shit when i am gonna end this

“The Tower” AKA “What the fuck is going on” Spread


✩ Shuffle your deck
✩ When you’ve shuffled enough, pull the first card (1 in the visual) from the top and lay it down.
✩ Now, lay your deck out, upright, and find the Tower. Lay this card above card 1. 
✩ Take the three cards that were behind the Tower and lay them in positions 2, 4, and 6.
✩ Take the three cards that were in front of the Tower and lay them in positions 3, 5, and 7.

Now you read:

  1. Is this ever going to end?
  2. What started this absolute shit storm?
  3. Am I to blame?
  4. Is the worst over?
  5. What is the best way to protect myself right now?
  6. What is the lesson to be learned here?
  7. How can I regain stability in my life?

This is by far one of my favorite spreads that I’ve created. My life has been absolutely tumultuous, and I created this to try and get a better understanding of how to ride it out/when everything is gonna calm the fuck down. If this finds you in a destructive cycle of life, best of luck dear, you’re not alone.

things in musical theatre that always gets me that I realised during a road trip
  • that bit in waitress, “you’re my dOCterr”
  • the harmonisation in what’s inside
  • when dawn goes “I’m not defensive!”
  • that bit in hamilton where everyone sings over each other in non-stop
  • “I hope that you… burn”
  • when john sings the rise up bit in my shot
  • Angelica. everything she says and does.
  • the choir in once upon a december
  • “hey balaga, ho balaga, hey hey ho balaga, hey hey hey balaga, the famous troika driver”
  • Lucas Till going “WOOoooOOooOOooOOOooooOoOOooOoooOOOoooOAH”
  • and when everyone goes “corpulence”
  • honestly everything piere says like yes hand me the existential crisis
  • and whenever amber gray opens her mouth goddamn
  • when everyone sings over each other in 96,000
  • “the only room with a view is a room with you in it”
  • literally everything the piragua guy says
  • “Hey guys, it’s me! The biggest disappointment you know.” - nina is me
  • basically whenever Mandy Gonzalez sings tbh
  • in 21 chump street when naomi sings “take the money justin, please just take the money”
  • and in cousin where justin goes “looooooooooove”
  • in a day in falsetto land when they all sing over each other frick yes
  • “EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT” and then when you realise it won’t be
  • “god you’re a pAIn in the aSS”
  • literally whenever the lesbians from next door speak
  • when they harmonise in “the tango maureeeeeen” in tango: maureen
  • when joanne goes “so be wise ‘cause this girl satisfies”
  • all of seasons of love, every version, it’s beautiful and iconic and frick if that song didn’t define my childhood
  • when kevin goes “i’ll do something inCREDible that blows gods frICken mIND” in you and me (but mostly me)
  • the harmonisation in poor thing
  • when everyone sings together in arabian nights
  • the genie’s rendition of tale as old as time - petition to get James Monroe Iglehart to sing a full version
  • “Why shouldn’t I fly so far from here?”
  • heather chandler going “you’ve come so far why now are you pulling on my dICK”
  • allllll the harmonisations in candy store
  • and blue
  • in come from away when they go “I am an Islander”
  • when bev mimicks the wwii pilots “Hey lady, hey baby, hey! Why don’t you grab us a drink?”
  • and then, “well they can get their own drinks” and that cute lil laugh after
  • “suddenly there’s nothing in between me and the sKYYYYYYYYYYYYYY”
  • “And that’s how we started speaking the same language”
  • when everyone is praying together holy shit that moves me every time
  • “cause I’m freaking out, you’re freaking out and we’re all 👏 freaking 👏 the 👏 fuck 👏 out”
  • anytime someone says “you are there and I am hereeeeeeee”
  • “hot towel, hot towel, c o l d towel?”
  • in legally blonde, elles voice crack when she says “some girls were just meant to smile”
  • “and with the chance I’ve been given I’m gonna be dRIvEn aS hELL”
  • “with fear and shock and aWEEEEEEE”
  • when they’re all singing at the end of blood in the water
  • the entirety of Ireland and the reprise
  • the blatant subtext jokes in take it like a man
  • in Miss Saigon “and now I’ll leave remembering heRRRR,, just heeeeerrrr”
  • tbh whenever the engineer has a solo, I mean he was an arsehole, but it was the only fun thing in that musical
  • “I still believe he’ll come for me” - kim, my heart, my only wish was for her to happy and safe goddammit
  • the literal entirety of “ascot gazette” in my fair lady
  • and show me
  • “READY, AIM, FIRE!!”
  • the humming in wouldn’t it be lovely
  • allllll of heaven on their minds in jesus christ superstar, it’s literally the only song that hasn’t been done wrong in any version
  • also everythings alright
  • okay there’s so much for newsies so this’ll be short but “Newsies on a mission! Kill the competition! Sell the next edition! We’ll be out there, CARRYING THE BANNER”
  • dear evan hansen in waving through a window going “WAVING, WAVING WOAAAAAAHHHHHHH WOAHOHOHOH”
  • “has been hard (hard) has been bad (bad) has been rough. (KINKY!)”
  • “if I stop smoking crACk”
  • alll of you will be found
  • “DONT BE A PENIS THE MAN IS A GENIUS” - iconic from something rotten! every. fucking. time
  • all of it’s hard to be a bard
  • in do you hear the people sing “IT’S THE MUSIC OF THE PEOPLE WHO WILL *NOT* BE SLAVES AGAIN”
  • frick literally all of les mis is iconic

Okay that’s pretty much all I got through before my phone went flat and then the trip was boring but yeah

Prompt Requests!

Hey guys I got super bored so here is a prompt list, I don’t have any time limits for this one so just request them if you want whenever! Also feel free to use these for you’re own blogs!

