shitty editting but what can i do

Totally legit facts about Gil™

* Only sleeps for like 4 hours a day

* Exists on a diet of coffee, sandwiches and whatever the future version of skittles is

* Loves vodka whilst he’s robbing everyone blind at poker

* Vodka doesn’t love him - if, and when, he’s hungover, he has to stay in bed all day and eat whilst he watches cheesy crime/detective shows (preferably whilst spooning with Ryder) 

* Him and Jill may or may not have “”””accidentally”””” conned a senior alliance officer out of ~500 credits one time at a casino on the Citadel (they were then told ‘politely’ to never come back)

* Amazingly his hair just does that - probably something to do with him working by the mass effect core all day

*  Gil spends like 20 minutes trying to shave his chin juuuuuuust right

* Never cleans up after himself when he tinkers with stuff on the ship - whenever Ryder needs to find him they just follow the trail of discarded wrenches, oil spills and sandwich crumbs (for the hungry engineer on the go) 

(was thinking about these the other night just deciding to post it now because 1) it’s a break from doing my report and 2) I’m all about that Gil Brodie)  

Writing Advice For The Rest Of Us

This post is my message to everyone else who also reads a lot of writing advice lists and feels frustrated and broken as a writer because so much of the near-universal advice doesn’t seem to work. 

1. Don’t write if you don’t feel like writing. Some writers thrive on forcing themselves to crank out words they hate. Uh, bully for them? Every time I try to write when I don’t feel like writing, I end up not only deleting all the crap I spew but also staying in a don’t-wanna-write mood for a lot longer than normal. If forcing the words doesn’t work for you, don’t do it. Give yourself time.

2. Editing before you start writing is fine. “Don’t do it!” they holler. “Make new words, don’t get stuck rewriting forever!” Fuck you, Hemingway reread every time he wrote and so can I. Even if you do wind up editing the whole time and not writing any new words, so what? Improving what you’ve got is perfectly worthwhile.

3. It’s okay to be a perfectionist. Sometimes it takes an hour to write a sentence. That is fine. Wordcount is not the end-all be-all of productivity; quality matters too. The “your first draft is just gonna be shitty, accept it” attitude doesn’t work for everyone.

4. Procrastination is good. Man, I seriously cannot tell you how much less stressful writing has become since I decided procrastination was a crucial part of my process and stopped feeling guilty about it. It gives you time to work through things subconsciously, and sometimes you get a whole lot of housework done in the process. Or a whole lot of Netflix-watching. Whatever. It’s okay. You’re okay.

5. Writing advice is a pile of bullshit. Yep, even this writing advice. The only writing advice you should really listen to is the stuff that comes from people who know you and your style and your flaws well. Everything else is a suggestion, and anyone who thinks their advice is a magical exception that applies to every writer is not worth your time.

You are not alone, and you are not broken, and you are not a bad writer just because your process is different from others. Hang in there.

Safe in Southside - S.P

1 - “You’re the only thing left that’s important to me”

4 - “You don’t get to touch her!Not anymore. Not after what you did”


A/n: this is my first sweet pea imagine! Let me know how it t goes here with a blue emoji

Originally posted by twelvevo

You ran through the Southside, phone clutched in your hand, knuckles white. Faint tears stained your cheeks, a couple still falling. The sky was dark, but not as dark as you felt.

You had come to riverdale just before Jason Blossoms murder. You had been organizing your new room with your cousin Betty when you had the news.


“Jason’s Blossoms been found in sweet water river, the scoundrel” Your Uncle spoke with hatred. You didn’t know the kid, but as you learned more about riverdale, you understood more what was going on.



Your t-shirt sat sadly on your frame, soaked to the bone, your jeans sticking to your legs like plastic wrap. You scrolled down your contact list to try and find the one person who might understand your situation.



“It wasn’t my dad!” Jughead shouted. “Shh…we know jughead. It’s not your fault”. Tears streamed down the boy’s face. You decided to leave the couple on their own and went to sit on the front step of his trailer. You plugged some music in and looked at the stars for a couple minutes until bright lights blinded your eyes. But they weren’t coming from the sky. At least 8 people got off motorcycles, some with helmets, most without.

Hey!” A man with a scraggly beard spoke, “Who are you?”

You raised an eyebrow. “I could ask the same

That was your first meeting with the serpents.



Headlights illuminated in the dark behind you. The light hum of an engine not far behind you.

This was not the time to be walking alone.

