shizuo only

Shizuo: JUST STAY OUT OF IKEBUKURO, IZAYA!
Izaya:  

I find it ironic that even though Shizuo and Izaya are like equally obsessed with each other, when it comes down to it, Izaya is the one who is able to move on.

Izaya was jealous with Shizuo gaining friends and hurt he didn’t come to visit him in the hospital. But they had their death match and after he expresses everything he’s felt in that, Izaya leaves Ikebukuro and moves on. 

He can’t truly move on because he’s physically scarred by Shizuo and scared of him, but he’s trying to move on. He’s attempting to move on, reflecting on his mistakes and how his love for humans was impure and how he wants to know more about humans. Izaya is still tied to Shizuo by his scar, but he looks to the future. He moves on to new humans, dealing with a new environment and new people. He has less difficulty moving on than one would expect from a man so physically and emotionally scarred. He gets people to interview Kadota, Shiki, Shizuo and Shinra but that’s about all the connection he allows to the past (excluding that of his physical disability)

On the other hand, two years have passed in SH and Shizuo hasn’t forgotten Izaya. Everyone else has forgotten Izaya, in idle talk of Ikebukuro’s residents people joke if there was an information broker like that. Shizuo even has to ask Celty if she remembers Izaya, and Celty deals with Izaya in business the most. It’s natural to forget Izaya who hasn’t shown a trace of himself in years. 

But Shizuo can’t forget him. Shizuo has always wanted to live his life in peace and thinks it’s because of Izaya that he can’t have peace. But Izaya is gone and he still doesn’t have peace. He has all the capacity to live a peaceful life but his fuse is shorter, he’s more (seemingly) tamed but he’d even lay his hands on Kuon, a kid, because his anger outlet is gone. He even misses Izaya so much despite wanting him to disappear from his sight and leave him in peace that he asks Celty what it would have been like if Izaya and him had been on better terms. 

Shizuo says it would have saved the city a lot of trouble, but is it really? He said he was looking at the building they destroyed the other day. That building of their death match. That’s only like one smidgen of what Izaya and him have done to Ikebukuro’s infrastructure. So why that particular building? 

Because it was where he last saw Izaya. Because he probably regrets almost killing Izaya that day, because it caused him to leave Ikebukuro and him alone.

Because Shizuo is alone. Shizuo doesn’t have to be alone. He has friends. He has Celty, Shinra, Kasuka, Tom, he even knows the Raira kids somewhat, he has Yahiro now, someone who’s seen as a monster like him. He may be seen as a monster by most but when it comes to the people who really matter, he isn’t. 

But Shizuo is alone, because Shizuo has isolated himself in his self-hatred propagated by society’s view of him as a monster. He doesn’t think he can be a normal human, he truly believes he must be a monster deep inside and should be away from humans. But Shizuo is human, and so he wants to make connections with humans, even if they’re shallow. While not realizing the connections he makes are not shallow at all. 

And Izaya is the only one who has been able to deal with that. Because to Shizuo, Izaya is his only equal. Izaya is the only other monster. Because Izaya is the only one who can stand up to him without fear.

Whether he loves Izaya or not, that much is true. Shizuo misses his equal. He misses the person who could face him without fear and would even provoke him even though he’s a monster. He misses the man who would come back to him no matter how many times he pushed him away with his violence. 

He misses the person who is just as bad, or worse person as him, and whom he doesn’t have to feel afraid of hurting. 

Because Izaya is a flea. He’s a monster in a different way. Shizuo is a monster like a demon, one you want to never piss off and one you want to stay far away from. Izaya is a monster because he’s just not like normal people even though he’s an ordinary person, and Shizuo has given that monster the name, ‘the flea’.

And that’s why Izaya can’t be human. Because if he becomes human, Shizuo will be the only monster left.

And if he’s human, was human all along, then Shizuo would have done what he’s feared and tried to avoid all along -

He would have hurt the one he loved.

Snippet of the unrequited Shizaya fic

Warning: Angst. 

A/N: I need to share this cause my heart hurts no Shizu-chan. Also implication of Izaya being in a relationship with someone who’s not Shizuo (because it’s unrequited Shizaya)




We’re adults.

It hit him like a sudden epiphany.


…I never really realized it until now.

It’s normal for a man to be in a relationship.

Even if it’s not with a woman…

It’s Izaya, so if he’s seriously in a relationship, he has his own reasons.

