warnings: swearing, teen pregnancy, mentions of sex
I was sitting in Lydia’s room, going through her magazines in the hunt of what’s in for the summer. Rompers, short styled overalls, and suspenders with skirts and tee shirts were the majority of what I came up with.
It was an early morning for teenagers on a saturday Allison Lydia and I had thrown a sleepover the night before. Mostly laughing about the party Lydia had nearly three weeks ago. More so how Allison and I didn’t remember the majority of it.
“Yeah yeah, we’re kinda lightweights” Allison said, rolling her eyes.
“We? I drank more than you did Alli. You are the lightweight around here” I said, causing Lydia to snort. Which only made us all laugh more. I fell back on the bed, in an uncontrollable fit of giggles while Allison began to hit me with a pillow.
“You’re mean!” She said, laughing as she attacked me.
“Stop it!” I squealed. “Stop! Sto-” I gagged suddenly, my hands flying from my stomach to my mouth. I scrambled off the bed, feeling bile rise in the back of my throat. Allison called my name in concern, Lydia trailing behind me as I rushed to the bathroom, but i slammed the door shut, hacking into the toilet as soon as I lifted the lid. I hurled and heaved, trying to catch my breath.
“Hey, hey y/n?” Lydia knocked softly, before opening the door. She came up next to me, kneeling right behind me and pulling my hair back as I released the last of my stomach’s contents.
“I’m sorry” Allison said from the doorway. I hastily pulled out the roll of toilet paper, ripping off some and wiping my mouth before throwing it into the toilet and flushing.
“It’s okay, I just haven’t eaten since lunch yesterday so it just caught up to me when we were fooling around” I said, turning on the sink as Lydia continued to caress your back. Allison looked guilty, but didn’t say anything else. I rinsed my mouth out thoroughly, swishing, spitting, repeat. “I’ll be fine, seriously, the feeling passed” I said with a smile. Even though my stomach said otherwise.
“You sure?” Allison asked, not fully believing me.
“I’m sure. Now come on, we gotta be at Lou’s in half an hour, and I look like shit.
Roll montage of the three of us packing up our things and getting changed while singing and dancing around to the radio.
Lydia pulled up by the storefront, and Allison and I grabbed our bags. She’d driven us to work, seeing that she’d picked us up for the sleepover.
“You girls have a nice day!” Lydia called with a slight laugh as she waved a hand out the window. I waved back as Allison blew a kiss. Lydia drove off after that, rolling up her window and probably playing the music she liked rather what Allison and I forced her to play.
I unlocked the door, letting Allison in first. We made our way to the back room, where our employee lockers were. Allison didn’t have a lock on hers, the girl trusted everybody. But I had one. I sat on the floor, back against the metal doors as she put her overnight bag into the locker, and pulled out her working apron. Filling the pockets with sample packets of flower seeds, a spray bottle of water, one of plant growth fluid, as well as a rag because she hated dirt.
“You sure you’re okay hon?” She asked in worry, and I nodded again. I watched as she tied a neat bow behind her back. Then finally made myself stand and get ready for the day. Saturday was our busiest days of the week. Sometimes friday nights, lovers coming in to get flowers for their loved ones.
Allison had made her way out to the cash register. She was probably sitting on the stool while texting Scott. Which was usually how she passed free time when there was no customers. I finished putting my bag away and tying on my apron, and dragged myself out of the back room. Grabbing the inventory clipboard off of the counter Allison was at, the only counter actually, I made my rounds through the small shop. Literally anywhere I walked, she could see me.
“So has Theo talked to you at all?” She asked, slipping her phone into an empty pocket of her apron.
“Why do you ask?” I questioned, making a check mark next to aster.
“I don’t know… you talked about him half the year, then you guys finally get together and you drop him completely”
“Well I wasn’t exactly looking for a boyfriend…” I trailed, giving Allison raised brows. She shrugged her shoulders.
“Have you talked since school ended? We were there for a week after the party” Allison asked. “Or at graduation?” I shook my head again.
“Nope. He was the perfect one night stand. In where you don’t mention it happened at all” Allison made a ‘huh’ sound.