1. Go to hell”
2. “Fuck You”
3. "Fuck me!”
4. “Fuck”
5. "I’m so happy I could kiss you”
6. "Forever?” …"Forever!”
7. "Sorry I’m late”
8. "I’m so sorry…”
9. "Why me?”
10. "Stop it!”
11. "Don’t you dare!”
12. "Truth or Dare?’
13. "Do you trust me?” …"Always”
14. "Don’t you trust me?”
15. "What? Didn’t see that coming?”
16. "Please come home safe…”
17. "I can’t lose you, Not again…”
18. "Take it out on me…”
19. "What happened?”
20. "Have you been crying?”
21. "I always know”
22. "It’s midnight, what do you want?”
23. "Kiss me”
24. "Why?”
25. ”Son of a bitch”
26. "How are you?”
27. "Where have you been?”
28. "I swear”
29. "You don’t need to be demanding”
30. "I need a strong drink and some pain killers”
31. "This is the end, isn’t it?”
32. "I miss you”
33. "See you at home”
34. "You, me, bed now”
35. "Care to explain?”
36. "Can we please_____”
37. "For the love of god”
38. "We can never catch a break can we?”
39. "Now, where’s the fun in that?”
40. "Do me a favour? Stand back.”
41. "Stand down”
42. "Hold me”
43. "You better hope my mom doesn’t find out”
44. "Where are we?”
45. "Did you even look at a map?”
46. "Hallelujah”
47. "Is that blood?”
48. “Do you want me to leave?”
49. "I swear it won’t happen again.”
50. "I’m not jealous.”
51. "You can’t keep doing this.”
52. "I’m going to take care of you, okay?”
53. "You can’t die. Please don’t die.”
54. "You did what?!”
55. "Were you ever going to tell me?”
56. "Don’t ask me that.”
57. "Say it!”
58. "I could kiss you right now!”
59. "Are you still awake…?”
60. "Excuse you?”
61. "This is all your fault!”
62. "I shouldn’t be in love with you.”
63. "I could kill you right now!”
64. "Just admit I’m right.”
65. "That doesn’t even make sense.”
66. "That’s irrational.”
67. "Just pretend to be my date.”
68. "Are you really going to leave without asking me the question you’ve been dying to ask me?”
69. "When you love someone, you don’t just stop. Ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy… even then. Especially then!”
70. "I think I’ve been holding myself from falling in love with you all over again.”
71. "I’m not going to apologise for this. Not anymore.”
72. "That’s almost exactly the opposite of what I meant.”
73. "It must be hard with your sense of direction, never being able to find your way to a decent pickup line.”
74. "Can I sit here? The other tables are full.”
75. "You weren’t supposed to laugh!”
76. "This is, by far, the dumbest thing you’ve ever done.”
77. "I’m not going to stop poking you until you give me some attention.”
78. "Before I do this, I need you to know that I have always loved you.”
79. "Did I say that out loud?”
80. "Do you think you could have loved me?”
81. "Everyone keeps telling me you’re the bad guy.”
82. "How long have you been standing there?”
83. "Have I ever lied to you?”
84. "Have you lost your fucking mind?”
85. "I am not losing you again!”
86. "I had a nightmare about you and I just wanted to make sure you’re okay.”
87. "When I picture myself happy… It’s with you.”
88. "I made a mistake.”
89. "I may be an idiot, but I’m your idiot.”
90. "I see the way you look at me when you think I’m not looking.”
91. "I think I’m in love with you and that scares me half to death.”
92. "I’m not good enough for you.”
93. "I fell in love with my best friend.”
94. "I’m sorry, what? I keep getting lost in your eyes.”
95. "I’m up to the challenge.”
96. "I’m yours.”
97. "If I didn’t know any better, I’d say you were trying to seduce me.”
98. "If you go anywhere near them, you’ll have to deal with me!”
99. "It’s okay to cry…”
100. "Talk to me.”
101. "Look at me—just breathe, okay?”
102. "Look, I don’t have much time, but I wanted to say I love you.”
103. "Well, this is where I live.”
104. "What are you afraid of?”
105. "You are the single best thing that has ever happened to me.”
106. "You deserve so much better.”
107. "You don’t have to stay.”
108. "You don’t know you the way I do.”
109. "You fainted, straight into my arms. You know, if you wanted my attention, you didn’t have to go to such extremes.”
110. "You need to wake up because I can’t do this without you.”
111. "You shouldn’t have even been there!”
112. "You weren’t supposed to hear that.”
113. "You’re safe now. I’ve got you.”
114. "Teach me?”
115. "We’re in the middle of a thunderstorm and you want to stop and feel the rain?”
116. "Looks like we’ll be stuck here for a while.”
117. "Just once.”
118. "I can’t believe you talked me into this.”
119. "It’s not what it looks like.”
120. "I got you a present.”
121. "Hey! I was gonna eat that!”
122. "See, now, what that so bad?”
123. “You’re the best part of me.”
124. "I don’t want to think about what I’d be like without you.”
125. "Can I hold your hand?”
126. "It’s a real shame nobody asked for your opinion.”
127. "What time is it?”
128. "Just wait a second.”
129. "Here, let me.”
130. "You’re so cute when you pout like that.”
131. "I don’t care what they said, it doesn’t mean shit!”
132. "This isn’t gonna end well!”
133. "Did you enjoy yourself last night?”
134. "Are you kidding me? We’re not ‘fine’!”
135. “You’ve only heard his side of the story. You never asked for mine.”
136. "Oh my God! You’re in love with him/her!”
137. "You make me feel like I’m not good enough.”
138. "For some reason I’m attracted to you.”
139. "I am not losing you again.”
140. "Why don’t they just kiss already?”
141. Why do you keep pushing me away?”
142. "I can’t explain right now, but I need you to trust me.”
143. I’ve never felt this way before….and it scares the shit out of me.”
144. "Don’t fucking touch me!”
145. "Are you really taking his side against me?”
146. "Wait a second are you jealous?”
147. "I wish I could hate you.”
148. "Come over here and make me.”
149. "This is by far the stupidest plan you’ve ever had. Of course I’m in.”
150. "You’re the only one I trust to do this.”
151. "I thought you were dead.”
152. "This isn’t just about you. It’s about what’s best for all of us.”
153. "I love you, you asshole.”
154. "You did this for me?”
155. "You can’t protect me.”
156. "You know I wouldn’t do this if I had any other choice.”
157. "I’m so stupid to make the mistake of falling in love with my best friend.”
158. "The way you flirt is shameful/shameless.”
159. “I just wanted an easy day with my girlfriend/boyfriend. What’s so wrong with that?”
160. "Go then, leave! See if I care!”
161. "You braided his hair?”
162. "Have you lost your damn mind?!”
163. "Please don’t argue. You have to leave right now, you aren’t safe here.”
164. "I’m not surprised that you murdered him.”
165. Am I supposed to be scared of you?”
166. "Is that what you’re doing? Trying to make me to hate you?”
167. "If he’s going to treat you like shit I’m going to kick his ass.”
168. "You’re hiding something from me.”
169. "You better have a good reason for waking me up at the ass-crack of dawn.”
170. "I don’t know what I did to deserve you.”
171. "Don’t you dare to ever do that again!”
172. "Man, you are a dream come true.”
173. "Everyone keeps telling me you’re the bad guy.”
174. "I made a mistake.”
175. "H-How long have you been standing there?”
176. "Is the skirt is supposed to be this short?”
177. “This is why you don’t ever have any shirts to wear.”
178. "Please, don’t give up on me.”
179. "When are you going to realize that I don’t care?”
180. "Those things you said in there… Did you mean them?”
181. "I know that you have reached a decision, but given that it is a stupid ass decision I have elected to ignore it”
182. "Who gave you that black eye?!”
183. "What the hell are you doing here?! I told you I never wanted to see you again!”
184. "I’m sorry, what were you saying? I keep getting lost in your eyes.”
185. "It’s okay baby, I’m here for you.”
186. "You say the nastiest things when you’re angry, so yes, I’m walking away from you now.
187. "I’m starting an idiot jar. Any time you do or say anything idiotic, you have to put at least a dollar in it—more depending on how stupid the thing that you said or did was.”
188. "You haven’t even touched your food. What’s going on?”
189. "If you don’t want to talk about what happened, then say so. Don’t just lie and say it’s fine.”
190. "Don’t you dare say you love me!”
191. “It’s a hobby of mine to prove you wrong.”
192. "I swear I didn’t mean to touch your butt.”
193. "Why are you wearing my shirt? Please, don’t take it off. It looks good on you.”
194. "enjoying the view?”
195. "go on, just leave! that’s what everyone does anyway.”
196. "who did this to you?”
197. "that’s a bad idea.”"name a better idea, then.”
198. "quick, kiss me.”
199. "you’re such a distraction.”
200. "i’m doing this to protect you.”
201. "get the fuck back to sleep, (y/n).”
202. "we’re not dating— ugh whatever.”
203. "i can’t let anything happen to you.”
204. "i leave for just a minute and this happens!”
205. "what? i thought you two were a thing.”

