Umaid Bhavan Palace, Jodhpur Mar 21/22, 2015 Sat/Sun 1:19 am
The event comes to an elegant end .. regal, cause conscious, involved and sonorous .. the music of the Shillong Choir backed by the Vienna Camber orchestra was ethereal .. some of the personal compositions of the conductor and the chief of it, Neil, giving some beautiful renditions of some of our more prominent songs through the ages .. and the fusion with western music as well ..
But … meeting Shivraj Singh, the Maharaja’s son and heir, who suffered the head injury, and on whose inspiration his Father started this Foundation, was so filled with joy and hope. He has suffered immense trauma, but silently fought it and has survived. He was thrilled to see me, and loved my beard .. hahah .. I wish him complete stability and repair, as he undergoes his life …
I am back tomorrow .. and then prepare for Egypt and Cairo for the ‘India by the Nile’ festival and activities, starting in a few days ..
Egypt was a revelation on my visit there in 90′s … the enthusiasm and the love of the people was incredible and invaluable. It still remains presumably, and I hope that my short visit gives me ample time to reach out to my well wishers and friends ..
I feel inconsistent with my thoughts and feelings. There is so much to know and learn .. and now the realisation that time is not of the essence … its flown past too rapidly. The diverse acts that one wishes attention to be given, is so vast that even starting on one is difficult to chose …
So one sits in isolation .. in scant respect and consideration of how this malaise could be cured .. there is no solution, no care, no opinion of oneself .. frustrating, immature and worthless …
There is but one solution. Get back to work. Any kind. Just work.
The advice though is the exact opposite. Sit back, be of one that does not succumb to the obvious. Be difficult, exclusive, incommunicative, sad and boring. That they say shall build greater curiosity and strength and position.
I argue that position is no longer there, so it shall be difficult to exercise value and worth. They disagree and condemn my career thoughts. I do not give value to this, when I should. For me, the idea of independent worth of talent is non existent … they think otherwise, a has been a spent force … a anything !
Fine so I am anything, nothing … good .. it will mean coming back to normalcy pretty soon … soon enough when there is space for one like me ..
I wish all a pleasant night ..