short life lesson

You couldn’t look at me.

I was right there, and you couldn’t look at me.

Maybe it killed you to see that I could smile without you, that I could laugh with someone who wasn’t you. Maybe you finally realized that I could breathe and live, and that I didn’t need you after all.

Because at some point I got tired of chasing, chasing someone who was never going to come around. I was a fool, going back and forth playing your stupid, little game. The difference between you and I though, I tried to get through to your heart - I cared, I loved, and you didn’t. You could’ve let me in, you should’ve let me in, you needed to let me in.

But you made a decision, and your decision wasn’t me.

—  c.f. // “game over”
  • me, 50% of the time: i should really focus on my german
  • me, the other 50% of the time: i want to learn all the languages!!!1!1!1
She decided to end false friendships right at this moment but no one will notice. All she has to do is never bother to talk to you first; but she will still treat you nicely. There’s nothing wrong with being nice to a stranger anyway.
—  Ammaryllis (her-alter-idem)

Stand in front of the ocean,
Breathe in its salt,
Take in its veracity,
Remind yourself of its temperament,
Watch it’s endlessness humble your soul.

Stand in front of the ocean,
The first person that you think about - That’s the person you love.

—  Things I’ve learnt

What if I can’t love you the way you deserve to be loved? Maybe that’s why we should go our separate ways and that this is a good thing, maybe that’s the silver lining.

You deserve someone who can give you more than you could ever know, more than this world could ever offer. You carry a very beautiful soul that should be cherished with every inch of love that exists, even if you don’t believe that.

And maybe I can’t do any of that.

Maybe it’s just not me.

—  c.f. // “I guess this time it was me”
We’re always waiting for our lives to begin, figuring we’ll be someone else someday. But what are we waiting for? All we have is now.
—  One Tree Hill
I was losing my grip and you just stood there, watching me, suffocating and drowning, until I couldn’t make another sound. I was losing me, losing myself, and you didn’t stop me. You knew exactly what I was doing, where I was going, how this would all turn out, and not once, did you ever try and stop me. Maybe that’s why I could never seem to let you back in, because you left me. And even though I pushed and pushed, you were supposed to come back. No matter how far, you were supposed to come back, you were always supposed to come back, but you didn’t. And now, I have no one, because it was supposed to be you. It should’ve been you, it was always you.
—  c.f. // “growing up is full of shit”

anonymous asked:

Friendship HCS for nonbinary reader with Lúcio, Cree and Hana?? Pls... I need something positive

Happy Pride Month! xx


Lucio:

  • You  like to find new music specifically for the other person
  • The two of you create monthly playlists for each other, that is if you haven’t let a few slip first
  • He always knows about amazing local concerts the two of you can go to and just have a great time
  • Small frog boy is ready to fight anyone who misgenders you

McCree:

  • He likes taking you on road trips - long or short - and teaching you life lessons
  • Jesse is like the older brother you never had
  • Is always there to accompany you to the cinema whenever there’s a new movie that you want to see
  • He always lets you steal his bigger clothes for when you need them

D.Va:

  • If it’s not video games, it’s board games
  • She gets very competitive in Monopoly,, very competitive, it’s like battling a tycoon
  • Speaking of which, you two are constantly betting on things. Hana normally looses but don’t anyone that
  • Shes always around for advice and love and support if you’re struggling with body dysmorphia 
Yesterday.

Today I was driving back to work. Thinking of everything in my life that could be better. My student loans, my exhausting job, my tiresome ambition, and everything that could possibly make someone feel like giving up. I was two seconds away from my job turning right onto the street and God decided he wanted my attention. A two car collision happened 3 feet away from me. Making me one second away from being the 3rd car in the collision. I watched a 4 year old get dragged out of the car. I watched an air bag deploy on a 16 year old girl ripping her skin. I saw a father deteriorate as he saw his wife and baby girl in pain. In that moment I realized how small I was. How fragile we all are as human beings. How selfish our thoughts can be. My life could’ve got snatched from me but I was sparred. There’s no time for “I’ll do it tomorrow”. No time for balancing yourself when it’s convenient. No time to put aside your dreams. Put them aside so you can watch another person execute them the next month?! How dare we not use or God power. THERE’S NO SUCH THING AS TOMORROW. You gotta go for it like…as soon as possible…like you missed the deadline…like, yesterday.

I’m just scared you know? What if I fall in love with him and he leaves? What if he leaves just like the rest of them? I’m not ready for that, I don’t want that mess again. I just now picked up all my broken pieces; I really, really don’t want to do that again.
—  c.f. // “I’m fragile, handle with care”