You pressed on the contact you had been looking for, pressing the phone to your ear.

“Hello?”


You walked through the halls of Southside high. You cousin had called you in hysterics about how Jughead had to go to Southside high, and since you had a free block, you had to be the one to go see him. Nothing like being related to a cooper and walking through a drug infested school.

Y/n?” Jughead asked. It looked like he had been talking to some people, but he was not happy about what was happening, you could tell from the crease in his brow. “What are you doing here?”

Your girlfriend is pretty worried that you’re in the south”

Whats wrong with the south” A pink headed girl spoke, walking closer to you.

Nothing.. There’s some snakes here I’d rather not run into”

Say that again. You’re in snake territory right now” The pink girl seemed to get more agitated the more you spoke.

No-No. That’s not what she meant” Jughead backtracked, looking at you as If to say you had really messed up.

I meant the-“ You nodded your way over to the druggies. “The oddballs”

“Oh” The girl looked unimpressed, “Those are ghoulies, not snakes. Don’t get them mixed up.”

You caught a glimpse of one of their jackets. ’Southside serpents’

Crap” You laughed a little, realizing your mistake, no one joined in. “Nothing like angering a gang as soon as I get here. I’m Y/n”


“I need help, there’s someone following me and I’m in Southside”

“Why are you in the Southside right now” The other voice on the phone asked.

“I..It’s my aunt”



What?!” Your aunt screeched.

She just found your phone that you left downstairs, and it was ringing.

Why is a Southside serpent calling you?”

Even though she was your aunt, since you moved here she was like your mother.

“I..don’t know?” You had just woken up, you didn’t need this stress right now.

You have a contact name for him!” Your aunt raged.

He’s nice..” You defended.

“He’s a snake



You tried to pick up your feet. The car still trailed behind you as you reached his house. You hid under the porch, hair drooping. You knocked on the door.

It opened quite quickly an arm grabbing yours, pulling you inside.

“What are you doing” The figure smelled like pine as he hugged you.

“My aunt happened”



Go!. Go to your room Y/n. You can’t go around dating a serpent”

“Why not?! It’s not like you’re my mother” You shouted.

“Your mother wouldn’t approve either

Well she’s not here

Go to your room!”


You hugged him loosely as you cried again.

“And then..” You sniffed.

“A car followed me here P. What if it’s that killer”

“Y/n” Sweet pea sighed, “It’s not. I promise he isn’t on the Southside”

“Okay…” You mumbled, holding onto his leather jacket for dear life.

After a minute of standing there, taking each other in, you rested your head on his chest..

You’re the only thing left that is important to me now” You mumbled.

Sweet pea looked down at you, “Don’t say that Y/n. Your cousins are important to you. Your parents are important to you. Your friends too.”

You kissed his cheek hugging him a little tighter.


BANG!


They was a knock at the door. You shrunk into his chest, shaking slightly.

“It’s fine” He pulled his knife you had seen many times before, though you weren’t sure if in this situation it would help.

Clutching onto the back of his jacket where the serpent crest rested, you peaked over his shoulder.

He pushed the door open quickly, knife in hand ready to attack.

There stood your aunt. Fuming.

“I can’t believe you Y/n. I’m trying to protect you but you keep running back to trouble. We’re going home. And you serpent scum better stay away from my niece”

She reached for your wrist, but sweet pea slapped it away.

You don’t get to touch her! Not anymore. Not after what you did!” Sweet Pea snarled at her.

“How dare you! I am her aunt!” She seethed.

Sweet pea brought the knife up, but you grabbed his hand quickly to make sure he didn’t do anything stupid.

“Yeah. You are her aunt. But you’re doing a pretty shitty job considering she feels better in the Southside”

She stood baffled, not knowing what to say, before she fumed off starting her car hastily and reversed out of the driveway very rapidly. You watched her car speed down the street back to Northside.

He closed the door, turning around and hugging you tightly. “You’re safe now, she’s gone, her cars gone. You can stay here” He mumbled in your hair.