I hate you so much, it must be true love

Murphy x Reader, little bit of Bellamy x Reader

Warnings: smut, nsfw, some swearing…I am trash…

Summary: After an argument about Pike, you and Bellamy break up. You want to hurt him. When you and Murphy get to talking you two start a love/ hate relationship. Things get heated. Fluff ending.

Ahem….I decided that there was not enough Murphy smut in this world. I’m usually more of a Bellamy girl but…he’s been a little brainwashed shit lately so I got more inspired by Murphy. I’m gonna consider this a oneshot I guess…slight POV change in the middle there. Sorry it’s a long one. I just couldn’t stop myself. Also sorry if it’s not good. It’s my first one and considering it’s mine…ofc it’s smut. :)


“I can’t believe what I’m hearing.” you say turning away from your boyfriend…well…kinda boyfriend. You and Bellamy had been sharing a room for four months now, ever since Clarke left. But sharing a bed was not all that you and Bellamy did at night. Everything was starting to look fine, until now.

“You actually think that this headcase is right? That anything Pike does is for ‘the good of the people’?!” You throw your arms in the air facing Bellamy, anger starting to fuel your actions. “Y/n, the grounders can’t be trusted. You of all people should know that!” “ Oh, don’t you dare bring this up right now!”

You lost your best friend in the ring of fire created to stop the grounder attack. That whole thing was a bit taboo, Bellamy had never even brought it up to you before right now. You felt betrayed by Bellamy. You had loved him, but you could no longer stand by his side with this.

“I’m sorry, but this is the hard truth. The grounders want us dead and if we don’t do something now, they will have their way. Pike understands that, why can’t you?” He crosses his arms and clenches his jaw. You can see that neither of you is going to back down from this.

“Believe me, I understand. But what you’re talking about….it’s bound to start another war. One that we might not be able to survive.” you step closer to him and lower your voice, fighting back the tears. “You’re talking about slaughtering 300 innocent people who were sent here to protect us!” You hear your voice break as a tear sets loose. Neither of you seem to be able to believe what the other is saying. Bellamy raises his voice completely overtaken by his stubbornness.

“Innocent!? Each and every one of these savages is to be blamed for the amount of people we’ve all lost. They started this, Y/n. We’re just going to end it.” Bellamy’s not the man that you thought he was. This proves it.

“Where do you think you’re going?” Bellamy yells after you as he sees you grab your packed bag and jacket. “I can’t do this anymore, Bell. It’s over and you know it.”


It has been a week. You haven’t even talked to Bellamy. You could barely look at his face since the massacre. To you Bellamy had become the monster he’d thought the grounders to be. He’d returned the battle unharmed, that somehow upset you even more. You wanted to hurt him, you wanted him to feel the pain that cursed through your heart and shadowed your mind.

“Why the sad face, Princess?” *ugh* Murphy was the last person you wanted to see. You’d never really talked to Murphy before. Bellamy always told you to stay away from him, that he was a murderer and that you would get hurt…but then again, Bellamy wasn’t here was he? His opinion no longer mattered to you.

“Boy drama.” You were sitting on a cut down log with bottle of whiskey in your hand. You’re guessing you didn’t look so good if even Murphy had noticed. “I see. So things must be going great with Bellamy.” He says with exaggerated sarcasm.

“Well, you could say that. I mean…we broke up about a week ago.” You finally look up at him. He looks disheveled. You all do most of the time. No time to sit in front of a mirror really.

“Eesh, tough luck. Mind if I sit here?” He asks gesturing the makeshift chair. “Sure.” You scoot over a bit to give him some space, and offer him a drink.

“No thanks. Can’t really drown my demons anymore. Those fuckers learned how to swim.” You chuckle a bit. Taking a sip for yourself. “What happened to your arm?” You ask pointing to the bandages on his forearm. “Uhm, dinner tried to eat me first I guess.” He gives you a crooked smile and you smile back. He doesn’t seem half as bad as Bellamy had made him out to be.


A few days had passed. You enjoyed Murphy’s company though you’d never tell anyone so. You two always bickered and flirted shamelessly.