I figured she didn’t understand the concept completely, she’d confided in me that Scott was her first serious boyfriend. That he’d taken her virginity (and she his) and that he’s all she’d ever wanted. So I didn’t expect her to really understand that sometimes you just need a good time, with the promise of no commitment, and secrecy. Secrecy was loosely used though. Inner circle friends knew, but not the whole school kind of thing.
“Stiles must be happy about that” Allison commented. “He hated Theo”
“I know” I responded, making another check next to callas. A personal favorite of mine. I always thought they’d look beautiful in a brides hands. I didn’t say anything else to Allison, writing a note that we needed more tulips.
“I’m sorry if I upset you-”
“Alli, if you apologize to me one more time today, then you will be the one puking” She laughed, and the rest of the day was breezy.
Customers were more on the lag side today, just a few people. I always liked when a man came in around six thirty, getting a collection of roses in his work clothes. Made me happy to know there were still decent men in the world.
Scott picked Allison up at the end of her shift, which was around four. So it was just me here for the next three hours. I sat at the cash register with a book and an apple. I’d greet a customer when they’d come in, offer help, which most declined, and sat contently on that stool. Around 6:45, my phone rang. The best picture I have of Stiles popping up. The one where he was laughing and fell off the couch onto the coffee table, completely sprawled on it.
“Hey what’s up?” I said when I answered.
“Need a ride home?” He asked, and I sighed in relief.
“Thank god, yes” He chuckled.
“Why didn’t you just ask?” He said, and I heard the engine of his jeep turning on.
“I didn’t want to sound pushy” I replied, to which he laughed again.
“Alright, well I’ll be there in ten, have you eaten?”
“Good, we’re getting chinese takeout cause I’m craving it” Wow he was right that sounded really good.
“Okay sounds good, see you soon”
“Bye” I hung up the phone and set it on the counter. The store was empty, so I decided to just close up shop and flip the open sign to closed. Then made my way to the employee room to take off my apron and collect my things.
It wasn’t a long wait for Stiles, I just sat on my phone scrolling through pictures of vacations, pregnancy test ads, videos of my OTP, anything to keep my mind occupied from my growling stomach. God I needed sesame chicken. As soon as I saw the headlights of the jeep pulling in, I grabbed my things, and rushed out the door, making sure to shut off the lights and lock the door. Stiles didn’t even have time to open his door, as I was already in the passenger seat and throwing my bag to the floor.
“Hi there” Stiles said with a laugh while I buckled in.
“Hi” He replied with a big grin. “Come on, what’re ya waiting for? I want food!” I exclaimed.
“You sure chineses is okay?” He asked, driving out of the lot. “Lydia told me you got really sick this morning”
“I’m fine, chinese sounds great” I said, waving my hand dismissively.
“She said you threw up y/n-” Stiles said with a look.
“It was just cause we were messing around and my stomach was pretty much empty is all, I’m fine now” I told him. He licked his lips, a sign that he was debating on whether or not he believed me. “Stiles I swear it, okay? I’m fine”
“Pull over the car!” I screamed, and Stiles did immediately, into an empty lot. The smell of the asian food wafted through the air and gagged me. I stumbled out of the jeep, tripping over the curb I’d run to, and puking on the grass. I heard a door slam shut, and Stiles ran over to me. “No- n- go!” I managed to say before vomiting again.
“Shh… no no I’m here…” He pulled all my hair back, collecting it in a ponytail in his hand.
“It’s gross-” More bile rose. Stiles looked away, probably because it probably made him want to throw up too. He just rubbed my back and cooed soothing things.
“I think you’ve got the stomach bug y/n” He sighed. I groaned. It’d gone around the school before graduation, but I didn’t think I could get it this late.
“I guess” I sighed, moving my head down till it fell on my knees.
“It’s okay” Stiles said softly, still rubbing my back and holding my hair. “You can come back to my place and have a shower or a bath okay?”
“No Stiles if I get sick again I wanna be by myself” I know he was about to protest. “Think about it this way. You want me accidentally puking on your bed?” He thought for a moment.
“I don’t want you to be alone” He countered. I was the quiet one now, contemplating what I wanted to do. Eventually I nodded, and he helped pull me up. “Here” He shrugged off his flannel and handed it to me. I looked at it for a second, and he rolled his eyes, stepping forward and wiping my mouth gently with the fabric.