“I don’t know how safe I am P. She wasn’t the one following me to your place”

Alternate Anime Titles
  • One Piece: The Never-ending Story: The Anime Version
  • Bleach: Literally Anything that Actually Works as a Story Title Because Bleach? Come on.
  • Free!: How Gay Can We Make this Without the Characters Actually Being Gay: Water Version
  • Fullmetal Alchemist: Shitty Father: Alchemy Edition
  • Tokyo Ghoul: Why To Never Date Anyone Ever
  • Noragami: Get Yato a Shrine 2k17
  • Neon Genesis Evangellion: Shitty Father: Robot Mindfuck Edition
  • Death Note: So THAT'S Why We Aren't Supposed to Post Our Full Name and Photo Online
  • Haikyuu: How Gay Can We Make This Without the Characters Actually Being Gay: Don't-Let-the-Balloon-Touch-the-Floor Edition
  • Attack on Titan: Shitty Father: Apocalypse Edition
  • High school of the Dead: That's Not How Boobs F*cking Work
  • Fate Series: People Die when They are Killed
  • Ajin: People Don't Die when They are Killed
  • Blue Exorcist: Shitty Father: Satan Edition
  • Yuri on Ice: How Gay Can We Make This without the Charac-- WAIT NO THEY'RE ACTUALLY GAY THIS TIME!!!
  • Code Geass: Jedi Mind Trick: The Anime
  • Jojo's Bizzare Adventure: What the Actual Fuck
  • Kill la Kill: Shitty Father: Oh Wait it's the Mom that's Shitty this Time
  • The Devil is a Part-Timer: The Entire Anime is Basically a Meme
  • Durarara: FIVE MILLION PLOTLINES AT ONCE!!!
  • One Punch Man: OOONNNNEEEE PPUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNCCCCHHHHH!!!!!
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jian + kisses

3

“I will not fight you father.”

…unless you don’t put that on the fridge. And don’t say it’s shitty because I tried okay what more can you expect after you cut off my damn hand.

Lego Star Wars: The Force Awakens (2016)

Bonus: 

Lego Star Wars II: The Original Trilogy (2006)

All of the Kardashians are trash. I never particularly had an opinion of Rob besides being petty towards his own family, but he’s officially a fuckboy asshole and I don’t care what the fuck Chyna did bc he’s a hypocrite.

I hope she can sue him for leaking her nudes, that’s such a little dick move.

EDIT: I’m not taking anyone’s side. They’re both displaying shitty behaviour that I’d expect from the popular kids in high school everyone knows but don’t really like. I don’t like anyone associated with the Kardashians or Jenners. I’m on the little kid’s “side”, I’m more concerned with them growing up and hearing all the nasty shit their parents do either for real or for publicity. I said it to an anon that this could all be a stunt and then this kid’s going to think “Wow, my parents are so fame hungry my dad would go on a tirade and ‘leak’ mom’s nudes and my mom would hint at me being a spite baby. Unbelievable.”

Paris Jackson. Picture your parent crying to you about the world hating him for something he didn’t do. And for me, he was the only thing that mattered. To see my entire world in pain, I started to hate the world because of what they were doing to him. I’m like, ‘How can people be so mean?’“ Nobody but my brothers and I experienced him reading A Light in the Attic to us at night before we went to bed. Nobody experienced him being a father to us. And if they did, the entire perception of him would be completely and forever changed. He did not bullshit us. You try to give kids the best childhood possible. But you also have to prepare them for the shitty world.

Drafts, drafts, drafts.

@danceny​ asked:

So: I don’t understand what a draft is supposed to be. (It may be because I’m not a native english speaker?) People speak of first, second, third draft and so on, the first one not being brilliant… but I have trouble understanding how different it is from an outline, and how “finished” it should look like.

Of course, it varies from one writer to another, and I realise my problem may come from not outlining enough or being too perfectionist. While I never completed any projects (yet aha), I have written “a lot” for some, and the chapters always ended up “finished” (beside some very minor revisions). Thus I’m confused as to what others mean/do with their various drafts…?

(Especially re: “the shitty first draft” as I work on a chapter until it’s “done”?) (Maybe it’s worth noting I used to publish said projects on a blog, where people read it and gave feedback, so it was understood to be a “first draft” but had to be readable.)

On First Drafts:

The method you’re using is the same thing I believe a lot of fanwriters and other writers who publish their works serially use, where they compose a chapter, finish it, go through various edits, and then have that chapter finalized so they can bring it to the public immediately. 

This is not how professionally written books (usually) work. Most novelists write the entire manuscript without editing all that much. They may go back and reread the scene they were working on the day before, or fix a few small things, but they leave the bulk of their writing exactly as they put down until every single chapter is finished. 

This is because there are many flaws you can only see once the entire story is written down. Having a detailed outline helps a lot, but no matter how much you think through your story, once a professional editor (or often times just a normal reader) gets a hold of it, they’ll pick out things you didn’t realize were there. 

