i want to die. i want to end it all. please make this shit stop holy fuck i can’t take it anymore. the only reason i even try to keep myself alive another day is because i don’t want to hurt other people. i don’t want to bring any unnecessary pain onto them. i feel like i’m a burden to everyone and me being around hurts them but i know killing myself will hurt them more. so i just keep trying to hang on as long as i can. i would kill myself in an instant if i knew it wouldn’t effect anyone. seeing how much i’ve hurt my mom throughout the last 6 years with my suicide attempts and overdoses and my depression and being in and out of the hospital constantly breaks my heart. every time i hurt myself, i hurt her too and she doesn’t deserve that shit. i wish i could just disappear and have her and everyone else forget about me.
CALL OUT to everyone here who keeps feeding the fucking void fish shit they want to forget, you're inoculated already, you're not going to forget Merle fucking those plants anytime soon or whatever bullshit you keep sneaking in. Y'all the Void Fish needs to be put on a diet now, Johan is having to figure out how to write /diet/ music. I hope you're all happy, I can't get much sleep now because poor Johan is pretty much ripping out his hair trying to figure this shit out at three AM.