“Hey, asshole! Has your face always looked this messed up or did you just forget to put on makeup today?” You give him a goofy smile as he gets closer. “Sup, bitch? What are you even doing here, shouldn’t you be workin’ the street corner?” He smiles back at you and you both shake your heads.

“Poor form, but nice try.” “Yeah, I’m not too proud of that one. I’ll keep working on it. You free tonight?” You always hung out in the evening after your shifts so you agreed to do the same tonight.

He made you happy. None of the others approved of your friendship but you didn’t mind basking in your hedonism. Especially because of the way you knew this made Bellamy feel. He hadn’t really stopped caring for you, but atleast he’d stopped his efforts to make contact with you.

Tonight was bonfire night…but something else was different. You sat a lot closer to Murphy. Your voice sounded a lot more sultry. Maybe it was because you could feel Bellamy’s eyes burn holes into your side. But that wasn’t it. You felt weirdly drawn to Murphy. He was smart, and funny. He made you feel safe enough to open up to him. Tell him things about yourself you never even allowed yourself to think of. You seemed to have the same sort of affect on him. Tonight, after a few drinks, your morals had disappeared and lust had settled in.

You dragged him off to a quiet hallway, away from peering eyes. You leaned against a wall and pulled him closer to you. He stared deep into your eyes, glancing at your lips every now and then. He placed a hand on your waist, squeezing a little to bring you closer. He wrapped his other hand in your hair, tugging at the strands as he ground himself against you.

“You want this, Princess?” His hot breath on your face made shivers run down your spine. You wrapped your arms behind his neck and a leg behind his. You kissed him passionately, letting your tongues explore each-others mouths as he lifted your leg higher around his waist so you could feel his erection grind against you through the unnecessary layers of clothing.

You reluctantly pull away from the kiss. He looks at you with a confused yet determined look on his face. “What’s wrong?” “Nothing, I just-” you gasp as he starts kissing your neck, definitely leaving marks for later. It feels so good so you urge him not to stop as you talk.

“I need you to remember, that I still hate you. This-this is just a momentary lapse of weakness brought on by involuntary abstinence. And I can’t do this if you feel something else or whatever. So I must ask. Do you hate me?” He stops for a little bit to look you in the eyes. His eyes seem darker, more focused. He clenches his jaw and shifts his eyes for a second. “Yea, sure.”

You didn’t really believe him but you also didn’t really care. You had never been too great with emotions but you could see he was a little scolded. But right now your brain had no power. Your body wanted him, and he wanted you.

“Then hell yea I want this.” That was the last coherent sentence you spoke. You pulled on his hair as he disheveled yours. The only thing cooling you down was the cold metal you were pinned up against.


Bellamy’s POV

He’d been drinking all night like everyone else. He needed a drink after seeing Y/n drape herself all over Murphy’s lap. He still cared for her, but he wasn’t sure if she cared for him. Maybe she was just trying to make him jealous. Maybe there was still hope for them.

He said goodnight to the rest of the guard and stumbled over to the Ark. He was heading down the halls when he stopped dead in his tracks. He couldn’t believe his eyes. Y/n and Murphy tangled up against a wall. Murphy seemed to notice him standing there but all he did was pull away from the kiss to give Bellamy a crooked smile before grabbing Y/n’s breast, kneading it in his hands as she moaned in his ear and sloppily kissed her neck.

Bellamy couldn’t take this. He practically ran back to the bonfire. He needed a few dozen more drinks before he could let himself think again.


Y/n’s POV

You’re still slightly intoxicated, yet everything seems much clearer. Murphy’s kissing your neck, sucking and biting at all the right places. You moan louder than you wanted to. You plead for Murphy to take you to your room.

When you somehow finally get there Murphy picks you up. You’re straddling him and kissing him while he kicks the door closed. You help him shrug off his jacket and do the same with your own. You’re tugging at his shirt as you try to get rid of yours. Once you succeed you find yourself on the bed. Frantically kissing him as he swiftly removes his shirt.

Your bodies are tightly pressed against each-other. His hands are roaming your body as you try to make the most of what he’s allowing you to move. He starts kissing down your jaw, your neck, stopping to suck and nibble at your nipples, kneading your breast with one hand. Then continues kissing your stomach, all the way down to your aching core. He strips you of your pants and underwear, kissing your inner thighs. Your back arches off the bed as he licks straight over your wet heat.

“All ready for me aren’t you?” He asks you meeting your gaze. You can’t help but stare. He looks so hot between your legs. “Yes-yes, Murphy. Gosh, just fuck me already!” “Impatient little doll. I promise you, I’ll make this worth your while.” And oh was he right. He shifts his focus from your eyes back to your core. He’s like Picasso with his tongue. He makes you grab the sheets in a pathetic attempt to steady yourself as you unravel and let out moans, screams and cusses of his name. Once he’s done you’ve already become a panting mess. He wipes your fluids off his chin and smirks at you.

“You were right, totally worth it!” You smile at him as gets up on his knees in front of you. “I’m always right.” “So you are.” You lift yourself off the bed to place sloppy kisses to his abdomen. You run your hands up the middle of his chest and down his sides, settling them on his belt. You keep kissing his hip bones and his small happy trail as you undo his belt and zipper. He helps you slide off his pants, his eyes glued to your every motion. You kiss the fabric that covers his erection. “Do you want me? Say you want me.” Your voice is light, yet sultry as ever. He practically groans his answer. “Yes, fuck yes I want you!” He pulls you up to kiss him again.

Soon enough he releases your body just enough that you can start kissing all the way down his neck, shoulders and chest. You take off his underwear and lay a firm grip on his throbbing cock. He throws his head back as you lick a small circle around his tip and pump a few times. He can’t seem to look away and decides to hold back your hair. Barely pushing you in any direction. You take him in your mouth little by little. His groaning, swears and moans of your name getting louder with each pump.

“That’s it, Princess! You’re in trouble now!” He pushes you back on the bed. Kissing you deeply, rubbing small circles around you clit. You’re now begging him for a release again. And he is sure willing to oblige. He pulls away and grabs his cock to guide himself through your entrance. You both groan from pleasure. You nod a little, giving him the ok to start moving. You’re both near your climaxes so his pace quickens. Any attempts of kissing fail because your mouth keeps dragging down his chin with each thrust. But neither of you mind.