Since these flaws are broad picture flaws which often stretch through many chapters, they generally require chapters to be removed or rewritten. If the writer put in the effort to polish up each chapter as they went, then having to throw away all that hard work they spent polishing it up becomes very old, very fast. 

There isn’t necessarily a right way or a wrong way to approach it, but each way offers certain benefits…

The ‘polishing up each chapter as you go’ method takes more time in the long run, but it allows you to feel confident that the chapter on its own is solid enough to publish online. This method is helpful for anyone who is trying to post their work serially and wants to have something to give their fans on a regular basis.

The ‘writing everything down before editing’ method takes less time in the long run, but means your entire manuscript sounds awful for a few drafts. This method is helpful because your ability to edit well increases exponentially once you have the full written story in front of you. 

On Second, Third, Fourth, etc, Drafts:

No matter which method you follow, you will need future drafts after your manuscript is completed. The minimum number of drafts you’ll need is entirely dependent on the complexity of the story, the number of full novels you’ve written and had thoroughly edited in the past, and the skill level of your critique partners and editors.

The key to editing is to spend the first few drafts looking at the story as a whole. Make lists of your subplots, character development, themes, character goals, etc. Re-outline your story, if that helps you. Check for pacing issues, for plot holes, for useless characters, for anything that changed from your outline and needs to be introduced differently, and all other manner of things besides prose. 

Once you’ve fixed all those, have other people read it to check that they’re interpreting everything the way you want them to, that your pacing does indeed work, that all characters are being enjoyed by someone, that the foreshadowing works in your favor, that all emotional scenes are effective, that everything fits together in your reader’s head the way it’s fitting together in yours, etc. 

You do this until your readers are understanding your book the way you meant them too. It may take two drafts or it may take five or seven or ten, depending on the complexity of the things you need understood. 

tl;dr Your first draft is complete at the point where you’ve officially written your entire story out (ie, someone could read it from beginning to end and feel like it’s a book. Possibly an awful book, but still a book.) No matter how much you edit while writing the first draft, the completion of the first draft is still just the very beginning of the writing process. 

Disclaimer; I’m sure there are many ways of writing and editing which do not follow any sort of method mentioned here, but these are the ones I know and have used in the past, so they’re what I’m talking about. This is also not meant to be an exhaustive example of how to edit, but rather of the basic schedule I like to use while editing, because it seems to work the best out of everything I’ve tried so far.  

Can we just take a moment to appreciate Jimin, like this boy he didn’t have to go through all that trouble to record, to edit to make a video just for us fans but he did?

Like he used his own valuable time and what idol this day and era has the time to do that, really. Yes, it’s not the most high quality video and yes he used iMovie as shitty as it is or so people claim but like I can see how he put his heart into it. Those who haven’t made a video wouldn’t understand because it’s not the easiest process. 

Jimin could’ve passed the videos on to BigHit, so they could do the job but NO he did himself. Just have a look at those cute as credits. I’m not even gonna bother to rant about how some think it’s fan service…because Jimin made it so much more personal than that by doing everything himself and I respect that. 

Originally posted by yourpinkpill

Writers block?

This is going to sound nuts. But, writers block is a bitch and the only way to get past it is to write. I follow a lot of prompt accounts and I suggest you do it too. If you can’t summon anything to say read these plots and just work out your writing muscles!

Remember to take a deep breath and trust your self. You can write shitty work and edit it later but you can’t edit nothing.

When you feel yourself getting back in the zone begin working on your main project. What I do is find a way to take the prompt and use the characters from my novel and put them in that situation. It allows me to work through the block but still work with my main work.

Or

Just write your main work anyway. I mean that sounds odd too but it seems to work a lot for me. Just think about the situation and just write words even if they’re bad.

Put on your favorite song, hum the hell out of it and put your attention on writing only. Get yourself a drink and put yourself in that place. You know the one.

The place that’s untouchable by reality. The one that only you can reach. Lock yourself there until you’ve overcome this episode of self doubt. Which is really all that writers block is. Your skill is still there. I promise. You just have to overcome the fear. Remember why you started writing in the first place.

Best of luck with your writing and I sincerely hope this helps.

My Top 5 fave Magnus Bane Fanvids (1st half of 2017 Edition)

What can I say? Getting the right Magnus fanvid can be the saving grace of a long and shitty day.