“Stiles that’s sweet and so disgusting” He chuckled at me and I took the ball of plaid from his hands.
“Come on sicko let’s go home”
I stood in the shower repeatedly washing myself for probably twenty minutes, then soaked in the tub for half an hour. My skin smelled rosy like soap, but was all wrinkly at the tips of my fingers. But I didn’t care much. I got out and wrapped a towel around myself, as well as one on my hair. There were folded pajamas Stiles gave me sitting on the counter, but I sat on the floor in the towel, wrapping it around myself like a blanket. My head was buzzing, and I wanted it, no, needed it to stop because it was about to make me cry.
At some point I pulled myself together and yanked up the soft pants and silky jersey. It smelled like Stiles, and suddenly I didn’t feel so nauseous anymore. When I finished, I pushed open the door and slowly made my way down the stairs.
“y/n?” I heard Stiles call, and I turned on the steps, holding onto the rail. I hummed in response, and he went down to where I was stood. “What’re you doing going downstairs?”
“So I can sleep, I’m exhausted physically and mentally” Stiles cocked his head to the side.
“Well then go upstairs to bed were… were you gonna sleep on the couch?” I nodded, rubbing my eyes with my fists. He shook his head, and laid a hand on my back. “Come on, let’s go to bed” I didn’t say anything, just let him guide me up the steps and into bed.
“But if I pu-”
“Look, there’s a little garbage can right there, and even if you miss, I’ve already brought in extra sheets” I smiled a wavering smile and thanked him. His brows cinched. “Are.. are you crying?” He asked, pulling the blankets over me. I shrugged.
“I-I guess?” I stumbled.
“y/n, why? What’s wrong?” His hand smoothed down my hair, and he kneeled in front of the bed facing me as I lay on my side. “Hey… hey shh.. What’s going on?” He stared at me as I wiped my eyes.
“I don’t know I guess… I guess…. I guess it’s my parents being out of town for another week and Alli kept asking me about Theo and am.. Am I a whore? For sometimes just needing one night with no strings attached?”
“But maybe I was hurt he left? It’s been three weeks, I don’t know Stiles, I feel ridiculous” He shook his head, smiling softly at me.
“y/n you’re not a whore don’t ever think that- don’t even say it, you’re not. We all do things we’re not proud of and that’s just something some of us do-”
“I don’t know anyone-”
“Liar you know Lydia used to, you think anyone ever dare call her that? No of course not, it’s called being smart and nice about it” I buried my face into his pillow. “So you slept with somebody. You both wanted it, you were safe about it, so maybe you forgot it, but hey, that’s a part of the fun right?” I sniffled.
“I feel dirty Stiles” He shook his head, pushing all my hair back behind my shoulder.
“Well don’t. Because it all worked out fine, didn’t it?” I thought for a moment, then smiled softly and nodded.
“Yeah, yeah it did” I said quietly. Stiles grinned, and kissed my forehead. “Thanks Stiles”
“Anytime y/n” He said, ruffling my hair and standing up. “I’ll see you in the morning”
“You’re not gonna stay?” I asked, watching as he wandered to the door.
“My Dad’s down in his office and he wanted some help on a case… I thought it’d be a good opportunity-”
“No no, go help him” I said, waving him off. Stiles smiled at me and flicked off the light.
“Goodnight Stiles” I murmured back.
“Alli… Alli please stop crying it’ll be okay” I assured repeatedly.
“He… he hates me, he must hate me” She whimpered.
“Lyd, Lydia can you come here?” I called. The strawberry blonde came rushing in, and I took the bundle of crying blankets from her arms. I rocked softly back and forth and cooed.
“Maybe we should call-”
“If you say Stiles I will scream” I responded.
I shot up in bed, a cold sweat sticking my clothes to my skin. I took in my surroundings, barely registering I was in Stiles’ room when I felt my throat swell.
“Shit” I cursed, springing out from under the covers and rushing into the bathroom. I gripped the bowl of the toilet, puking and crying at the same time.
When I woke up next, it was to Stiles shaking you gently. You hummed, opening your eyes.
“Hey, hey Alli’s here” He said softly.
“Okay” I said, sitting up and tying my hair back in a ponytail right away. I needed it out of my face.