He’s holding himself up on one elbow, burying his other hand’s fingers in your hips. You drag your fingernails over his back almost painfully enough to draw blood. This makes him grunt even more, his face still buried in the crook of your neck. You even bite his shoulder a little. His length slightly painful, but all the more enjoyable.

The rest of the world no longer exists. Just you and him. You barely hear the people outside. All you can sense is the sweat, the sound of skin against skin, the waves of pleasure washing over you. You keep working in harmony with his thrusts. Your eyes too intrigued by the movements of his lean muscles to dare close. You glance at the place where your bodies meet and feel yourself unraveling underneath him.

You scream his name into oblivion and his movements become less calculated and more uneven as he comes from the feeling of your walls clenching around him. He moans your name in response as he rides out both of your orgasms. He pulls out soon enough. Both of you panting and unable to speak as he lays beside you. You feel weak and you’re shivering, but not from cold. From absolute extacy.

Once you’ve both regained your composure you curl up to his side. He lifts one of your legs up over him and you place a hand on his chest to draw circles on his skin.

“That was…amazing.” He says smiling at you in the glow of the moonlight shining through the small window. “Yeah, it was. Would love to repeat that sometime soon.” You smile back at him. He kisses your head. “Wouldn’t miss it for the world.”


Soon enough you feel yourself drifting off to sleep, until he speaks up again. “I lied earlier.” “What?” You rub your eyes a little until you can clearly see the guilty look on his face as he stares at the ceiling.

“What are you talking about?” He licks over his lips and looks at you. “Earlier, when I said that I hated you…I didn’t mean a word of it. I’m sorry but, you’re actually one of the few people I like in this hellhole. The only person, to be exact.”

You just keep smiling at him. “I know.” “Wha- but you said…” He looks at you with the same confused look from earlier, except this one isn’t shadowed by lust, it’s shaded by hope. “I know what I said. And I lied too. I actually like you too.” You kiss him for reassurance, before turning over and tugging him to spoon you. You’re both fading to sleep as you hear him mumble.

“Thank god.”

eliasraine  asked:

Tumblr Mom, how do you fight despair? I'm sorry for dumping this on you all of a sudden, it's just that things have sort of come to a head recently and I'm just lost.

I try to laugh. And if I cant find something funny to feel good about, I try to make something amusing for others to enjoy.

Create things, feed yourself, feed others, get help if you need it and reach out to others if you can. If not that’s okay too. Sometimes the only person you can save is yourself.

Acts of self care and finding small moments of joy in a world turned dark by despair, are also acts of rebellion. They are human and necessary. They say to the darkness, I am still here and despite or even to spite you, I am here.

It’s our capacity for love and joy that mark our humanity, not our endurance for suffering. Take some time to breathe. Lie down and regroup, it’ll make it all the better rise up swinging. Whether its a punch or a punchline at the end of it.

Take care friend, I know you know that all things strive, and it’s no mean feat to take light into dark places when everything feels so bleak. But we’re gonna beat this shit. One day at a time if we have to.


“the darksider will not be able to open your jedi holocron.”

+  |  breakup  /  angst   lyric  sentence  starters.

feel free to alter to fit muses.

“I am in love with somebody and guess what? It’s not you.”

“I’m sorry to say we can’t go back to yesterday.”

“I am only me when I’m without you.”

“I wish I was there in your room again.”

“I made more mistakes that you can count.”

“I got some things to say, I will never say ‘em to your face.”

“Loving you is hard, being here is harder.“

“The truth is I never bought into your bullshit.”

“You could be a bad motherfucker but that don’t make you a man.”

“I thought we were lovers.”

“Who am I to tell you that you need to change?”

“Keep saying sorry, fuck your lies.“

“I always wondered when you stopped loving me.”

“I can’t fucking think of any words to say“

“I don’t deserve this, you fucking nightmare“

“I can’t fucking think of any reason I should stay”

“You’re never gonna love me, so what’s the use?“

“You’re too proud to say that you’ve made a mistake.”

“You’re a coward 'til the end.”

“I’m so full of shit, I’m surprised you bought it.”

“It feels like we are slowly dying.”

“I’m not something to butter up and taste when you get bored.”

“I don’t know, and I don’t want to know.”

“It’s not that I don’t have words to say, I just don’t want to be the one that speaks them”

“It’s the small things that make you feel mad”

“I’ll see you when I’m not fucking around.”

“Your love is deadly.”

“You’re wasting all your time keeping me around.”

“You might hate my words but you know that I’m right.”

“It’s no big surprise you turned out this way.”

“How the hell am I supposed to hold you back?”

“Don’t you dare say you ever loved me or even tell me that you cared.”

“How dare you say you miss me with your spit still on his/her/their tongue?”

“You are the chill that haunts the room.”

“My love for you was bulletproof, but you’re the one who shot me.”

“God damn it, I can barely say your name.”

“All the words I said were wrong, they don’t mean nothing to you”

“When I say let’s keep in touch, I really mean I wish that you’d grow up.”

“Only talk to me when you have nothing else on that day.“

“Don’t talk to me like you’ve always got something to prove.”

“I’m gonna give my love to someone else”

“Oh my god, I think I’ll let you win.”

“How can I keep letting you back in?”

“I sit here, wondering if anything you said was true“

“So sad I could never make you stay”

“But I couldn’t give a fuck whether you give a fuck or not.”

“I know I’ll make it out of here alive as long as I don’t watch your life.”

“You weren’t the only one who thought of us that way.”

“Bullshit, you fucking miss me.”

“We’re alive, but we’re not alright.”

“You loved me, you killed me.”

“I’m alone and i don’t wanna feel so sad.”

“You’re still not like the rest and I don’t know whats up next.”

“You pretend you didn’t see me cry.”

“I like you best when you’re just with me and no one else“

“I was wrong, but lets be honest, you were too.”