1. And no, it’s not just because @latinalightwood owns my heart. This is some really good shitttttt right here. 

2. Sure there’s some Malec in there (not like I’m complaining) but it doesn’t take away from the fact that @malecwings created a real masterpiece and a perfect Magnus Bane video.

3. Who do I have to sacrifice to get @xbeautifulyumex to make us moreeeee Magnus masterpieces? 2B is almost here. Please put me out of my misery! 

4. Come on, Bad Reputation was made for Magnus, it has his name written all over it and this video is perfect. Absolutely perfect. Hahahahahahaha.

5. Goddamn this vid gave me the chills. Scenes on point, music on point, editing on point, goddamn this entire video is on point.

I just want to say a huge thank you to fanviders. Y’all put in so much work and you bring us some high quality shiiiiiiit. Really, thank you, whether you’ve got only one subscriber or a million, you’re awesome and you’re doing God’s work and we might not say it often, but we sure as hell appreciate the work you do. Bless. 

As a hotshot stan words cannot begin  to describe how proud I am of both Sungwoon and Taehyun. Knowing how talented both of them are and seeing them gain nothing but praise throughout this season. Seeing them through their highs and low, seeing both of them trending multiple times , seeing Hotshot as a group trending multiple times is a concept I’ve been waiting for since their debut. Taehyun getting recognized for his dancing , Sungwoon for vocals . Then on top of that Hotshot gaining more fans (even Junhyuk was shocked how much attention they gained through this.)  And don’t even get me started on how Sungwoon went from feeling less confident about himself and being skipped over multiple times for the center position to ranking #3 out of 20 . Even though produce 101 is a shitty popularity based show with mnet’s evil editing to top it all off. I’m still happy for what it did for both Sungwoon and Taehyun it gave them a chance to show what Hotshot stans knew along how truly talented they both are. And lastly I hope Taehyun knows how truly proud we are of him even though he didn’t make it , you put your all into everything you did and the very best you could do and nothing can ever take that away from you. 

gettoknowkiribaku  asked:

kiribaku & tododenks

Send me a ship, and I’ll tell you…

KiriBaku

  • who’s the werewolf and who’s the hunter

Kirishima is the werewolf, and Bakugou is the hunter. He’s been trying to hunt Kirishima down, but I can’t fucking believe you made me your mate, shitty wolf.

  • who’s the mermaid and who’s the fisherman

Bakugou is the mermaid…er man, and Kirishima is the fisherman. Bakugou had been trying to drown Kirishima with his songs, but it just doesn’t work. I actually have an AU of this here if anyone is interested.

  • who’s the witch and who’s the familiar

Kirishima is the witch, and Bakugou is the familiar. Kirishima fails at being a witch though. He forgets all the spells, mixes up potions, and just messes up in general. Bakugou has to do everything. Seriously. Why is he the fucking familiar?

  • who’s the barista and who’s the coffee addict

Bakugou is the barista, and Kirishima is (not) the coffee addict. He just goes twice a day to see Bakugou. He also likes the way Bakugou writes his name on the cups okay. Bakugou’s handwriting is manly!

  • who’s the professor and who’s the TA

Bakugou is the professor, and Kirishima is the TA who only striven to become the TA because Bakugou is totally hot, and oh dear lord, are those reading glasses?

  • who’s the knight and who’s the prince(ss)

Kirishima is the knight in shining (red) armor, and Bakugou is the prince who (does not) need saving. Kirishima is tasked to guard Bakugou, but Bakugou really doesn’t need a guard; he can totally take care of himself. Except that time when he almost agreed to marry an ogre without knowing it which totally didn’t happen, shut the fuck up, shitty hair.

  • who’s the teacher and who’s the single parent

Bakugou is the teacher (he tries not to curse in front of the kids, he really does TRY), Kirishima is the single parent with his sweet daughter, and Hotaru, my beautiful wonderful child, don’t you have another parent-teacher meeting soon? I sort of kinda want to see your teacher and ask him out on date-I mean about your progress at school?

  • who’s the writer and who’s the editor

Kirishima is the writer, and Bakugou is the editor. Kirishima always submits his manuscripts like one day before it’s due, and omfg shitty hair, how many times do I have to edit out your confessions to me in your manuscripts, but for the record, I fucking love you too. Now can you please fucking stop writing i love you on the paper, and just tell me. We’re literally MARRIED. FOR TWO YEARS.