“She said you texted her?” Stiles asked.
“Yeah, a few hours ago I woke up really sick and didn’t have a ride or anything” I told him, swinging my legs over the bed, just sitting on the edge.
“I could’ve driven you home-”
“I know I know I just… I needed a girl and I had a bad dream with her in it” I said the second part quietly. Stiles nodded in understanding.
“Alright well text me” He said.
“And if you get sicker then go to the doctor, I’m worried about you y/n” I smiled at him and shook my head, standing to crack my bed.
“Don’t worry Stiles, it’s just a stomach bug it’ll pass” I assured, walking out of the room, to which he followed behind me.
“But you’d tell me what’s going on right?” I turned as I grabbed my bag from the floor. I’d dropped it at the stairs last night before going up to take my shower.
“Stiles, of course I would, stop momming me okay?” He sighed.
“Fine fine, I’m done pestering” He said. “Give me a hug before you go though” I rolled my eyes but let him pull me in by my shoulders. He squeezed me for a moment.
“You’re not dirty y/n” He said, and I closed my eyes, silently reeling in the moment.
“Thank you Stiles” I whispered, and he rubbed my back for a second before pulling away. He smiled and I reciprocated it. Then picked up my bag and walking to the door. “Tell Noah I say hello and thanks for letting me stay overnight” He nodded, and I opened the door, waved goodbye, and walked out to Allison’s car.
“I think black looks nice on anyone’s nails” I said, and the brunette rolled her round eyes at me as I applied the polish to her fingers. “And it’s insta dry, and it’s done by me so you’re promised perfection”
We’d been sitting in my kitchen for the past half hour as I did Allison’s nails. She had her eight month anniversary with Scott tonight, and the only hint he’d given her was formal. So she’d asked me to do her nails for her.
“Oh right, your Lydia’s little manicure prodige” Allison said, waving her drying hand around in a dazzling manner. I smirked, maneuvering the brush down carefully. “Anyways, Stiles seemed surprised to see me at the door this morning” She said, and I kept my focus on her hand. “You didn’t tell him I was coming?”
“I didn’t even tell him I got sick Al”
“Because he’d get over worried and it’s sweet but… I don’t know last night I got super emotional about it and just opened up” Her eyes widened, as well as a smile on her lips.
“Open up about your crush on him?”
“Hush up it’s minor” I groaned under my breath, doing the last stroke of black paint on her pinkie.
“Okay sure” She said sarcastically. “What’d you open up about?”
“About sleeping with Theo, mom and dad being gone for the next week, feeling… feeling bad I guess”
“That’s not a bad thing y/n” Allison said softly. “Confiding in each other is just what friends do”
“Sure, but I told him I felt like a dirty whore” I said. She stared at me in shock.
“Well I wasn’t expecting that” She said, blinking slowly.
“I barely meant it, sure sometimes I think about it but I don’t really feel like that my mood just… it just got weird” I said, biting my lip. “Do you really think my crush on him could cause this kind of thing?”
“Mood swings?” I nodded. “It could, I guess” She said, shrugging a shoulder, and inspecting my finished manicure on her nails. She smiled, and I put the bottle of midnight black away. “Do you love him?”
“Of course I do, he’s my best friend” I responded. Allison smiled innocently at that.
“Do you love him as more than that?” I looked at her, a long glance from my curious eyes to her soft but inquizitive ones. “You could?” She questioned my silent answer aloud.
“Sometimes… sometimes it’s all I can think about” I told her hesitantly. “Other times, it’s the farthest thing from my mind” Allison nodded, thinking through my answer. I didn’t say anything more, unsure of what I even could say. That was the bottom line truth. I looked through my other polishes, and pulled out a turquoise color from the box. I shook it, and opened it up.
In seconds the smell made it’s way to my nose and I choked, vomit pushing against my lips. I barely made it to the kitchen sink.
“y/n!” Allison cried, rushing over to me as I puked into the garbage disposal. “God you poor thing” She whispered, rubbing my back just like Stiles and Lydia had done to me previously. “Girly we need to get you some medicine, what do you have around here?”
“Nothing that’s gonna help I tried-” More bile came up before I could finish the sentence. Allison sighed quietly.
