. Even when you’re wearing those ridiculous Spiderman boxers and dancing around the living room to the Pokemon theme song.” You teased, squeezing his hands tightly.
“Okay but that was a one time thing and you promised not to mention it again!” Sehun whined.
Wanted to show off my bag and all the buttons that I’ve made for it if that’s alright!!
I messed up a few because it was my first time making them, but that just makes it more punk when they’re not perfect right?
Hell yeah! I’m fucking loving all of these! You made them? They look rad as hell! especially the AJJ and Ramshackle Glory ones!
(( Okay guys, I didn’t say anything since now but it is kinda really submerging my dashboard.
GUYS. DON’T TALK ABOUT SUICIDE SO EASILY. PLEASE DON’T.
I don’t know if some of you just want to have some attention from people ivl and in reality you don’t attend to do it at all. Tbh, it doesn’t matter. I know that life can be hard sometimes, but the suicide isn’t the SOLUTION.
Hey, you only has ONE LIFE.
It is okay to be weak, it is okay to cry, it is okay to want people to care about you time to time. It is okay.
But you need to be STRONG too.
Because if you look carefully around you, you will realize that there is a beautiful world out there, not perfect but pretty in its own way.
You will realize that there are people who really CARES about you out there. Some people love you deeply but don’t show it quite often.
You will realize that if you do it, you won’t be able to come back ever again.
You know what will happen after you do it?
Someone who treasures you will find you corpse, they will call the ambulance while crying, as you will be carried to the hospital, they will pray for your safety, believing that there is still a chance that you will be still alive. But no, the path of the life ends here for you. Your death won’t resolve anything, it’ll make people who care about you cry and sadness will overwhelm them. They will live along with this burden in their heart. Always thinking
“I could save them. If only I could… They will still be there today…”
You know what is there after death? Your dreams, your future, EVERYTHING will end if you die. Only darkness will stay.
It is okay to rely on other people, it is okay to ask for help.
No one is going to blame you. Just do it. Don’t wait someone to reach out their hand for you, sometimes you need to do the first step.
“So how does it taste?” Your eyes brightens in anticipation, waiting for Kihyun’s comment on your new dish.
His tongue licks the remaining sauce on his lips, before his eyes land on yours.
“It tastes okay,” He says, making you pout.
“Just okay?” You asks again, taking a scoop of your pasta. You let yourself try your dish, manage to only wiped off some of the sauces near your lips.
Kihyun’s eyes suddenly drift to your lips, the red tomato sauce on your lips make it hard for him to concentrate on what you are babbling about. His lips instinctively plants on your lips, making you gasps in surprise.
Kihyun’s hands play around your back, bringing you closer to him. You smile, somehow feeling a lot more different than the usual make-out session.
“Kihyun” You mumbles, still placing kisses on his lips. He replies with a small hum, before he opens his eyes to look at you.
“I want to…” You let out small breaths, “To do it” You confess, and you felt a small pause from him. He looks at you, his lips were apart. “Are you sure?” His voice sounded like a husky whisper.
You nod, slowly taking off your buttoned shirt. Your cheeks flush red, feeling embarrassed because it is the first time for him to see you naked. But you could see him smiling, assuring you that everything would be fine.
“Do you want… me to help you?” His eyes are on your now exposed chest, and you grew more embarrassed.
“I’ll help you,” He quickly says, knowing you are getting nervous as well.
“I guess I’ll be doing more tasting, huh?” He suddenly shot a smirk on his face, as his arms carries you to the bedroom.
“Look what I brought!” You shout in delight, showing off your shopping bag to Hyungwon.
He opens his eyes, after a short nap on the couch, his slender fingers rub his sleepy eyes. “What did you buy?” He manage to ask you, his lips form a smile.
You sit beside him, taking out a new outfit that you had bought with your friend.
“What do you think?” You ask, smiling as you show him.
Hyungwon’s lips turn into a frown. “Isn’t that a little too… revealing?”
“I don’t think so…” You mumble, feeling dejected after getting a negative comment from him. Hyungwon notices your expression, as his hand reaches your wrist.
He drags you carefully onto his lap, before staring at you. “I don’t want other people to look at you… you’re mine, okay?”
You nod, touching his cheek softly before a smile appears back onto your face. You look at him again, somehow a little more attracted to him and you finally sense it.
His hands are touching your bare skin of your waist, like he’s teasing you.
“I am yours, right?” It’s more of a statement than a question, as your hands begins to place around his neck, bringing him closer to you.
Hyungwon looks a little surprised, but at the same time, excited. “Yes, you are mine”
“Mark me as yours then, Chae Hyungwon”
It doesn’t take long before his slender fingers unbuttons your shirt, revealing your chest. He looks back at you, “You know this is going to our firsts, right?”
“I know… and I want it to be you, Hyungwon” You confess, gaining a warm smile from him. “I guess that feeling is mutual” He says.
“Also you’re so beautiful,” He eyes you and your body, “Especially your heart” He whispers onto your ears, his hands travel down to your jeans, unbuttoning it.
“But for now, let’s appreciate your lovely body first”