Today I saw SO many people that used to be the people closest to me in my life.
It made me really sad, that theyre all doing exams- all smiling and laughing and enjoy their beautiful lives. So I sat on bancroft and cried, and cried, and cried.
I’ve lost myself to this illness, it took away all my happiness, the happiness i COULD have been sharing with those amazing people.
I just wanted to scream and cry and tell every single one of them what I was doing. Not just handing out CV’s to get a job, the real reason behind why I spent all day going from chemists to supermarkets to poundshops frantically. I just wish I hadnt fucked up.
Well- it’ll all be over soon anyway.