—–

TodoDenks

  • who’s the werewolf and who’s the hunter

Denki is the hunter; Todoroki is the werewolf, but it’s going to end in a different kind of hunting where the hunter becomes the hunted, and now Denki is getting eaten. If you know what I mean.

  • who’s the mermaid and who’s the fisherman

(part of my merman AU but actually isn’t written in that AU i linked here) Todoroki is the merman, and Denki is the fisherman, and uhm, you’ve been staring at me for five minutes, so I’m thinking you’re not planning to drown me? Can you please help me back to my boat? I’m kind of getting tired here.

  • who’s the witch and who’s the familiar

Denki is the witch; Todoroki is the familiar. Denki always almost ends up cursing himself with his spells; Todoroki needs to make sure the witch isn’t going to end up turning himself into a toad later.

  • who’s the barista and who’s the coffee addict

Denki is the barista, and Todoroki is the coffee addict who’s always at the coffee shop and well Denki always also ends up making him his coffee, and oh my god, Bakugou that guy had been staring at me. I don’t think he likes the coffee I made, what do I do?

  • who’s the professor and who’s the TA

Denki is the professor, and Todoroki  is the TA. Denki always forgets his lessons; Todoroki is always there to remind him and bring his lessons, and maybe I should discuss this lesson?

  • who’s the knight and who’s the prince(ss)

Todoroki is the prince, Denki is the knight. Uhm I’m sorry your highness, but I’m supposed to save you ??? Not the other way round???

  • who’s the teacher and who’s the single parent

Denki is the teacher, and Todoroki is the (hot) single parent. Oh you’re Shiro’s parent? You’re hot. I mean I like your hair uhm.. I mean the floor is… white?

“You mean Shiro is doing good academically?”

“That’s what I meant, be quiet Bakugou.”

  • who’s the writer and who’s the editor

Denki is the writer, and Todoroki is the editor, and why are there doodles he- oh is this me? Denki just about dies because he forget to erase those. Dear lord, save him.

gUESS WHAT i jzust spent all my savings on an iPad Pro so I can use it as a drawing tablet. With the Apple Pencil thing.  SO I am gonna be doing lots of terrible sketches all the time from now on and will be able to answer u questions with drawings really easily now. Which has been a huge barrier with me using this tumblr cos it’s just too much to draw,photograph/scan, edit and try to fix the shitty low light of the picture bcos it’s always nighttime wen I feel like drawing and not being able to upload a picture as a response to asks using my phone so it was just. UGH . And u guys always send me so many nice messages and I read them thank u ❤️ I will be trying to answer them all soon.0 thnx for patience sorry this blog ws but ghost town for a bit.  AnYway I’m not going to bother proof reading this . I have to go to work now:((( I want to play on my new toy. Iv had it for one hour ! I did u this drawing! Yay! coffee! Ok bye

Hydrangea, touken AU

Summary: AU. Touka saves Kaneki’s life one night when he tries to kill himself by jumping off a bridge. What he doesn’t know is that Touka desired to do the same thing. Trapped by despair, the two decide to make a terrible promise: to kill themselves together when fall arrives. But, could love be strong enough to give them a reason to keep on living? One-shot.

Rating: T, romance and angst | Words: 1,2213k | Read on AO3 / FF.net. If you like it, please reblog! ♥

A/N: Ahhh, it’s finally published! thank you all for having shown such a deep interest in this summary. This story was very important to me and I cried a lot while writing it. I recommend you to listen to the playlist that I made for a more immersive experience, you can listen to it here (x) Also, thank you sooooo much @timid-mew​ for editing this shitty thing! I love you <3 anyway, feedback is always welcome, enjoy the reading!

Preview:

“What are you doing?”

Her inquisitive eyes scrutinize his pale face, waiting for an answer.

“I’m trying to kill myself,” he says a few seconds after.

One, two, three…

She frowns slowly, cherry lips sighing the smoke of her cig with grace. For a moment, he catches a glimpse of melancholy in her eyes.

“Me too…” she admits, squinting her eyes after an uncomfortable pause. “You don’t strike me as someone who wants to commit suicide.” she adds afterwards, taking in his appearance one more time and concludes, “Actually, I don’t think you have the guts to do it.”

Her honesty makes him smile. From his lips, a dry and bitter giggle comes to life.

"You would be surprised.” He whispers and the kindness shining within his eyes, minutes after jumping off into the abyss, provokes a mess in her mind.

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