…Reasons I don’t even know.


The rain continued to fall onto him as Shizuo dissolved his emotions away in his thoughts.

Izaya was still disliked by the city.

But the people he and Shizuo knew still supported him when he had told them he was in a relationship.

Humans were supportive of other humans in matters of romance.

There were people who would condemn Izaya for being in a relationship with a man, but it was nothing to the man.

He had already been condemned by the city for being who he was.

It was nothing new to him, only now he had an angel by his side.


Nothing had changed.

It felt like everything around him remained the same.

He still saw Celty going around as the Black Bike, with Shinra sometimes behind her. He saw the Raira kid whom he had told he was quitting the Dollars, and the girl he couldn’t remember the name of. He saw the blond boy who had apologized to him for the Yellow Scarves incident, and a girl who was probably his girlfriend.

He saw the guy whom had honestly approached him for a fight, Rokujou Chikage, around with his girlfriends. He saw Izaya’s sisters exploring the city together. He saw Kasuka with Ruri in their disguises.

He himself still went around with Tom and his kouhai Vorona in their debt collecting job.

Vorona would eventually return to Russia, but he would still be going around collecting debts with Tom.

Tom would eventually retire if he found a better job with his qualifications, and Shizuo would be moving onto the next job to earn his keep.

Nothing would change.


It was a realization that would have made him shed tears –

But Shizuo didn’t care about himself enough to cry.


 …I see.

Izaya is normal.

He’s abnormal as a human, but he’s not a monster like me.

Izaya is human.

And humans move on.

Shizaya Headcanons pt3
  • Izaya’s first aid kit is calling Namie or going to Shinra’s.
  • Shizuo’s first aid kit is super glue.
  • No, seriously tho, Izaya has a really nice first aid kit, fully loaded in case he actually comes home hit by a trash can… again. And Namie makes sure she has everything, even a quick stitch needle to patch him up.
  • Shizuo’s first aid kit is still, literally, super glue. >.>;;; Or going to Shinra’s.
  • Izaya rarely gets sick but when he has a cold, he still forces himself to work. Often Namie finds him fallen asleep in front of his laptop. 
  • When Izaya actually gets sick, it takes him longer to heal because he keeps staying up late anyway and doesn’t eat balanced meals.
  • When Shizuo rarely gets sick, (really rarely), he stays home and sleeps. Doesn’t bother taking medicine, shit doesn’t work well anyway. Usually the next morning, he’s fine. Unless it’s a broken bone, then he has to go see Shinra. (Who probably needs a hammer to put it back in since normal tools don’t work on Shizuo.)
  • Izaya is a baby and wants to be spoon fed by Namie. Otherwise doesn’t touch his soup much.
  • Shizuo is flustered when Tom actually visits him and tries to make him warm soup when he is sick. 
  • On a rare, raaare day that Shizuo finds out that Izaya is sick and that’s why he wasn’t in Ikebukuro, he begrudgingly comes to check him out after work, when Namie’s already left. He sees the flea asleep on the couch with a laptop on. Shizuo would be very upset that he’ll catch a cold on TOP of his cold without his blanket. He’d tuck in Izaya and tries his best to make a miso soup which he fails miserably at. Izaya wakes up to the nice smell of soup and is surprised when he walks downstairs to see Shizuo trying to cook. After making fun of him for his terrible cooking, Izaya will eat it anyway….only if Shizuo spoon feeds him. (And blow on the spoon to cool it down too)
  • On a rare occasion that Izaya finds out that Shizuo’s sick and is not with Tom, he whistles songs as he climbs Shizuo’s window and enters in to his bedroom. He teases the sick Shizuo endlessly, making the blond angry since all he wants to do is sleep. It gets worse when Izaya puts on the apron (and nothing but the apron) and teases him more with “do you want your dinner first or me?” joke. Eventually Izaya just calls for a delievery of sushi which is mostly meant for him. Shizuo gets the miso soup that came on the side. Thoroughly tired from all the teasing and argument, Izaya and Shizuo falls asleep together, cuddling. 
  • The next day, Shizuo is fine but Izaya is deathly sick.
Shizaya Fanfic Recommendation (3)

Theme: Living Together (Part 1)


Title: All The Wrong Reasons
Author: MistressKiko

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: M(ature)
Warning: Violence
Status: Completed
Summary: AU - Shizuo gets much more than he bargained for when his temper kicks in and makes him the owner of a small jewelry box that is much more than it seems. Shizaya

Link: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/6278639/1/All-The-Wrong-Reasons



Title: Bad Boys
Author: justhavesex

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: not rated, closer to E(xplicit)
Warning: Violence
Status: Completed

Summary: Maybe it’s because they’re brothers, or maybe, they’re both just fucked up in the head. Izaya likes to think it’s the second reason.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/4949749



Title: Catnip
Author: rukazaya

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: E(xplicit)
Warning: Violence, Rape/Non-con
Status: Finished, but not completed. Only the epilogue is left.

