while we’re on the subject of things parents forbid their children from doing, i just wanna say that no one will ever be 100% right about what you should or shouldn’t be doing. personally, i’ve found that the trick to being happy is to find the middle ground. my parents are rather strict but i know where the red line is and i know what things they might be able to forgive. i know some of the things i do would disappoint them severely but i also know that i started doing them out of my own will, not peer pressure, i started doing them after i felt capable and comfortable enough to handle any situation that should arise, and i only do them when i know i’m safe, and they have never interfered with my duties or integrity… like if my parents were to find out about what i get up to, they can only really get mad at the secrecy and defiance, but i have done them very safely and maturely you know? and most importantly i don’t feel like i’ve done anything wrong, i don’t regret a thing, because while i want to make my parents proud, i also know i will only be this young once, have these opportunities once, and be able to have this sort of fun and these types of experience right now, so what i’m trying to say is push the limit as far as you can but not any further, keep your parents and ur soul satisfied but most importantly stay safe and on the right track and have fun all throughout
My work has me spending a lot of time in Soho and I know Martin is here a lot too. I regularly give myself talkings to to remind myself that, should the situation arise, pretending I am not a fan to try to get into his pants would be unethical. I pray that I don't have to put this to the test because I'm afraid that when exposed to the real Martin, all my good intentions will go right out the fucking window.