shitty trying to be cool

Tips on how to drink to forget

1. Don’t tell anyone that you go from smiling and laughing to wishing you were dead. It puts a bad taste in others mouths.

2. As hard as it sounds being a cliche is just that, a cliche. This needs to be a “casual” self destruction not a teenage fad.

3. This skill is best appreciated in the late hours of the day when your sense of self is low enough that you don’t have to drink that much in the first place.

4. Tears are optional. But probable.

5. As much as you want to text them. Don’t. The lonesomness of the whole event will be dissaccociated if you let reality seep into your veins.

6. As much as you would like to think I am strong enough to drink myself away you’re wrong.

7.Go back and replace it with an empty mind and a broken heart. Go back and see I am too scared to die, but I also don’t want to live. This forgetting part is hard. I forgive too easy and think too much.

8. I want to drink to forget you. I want to rip myself from reality even if just briefly.

9. Shut the fridge and walk away. You aren’t strong enough to make a decision like that yet.

—  b.c.m.

remember how during the year that never was that woman sold martha out, but when things were back to normal martha brought her flowers because she understood why she did it and still respected her

even as so much of the fandom was hating on martha like mad, martha jones herself refused to villainize other women for the choices they made in difficult circumstances. and the more brilliant and badass and wonderful martha is, the sadder it makes people look for hating on her.

  • me, meeting chris jackson, pulling a legal pad out of nowhere to take notes as he signs a picture of his face from 2008: so what was it like to kiss mandy eight times a week?

I was bored and this happened 

That feeling when you’re consistently one of the youngest Jonerys shippers and you’re constantly worried that everyone else thinks you’re an immature fake fan because you didn’t know what it was back in 2011 and you’re just trying to act cool while writing shitty fanfic because that is kind of your life atm because you’re too young to get an actual job yet and so you always take it super personally whenever anyone starts with that ‘everyone who ships Jonerys is fifteen and immature’ crap because you can’t even refute it because you actually are fifteen-so you can’t be like 'I am a successful person with a successful job and a successful life who ships Jonerys…’

Also when you try to explain the amazing and intricate universe you have plotted out for your characters to your mom and she’s like “Oh that’s nice but why don’t you write your own stories once in a while?” And it’s like…well, first of all I do but no one wants to read that and also why is fanfiction such a bad thing?


After some helpful criticisms from the kind folks over at /r/bioniclelego, I made various tweaks to Lariska’s design. Most noticeable is the eradication of any green in the color scheme, making the the build a lot more coherent with just blue, grey, and silver. After the color scheme edit, the biggest change would be the head: Unsatisfied with just using the Hordika head, I tried to make it a bit more interesting. That resulted in the Roodaka-style jaw pictured here. Other changes include the shortening of the right arm to make the left one feel even more exaggerated, as well as the changing of various bits of armor.

Oh, and I also got slightly better at taking photos. They don’t look like complete shit any more; now they’re only about 30% shitty at worst.

Beth’s 2016 Fic Round-Up

It’s bee quite the year hasn’t it!! I started this blog in May, and posted my first fic within a week, and I cannot even begin to express how great the past 8 months have been with this fandom! It’s been so great getting to know all of you, and sharing in the excitement over updates and Ngozi’s amazing characters has been so much fun. 

I started this post yesterday, and then accidentally posted it, so I had to delete (wahh), but I’m going to put all the fics I’ve written this year, in chronological order, under the cut! (doesn’t include all the hc posts and very small fics, but all my stuff can be found here)

[Fics: 39, Words: 116,656 … yikes lol. Mostly NurseyDex with a sprinkling of zimbits, shitty/lardo, holsom, and poly!frogs]

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anonymous asked:

"Is that my shirt?" For Lardo and Shitty (bonus: Shitty wearing Lardo's shirt).

also dedicated to the wonderful @sleepy-skittles because it’s her birthday today!! I’, struggling with TW fic lately but here’s some shitty/lardo!!

It sucks, trying to pretend like everything’s cool and nothing matters. Lardo isn’t sure how she came unto this reputation, but it’s certainly a lot of work maintaining it. Because she does care, deeply, she’s an artist after all. She hadn’t been able to hide it when Shitty announced at her art show that he’d gotten into Harvard. Suddenly shit got real, and it hit her like a ton of bricks that her best friend in the entire world is leaving. There will be no more getting high out on the reading room, no more late night talks and early morning breakfasts and falling asleep on his shoulder on roadies. Shitty is moving on, and Lardo is going to be stuck here, struggling to regain her footing. 

She avoids him for two days after the show. In short, it sucks, but she can’t go talk to him when just thinking about graduation makes her tear up. But by the end of day two her heart feels heavy and she’s gotten way too many concerned text messages and phone calls to let it go on any longer. 

The Haus smells like apple pie, and just one look at Bitty tells her that she’s not the only one struggling with the upcoming departure of the team’s senior members. 

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fueledanger  asked:

Have you heard of the chance to get the closed Beta of a game called Last Year? It's another asymmetrical horror game but it's in first person and it's got different mechanics. They also have a discord and are on Reddit, along with their own website. ]]

* i haven’t ! thank you for telling me about the game tho. i just looked it up and it looks really intriguing ! 

  i’m not so sure if it’ll be a game for me since i am awfully closed when it comes to what kind of horror games i like :’’) after Outlast i’ve come to enjoy games where i can’t really… fight back? ultimate Hide and Seek™ simulator basically. it makes it more spooky to me since horror games where you can fight back just makes me incredibly frustrated 

  so until i learn more about the game i’m probably just gonna stick to Dead by Day.light and the likes !