Summary: Shizuo x Izaya. Shizuo accidentally turns into a cat. Without knowing the tabby is his arch-nemesis, Izaya takes him home and keeps him as a pet. As a cat, Shizuo discovers a side of Izaya that nobody knows, his secrets, life, fears, loves and feelings.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/829203/chapters/1575870



Title: LYCORYS
Author: Kicchin

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya, Shinra x Celty
Rating: T(eenage)
Warning: Violence
Status: Ongoing

Summary: Heiwajima Shizuo upon getting hired as the protector and personal attendant of a mute and mischievous son of a wealthy family gets tangled in a series of events, however things become complicated as stories behind the silence of the boy unravels. Just who exactly is this Orihara Izaya, and why does everybody wants him dead? MedievalJapanAU!Shizaya

Link: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/11671147/1/LYCORIS


Title: Not so Bad
Author: MellodramaticLawliet

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya, minor Shinra x Celty
Rating: T(eenage)
Warning: None
Status: Completed

Summary: Izaya Orihara had disappeared from Ikebukuro, and the city breathed a sigh of relief… that is, up until his return. Now not only does Shizuo have to deal with Izaya around his city, but attached to him as well? All thanks to Shinra and his handy dandy… handcuffs?

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/8633620/chapters/19799074



Title: Poles Apart
Author: Riri1342

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: E(xplicit)
Warning: Violence
Status: Ongoing

Summary: Orihara Izaya was a talented, handsome, successful military strategist, until a sneak attack killed all the people in his camp and jeopardized his own life and sanity. He is miraculously saved by the man he hates the most, the recruit with inhuman strength, and their escape ends in a godforsaken village. Here, they share the same house and, somehow, they must find a way to overcome hate and try to heal their physical and psychological wounds. Shizaya.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/4608990/chapters/10503897




Title: Smoke and Mirrors
Author: flyingisland

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: M(ature)
Warning: Violence
Status: Completed

Summary: Shizuo finds himself, through a series of confusing and dizzying events, working alongside none other than Orihara Izaya: feared informant and constant, unrelenting thorn in his side.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/6122462/chapters/14032379



Title: Summoned
Author: ScarletCake

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya, Shinra x Celty
Rating: G(eneral)
Warning: None
Status: Ongoing

Summary: Shizuo is an art student with a project he needs to complete and Izaya is the demon he accidentally summons in his bathtub.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/8140174/chapters/18657808




Title: till the war’s won
Author: izayas

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: M(ature)
Warning: Violence
Status: Completed

Summary: heiwajima shizuo’s killed someone, and the first person he calls is the person he broke up with eight months ago: orihara izaya.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/6605734



Title: Wherever You Will Go
Author: caffeinekitty

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: M(ature)
Warning: None
Status: Completed

Summary: “You’re leaving. Well, then… consider this a parting gift.”

Notes: Dom/Sub, Consensual master/slave relationship.
Link: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/7597276/1/

anonymous asked:

What would be Shizuo's reaction to finding out Izaya has been in love with him since the moment they met and how fragile his heart really is? Would he even care Izaya is in a wheelchair?

I noticed something that I wanted to expand on but I think I can expand it along with your question haha.

Well, he would care. Regardless of his feelings towards Izaya it’s likely he would care because in his interview he said this:

…Anyway, if you’re going to make an opponent of that flea, don’t think of him as a human. It’s better to think of him as a zombie or something.

He probably mistakes himself of being human.

There’s no reason to treat him as a human. In many meanings.

One reason Shizuo thinks Izaya isn’t human (or refuses to acknowledge him as human) seems to be because Izaya is like a zombie in that he keeps coming back because he doesn’t ever seem to be beaten down.  

So if he knows Izaya is in a wheelchair he’d definitely care, because well it goes against his perception of Izaya as a zombie and would make him seem more human. That Izaya can and actually did get hurt - by his hand.