“I’m so tired, or maybe just bored, I can’t really tell the difference whenever I’m talking to you”

“The way that your hip bones dug into my hip bones is leaving me lusting for you.”

anonymous asked:

if requests are still open! rfa reacts to a sweet, cute, considerate and polite mc who... also happens to swear like a sailor when frustrated. keep up the good work! i love this blog ^0^

requests are always open! and dsfjaj holy shit this is literally me.  i am mc.  hERE WE GOO


  • so at first he’s completely enamored
  • like you are who he always imagined he would end up with
  • “i’m so fucking pissed.  this stupid son of a bitch thought he was gonna play games and shit–”
  • you were just ranting to the chatroom
  • poor yoosung thought his eyes were bleeding when he read it
  • uses the shock and crying emoji the whole time you’re ranting


  • really happy he’s got such a polite s/o
  • “this is the type of person i would take home to meet my parents” if i still talked to my parents
  • thinks you’re so cute and the purest thing ever
  • when the other members cuss he’s kinda like “gaSP” and gets really mad
  • feels like he’s gonna faint
  • thinks you just got it from the other members lmao he doesn’t wanna believe otherwise


  • “thank god we have someone sensible”
  • always dotes on you for being so well-mannered
  • she starts getting suspicious bc no way someone could be this polite??
  • and then you curse up a storm
  • “this asshole just cut me off while i was speaking and i swear i was gonna choke slam her into the fucking ground–”
  • Jaehee Kang leaves the chatroom.
  • when she comes back she starts scolding you for using such language


  • his initial reaction is similar to jaehee’s
  • he’s so tired of dealing with people like zen and seven so this is a welcome break
  • gives you a lot of subtle compliments on your behavior
  • only slightly surprised when you curse for the first time in front of them
  • he knew it was bound to happen and only slightly reprimanded her, telling her to calm down


  • ”there’s no fucking way mc is this nice”
  • doesn’t buy it for a second
  • constantly tries to get you to cuss and gets frustrated when the closest thing you say is “darn”
  • uses his fist pumping emoji when you finally get upset about something and start cussing
  • until you realize you’re yelling at him
  • and then he just zooms out of the chatroom before you manage to find a way to murder him through the phone
Rock You Like A Hurricane

to celebrate being done with finals here is pure filth of steve getting rimmed lmao

“On the bed,” Billy instructs pushing Steve face down onto the covers. Steve huffs, because of course Billy turns into an animal the minute they get alone. 

“Billy,” Steve says, attempting to turn over onto his back, “What the fuck man?”

“Shut up pretty boy.” He says, pushing him by the shoulder back down and forcing his chest back onto the bed. Steve can’t suppress the shiver he feels when Billy mouths down his spine, and suddenly he wants that mouth everywhere. He can’t help the whine that tears itself out of his throat when Billy pulls his jeans down. He hears Billy laugh, “Don’t worry princess, I’ll take good care of you.” 

When Billy doesn’t do anything, Steve looks over his shoulder at Billy and can’t help the burning on his cheeks, “Stop staring at my ass and do something.” He tries to demand, but it sounds more like a whine. If a month ago someone told Steve that he would be laying on his bed, ass in the air for Billy Hargrove, like some red-light district whore, he would have decked them. However, here he is shivering in arousal.

“Spread your legs more.” Billy says.

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Basically Fairy Tail, in no specific order

  • Wooossshhhh fiiiAAHH
  • Awww friendship
  • Wow there is lots of boobies
  • He burned something else, didn’t he
  • Natsu don’t do that
  • Gray fullbuster stop pulling a Sasuke
  • TF you mean they’re brothers
  • Oh and of cOURSE he’s a demonic book
  • Remember when it was simple and we only had to worry about past! Gajeel? Me too
  • Tease, tease, tease
  • Boobies
  • Oh fuck me over we’re all gonna die
  • These couples are all obviously couples but are shy with PDA
  • A Q U A R I U S W H E R E R U
  • Goddamnit natsu
  • Oh shit oh shit ohshitohshit
  • Friendship! is! Magic!
  • Big explosion, fiiaahhh, crying
  • Lots and lots of crying
  • Zeref, basically: I am in pain so I want to die but I want you all to die with me so yolo
  • *episode 122 flashbacks*
  • Holding hands
  • The End

anonymous asked:

what would it be like if you were just a part of the deh friend group and everyone talked about their emotional problems with you and everyones parents just love you sm

honestly i can relate a little bc people talk to me about stuff and parents tend to love me. probably because i’m very :))) around them because of The Anxiety. that or i dont seem like i do illegal shit which is valid i guess


  • so it kinda started with evan, although you did grow up in the same neighborhood as the murphys so you kind of knew connor and zoe and sometimes talked to them
  • but anyway u befriended evan and at some point he started missing school days consecutively and u immediately start worrying about him like??? evan u ok
  • u go by his house to bring him notes and stuff he missed and to check up on him and heidi’s there and she’s like ‘aw its so sweet that ur here for evan im glad he has a friend’
  • evan was surprised to see you tbh but you offered to talk and he kind of rejected a little before u promised that everything would stay between u two, just in case he was worried about that or something
  • evan swears he’s fine and u tell him ur there if he needs you before leaving
  • heidi is confused bc she’d thought u might stay longer but she says ur always welcome and she’s just a sweetheart
  • evan comes back to school and he hangs around u a bit and jared kinda wanders ur way as well since ur friends with evan, y’know, u cant be that bad, right?
  • jared actually likes u a bit more after playing video games 
  • u befriend alana after an project together and she’s v sweet?? but u just kinda get this feeling from her
  • her parents loved u from the moment u walked in tbh??? apparently u just have this aura of caring around u
  • jareds parents also rly love u??? u get along rly well with jared and they’re glad he has more than just evan!!
  • u dont remember how exactly zoe started talking to u but she did randomly approach u and ask if u lived a few houses down from her one day??? and ur like ‘yeah’
  • eventually she kind of just… popped up and invited u over if u wanted
  • the murphys recognized u and it turns out u used to come over when u were little and were friends with connor n zoe
  • u tried to reach out to connor and he kind of snapped at u bc zoe probably put u up to that, right? or maybe fucking kleinman just wants another laugh-
  • u tell him ur here whenever he needs it, because honestly you’d punch jared for that sort of shit. zoe u would probably just leave but u would punch jared kleinmeme
  • connors like ‘…k’
  • look at these friends
  • jared probably made some self-deprecating joke and laughed it off and ur like ‘wait, dude-’
  • he got defensive over it
  • ur like ‘k’
  • eventually alana comes over to ur house because stress n shit is getting to her and ur like ‘i got u’ and she just kinda confides in u about shit
  • the two of u are really close after that
  • evan missed school again
  • u head over there and heidi isnt there and evan lets u in after being surprised bc ur there??? again???
  • theres a lil more trust there
  • eventually evan opens up to u a little through his rambling and then ur basicaly like ‘evan im here for u, alright??’
  • zoe came over and vented about connor to u
  • :(
  • jared eventually vents to you??? he’s insecure and it sucks and u do ur best to talk to him
  • eventually u kinda try reaching out to connor
  • it takes a while but eventually he suddenly texts u at like, 2 am, and u meet him out on his front lawn and he ends up yelling about his problems and its kinda scary but he’s breaking down and holy fuck
  • he’s surprised when u dont run off
  • he’s also surprised when he goes to school and doesn’t hear people giving him shit from telling u said problems
  • he approached u like ‘wtf we need to talk’ and its :) well im dead what did i do
  • he asked u why the fuck didnt u tell anyone and ur like
  • ‘… because thats personal shit and i’m not gonna spill everything because that’s really fucking shitty for someone to do’
  • suddenly connor starts… actually talking to u?
  • everyone talks to u???
  • theres a group chat eventually of friends and sometimes at 3 in the morning theres memes
  • and then sometimes at 3 am u get someone texting u and talking to u about shit
  • evan once vaguely mentioned needing bandaids and u were at his house in twenty minutes and he didnt even do anything he just accidentally got scratched by something but like
  • wow u actually drove to walmart to buy a box of bandiads and came to his house at two in the morning, what the fuck ur nice
  • ur just kind of a constant shoulder to cry on and someone to vent to and its rly appreciated
  • heck, one week u missed a few days of school due to being sick and connor murphy was at ur fuckn house checking on u???
  • and like, at some point ur not having a great day and they just kind of band together to get some of ur fave snacks and have a movie night and its a nice little surprise??? like wow
  • thats all i got nonny theres just a lot of gratitude toward u because ur there??? and u care and listen and do ur best to help them if u can