“I’m going to schedule you a doctor’s appointment, okay?”
“Yeah yeah go ahead, Doctor Alberts is in my contacts on my phone please get me in today or tomorr-” More puke.
“Hi, hello I’m calling to make an appointment with Doctor Alberts for my friend y/n? Uh, y/n l/n? She’s been getting sick a lot lately” I listened as Allison spoke, resting my elbows on the counter and holding my head in my hands. “Yes an appointment today would be perfect” Allison spoke. “Three o’clock? Yes just give me one moment to check with her” I gave Allison a weak thumbs up. “Three is perfect thank you so much ma’am, alright, you too, bye” She hung up my phone and came over to me. Allison turned on the faucet, and ran a dish rag under the cold water. I let her press it to my head.
“Thanks Alli” I said, and she nodded, guiding me to the living room.
“No problem sweetie” She said softly as I laid down on the couch. “Get some rest, you’ve got four hours till we go okay? I’ll just wake you up if the time comes and I’ll drive you there and everything, okay?” I nodded.
“Thank you” I mumbled again, and she nodded before I closed my eyes.
“I’ll go get you a blanket honey, I’ll be right back”
The drive to the office wasn’t long, thankfully. The heat in the car was going to make me vomit again right onto the dash. But as soon as the feeling came we parked and I got into the air conditioned building. Allison sat with me in the waiting room, my leg bouncing anxiously as the place was silent. Not filled with people, maybe six but I tried not to count.
There was actually seven not counting Allison, or the baby in a woman’s arms.
“y/n l/n” My head jerked up to see my doctor standing by the door. I smiled in relief at the familiar face. I stood up and turned to Allison.
“I’ll be right here, you’re okay” SHe said kindly, and I nodded, before walking up to the older woman.
“I’m sorry but we must do this every time” Doctor Alberts sighed as she handed me the cup.
“Thank you” I said quietly, and made my way past her, and to the bathroom around the corner. I did what you had to do, and placed the cup in the compartment before washing my hands. When I finished I stepped back into the hall, and she guided me to a room. Closing the door behind us.
“Go ahead and have a seat” She said, patting the cot with the paper over it. I nodded, wiggling to get up on it as she looked through her patent files. I watched as she clicked on mine. “How have you been miss y/n? I haven’t seen you in awhile” She asked with a kind smile.
“Besides the puking, alright” I shrugged. My doctor pulled on rubber gloves, and opened a cabinet.
“Graduated high school right?” She asked with a smile, getting out the arm wrap and pump for my blood pressure check.
“I did, and got into Berkeley”
“Is that where you’re going?” She asked, securing it around my arm.
“I haven’t decided yet, I was hoping to have heard back from Corcoran by now. It’s in DC by my friend’s by now”
“Oh well that’s nice, but also far, what made you want to go there?” She asked, pumping the rubber ball in her hand, eyes on the dial on my arm.
“My best friend is going to DC as well, well, we haven’t heard back from the school yet but I just know he got in” I told her. She smiled, unwrapping my arm and typing something into the computer.
“I see, you want to stick together” She commented, and I nodded. “I’m going to go get your results back from the lab, I will be back in a moment” Doctor Alberts said, and I smiled with a slight nod. When the door closed after she left, I texted for Allison to come in. She arrived two minutes later.
“Hey, everything alright?” She asked instantly.
“Yeah she went to get my pee back” I said, causing Allison to giggle and roll her eyes as she sat in a chair next to the bed I was perched on. “I’m uh.. I’m sorta nervous”
“I don’t know I guess… what if it’s like.. Cancer or something?”
“Darling I can pretty much promise you that it’s not cancer”
“Don’t make promises you can’t keep” I sing songed, raising a brow down at her.
“Fine, if it’s cancer, I will shave my head with you” The door opened and Doctor Alberts chuckled quietly. Glasses were sat on the bridge of her nose as she gazed down at the clipboard in her hands.
“It’s not cancer miss y/n” She said, setting the board on the counter. I breathed out a sigh of relief.
“I mean I didn’t think it was that would be insane I don’t even know how that could’ve happened you know? But there was still that worry-”
“Miss y/n..” Doctor Alberts said slowly. “You’re pregnant”
surprise bitch alright everybody alright… here comes the angst