That ‘attachment’ of his…When there is one thing he has an eye on, it’s honestly ominous how focused he’ll become on it to where even your own life is irrelevant.

If there is any ‘fear’ towards him it would be that one point.

So, watch out. First, his own life is secondary to him. Anytime I thought “with this he’ll lay off,” he’ll take another step forward and come at me again.

Shizuo also thinks Izaya has no fear for his life. Unlike those people he beats up, Izaya not only is able to avoid his attacks, but he comes back and bothers Shizuo again and again because he has no fear of Shizuo killing him. Shizuo has taken it to mean that Izaya has no fear of losing his life.

Because I am lazy I’m not going to search through my likes, but I recall that Izaya is afraid of Shizuo now, and his fear has extended to the extent that he flinched (or showed some form of apprehension) when told that someone could lift up a vending machine and asked how far he could throw it (that someone couldn’t throw a vending machine) So he’s definitely fearful for his life.

And this is just my interpretation, but Shizuo’s ‘fear’ towards Izaya could be that of hurting him. Or him ruining his peace. But since Izaya has ruined Shizuo’s peace but Shizuo has always managed to get it back I’ll go with the first one, Shizuo doesn’t want to hurt anyone even if it’s Izaya. Throughout the passage Shizuo uses words like ‘fear’ ‘ominous’ ‘dangerous’ as if he’s apprehensive of something, and I don’t believe it’s just of Izaya ruining his peace. 

Either way Shizuo seems to think Izaya doesn’t treasure his life but he does - his feelings towards Shizuo just transcends that. So that’s an assumption on Shizuo’s part, an assumption which would be revoked if he saw Izaya in a wheelchair and scared of him. So he would care. Either for a logical or emotional reason.

As for Shizuo’s reaction, well, it’s a bit unlikely Shizuo would find out, even if my theory is accurate, I can’t imagine Izaya telling him of his feelings. But for how fragile his heart is, it’s possible he could (or has already) find/found that out from Shinra. And if he knows that while seeing Izaya, well it could make him more human in his eyes.

It’s ‘good’ that they had that death match because it ended up with Izaya in a wheelchair - and not dead. We now know just like Izaya refused to acknowledge Shizuo as human and called him a monster, Shizuo refuses to acknowledge Izaya as human and thinks he’s some kind of zombie (like Saika?). Part of the reason why he said there’s no meaning to Izaya being human could be because Izaya seems ‘invincible’ in that he seems to have no fear for his life and doesn’t get hurt and has no emotions (in that he’s not afraid or scared), nothing like humans who encounter a monster like him. 

So now Izaya after their death match seems to have the two things Shizuo thought he lacked - emotional fear and physical disability. Which would humanize him in Shizuo’s eyes.

Keep reading

It can be said that what destroyed Ryuugamine Mikado was his distorted love for the “Dollars of the past” and everything around him.

Kida Masaomi, who became scared of facing his best friend.
Sonohara Anri, who tried to be a third party.
Heiwajima Shizuo, who gave the pure boy a “longing for power”.
The Headless Rider, who made the line between reality and illusion ambiguous.
Kuronuma Aoba, who tried to take advantage of him and approached him.
Rokujou Chikage, who didn’t punish him for creating the Dollars and didn’t give him the chance to make things up.
And Orihara Izaya himself, who pushed his back a little in the beginning.

Shizaya Fanfic Recommendation (5)


Theme: One-sided Attraction/Denial of Feelings/Mutual Pining (Part 1)


Title: A Cigarette’s Lifespan
Author: guuzenkamo

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: E(xplicit)
Warning: None
Status: Ongoing

Summary: Izaya’s plans go a little awry when he attempts to frame Shizuo for murder.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/4906831/chapters/11255932




Title: A Good Deed
Author: Markovia

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya, Shinra x Celty, Izaya & Namie
Rating: E(xplicit)
Warning: Violence
Status: Completed

Summary: He didn’t want the monster to help him, not the first time, or now. He wanted him dead.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/9505520/chapters/21504278




Title: Christmas story
Author: Orihara Izaya-sama

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: M(ature)
Warning: None
Status: Completed

Summary: Shizuo spends Christmas Eve alone. Small green creature appears and takes him on unbelievable trip. What will Shizuo see in the past? How will this year’s Christmas turn out for him? And how’s Izaya involved in this?