my reaction if ____ is the season 4 main:

sana: YOOOOOOOO! WE WE’RE RIGHT!!!!! HERE WE GO i’m SO ready to learn more about her like what to we know about her home life??? she has a brother??? who might be married?????? aka nothing we know nothing I’M SO PUMPED SHE’S 👏  GONNA 👏  SLAY 👏  EVERY 👏  DAMN 👏  DAY we gonna get taught everyday!!!!! get taught about islam and feminism and i can’t wait to explore her flaws and her journey oH MAN LETS GOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

even: HOLY SHIT??!?! IT’S HAPPENING ????? THIS IS HAPPENING !!!!!!! I AM 100% NOT EMOTIONALLY PREPARED who’s ready to cry eveRY DAY I’M ALREADY CRYING OH NO we gonna see his beautiful face so much and listen to him talk and explore his character in so much depth and see through his eyes his bipolar disorder and get backstory and fuCK IM NOT READY I’M 👏  NOT 👏  READY 👏  

literally any other character: ?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? holy shit??????!

anonymous asked:

Ok but yousef's 'but what was i going to say?' NOW WE KNOW WHAT HE WAS GOING TO SAY BUT DIDN'T

can you BELIEVE every time he looked at her he was thinking about her being his soulmate??? can you BELIEVE when he asked her if she likes kids that he was probably thinking ‘oh shit what if she doesn’t like kids what am we gonna do well i guess we’ll just have to do without :’)’ can you BELIEVE that smile he had on his lips at the end of the best of islam clip when she went home was him thinking ‘i love her’ CAN YPOU BELIEVE FNBUIYRBIUFR

Harry Styles - “How to Love” - Chapter Six


Lana wasn’t sure how she wanted this conversation to go but she could tell it probably wasn’t going to go well as her and Harry sat across from each other on opposite couches. Niall sat beside Lana, biting at his lip as no one spoke. They hadn’t spoken a single word since Lana came back into the room after sliding on the one pair of jeans she had here.

The tense silence was almost worse than the arguing, Niall thought to himself as he looked back and forth between the two of them. He almost missed when the two would bicker, shooting snide comments and glares back and forth. The silence now was almost unbarriable. It was thick and full of so many unsaid words waiting to come out.

“Am I going to have to be like a marriage councelor here, then?” He eventually speaks up, looking over at Lana who was staring at the wall across the way, seeming to have found a particularly interesting spot on it. “Or should I jus’ leave the two of ya alone instead?” Niall goes to stand but as Harry calls out a no, Lana grabs his arm, pulling him back down into his spot as he sighs. “You two need to stop this.” He scolds them both, looking from one to the other and back. “You’re adults, so act like it. The two of you clearly used to be able to talk, you were in a relationship for fucks sake!” Niall was now clearly fed up with the both of them.

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Found this on a torn-out page of notebook paper at the bottom of the dumpster

no idea who wrote it or why or what it’s about but it’s sweet isn’t it


And now, with her house quiet and empty but for the children (who’ve been asleep for the last hour), her business calls and correspondence completed, she has that rarest of luxuries: a little time completely to herself before bed. It should feel blissful, but it’s kind of stressing her out; everything agitates her these days, and being alone with her own thoughts has never been her absolute favorite activity, even in the easiest times, which these are decidedly not. Maybe she should meditate or something.

Then her phone buzzes: It’s him. Fuck.

She’s been ducking him these last couple of weeks, ever since the Unfortunate Incident(s), for no real reason. She’s let his two previous calls go to voicemail (which she hasn’t listened to), left his three emails unopened and his two texts unread.

But she can’t go forever without talking to him, can she? They’re gonna see each other in a few weeks, no matter what. She decides to put on her big-girl undies and take the call.

“Hello,” she says, bracing for … she doesn’t know what. It’s just so awkward. Although why she should feel awkward, she can’t really say.

“Hi there!” he says, with obnoxious good cheer. “How are you? How’re the kids?”

She answers as if he’s someone she’s just run into in Tesco, and he appears to be accepting that. No mention yet of the —

“So hey, how was your vacation in Italy? Get any good pics?”

“Fuck you.”

