Little things about f!Shenko from ME3 that I love:
The way Kaidan looks with muted longing and respect each time he sees Shepard. It’s like an advanced version of ME1′s puppy eyes: his adoration and admiration is still there, but it’s tangled up in the darkness that lies between them.
The way they chuckle when they banter to each other after they reconcile on the Presidium, and in their lighter conversations thereafter.
The way he holds her hand to his* face each time she cups his cheek as if he’s making sure she’s really there and he wants to hold a part of her to him.
THE WAY HE KISSES HER HAND WHILE HOLDING IT TO HIS FACE ARE OYU KIDDING ME THAT’S MY JAM BIOWARE
The sure and simple way he says how he loves her “‘til the end of time.” It’s not a declaration or grandstanding, it’s a statement of absolute fact. Shepard is It. Always was, always will be.
the LOOK OF HORROR ON HIS FACE AS HE PLEADS WITH HER “DON’T LEAVE ME BEHIND”
HIM HOLDING OUT HIS HAND AS SHE STEPS AWAY FROM HIM BECAUSE HE STILL WANTS TO HOLD ONTO A PART OF HER
Him trying to be all suave and impressive in the kitchen but he gets so flustered just to have her nearby that he creates a very likely kitchen emergency
Basically just everything about f!Shenko that flips the het romance dynamic of “flustered head-over-heels starry eyed woman falls for a capable, charming, tough man“ into a flustered starry eyed MAN falling for the capable, tough woman because that is EVERY SHIP I LOVE IN EVERYTHING EVER
the way he pitches his voice lower into that husky rasp when he’s being sexually suggestive i mean r u kiddin me, u can get it all day every day, alenko
I finally got around to doing Cora’s loyalty quest last night, and the ridiculous scene with the over-exaggerated biotic bubble just reminded me of the biotic bubble from ME2′s suicide mission. … Which indirectly made me think of Kaidan in ME2, and then I started daydreaming a bit…
What if, instead of Kaidan never reconciling with Shepard in ME2, Kaidan actually takes some time to consider what Shepard told him? It certainly takes him a while to understand things from Shepard’s point of view, but he does eventually come around. Despite his misgivings about Cerberus, he sees the kind of rag-tag crew Shepard has brought together and sees what they’re trying to accomplish, how Shepard has no intention of bending to Cerberus’ will and is simply using those resources to do what Shepard does best… save the galaxy.
So tentatively he decides to trust his gut about Shepard, and cautiously re-extends a hand, trying to mend that broken bridge connecting them… and truly, Shepard is just so relieved beyond belief that Kaidan wants to see the good in them, believes in them still. Shepard takes that hand gladly, and although he cuts it close, Kaidan manages to join the team just before their fated mission to the Omega 4 Relay.
When the question comes up of who will put their life on the line protecting Shepard and the main squad from the Collectors, Kaidan doesn’t blink. Miranda challenges the idea, but Kaidan knows his abilities. He knows his control. He knows how potent his L2 implant is, despite its dangers to him. Jack doesn’t question it… they’ve sparred a bit in their down time for her to know he’s the real deal. He may be quieter than her, more thoughtful, but his power is anything but.
… and maybe it’s Kaidan’s way of jabbing back at a Cerberus agent. Just a bit.
When the moment of truth arrives, Kaidan comes through in spades. His biotic barrier bubble flares brilliantly during their long walk through the Collector Base. Years of careful control, of training, of preparation. Though his concentration wavers and his body strains as they near the last doorway, he surges and soldiers on, the fire within him to not fail Shepard again too strong to flicker out. Never again. As they reach the doorway safely, Kaidan, for the first time in a very… very long time, lets himself cut loose, and he releases his biotics at the Collectors. The raw, electric blue wave screams out, obliterating the enemies behind them, and the squad shuts the large doors.
Kaidan, almost completely spent, feels dizzy for a moment and starts to slip… but Shepard shoulders him gently, keeps him upright.