Link: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/8812811/1/




Title: Chronic
Author: thirteen-forty-two

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya, Izaya x Namie. Minor Shinra x Izaya, Shiki x Izaya
Rating: M(ature)
Warning: Violence
Status: Completed

Summary: Izaya suffers with chronic migraines, and quickly discovers that Shizuo is the only one who can help.

Link: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/7051404/1/Chronic




Title: Eloquence Doesn’t Always Equal Intelligence.
Author: itsnotlove

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya, Kasuka x Ruri, Shinra x Celty
Rating: M(ature)
Warning: Violence
Status: Ongoing

Summary: “Humans, as a general rule, have always believed themselves to be superior to not only every other creature in existence, but to each other. Because of this belief, humans have a tendency to lie to themselves and exaggerate even the silliest of things.”

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/3942694/chapters/8836483




Title: Gods Are Fragile
Author: Ribbonlette

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: M(ature)
Warning: Violence, Rape/Non-Con
Status: Completed

Summary: It pisses Shizuo off, even more than Izaya as a whole. The fact that he won’t even recognize that his running is getting slower, his gait faltering. As much as Izaya tries to hide it, to ignore it, it’s clear that he’s breaking down.
And when he finally does break down, Shizuo is there to witness it.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/3809086/chapters/8487961




Title: Just Medicine
Author: tastewithouttalent

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: E(xplicit)
Warning: None
Status: Completed

Summary: “‘If you want to be the one to kill Izaya, you’ll need to head to Shinjuku soon before you miss the opportunity.’” Shinra brings unbelievable news about Izaya to Shizuo, and Shizuo finds reality to be even stranger than he expects when he investigates.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/6684850/chapters/15288241




Title: one over two n
Author: izayas

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: T(eenage)
Warning: None
Status: Completed

Summary: what do you do if you don’t complete the person who completes you?

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/3359660



Title: Praying For Stars
Author: Cherry Ami

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya, Masaomi x Mikado, Shinra x Celty
Rating: M(ature)
Warning: Violence
Status: Completed

Summary: AU: The clocks engraved on wrists show you the time until you will finally meet your soul-mate. For Shizuo Heiwajima, the exact time is really close. The outcome is not what he expected.’

Link: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/8881784/1/



Title: Something Precious
Author: kakashikrazy256

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: T(eenage)
Warning: Violence
Status: Completed

Summary: “Shizuo-kun said you pushed him out of the way.” He did. But he didn’t know why. Lately, Ikebukuro has been terrorized by a prankster that drops deadly acid down onto the streets from rooftops. And one day, the victims happen to be Ikebukuro’s two strongest men.

Link: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/9796690/1/




Title: The 4th of May
Author: ZS Fan

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya, Shizuo x Vorona (endgame)
Rating: T(eenage)
Warning: None
Status: Completed

Summary: Hatred is stronger than love. That was what Orihara Izaya had always thought, until Heiwajima Shizuo’s wedding day. The protozoan proved him wrong again, for the last time.

Link: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/9712712/1/




Title: The More You Love Someone
Author: Dbln

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya, Shinra x Celty
Rating: M(ature)
Warning: None
Status: Completed

Summary: Shinra sheds a little light on Shizuo’s feelings concerning a certain raven haired information broker.

Link: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/9666263/1/




Title: Turning Point
Author: rukazaya

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya, Izaya & Tsukumoya
Rating: G(eneral)
Warning: None
Status: Completed

Summary: A split decision Orihara Izaya had to make to save Shizuo. For a price.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/841768




Title: What’s The Big Deal?
Author: Weirdxyz

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: T(eenage)
Warning: None
Status: Ongoing

Summary: Ikebukuro seems to be in chaos. But there is no gang war or aliens attack (much to Celty’s relief). Then ‘why’, you ask? Well, apparently it looks like a certain Information Broker appears to be gay. And now everybody loses their mind. Along with a certain Blond in Bartender’s Outfit. What can possibly ensue from it?

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/7986802/chapters/18275860



Title: We’re Not Meant for That
Author: moyzi

Pairing(s): Shizuo x Izaya
Rating: M(ature)
Warning: None
Status: Completed

Summary: “Life went on like this for a long time, the realization that he was already twenty-five rolling around like a slap to his face, bringing a wave of panic that he was going no where, or maybe just no where worth going.”
Shizuo gets more than he bargained for after drunk-dialing an ex.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/6939187/chapters/15825004