In the time it takes her to find and angrily stab the “end call” button, she hears him absolutely guffawing, the shithead. Ten seconds later, a barrage of all-emoji texts starts: the bikini, the camera, the side-eyes, the camera, the one that looks like “The Scream,” the camera, two peaches, the camera, the tears-of-laughter one, the clapping hands, a boat, the camera, an ice cream, the camera like seventeen times in a row. At first it pisses her off, but as she watches the little dots that indicate him crafting his next text — then follows the narrative as he laboriously finds and sends each emoji — it starts to be amusing, and by the tenth or twelfth camera in a row, she’s laughing out loud.

She texts him back, finally — the heart, then the letter U.

His next one is simple: the two hearts.

She calls him, ignoring the slight lump in her throat.

The first thing he says is “Are you okay, really?” and she’s able to say, truthfully, “Yeah, I am now,” and she swears she can actually hear him smile.

@justholdinghandsok @becksndot5 @altaircolin @mangokiwitropicalswirl @inkcollectorus @abbycorasmom @emceecapitalc   @knowleitall-super-soldier  LOL

anonymous asked:

From each team, who do you think holds their liquor the best? and who the worst?

Hehehehehh I love this! I’m just gonna do Karasuno, Seijou, Nekoma and Fukurodani because I’m lazy


BEST - Tsukki! I feel like he’d be one of those dudes who drinks like 5 beers and is like “when am I supposed to start feeling something?”

WORST - Hinata for sure. Takes one sip “GUYS I’M DRUNK” STARTS TO GET REALLY BAD IDEAS AFTER 3 DRINKS. STARTS JUMPING OFF OF SHIT AT 4 DRINKS. It’s bad. The night ends with him getting the spins and puking his guts out usually.

Aoba Johsai: 

BEST - Definitely Matsukawa. He’s just chill and calm. He’s definitely feelin’ it but he’s not off the rails white girl wasted.

WORST - Probably Oikawa tbh. He’s probably a crying drunk. Someone looks at him the wrong way “WHY DO YOU HATE ME???” “IWACHAN IM A FAILURE” it’s messy.


BEST - Probably Kai. During a night of drinking he’s definitely drunk but he’s the one who’s taking care of all the messy drunks tbh

WORST - Lev takes a shot and HIS INDOOR VOICE IS GONE EVERYTHING IS JUST HIM SCREAMING he’s a mess he’s more blunt/dumb than usual everyone wants to hit him ALMOST GETS IN A BAR FIGHT has to be taken home early


BEST - Akaashi for sure. He can drink like 7 beers and he’s still as cool as a cucumber

WORST - gUYS IT’S BOKUTO FOR SURE. bab just can’t hold his liquor. IS A HUGE FLIRT. Puts his arm around everyone even if he doesn’t know them, slurs into their ears, tries to kiss people, someone take him home he’s going to get arrested

This is honestly the lamest meme I’ve ever made but I made it to say this -

Hey look, it’s a me, the lamest motherfucker on this goddamn website. And I keep seeing people wanting to drop out of school and whatnot. But seriously, what are you going to do then. High school is literally only 4-5 years of your life. That’s it. I am going to tell you how important it is to get through it as well as the importance of not giving a fuck.

Ok, if you drop out, yet again, so many jobs require diplomas or GEDs (which a lot of people who drop out for some reason don’t pursue). Even GameStop requires it.

Now I’ve never been to district high school. Why? Well haha I’ll tell you right now. February of 9th grade I was moved out of district. I was hospitalized. Highly suicidal, ya know that shit. I was homeschooled for some time and for the remainder of my high school years I kept bouncing from alternative high school to the next, ended up graduating a year late because my dumbass was in the hospital so many fucking times and I missed too much school.

Seriously I can not stress enough when I say just do what you need to do. Wing it. Wing the everloving shit out of it. I was pretty low functioning in high school because of all the prescription meds I was on but oh boy I learned to not give a fuck.

Late? Whatever

Need to pee? Fuck asking I’m just getting up and going

Lots of homework? Pfft what else am I gonna do, not like I have a life.


I can’t address every single case of people wanting to drop out and all that, but I can say that they probably would have a higher success rate than high school me. High school me was fucking retarded. I was in the self contained class ffs.

But honestly, I love hearing these unique cases. I know most of you are thinking “hey this insensitive tumblr-fag troll is in no way a good person with a beating heart” and you may be right, but this tumblr-fag troll actually has a soft spot for fellow human-beings. Honestly every time I’m able to help someone out with getting through school or just getting through life and getting a job and all that just makes my heart glow.

My Plance shipper heart won’t shut up so…

Okay what if one day Pidge is fixing something on the outside of the green lion and she is like really high and she could fall at any moment but she doesn’t care

And then Lance walks in looking for her and he is confused because he can’t see her anywhere but then he hears someone swearing in italian so he looks up to find Pidge dangerously hanging onto the green lion so he shouts something like “PIDGE WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING THERE??? DO YOU WANNA DIE?” but she just shrugs him off “Lance i am fine, i am just fixing some damage from our last battle”

“What do you mean FINE? Pidge you could get hurt if you fall”

“Could you just trust me? I am not gonna fall, don’t worry about me, just go and have fun with the rest, i will go later”

“Okay Pidge… just be careful please”

“I always am”

She focuses on her task again convinced that Lance is gone and a few minutes later when she is done she tries to climb down the lion but she loses her footing and she falls and she thinks *shit i can’t believe i am dying because i didn’t listen to lance mcclain, this is my end*

But then everything stops and she somehow isn’t dead and she isn’t on the floor. Instead she looks up to find Lance holding her in his arms and he smugly says “So you are always careful eh?”

“But… I thought you had left and joined the others”

“Pidge you really think i would leave you here all alone knowing that you were up there and you could get hurt? I wouldn’t forgive myself if something happened to you and i couldn’t prevent it because i just ignored it”

And Pidge is like so touched that he cares so much about her that she doesn’t react and only stares at him for a while and then realises that she is still in Lance’s arms so she blushes and stands by herself to put some distance between them but looks at the floor so he doesn’t notice her blush

“Thank you Lance, i really appreciate that you stayed even though i told you to go”

“Well i couldn’t let you die, who else would beat my ass at videogames?” and they both laugh at that and Lance says “Well let’s go, the rest must be wondering what is taking us so long”

And is in that moment that Pidge realises she is screwed because she is shaking and it’s not because she almost died, it’s because she has a crush on the cute dork that is Lance McClain